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@spritepopssilly
HI my name is sprite and this is my blog for stupid fandom and series related rambles. cringe but free and unlearning shame.
he/him trans queer dyke 18 taken etc etc
currently SUPER invested into spies are forever as well as forsaken phighting and various other fandoms i might post about. might tag some might not
feel free to follow my mains @spritesodapop @spritepopkandi and I need to make an art main LOL
Curtwen bakery AU call that Pies Are Forever
curtwen bug au call that flies are forever
curtwen but they're sick of this shit call that sighs are forever
curtwen but they cant avoid their fate call that goodbye forever
a little fistfight never hurt a homoerotic friendship. it encourages freak behavior even
Sketchbook thing I did for the @spiesbingo like months ago but never posted. Oh well. By the time the event officially ends is when I will actually have more time for stuff like this, but yknow. One prompt fill is better than none ig. Though i may still use the prompts as inspiration after
Found this gif of him while searching through the tags for one and i don't understand how we talk about curt being clockable bc he said yaas and he looks like he's about to cry when he stands too close to a woman, while this guy made it through 50s hypermasculine mccarthyism cambridge five red scare era spying with the limpest wrist, constant theatre references and clearly pulling faces while drinking whiskey like it was nothing??? I guess he really was the greatest spy to ever live
guess who watched spies are forever again
various lesbian configurations feat. caitwen
TODAY MANY YEARS AGO!!!!!! agent curt mega passes out after a night of drinking.
Returning to my starkid phase!!!
pre incident owen tended to curt a lot. metaphorically and physically. bandaging his wounds and sewing him up, Curt hates the sight of his own blood after all. offering soft words of comfort after a particularly nasty reprimand from Cynthia, pressing kisses to his knuckles when they barely make it out. of course, Curt reciprocates where he can. he has his faults, not so best at the comforting words, pushing plans past the breaking point, getting caught up in what he thinks is right.
can you blame him? Curt is dedicated to his cause. Owen is dedicated to him
Owen tries to dedicate himself to chimera, trying to adapt himself to the new environment. he has nobody left to dedicate himself too, and as time goes on, he despises how he used to care so gently for a man who abandoned him. he flips between hating him, and hating himself for it. if his death was avoided, his would have reigned true.
ill write another post on reconciliation and how i think it would go some other time. the point is, Curt would be at a loss. this isn't the same man who he knew, who he loved. he wants to love him despite it, but it requires serious changes to himself. while Owen would be guarded at first, over time he would lash out more, expressing his feelings in a harsh way. Curt will have to get his act together to care for the man he no longer knows, and it's an uphill battle. nothing they're not used to, though. the gradual changes as Curt is no longer distracted by his work, and instead can focus on Owen. all of him. learning the way he works, his signs, his tells. how to hold him without holding him, and how to love him the way he is now. Owen has to open back up, but it may take years, if ever. he still loves Curt, but he has to learn how to love him in his own way now.
I love thinking about reconciliation scenarios, honestly. In part because I think some of the most interesting conflicts they could have would be post-staircase scene, and in part because the worst case scenario already happened in canon, so I love imagining if they made different choices.
In particular, if Curt makes a decision to stop running. Has some sort of resolve that he let Owen down once and it led to complete misery for the both of them, and he is determined not to let it happen again. And maybe it starts as a sense of guilt or obligation, maybe it's just a desperation to be with the man he thought he had lost forever, but the longer Owen is away from that protective shell he built up as the DMA, away from the character he performs to escape from his own pain, the more Curt starts to see just how much Owen suffered from the fall, and maybe starts to understand how Owen ended up the way he did.
I've written two post-canon Owen Lives fics, one that takes place right after the fall and one that takes place 17 years later, and they both center pretty heavily around Owen's disabilities. Both physical and mental/emotional. So there's chronic pain issues, joint replacements, burns covering his body, his own shame and internalized ableism over going from one of the world's greatest spies, at his physical and mental peak, to being severely injured and disfigured and attempting to recover while in Russian custody (before eventually being rescued from that situation by Chimera)
But I think with a fall like that, and the explosion, and the trauma of the man he loves leaving him for dead, he would also have a lot of mental health issues stemming from it. Periods of explosive anger triggered by seemingly small things. Severe PTSD. Paranoia. Cycling between keeping Curt at arms length, being vicious and cruel and lashing out, and intense fear that Curt is going to abandon him again. Flashbacks-- both to his time in a KGB prison and to what he did as the DMA. Times where he tries his hardest to hurt Curt enough to get him to leave, and times where he sobs and clings to Curt and begs him to stay.
I think pre-fall Owen was pretty buttoned up, that he loved Curt but was more reserved about it, didn't show his emotions very openly a lot of the time. But post fall, without his mask and the ability to live as a man without a name or history, he has emotional outbursts that scare him. Curt doesn't know who Owen is anymore, but his sense of self, his identity, was so damaged by the fall that Owen doesn't know who he is anymore either.
There's the question of whether or not Curt has the patience to actually be a caregiver for someone in such a bad physical and mental state, which is valid. But for me, I dunno, I could see Curt's stubbornness and his love for the man he knew winning out over his impulsivity and restlessness. I could see him being so desperate to make amends for the worst mistake in his life that he commits himself to caring for the man he loves, even if it's a miserable nightmare sometimes.
And maybe it's foolish and romantic and naive, but I like to believe that if they could manage to stay together, to keep going through the worst of it, they could someday (after a long, exhausting, intense journey) find some kind of healing together, some kind of peace
pre incident owen tended to curt a lot. metaphorically and physically. bandaging his wounds and sewing him up, Curt hates the sight of his own blood after all. offering soft words of comfort after a particularly nasty reprimand from Cynthia, pressing kisses to his knuckles when they barely make it out. of course, Curt reciprocates where he can. he has his faults, not so best at the comforting words, pushing plans past the breaking point, getting caught up in what he thinks is right.
can you blame him? Curt is dedicated to his cause. Owen is dedicated to him
Owen tries to dedicate himself to chimera, trying to adapt himself to the new environment. he has nobody left to dedicate himself too, and as time goes on, he despises how he used to care so gently for a man who abandoned him. he flips between hating him, and hating himself for it. if his death was avoided, his would have reigned true.
ill write another post on reconciliation and how i think it would go some other time. the point is, Curt would be at a loss. this isn't the same man who he knew, who he loved. he wants to love him despite it, but it requires serious changes to himself. while Owen would be guarded at first, over time he would lash out more, expressing his feelings in a harsh way. Curt will have to get his act together to care for the man he no longer knows, and it's an uphill battle. nothing they're not used to, though. the gradual changes as Curt is no longer distracted by his work, and instead can focus on Owen. all of him. learning the way he works, his signs, his tells. how to hold him without holding him, and how to love him the way he is now. Owen has to open back up, but it may take years, if ever. he still loves Curt, but he has to learn how to love him in his own way now.
not to be those people that repost screenshots but. curtwen. if anyone cares
I have some thoughts about pre/post Owen and curts relationship regarding caring for eachother but I don't have time to type it rn so im posting a reminder for myself <3
The way Owen sounds like he’s about to cry at “that secret died the night you left me for dead”
Curt’s talking about their relationship as if it was something that was real, but when Curt Owen saw it as it not being. Because if Curt loved him he would’ve come back. He raises the gun to Curt’s head to tell him that it’s over. That he’s moving on. And even then he’s barely making his way through it, holding himself together by thread. This was easier when he had the mask on, when he wasn’t facing Curt head on. Now Curt’s heart is right where his gun is, even then he can’t bring himself to break it. He goes for the head, where he was always able to get into Curt’s psyche, pushing him in a way that felt so personal, now ready to break it open. Even then, he can’t shoot him. He can’t move on, how could he?
Curt’s voice is more gentle, he’s holding himself together a little better. He makes a tight fist and holds himself back. He hates himself, that he let this happen, but this isn’t the Owen he let fall anymore.
Owen through tear stained eyes and a heavy heart tells Curt to move on, knowing he should’ve taken his own advice long ago before letting Curt take it. Owen’s head is broken, his heart is too. He thought Curt couldn’t do it, he must’ve been wrong. It hurts more than any wound he’d ever gotten and not because it was in the head but because even though the bullet didn’t pierce his heart that’s been turned to dust
He didn’t think Curt could do it, he just couldn’t
This picture is gorgeous can we talk about that???
the lighting is everything, James's face??? I adore it
Why is Curt Mega so good at playing men who are so in love with another character
Like I want someone to look at me the way Curt Mega looks at his romantic scene partners
