the decline and fall of heavenly

let the soft animal of your body love what it loves

[spirking-and-sparkling]

♡ Hey there! ♡ 🗯

■ I'm Lucie ◇she/her◇ 18 :)

Side accounts:

◇ onthe-edgeof-forever

◇ all-our-yesterdayz

(Please check them out! If you want to!!)

■ Media I like:

STAR TREK (If you can't tell by my url)

Hannibal NBC

Star Wars (original six)

The Rocky Horror Picture Show

MacGyver (original)

M*A*S*H

House MD

The X-Files

Fight Club (movie and book)

Twin Peaks

This is NOT a full list and is not always up to date. :]

■ Hobbies & Facts:

I write and draw

I embroider

I make jewelry

I sew

I really like fashion

I like spending time outside + animals

I'm a Christian

North Carolina born and raised 😙

I'm an enjoyer of music from all different genres and decades!

MUTUALS can dm me for my spotify!! Or music recs.

Favorite band is The Mountain Goats

I joined tumblr fall of 2023

• FREE PALESTINE 🇵🇸

☆☆☆

Hii 👋💫🌟

[spirking-and-sparkling]

#grateful

[spirking-and-sparkling]

My life is goated !!!! Greatest of all time !!!

[spirking-and-sparkling]

Ughhhhhgggg i love that boy. Tells me he needs to go to bed and he's getting off his phone and then he goes and sends me one more message that makes me blush real bad but he tells me not to respond tonight (hes getting off his phone and doesnt want it to ding any longer) ughggggggg

[spirking-and-sparkling]

My boyfriend's mom messaged me a video of her puppy dog playing, and said she thinks the dogs are missing me because they check "my" room every morning (the guest room i always stay in). (I stayed for two weeks straight after having already stayed almost every weekend during the summer. The dogs would come and get on my bed in the mornings). Then she asked me about my day (first day of senior year btw.. she remembered ofc btw) and in quotations quoted something i had told her last week abt how the first day schedule goes!!!!! Eurghgfff!!!!!! Shes so sweet. Dude my actually biological mom didn't even message me...

[murraysiskind-deactivated202511]

It’s so crazy that suicide prevention is just people going awwww don’t!! Awwww come on noooooooooo stopppppp

[allhailklisz]

[yokelfelonking]

One of the best ones I saw was a thing noting that every single one of the few survivors of suicide jumps off of the Golden Gate Bridge realized, on the way down, that the problems they were killing themselves over actually were fixable or could be worked through...except for the now - extremely unfixable - problem of gravity.

[authortobenamedlater]

Went to the Holocaust Museum in DC once. There was a video interview of an Auschwitz survivor who said he and some other prisoners stayed up all night with a man who wanted to kill himself. The man didn’t kill himself and survived to liberation.

In the video the survivor said “Never seek a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And they’re all temporary problems.”

Hearing that from a guy who survived the Holocaust rewired my brain a little bit.

[drgrlfriend]

I think something a lot of people don't understand is that depression is not suicidality, and suicidality is not depression. People can, and are, depressed without being suicidal, and sometimes suicidality peaks as people are emerging from depression. Suicidality is a wave, and the trick is to allow that wave to crest and subside WITHOUT acting on it. Whatever it takes to ride it out. For some people that's distraction, like watching television. For others it's calling a friend -- not to talk about the suicidality, but just to talk. For others it could be as simple as going to sit in a coffee shop or library, because the presence of other people is a huge diminisher of suicide risk. That's what suicide safety planning is about. It's like having any other type of emergency plan, like a plan for fire or evacuation. It's making a plan when you are in the frame of mind to do so, so that you can just DO the plan without having to think about it when the occasion arises. When you're in the midst of suicidal ideation, or even intent, you're not in a problem-solving mood. So knowing past!you, with the help of a therapist hopefully, came up with the plan and all you have to do is follow up until the wave crests and subsides, is what allows you to see another day.

ETA: Here's a link to a safety plan. https://www.samhsa.gov/sites/default/files/988-safety-plan.pdf

[goldkirk]

There’s a really compassionate and well-written paper/book/thing called Suicide: The Forever Decision that’s written specifically for people who are currently suicidal. The letter to the reader at the beginning is wonderful and deeply understands how to talk to someone who’s suicidal without preaching or talking down to them.

It’s very honest. It’s very clear. It’s very kind. It presents you with a lot of information and a lot of understanding and lets you take it all in like the autonomous human you are, and make decisions from an informed place. It goes over the reality of suicide attempts, pain involved, likelihoods of survival, after effects of attempts, and how to get help if you want it after reading all of that and learning about the reality of suicide attempts.

You can read it for free here: https://qprinstitute.com/pdfs/Forever_Decision.pdf

No one can ever stop you if you’re really determined. Only you can stop yourself. If you’re suicidal and there’s ANY tiny part of you that wants a chance to not go down that route, but can’t convince the rest of you yet, give this short book a try. Or share it with anyone you know who might need it.

[madisen]

madisen kuhn

[ikogal]

[spirking-and-sparkling]

Deleting vent posts as if they never happened 🫶🫶🫶🫶 never trust your brain after 9pm

[spirking-and-sparkling]

I put together and planned a halloween costume (hot witch) today when i got home from school and was messing around in my closet!! I'm actually gonna be princess leia but it's always nice to have a back up second costume idea that is a little more casual or can be worn if i have more than one thing to go to! :)

[spirking-and-sparkling]

So afraid all the time like i genuinely shake like this puppy sometimes

[spirking-and-sparkling]

I wanna go to dollar tree to look for tights so i can buy cheap tights that idc if they get ripped. Might even make myself another pair of black ripped tights.

[spirking-and-sparkling]

I also want some lace tights and floral pattern tights and some coloful tights and those shiny ones too. But i have trouble finding them in stores..

[spirking-and-sparkling]

I wanna go to dollar tree to look for tights so i can buy cheap tights that idc if they get ripped. Might even make myself another pair of black ripped tights.

[partywithponies]

My woke take, as someone who has worked in both a public library and a school library, is that we desperately need both more books that are at a higher reading level but a less mature subject matter, and more books that are at a lower reading level but a more mature subject matter, because 8 year olds who are advanced readers are still 8 year olds and don't want to read about graphic violence and torture, and teens and adults who have learning difficulties or who are just later readers for whatever reason are still teens and adults and don't want to read about Billy the Bunny going to school or whatever the hell.

[spirking-and-sparkling]

My love <3

[uncertainlys]

i hope everything works out in the end because i am so so scared

[vrtualdreamgirl]

we can’t talk here contact me in my dream tonight