Springtime Abyss

mentally 12 years old on average (age regression and DID littles) dealing with lots of very severe mental illnesses (DID, Borderline, maybe Bipolar, Autism, probably a lot more too); DNI if anti endo, transphobes, minors; I have arcane thoughts and brain rot after understanding The Horrors.

[springtimeabyss]

The intimacy of sharing a world with someone

I was told I was dramatic for saying stuff like this today by my behavioral specialist who checks in with me weekly, but I really feel like roleplay is as important to me as romance, sex, and kink and yet separate from all of those things. I could roleplay with someone who I'm not in a romantic relationship with, never have sex with them, and never listen to a single kink command they tell me.

The world I'm trying to create is heavily influenced by fantastical versions of the parts of myself that I don't tell a lot of people. If you can see those parts of myself and not run away. And still love me and care about me as a friend, then I will love you forever.

Because of how seriously I take this stuff, I won't be saying any of the stuff that's that intimate, but I will give you the stuff I will tell people who aren't my partner.

I want to tell very anti colonialist high magic stories about characters who feel like people, and might become real people in my brain due to their believability and my hyper empathy.

I often get obsessed with the idea of class roles and groups of 3-5 due to my miserable experiences with D&D and Pathfinder. However, I've moved past that enough that I think I'm ready for roleplay without mechanics and still think calling a character a 'Rogue' is kinda cute and fun! The fantasy of a Rogue is so iconic still tbh. My favorite classes to think about are Rogue, then Barbarian, then Wizard, then Cleric, then Bard. However, I consider myself a highly dissociated mind Wizard multiclassing support Bard inspiring my friends, cheering them on!

I don't see the point in large paragraphs and in fact prefer vc to text, but will still text rp.

I will empathize with EVERY. SINGLE. LIVING. THING. and thing that used to be living.

I think it'd be cool if dungeons were living ecosystems with a symbiotic relationship with adventurers.

[prokopetz]

Daily affirmations:

What is this place?

What manner of creature are you?

What sorcery is this?

[fuzzytheduck]

who goes there?

who sent you?

who dares disturb my slumber?

[scribe-awoken]

What is that beautiful house?

Where does that highway go to?

Am I right?

Am I wrong?

My God! What have I done?

[springtimeabyss]

I'm aromantic but I do want a Queer Platonic polycule. And the more I think subconsciously and consciously I want that polycule to be just a very committed friend group and gaming group. I really wanna play a divination wizard for a full year at least.

Basically what I've figured out is that I need tabletop games that feel like the qpp get to know you phase so that I can know if you're someone I vibe with enough to roleplay with.

[springtimeabyss]

The problem with playing a different game to get to know someone is that I won't then have a guarentee that they like Pathfinder 1e. Like I legitimately don't see a way out of being emotionally vulnerable enough to like GM a group of people into seeing my cutom bestiary that doesn't exist yet, except I want to be a PC, not a GM. And I'd rather be an autistic pet than a potential customer window shopping. Like I wanna be like Edward from Cowboy Beebop rolling along the road and just exist as someone who someone else can approach rather than having the pressure on me to either reject them or being rejected by them. Like I'm so scared to tell people "Yeah that session sucked I'm not playing with you again".

I guess one of the questions to ask a potential queer platonic partner/gaming group partner for me is "What are your perfect house rules for Pathfinder 1e" and if our perfect house rules aren't mutually exclusive, then we can move forwards.

[springtimeabyss]

I'm aromantic but I do want a Queer Platonic polycule. And the more I think subconsciously and consciously I want that polycule to be just a very committed friend group and gaming group. I really wanna play a divination wizard for a full year at least.

Basically what I've figured out is that I need tabletop games that feel like the qpp get to know you phase so that I can know if you're someone I vibe with enough to roleplay with.

[entelodante]

WORM ANATOMY Overview below the cut!

For some overview, all the worms in the Abattoir wastes are evolved from earthworms. This is going over the BASIC anatomy that all species draw from. They've got an extended mouth that extends in front of their 'head', said head is just a swollen cavity to house the brain. Four sets of limbs each hold an internal lung which pump air independent of each other. They have 5 hearts and sweet, antifreeze rich blood. That's the basics, now for SPECIFICS. We'll be using a basal 'salamander' build for this overview.

LUNGS 1. Deflated- The moving state of a worm lung, where the long air sac that extends down into the trunk of the leg pulls itself shut. The horse shoe shaped top of the lung is rigid and retains air, but as a leg is lifted; relaxing muscles squeeze air out of the limb.

2. Inflated- As a worm settles weight upon a limb, muscles tighten and pull the limb open to suck in air. All worm locomotion is derived from their old ways of respiration, the muscles of a leg must engage for respiration!

NERVES 3. Brain- A relatively recent development! The brains of worms are built to mainly remember where exactly they are out there. Worms tend to keep a sharp mental map of their surroundings, but alas are not too bright. Think of it like they can learn to use a push door to get food, but if you suddenly swap to a pull they just might starve to death. Very set in their ways. 4. Spinal Cord- A basic main nerve network that runs along their under belly, surrounded by thickened tissue that can limit a fair bit of mobility in some species.

GUT 5. Esophagus- Kind of a 2 for one deal, the mouth in a lot of species will be one in the same with this. Most worm species have evolved teeth within their mouth and throat. Either for straining or biting, it is a very common feature.

6. Crop- The storage of the worm. This is mainly used for excess food, but several species will brood their young or pack themselves full with ice and snow to regulate their temperature. It's MULTIPURPOSE.

7. Gizzard- A grinding hell of stone and mucus. 8. Fore Gut- Where the majority of nutrients are absorbed. Analogous to the small intestine. 9. Hind Gut- Where the poop is made. Though some species have adapted to ferment within this section of gut before internally puking it back up into their fore gut. How pleasant!

BLOOD 10. Head Heart- The first heart of the chain and the smallest, this heart is dedicated solely to pumping blood to the brain as well as flushing the aorta connecting all other hearts. 11. Body Hearts- These two lobed hearts evolved mainly to service the legs, but also feed the majority of the body! They can pump in unison or separate to better service each leg. This leaves worms with the odd condition of being able to have multiple heart tempos at any given time.

That's the gist of it! I wanted a more base rule set to go off of before I get into different varieties. For reaching the end, have a lil sneak peak of two different worm lineages. A fun basal salamander and then a whisker-y fellow!

[prokopetz]

As far as challenges for the widespread deployment of delivery robots go, I admit I wouldn't have predicted "drivers refusing to yield pedestrian right-of-way to uncrewed robots and running the stupid things over on purpose", but in retrospect it's both completely predictable and extremely funny.

[springtimeabyss]

Jax from tadc and siffrin from isat would not cope well with each other's worlds

[springtimeabyss]

What craft type would Jax have? What bodies would each of them have? Would Siffrin catch on to the whole Belief based magic system?

[springtimeabyss]

Jax from tadc and siffrin from isat would not cope well with each other's worlds

[gravehagmilk]

Oh, it’s raining 🌧️

[springtimeabyss]

He looks like he's getting hit with butter and syrup

[gbsketch]

The grass had discovered a way to speak.

[springtimeabyss]

Grass can already talk we just can't hear it

[petra-dot-png]

I love u river / charlie / isabelle

[qwinkle]

Omori-inspired Siffrin gifs

[gracekraft]

Chilly night...

[expressions-of-nature]

by Lena Polishko

[tibli]

I think of Mob Psycho's "some people only learn through pain" all the time. It's not a sweeping statement. It's not saying to solve every problem with violence, and in fact to say that would be the antithesis of the show's greater themes. But sometimes? When a person is so far gone in their own hatred and bigotry that no logic or reason will make them change? When they're actively dangerous to everyone around them?

Then they need to get their ass beat.

[patronsaintofmistakenidentity]

"cigarette" implies the existence of a much larger "cigar"

[patronsaintofmistakenidentity]

i recovered by the time i hit post but when i first had this thought i had genuinely forgotten cigars exist

[memories-of-ancients]

Drinking horn with gilded copper mounts, Europe, 15th century

from The Hunt Museum, Limerick

[tarvek-sturmvoraus]

[localxenospores]

i was compelled

[beastoftheblackhole]

I was also compelled