embarrassed to do anything , let alone make a noise .
Do whatever you want with this idea !!
a/n: ofc!
cw: mentions of humiliation
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jax x ambivert reader headcannons
jax isn’t the type to easily fall in love. he thinks love and relationships is just a stupid thing
however the moment he met you a part of him “falls in love” with your personality, mainly because it matches his
he likes the idea that you say your thoughts out loud and doesn’t really have an “inside” voice
your lack of reading the room skills is what got you two together. all he did was look at you in a certain way and you blurted out that his face looks rideable
obviously, you two immediately got together and you were alllll bark and no bite
jax teases you ruthlessly while fucking about how shy you are. he’ll make marks about how hot your body looks, how slutty you look while sucking his dick, says things about how pretty your cunt looks while it’s being fucked by his cock, and your only replies were whimpers and moans
whenever he’s eating you out or “makes” you ride his face you get so embarrassed and bury your face with your hands. it got to the point where he pins your hands
he for sure thought that you were going to be on the more control side but no that was not the case
it actually turns him on a bit knowing that he’s making you feel so shy and humiliated during sex. after? you act like you’re not shy anymore
no matter if you’re a huge extrovert and then introvert when it comes to sex, he still loves you, even though he’ll probably won’t say it
It mayyyyy be a little late but how about Jax and reader fck for Valentine’s Day, like super passionate and real. oh and also the room is lit by candles
a/n: ofc! i was about to do a smut about that but i had to work 7 hours on valentine’s day and didn’t have enough time 🥀
cw: very slight angst, making out, fingering, p in v, cream pie, established relationship,
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caine decided to let everyone have a free day since it’s his favorite holiday, valentine’s day. which made everyone confused because why would that holiday be his favorite? you didn’t think too much on that thought.
“what are we doing for valentine’s day?” you collapsed onto jax, making your bed slightly bounce.
“pft, that made up holiday for corporations to scam everyone?”
“oh shut up. what corporations? we’re stuck in a fake world so might as well do the holidays…and also,” you nuzzled your head in the crook of his neck, lazily throwing your leg over his, “i want to spend this holiday with you.”
“fine. what you got in mind?”
you shrugged, “i don’t know, do something romantic like dinner and candles?”
“sounds boring.”
“jaaax,” you whined, “we’ve been dating for a while now and we haven’t done anything romantic.”
“what makes this day any different?”
you leaned up, holding your head with your hand and elbow to look at his nonchalant expression, “please? does it really kill you to be a bit more romantic?”
he let out a long sigh, “fine. i’ll gather something up.”
the rest of the day you haven’t seen jax. it was well over past 6pm and not once has he barged into your room to have this date. you groaned out of annoyance with slight anger. you knew you shouldn’t put your trust into him. jax doesn’t do romantic boyfriend stuff ever and you should’t have thought he’ll change.
you stomped your way to jax’s door and banged on it, “did you forget our date?”
“relax! just give me a sec!” he shouted, silently cussing to himself because the fire wasn’t lighting.
with your arms crossed and foot impatiently tapping you waited…and waited until finally his door opened.
your mouth agape, eyes trailing from his face down to his suit and tie. “wow,” you mumbled.
“where did you get that tight skimpy dress?” he placed his hands just above your hip and pulled you closer to him.
“i stole it from ragatha.”
jax pulled you in his room and shut the door with his foot. he leaned against it and turned you around to where you’re facing his decorated room. he kisses the sides of your neck, nibbling at the skin as his fingers dug deeper into your hips.
his room was dimly lit by candles laying around every surface. rose petals making a shape of a heart on the floor and bed.
“you did all of this?” you hummed at the soft bites on your neck.
“mhm. got me running all over this d#%^ place trying to find them.” jax gently nudged you toward the bed, lightly pushing you down with him hovering above. he seductively stared into your eyes.
he kisses you firmly, lips pressing against yours with hunger. his hands come up to cup your face, holding you in place as he deepens the kiss. the plastic roses crunch beneath you as he shifts his weight. jax’s breathing grows heavier as the kiss intensifies. his hands slides your skimpy dress up just above your tits.
he rolled to his side, not yet leaving your plump lips. his fingers hooked around the fabric that was covering your soaked pussy and slowly pulled it aside.
jax slid his fingers inside slowly, testing and teasing your pussy. he grins at your hums of pleasure as he pumps them in and out. he curls his fingers slightly, finding that angle that makes your breath hitch.
"you're soaked," he murmurs between your moans and kisses.
“f#%^,” you let out a breathy moan, shuddering because his fingers was pressing against that gummy spot that makes you weak.
“mhm, i could do this all night..making you feel good. you want that don’t you?”
all you could do was whimper in response.
“use your words, baby.”
“f-f#^*, yes i d-do.”
"tell me when you're close," he says, pulling back just enough to look down at you with those seductive, half lidded eyes.
his fingers curled and pumped with increasing speed. the squelch from your natural lubricant could be heard, making you feel slight embarrassment but jax was progressively getting hornier.
your moans increased in volume, back arching as you shuddered, “i’m—s#%^,—s’close!”
he leans in to kiss you harder, his tongue sliding in your warm mouth as his hand works faster, “let it all out," he murmurs against your lips, his thumb brushing over your swollen clit. “come on, baby.”
with a cry you reached your orgasm, pussy convulsing around his fingers as your hand gripped tightly on his black tie.
"f#%*, baby, " he says, keeping his fingers moving through the aftershocks, drawing out every last wave.
jax’s eyes are locked on your face, watching intently as your orgasm plays out. “you look so beautiful right now i could worship you.” he doesn't pull his hand away immediately, just wanting to let his fingers rest there. he leans down to place soft kisses along your jawline.
jax stood up and unbuttoned his shirt and pants, throwing them off to the sides before hooking his fingers around your panties waistband and pull it off in one smooth motion. he did the same with his own, leaving his cock springing free.
he hovers over you again to kiss you harder, more demanding with hunger. his tongue slides in as his hands roam over your body.
he leans up positions himself at your entrance, one hand gripping your hips while the other guides himself. he he pushes in firmly, both of you gasping.
"f#%^," he groans, his eyes rolling back slightly “so f#%^ing tight."
he settles into a slow rhythm, his hips rolling, making you hum at the feeling of every vein and every inch.
"you like me filling you up like this?" he asks, his voice strained with pleasure.
“mhm,” you nodded, rolling your bud and squeezing your own tit.
his fingers slid down to your swollen clit and lightly rubbed it in circles as your back arched.
“atta girl,” he threw one leg over his shoulder, fingers lightly digging into your skin, “taking me so well.”
you were a moaning mess, trying to get words out but it felt impossible.
"tell me what you feel," he encourages, his voice a low purr.
“i—mfm—my p#%%^ thr-obbing and your d#%* filling me up,” you managed to say inbetween gasps, hums, and whimpers.
he threw your other leg up on his shoulders, gripping both your thighs and angled you to where he can repeatedly hit that gummy sweet spot with a more increasing pace. you let out a cry, gripping the covers full of plastic rose petals.
“f#%^!” you whined.
“shh, you’re taking me so well.” he voice was low, speaking through his soft, quick grunts.
he rolled your legs off of his shoulders, pressing your thighs against the bed before reaching to grab at your waist.
jax’s breathing is getting heavier, his body tense as your pussy throbbed around his dick. his hips snapped against yours with each thrust. he bit his bottom lip, staring at your flushed face, messy hair, mouth open in a perfect “o.”
“f#%*, you’re so beautiful.” he muttered.
you covered your moaning mouth with your hands as the knot in your tummy tightened.
“come on, baby. let me hear you," he purred, leaning down to move your hands and cup your cheek.
“i’m s’close!”
he burried his head into you neck, one hand under your head while the other is resting on your lower back. his lips trail up your neck, leaving gentle kisses as he still kept that fast and deeper pace.
your orgasm completely washed over you, body trembling against him as your pussy spasms all over his cock.
“f#%^,” he grunted, letting you ride out the aftershocks while he continues to thrust deep inside.
jax groans in your ear, his eyes rolling back slightly as his snapped against yours one final time. his cock pulsed and twitched inside as he spurts thick white ropes of cum in your pussy.
he laid there inside you for some more seconds before leaning back up and pulling out. he picked up your panties and slid them back up on you before pulling down that dress. you panted a bit more, watching him put on his clothes and button up his shirt, fixing his tie before reaching his hand out to you.
you smiled as he pulled you up, holding you close against his heaving chest.
“ready for dinner?”
you giggled, “yeah but how did you even get dinner?”
“i bribed bubble.”
you slightly pulled back to look at his face, “with what?”
“if i tell you, you might be mad.”
“fair enough.” you got on your tippy toes to kiss his lips, “i love you…you don’t have to say it back because i know you but…i wanted to let you know.”
he stiffened a bit, gathering some seconds of silence before relaxing with a genuine, heart felt smile on his face, “i…love you too.”
a/n: ofc! let me know if you want me to do a full oneshot! i’m trying to write small stuff bc of a health issue!
gender neutral reader
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date with jax h/c’s
💜 jax is definitely the type of person to deny the fact that he likes you. ribbit was the first one to speak up, sayinf stuff like “you’re nicer to them than me and kaufmo! you definitely like them!” and jax would always deny.
💜 kaufmo was finally able to convince him to ask you out on a date (blackmail. it was blackmail).
💜 finally he got the courage and asked you out on a date to the beach. at first you didn’t believe him and thought it was a prank, but he was very adamant and even said “knew this was a bad idea.”
💜 you did find it sweet though. he was so nervous and his feet was bouncing like an anxious rabbit. unfortunately for him you had to make the moves because this date wasn’t going anywhere
💜 you rested your head on his thigh and continued to look at the water that almost resembled real life water. jax was tensed, but soon enough his hands reached for your hair/hat/head.
💜 it was a def quiet date, almost no words had been spoken. jax isn’t a lovey dovey guy and has no clue on how to even do this.
💜 but to you, it was perfect. laying on his lap while his hands was resting on you, the nice sounds of the waves crashing and the digital seagulls chirping, you could almost fall asleep.
💜 neither you or jax knew this, but kaufmo and ribbit was definitely watching from the distance and quietly making fun of him for being such a bad host.
💜 eventually jax warmed up and felt comfortable enough to ask you out as his partner (and again, you thought this was a prank), but with true joy you said yes.
💜 now he doesn’t ask to take you on dates, he just says “follow me” and boom there’s a candlelight dinner in this random room he found. what a gentleman
pomni or jax x really flirtatious reader? pretty please!
an: ofc!
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jax and pomni x flirt! reader headcannons
pomni
💜 pomni gets flustered SO easily
💜 whenever she had to be the president you kept telling her how hot she looked in that suit.
💜 everytime you flirt she just rolls her eyes, but you knew she enjoyed it because of how red her face gets.
💜 at the bar adventure you briefly mentioned that you want to tie her hands up with her tie. she was like…what?
💜 but she wasn’t opposed to that
💜 the flirts only got worse after you two started a relationship
jax
💜 he doesn’t get as flustered as pomni, just kinda annoyed at the constant flirting you did
💜 he’ll do the most basic things ever (like walking) and you’ll mention how good he looks. “i’m just walking,” “you need to start walking to my room,” “that doesn’t make any sense!”
💜 he’ll make a sly remark towards you and you’ll just double down by saying how much you enjoy being degraded
💜 he secretly enjoys you flirting but he doesn’t want to admit it
💜 when you guys started to date you actually toned down the flirting…jax however would NOT stop
💜 he’s constantly getting you flustered, what he calls “payback”
can we please get a part 2 of the diary jax fic… 🫢
a/n: ofc! here’s part 1
cw: f receiving oral sex, p in v, light choking, fingering, use of good girl, slight degrading, ties, cream pie, little plot mainily smut
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Diary p2 (smut)
throughout the adventure you’ve been anxious. it was another spudsy’s but instead of gangle being the manager, it was unfortunately jax.
and he made it known that he was about to prove you right.
when you’re on register duty he’ll place his hands right on your hips when he’s walking by, he’ll make you scrub the floor on your hands and knees, and when you’re on drive through duty he’ll pretend to drop something and hang out right by the register and slowly trail is hands up and down your calf.
he can sense you waiting for him after the adventure. the way you blush when he’s giving you order or when you start to talk in a nervous, high pitch voice.
finally you were able to get away from him after caine teleported everyone back to the circus. you waited impatiently in your room, pacing around the circle carpet. jax has a key—obviously—so at any moment he can unlock your door.
hours went by and he still didn’t show up. did he forget? obviously not, he did this on purpose to get a rise out of you.
once jax finally arrived in your room he leaned against the closed door with his arms crossed, “so?”
you took some steps back, “so…what?”
“come on,” he snickered, “i thought you were gonna pounce on me since you wrote that in your diary on page 2.”
your jaw dropped and eyebrows furrowed, “you memorized the numbers?”
“i got bored. so you gonna pounce on me or what?” he smiled.
your nerves were building up, but your pussy ached for him.
he lit up, “or i can pounce on you according to..let me think…page 6.”
you groaned, “let’s just get this over with, okay? you’re clearly not gonna leave until you get what you want.”
“ha!” he walked closer as you step back against the wall, “i’m doing this for you,” he said in a low toned voice.
you bit the bullet connected your lips with his. he smirked to the kiss as one hand traveled to the back of your neck and the other trailing down to your hip.
he slipped his tongue in as he moved his hand from your hip to your ass, lightly cupping it. you let out a short gasp, which only made him hungrier for you.
he pushed you onto your bed and broke away from assaulting your mouth. he got on his knees, lifted up your skirt and pulled off your soaked panties. he looked up at you with disbelief, “seriously? soaked already? i haven’t even started,” he snickered.
“s-stop.”
jax spread your thighs apart and stared at your pulsating pussy that was already leaking out lubricant. he licked his lips and brought his face closer to your pussy. his hot breath sent shivers down your spine, toes curling in your socks—fuck you need him.
he starts by placing a soft kiss right on your clit, letting his lips linger there for a moment before trailing open mouth kisses along your folds. you whined by how slow he’s going, but he’s wanting to keep up his supposed promise in your diary.
every now and then, he pauses to flick his tongue rapidly over your clit, making you gasp and squirm. your hips starts to buck and grind against his face but he holds you steady, keeping you pinned. his hands grip your thighs, pushing them further apart.
he moans against your clit, lips sealing around the sensitive bud as he sucks a bit harder, tongue flicking rapidly back and forth over it.
you let out a breathy, high pitched moan as your eyes closed shut. your legs trembled between his head, "that's it, let me hear those pretty sounds.”
he curls his fingers inside, stroking along your inner walls. he finds that special spot and rubs over it firmly, making you cry out and arch your back.
"found that sweet spot, didn't i?” his voice was low.
you whined and nod in response.
he pumps his fingers faster as his mouth attached back onto your clit, switching between sucking and flicking with his tongue.
"be a good girl and cum for me. i know you need to,”
your moans increased and got sluttier as you lightly held onto his ears, and finally that knot in your stomach unraveled as a high pitched moan left your throat.
he pulled back and smirked, “prove you right twice.”
“please…i really need your dick.”
he laughed, “you really are a slut.”
“please?” you begged.
he stood up and proceeded to pull off his overalls. his cock springs up, the swollen head already leaking with pre-cum.
jax wraps a hand around his shaft, stroking it slowly before lining the tip up with your entrance. his other hand reaches up to grip your hip, “i wanna hear how badly you need it because you were already begging in your pathetic fanfic.”
you whined, “i need you to fuck me, so bad. that’s all i’ve been waiting on today, please.”
jax thrusts forward, burying his cock deep into your pussy with a stroke as you cried out at the sudden stretch.
he rolls his hips in a slow, sensual grind, rubbing against a sensitive spot, making you gasp and shiver.
"that's it, sweetheart. this is what you needed, isn't it?”
“y-es,” you breathed out, “fuck.”
he picks up the pace, his thrusts growing longer and harder. he brings a hand up to wrap around your throat, his fingers curling gently around your neck and lightly squeeze at the sides.
your breathed hitched, tears pinpricking in your waterline. jax’s dick pulses inside as a low moan escaped from him. you never took him as a guy that makes noise but you are not complaining.
he let go of your neck and grabbed the edge of your shirt and pulled it off. he took the long sleeves and tied your wrists together above your head still while thrusting himself inside. he then gripped your bound wrists with one hand while the other squeezes your tit.
your moans increased in rhythm and volume, not caring who hears.
“shi-t! i..-fuck!” you choked out as you reached your orgasm. jax let out a low toned moan and hilts himself inside. his cock pulses and throbs as he shoots warm cum deep into your spasming pussy. he grinds his hips hard against yours, riding out your orgasm until it subsides.
the two of you caught each others breaths as jax slowly slides himself out.
he planted his body beside of yours, reaches over to undo the knot that kept your wrist together and sighed, “did i prove you right?”
jax loves to piss you off, that’s all he does, his messed up game. but he was the closest to you than anybody else.
what he liked about you was that you didn’t push him away when he’s in one of his episodes nor force him to tell you what’s wrong. you just sat down beside of him in the pure silence and if he wanted to talk he’ll do so. there even was some times when he’ll try to push you away and be mean but you didn’t budge, you know he never meant it.
out of the odds you remember more of your past before your arrival at the circus more than others. at first you never talked about it, but as days and months passed you came around eventually. you briefly mention something at the bar adventure when you were a couple drinks down, something that shouldn’t be spoken out loud but you let it slipped, talking about how your dad would beat you when he was drunk. days had passed since that slip up as you completely forgot about it.
once jax jabs at you for something you’ll reply back (or prank) with something else that hits the chest harder, but it didn’t really bother him or you that much until he slipped up and made a horrible joke about your dad beating you. you glared at him with clenched fists, tears threatening to come out of your glossy eyes. he knew he fucked up at that moment, but he didn’t apologize.
“get out of my room,” you said through tight gritted teeth.
jax leaned on your bedroom door, “come on, you know i was joking. stop taking things so serious.”
“out!”
of course to your luck the adventure today is hide and seek, a game you’re not that interested in but is too afraid to tell caine your true feelings. what made things worse was that jax is the seeker.
caine blindfolded jax and made him count to 60 seconds, and right as jax started to count everyone started to run. kinger hid somewhere inside, zooble and gangle hid somewhat together, ragatha hid at the fair grounds, and pomni hid in her own room under the bed.
you ran to the beach side and climbed up a high palm tree, hiding in an uncomfortable spot in the leaves. you can spot the others getting caught then realized if you can see him there’s a big chance he can see you, so you curled up inside the leaves again and ride everything out.
the beach waves crashed, quite smoothing for your mind. there was times where you and jax would go out to the beach side late at night when neither of you could sleep. you kind of miss it, but the hatred and pain he caused from that stupid joke made you more angrier at him.
caine made an announcement you were the last one to be found, immediately making you win and ending the game but jax still wanted to find you. he couldn’t lose you and doesn’t know what is worse, you abstracting and being gone forever, or you still being alive but being gone mentally.
you could hear patted footsteps because of the sand and held your breath so you couldn’t make any noise, but it was pointless since he looked up at the palm tree, seeing your curled up body.
“i can see you.” he said in a tired voice, “come down.”
you exhaled, “i don’t want to see you.”
“because i made that joke? you never care about those jokes and jabs because you know i never mean them.”
“it wasn’t just a joke, jax. it was something private and somewhat traumatizing event.”
“i tried to make it light!”
“that doesn’t mean anything!” you poked your head out from the leaves, “he would beat me so hard i would sometimes black out. that’s not something to joke about. i would have to go to school with painful bruises all over my body.”
jax eyes turned into pinpoints, “i’m sorry, okay? is that what you wanted to hear?”
“no! i don’t want to hear anything from you.”
“i apologize from the stuff i say before and you didn’t care! you always knew i didn’t mean it and would still be there for me, what’s different now?”
“you can’t be serious. making fun of the stuff i do or say is completely different than the sh#% you said about my dad beating me.”
his fists tightened as he got closer to the palm tree, about to climb up it but let out a frustrated groan, “you really want to know? it made me feel sad about you. it hurt me to know you got beat by your dad. i wanted to help and comfort you like how you would comfort me but i didn’t know what words to say. i wanted to cheer you up so i made that joke.”
tears threatened to leave your eyes, “thanks for the honesty,” your voice cracked.
“sooo…you gonna come down?”
you sighed and shook your head, “i need some space.”
“no you don’t. deep down i know you don’t.”
he wasn’t wrong.
jax climbed up the tree and sat beside of you, holding onto you so neither you or him would fall out, “you can ignore me all you want but i’m not gonna leave.”
“okay,” you whispered, swallowing some tears.
“if we ever escape and find ourselves again im going to find your dad and beat him.”
you snickered, “is that another one of your stupid jokes?”
“no, it’s not. i’m serious.”
you rested your head on his shoulder and stared at the subtle waves crashing down.
You didn't even want to go to this beach adventure but Kinger practically forced you to go. Good news, the more active you are the less likely they'll think you're trying to abstract. It was like that at first when you arrived but Jax pulled you out of that mindset. Stupid, stupid Jax.
You wished you never got close to him, especially f#%^*% you.
Even in this digital world the sun still felt hot and was blinding your eyes. You kinda forgot how the real world actually felt like.
You spotted Jax laying on a beach chair, but his expression was melancholy. Not the norm for him.
You walked over and gave a small wave before laying down on the beach chair that was next to him. You tried to act nonchalant like nothing ever happened between the two of you.
"Go away,"
You rolled your eyes and began to write, "youre always pushing me away and then act like nothing happened, im tired of this"
He didn't read your note at first until you nudged him.
"Don't you get it? I don't want to be around you! You're too emotional and I don't want to keep babysitting you!"
"tf are you talking about?? babysitting seriously??"
"You act like I'm your savior preventing you from abstracting!"
Your "blood" boiled due to the amounts of anger you have. You inaudibly growled and pounced on him, repeatedly punching him.
"Get off of me! Jesus f##^*^% Christ!" But he didn't fight back at all.
Everyone looked your way but collectively agreed that he probably deserved it and went back doing their own thing.
Jax could see the anger and tears, and if you could make noise he would hear you yell.
He finally pushed you off onto the sand and threw you a towel. "Better?"
Your jaw clenched as you lowered your eyebrows. Jax rolled his eyes and handed you your notebook before crossing his arms.
"i like you. i hate that i do."
His pupils dilated a bit and dropped his crossed arms. He feels the same way and that's why he's scared. He knows that if he continues to do this you might abstract, but for some reason he can't seem to stop.
He sighed and walked away.
Seriously? That's it? You expressed your feelings and that's all he does? F#%^ you genuinely hate him.
Before you arrived here you always felt this same lonely, depressive, angry emotions. That day you wanted to get away from it all, find a quiet secluded place so nobody would try to bother or stop you. If it wasn't for that odd looking headset you wouldn't even be in this digital world, including the real one. Sometimes you think to yourself you went through it and is now in hell of purgatory. A weird one, that's for sure.
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Jax is getting close into doing it. Too close. But one sudden thought changed his mind, I don't want to leave her.
He rubbed his eyes out of frustration before walking over to your door. He knocked on it a few times but you didn't answer.
He fumbled with his keys and unlocked your door. First he found Ribbit, then Kaufmo, and now you.
Except you were on the floor in tears, holding out your glitched out, abstracted hand. You looked up at him and kept mouthing the words, "I'm sorry" over and over again.
Jax tensed up at first, slightly shaking his head out of disbelief. He did the exact thing when he found the other two. But this time he promised himself he wasn't going to run away again.
He got down across from you and held you close, silently cussing to himself before finally yelling out Caine's name.
"You're gonna be fine I promise. I'm here for you, okay? I'm always here for you. Caine will fix you I swear...just stay with me, 'kay?"
The pain you were enduring kept you from listening to Jax's and Caine's arguing. You would scream so loud that you were sure the others could hear you.
"You can fix her! Make her talk! You can do anything and you're not!"
Caine yelled back before finally snapping his fingers and disappeared.
The pain vanished, the noise vanished. With shaky eyes you looked down at your normal hand, then looked back at Jax's worry expression. Neither of you talked. Jax held you tighter against his body. He wasn't planning on telling you that he almost abstracted.
"Listen, Y/n...I love you. I hate those words but I love you. Im sorry for the s#%^ I said and did from before. I want to be with you and if we find an escape I will still want to have a relationship with you."
Your lips turned upwards as you slowly nod your head.
"I know you told me you hated the outside world and felt so alone in it but you don't have to experience that here. I will do anything to keep you safe...I just wish you can talk to me."
You felt the warm tears running down your face as you mouthed, "I love you."
a/n: short chapter, wanted to have fluff! and remember you get to decide the ending! so comment what ending you desire bc i suck at coming up with good endings bc i always prefer bad ones 😭
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Being used huh? For his own entertainment. In the beginning you believed that, but after being around him for so long and actively trying to talk to you, you figured he actually enjoyed your presence and was considered friends. You even stopped trying to abstract because of him. He gave you hope.
You were right about him. He did enjoy your presence but he knew your little secret and refuses to get close to someone who is wanting to basically kill themselves.
A single day has passed since the gun thing, and everyone would check up on you (obviously except for Jax). You haven't left your room at all. The next adventure you skipped out on, and funny enough so did Jax and Zooble.
All you did was think and couldn't snap out of it. You hated yourself for it, getting so worked up because of a guy.
You let out a long exhale and walked over to Jax's room. You simply wrote, "talk to me." and slid the paper underneath his door, if you knock he wouldn't be able to hear it.
With the rustling paper Jax looked down at it, picked it up, then opened the door to find you staring at him with begging eyes.
He shut his door closed, "I don't want to talk to a mute person." He said with cold.
"you did it before??"
Jax rolled his eyes out of annoyance, "What do you want? Have a "deep" conversation? Try to changed my mind about stuff?"
You chewed on the inside of your cheek and shook your head, "just wanted to make sure youre okay, thats all."
Jax crossed his arms and leaned against the door, "Sure. I'm fine."
"promise?"
"Yeah, whatever. Go bother Pomni or somebody."
You turned your heel to 180 degrees and began walking with a slouch.
Jax huffed, "You gonna do anything stupid?"
Without turning around you shook your head before shutting yourself inside your room.
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That night you tossed and turned. Having spouts of cry's and sobs, and yet you still can't "leave" this place.
Apart of you wants to see Jax again as stupid as it sounds. You hate yourself for being so attached to him but you can't help it. It's either you do or if you don't. What's the worst that could happen? Well, apparently a lot.
With a frustrated growl you stomped your way over to Jax's door and jiggled the door knob so he could hopefully see it. Minutes later he swung the door open, "Jesus! I'm so glad you can't make a noise. What do you want?"
"i cant sleep. can i sleep w/ you?"
He let out a loud boisterous laugh, "Absolutely not."
You pouted.
Jax sighed, "Alright, follow me."
Jax grabbed your hand and guided you down the halls of the circus. Neither of you said a word, Jax kept his gaze straight ahead, hardly any eye contact, while your eyes were locked on his face. His expressions was dulled.
You gave a half smile, squeezing his hand.
Jax tensed up, wanting to take his hand away but he couldn't. He glanced at you, soon relaxing to your touch.
Once arriving at the destination he opened a door to another room and pulled you with him in. There was a couch, blankets, and a single TV.
"I sometimes come in here to get away from everyone. My little man cave is gone so this will do."
He sat down and held his arms out for you. You tilted your head, making him roll his eyes, "Lay down."
You followed through, heart racing.
Your head was in his lap, body covered by a blanket he threw on you.
"Comfortable?" He mumbled.
You smiled and gave a thumbs up.
"Good," He quietly replied as his hands gently combed through your hair.
He's surprised at what he's doing right now. He never does this, what has he done? He made a promise to himself to not get close to you but his heart aches for you. God, he hates it.
He hates that you can't talk and wishes that Caine can give you a voice. He would do anything for that again.
Your breathing slowed down tremendously because of a deep sleep. Jax didn't want to leave you in here, but he also wants to go back to his room so he can do what he always does. He's thinking to himself, you guys have a lot in common.
He carefully opened the notebook and saw your previous messages with him and to other people. He recognizes all of the ones you said to him, he always remembers those, and the other messages to where you written to other people.
"i think jax is mad at me" "at first i wanted to abstract and tried everything but i guess bc of him i cant" "i feel stupid for liking him" "there's no point in dating here" "what did i do wrong??"
Jax rarely frowns, but he did. He sighed, putting the notebook down and rubbed your arm, "Sorry," He whispered, ears flopping downwards. He slowly held your head and torso up so he could stand up, then gently laid you back down. He leaned, planting a gentle kiss on your forehead before leaving.
Hours later your eyes slowly opened and felt the lack of touch. You slowly sat up and pulled your legs to your chest. Of course he left.
Your eyes went to the door that was opening, hoping it was Jax but it was just Kinger.
"Oh! You found my secret hideout!" He shuts the door and walks over, "Why are you in here?"
You scribbled, "couldnt sleep"
"Ah yeah, that makes sense. Haven't seen you in a while, you okay?"
You shrugged, laying back down. Kinger sat on the other side of the couch.
You two didn't say a word to each other, eyes fixated on the tv screen playing nature sounds like rain and thunder.
"The dark is nice."
You slowly nod in agreement.
"I know you're not doing too good. I'm here for you though, we all are. Tomorrow for the next adventure I think you should join us. We all been missing you."
You looked over at him and smiled, mouthing "thank you" then "I will."
But abstracting is the main thing you want...Right?
a/n: for everyone who didn't read the smut, reader and jax fucked bc caine accidentally released the filter, that's it 😭 also this is important: there's a chance i'm not gonna do ep 8 and 9 bc of how long it's gonna be before it's out. I will do more chapters before the 7th ep, the 7th episode chapter, and then the final one, but YOU get to decide the ending!
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"Agree to never talk about this?"
Before you could nod everyone got teleported to the orginal spot before this whole shabang happened.
Zooble and Gangle was obviously breathing a tad faster than before, Pomni looked uncomfortable, Ragatha kept her hands to herself, eyes widened, and Kinger didn't look phased.
Jax smirked at Zooble.
"You can't say $#%*! I know you and Y/n f#%^*# too!"
"I didn't say anything. You technically told on yourself!"
Zooble cursed to themselves, not wanting to go any further.
Caine joined in, "Sorry for that entanglement, I was originally talking about how teamwork is essential to making the dream work! Whatever the case, it's evident now that there's quite a bit of tension between you all...Hmm, especially now..weird. Anyway! Maybe what we actually need to do are trust exercises."
"I'm not falling into Jax's arms if that's what you mean." Zooble said.
"Don't worry, this will be a two-way trust exercise where you'll each have to trust each other to not betray the other person."
Caine proceeded to explain but you were too caught up in what happened earlier, replaying the events all in your head. You glanced at Jax, his eyes looking forward but he could feel your gaze. He leaned in closer, "Thinking about it again? Never took you for a perv."
"Jax, why don't YOU start?" Caine handed him the gun.
"Wait, what am I doing? I wasn't paying attention."
Caine pressed his hands against Jax face, then released them.
"Oh." Jax looked at the gun and shot Ragatha.
"Or—yeah, we could all just shoot each other. Here, have guns. I don't care anymore."
Jax shoved you out the way, "Hooway!" He wiggled his tail and threw you a pistol. Guess he is sweet.
"Wait, that's just it? "Here's guns and have fun"?" Zooble stepped closer.
"I didn't say "have fun"..."
"Caine!"
Caine growls a bit, before turning back and crossing his arms, "Grrr, FINE! We're bringing teams back. Pair up in teams of two, you all get three lives, last team surviving is the winner. Since there's an odd number 1 team will have 3 people, but only 1 heart each. Happy? You get five minutes to figure the teams out, once that's up, it's a free-for-all."
"Alright Y/n, I was thinking we get another person on our team. You pick."
You pointed over to Pomni.
"Seriously? Her? Fine whatever. Pomni!"
With a confused look she walked over, "Yeah?"
"We're gonna be in a team of 3."
"But we all get 1 life. I don't think we should-"
"Who cares? It's more people."
The gun in your hands disappeared once the timer ran out.
"Uh, Caine?" Zooble glances up towards the roof of the tent, where Caine is sitting .
"What? Oh, y-yeah, the guns have been teleported to random spots in the circus. Go find 'em, champs!"
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"So, who you gonna kill first, Y/n?" Jax asked as the three of you looked through some geometric decor.
You shrugged, not really in the moment.
"Right," Jax sighed, "Pomni?"
"Uh, I-I don't know if I'll really be doing much of the killing. I-I'll just find guns for you and Y/n and you guys can do all the violent stuff. Only if you want to Y/n, you can always look with me." She smiled.
"Ooh! Found one!" Jax yelled, picking up a pistol and handing it to you. You pointed the gun, making Pomni duck a little bit.
Jax laughed, "Why are you scared? You know none of this is real, right? The game today is literally to shoot each other."
You found another gun in the corner of your eye and threw it over to Jax.
"Yeah but we're still people...right?"
"We're literally in a circus, cartoon characters. So what's the point of pretending we're not?"
You watched with a sorrow look as they had their conversation, a conversation you wished to be apart of but extremely impossible. Sure, you have a half filled notebook already, but people would have to pay attention to you. All you are is just a spectator in hell.
Jax nudged your shoulder, "Stop looking like you wanna kill your self because we got other stuff to do! Come on." He ran, you and Pomni shrugged and followed him.
You guys immediately spotted Ragatha and Kinger, and with a half smile you shot her directly in the head.
You felt unstoppable, and when you held your breath it was an easier shot. You absolutely despised being a real mime, but in a game like this it really came in handy. You physically can't make any noise, not even sounds of foot steps.
You hid behind a wall, overhearing Ragatha and Jax having a small argument but you didn't really care about that right now, you just wanted to win.
With two bangs Ragatha was officially out the game. Jax sighed, walking out and dropping his smile. You tilted your head.
"Nothing, Ragatha just spewing out some bull$##^. You seen Pomni?"
You mouthed "no."
"Guys!" Pomni shouted while running, "I lost Kinger, but I got him down to one life."
"Ragatha is out."
"Good."
Three of you walking again, thick feelings in the air.
Pomni turned to you and quietly talked, "What happened earlier after the whole...Zooble and Caine thing?"
Mouthed, "nothing."
She giggled, "Didn't look like nothing but...I'll take your word for it."
Trust, she knows you're lying.
"Hey Jax," Pomni smirked.
"Hm?"
"Why were you and Y/n all flustered earlier?"
He stiffened up, "Don't know what you're talking about."
You lightly hit her arm, making her laugh. "You two suck at lying."
"Hey let's not forget we're here to kill people. We still need to figure out where nutso went before we can rest easy." Jax replied.
You jerked, pointing your gun at Kinger.
"I'm right behind you, aren't I?"
The three of you nod heads, Pomni and Jax shooting Kinger while you're right out by the door keeping cover, once again holding your breath.
Zooble and Gangle.
You immediately started shooting.
"Hey that's cheating!" Zooble yelled.
You laughed in your head, still invisible to them and officially killing Gangle.
Jax and Pomni stepped out the room and pointed their guns at Zooble.
"This is some bull$#%^!" They ran and locked themselves in their room
"Y/n!" Jax yelled, "Go find more ammo and guns!"
You nodded and agreed.
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Ammo...ammo...got it.
You gathered the remaining guns and ammo, running back to where Jax and Pomni was orginally at.
"Zooble is down!" Jax yelled, walking his way over, "So is Pomni. It's just us."
You cheered, throwing your arms up and hugged him. Jax lightly grunted and shoved you off.
Tilting your head and writing, "so do we kill each other or?"
"Go for it." He smiled.
You cocked an eyebrow and shook your head, "i was joking btw, i wasnt gonna shoot u."
"Why not? Come on I know you want to." He smirked.
You laughed, "why?"
"Because you realized I don't want anything to do with you."
You scrunched your face, not even having to write.
"You seriously thought I wanted something to do with you?" He's lying to himself. He's in this mess.
"yes?? ur the one who barged in my room earlier??"
"That was because of an unfortunate circumstance. I only talked to you before that because I was just bored. I didn't even have a conversation with you because you can't even talk! It's entertaining for me. Once Caine released the filter I know you were the only one who was desperate enough to f#%^ me."
Your heart was shattering. This makes no sense to you, how did this even happen? He was so chill with you in the start, always talking to you. Deep down you know that you two weren't event gonna have a relationship, but he was the first one to give you any attention, dating back to your real life in the other world.
Your hand shook as you wrote some more, "what happened?? where is this even coming from?"
He got too close, simple as that. He's scared.
"Nothing happened." His ears flopped.
"what would you do if i abstracted."
He tensed up, clenching his jaw, "I would feel nothing, and I felt nothing from before when you tried to abstract anyway. Yeah, don't think I didn't realize what you were doing." He doesn't want to get close. He knew everything what you were doing before, he read the notes you wrote in that beat up notebook.
You dropped the notebook and tightly held the gun to your side. Your eyes watering and lips trembling, Jax hates himself for doing this to you but he's a selfish p##^.
"You gonna shoot me now? You should," He laughed, "you should be angry at me." He walked closer to you, getting in your face, "you should hate me and never talk to me. You don't want to get close to me."
Without hesitation you pointed the gun to your temple, not yet pressing the trigger.
Jax dropped the smile and took a step back. He opened his mouth to say something but you immediately shot yourself.
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$h%^, where am I?
You looked around and saw the others wearing cat ears and whiskers.
"Did Jax shoot you?" Ragatha spoke.
With teary eyes you slowly nodded.
"Should I even be surprised?" She sighed, "You okay?"
You took a step back, nodding again.
Pomni looked your way, having a hunch, but didn't say anything.
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"Y/n? Can I come in?" Pomni knocked on your door.
You sighed, shuffled your feet to the door and let her in.
"Jesus, why is your beanbag ripped to pieces." She laughed, slowly losing it once she saw you tremble. "What happened?"
You broke down, collapsing on your bed. Pomni stared, not knowing what to do and how to even comfort. She laid on your bouncy bed beside of you.
"Is this about...Jax?"
You nodded.
"What even happened? Like..I have a hunch you two...ya know, when Caine freaked out earlier...did something happened with that?"
You reached for the notebook and began writing spilling out everything. The fun and nice conversations, being somewhat nice to you, the whole thing on the bean bag, the argument, you trying to abstract from before, you wrote almost a whole page.
"I'm so sorry I..I didn't know that was happening. Are you going to be okay? Do you want me to stay the night with you?"
You shook your head, turning away from her.
"I think I'm gonna stay here with you for the night. You're a really good friend and I would hate to see anything bad happen to you."
You didn't move, eyes slowly shutting.
"You're gonna be okay, I promise. I'm here for you always, Y/n. I know it must be hard to not be able to talk but...that won't get in the way of our friendship and others."
a:n: you don't have to read it you won't be missing much 😭 it's just pure smut, the plot will continue next chapter, i'll make a summery next chapter if you don't wanna read it!! it's also been MONTHS since i written smut so it might not be S tier...C tier at best
cw: jax is aggressive, cream pie, sorta coercion?? it’s jax he’s always pushy, p in v,
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"Today's adventure is... gonna be a bit of a short one, due to the Favorite Character Awards. But it'll be a perfect opportunity to showcase your guys' strengths to the press!"
"Huh?" Pomni and Zooble said collectively.
"In The Caine Leagues, we have the 400 Meter Vertical Skedaddle, Bisection Boogie Eggball, Lateral Hijinks, Orange Sport, Ball Run, Walk Ball, Run Walk, and Ball Ball! These sports are surely going to—"
Zooble stopped him right there, "Uh, yeah, sorry, no. I'm not gonna be on a team with that one."
"Zooble, why does all you do is complaining? I never know what you want!"
"We had a whole suggestion box for that." They replied, crossing their arms.
"Yeah, Y/n, Zooble and I constantly say we like more chill and relaxing adventures." Pomni added.
"The suggestion box just causes interpersonal drama. And me no likey." Caine pouted.
"Alright! You REALLY wanna know what I want?"
Caine flinched, "Oh no."
"I want the ability to have s3x."
You and Jax matched the same, amused surprised expression. "No way. Are we FINALLY having this conversation?"
Upon hearing this, Caine begins to stammer somewhat before convulsing and glitching. Everyone watched closely before he disappeared again.
A shift happened, you felt...weird. You looked at everyone else and they're all shrugging, some are blushing. This can't be real.
But the heat feeling inside of you only grew. Did Zooble actually triggered Caine to accidentally release the block?
You couldn't take it anymore, can't even focus. You held your breath to not be seen and power walked to your room before "slamming" the door shut. You planted on the plain black beanbag.
This is so fucking embarrassing...hey I can cuss now.
Pushed your embarrassment to the side, you slowly slid your hand down your pants and shivered at the contact. This can't be real.
Your door immediately swung open, making you flinch and pull your hand out. Jax's chest was rapidly moving up and down.
You scribbled in your notebook, "u ok??"
"Stop acting oblivious. We all know what Caine accidentally did." His ears flopped.
"release the filter?"
Jax looked away, a red tint spreading across his face. "I'm like a damn rabbit in heat." He mumbled.
You scribbled again, "why did u come in here?"
Jax huffed, "Stop playing dumb. You know why I'm here."
"jax i'm not gonna fuck you"
He tossed your notebook to the side and got on his knees, down to your level. He placed his hands on either side of your shoulder, gripping them a little too tight. "I don't know what Caine did to make the sensitivity high, but I know for a damn fact that you were wanting to fuck yourself. Holding your breath to disappear and go to your room?" He chuckled, "Don't think I didn't notice."
Even if you could talk you didn't know what to say. The heat in your pants only became heightened. You clenched your thighs together, praying that you could get this release soon.
Jax's eyes glanced to your thighs rubbing together and smirked, "You want this too don't you?"
You shamelessly nod, then pointed to your notebook. Jax rolled his eyes out of annoyance and handed it to you, then immediately writing, "will this ruin our friendship?"
Jax squinted his eyes. Friendship? He didn't even want to think about that. That's a future problem for him to deal with. He relaxed his face, pupils dilating before finally shaking his head, "Trust me, it won't. We can even forget this if ya want."
You tossed your notebook to the side and anxiously shimmied out of your pants. Jax immediately lost patience and yanked them off of you, pushing your thighs right against your chest, immediately exposing your wet cunt. You silently whimpered out of embarrassment, but your new pussy says so otherwise, dying to get touched.
Jax was practically drooling, but he doesn't do foreplay, he wants immediate pleasure now, not wanting to waste any time just in case of Caine realized what he did earlier.
"Hold your legs like that," He demanded while undoing his overalls. His dick sprung out, already leaking out pre-cum. He gave himself a few pumps, shivering to his own touch because of how much he missed his dick.
He lined his cock against your pussy, slowly inserting himself because of how tight you were due to the lack of foreplay.
If only Jax could hear you whimper and moan out of the stinging pain. He's missing that noise, but was too horny to even care, all he could think right now was how tight your pussy is clenching around his dick, "Ffuck you're so tight...too bad I can't hear you." He breathy chuckled. He grip tightened around your thighs, thrusting his dick in and barely out.
Since he couldn't hear your moans, whimpers, and breathing, he watched your face do all of the talking. Flustered written all over you, mouth shaped of an O, tears slightly escaping, and nodding your head up and down to let him know that you're actually enjoying this. He bit his lip, thrusting faster and deeper to the point where he's kissing your cervix.
"Sh-it," He huffed, "What are you doing to me."
With one hand still gripping your thigh, the other made its way to the hem of your shirt and pulled it up so he can see your tits. Fuck he missed this so much. He was in heat, and he doesn't want to admit it but he finds you so fucking hot in this state.
Your fingers traveled down to your aching clit to rub it but Jax pushed it away and replaced your hand with his. He lightly rubbed it in circles, making your back arch off of the bean bag.
Jax tried so hard to not make any noise, not for others sake, but for his. He doesn't want to be seen as vulnerable right now but after he slipped out a whimper he couldn't hold it back anymore.
And my god you were in heaven, and if you could make noise it would bounce off of the walls and everyone could possibly hear you.
"I wish I could hear you," He huffed out, "I need to hear you."
He rubbed your clit a little faster, and you nodded your head frantically mouthing the words that you're about to cum.
Your body trembled as the orgasm took complete control, mouth opened so wide that Jax could only imagine hearing those loud orgasms, and swore that he saw you "moan" out his name.
"Ffu-ck!" Jax cried out a little too loud and immediately filled you up with his cum. With him still buried in you he planted his body onto yours and panted, trying to catch his breath.
You froze, wanted to hold him in place but was too afraid he was gonna pull back. He's like a cat that doesn't want to be touched, but can only touch others.
Jax slowly leaned back up and pulled himself out, dick pulsating. He exhaled and pulled up his overalls again, glancing down at your flustered face and shaking legs. Your eyes were like puppy dog eyes, just begging.
Jax was the one who put your pants back onto you and even pulled them up while you were still sitting on the beanbag. He didn't make any eye contact, just focused on putting your pants back on. He would occasionally glance, but was too frighten too. Why did he do this? He can't get close. Now he's too far deep. He wants to leave your room while you get yourself dressed again but he couldn't bear himself to do that.
He grab ahold of your hands and stood you up, eyes now locked together. "Thanks," was all he said before turning around.
You quickly grabbed his wrist to prevent him from leaving, he sighed out of annoyance and turned around. You quickly picked up the notebook and scribbled with messy handwriting, "what now??"
He shrugged, not thinking this through, "Not tell anyone?"
You agreed. This shit is going to be so messy now. How did you even allow yourself to do this.
But on the other hand...you really missed getting fucked, and always found him attractive since you got here.
Jax placed his hand on your shoulder, "You okay? I know I didn't prep you or anything."
You lightly smiled, scribbling, "it was nice, i liked it"
He chuckled, "I bet you're gonna miss my dick once Caine puts the filter back on."
You shamelessly nodded, "ur gonna miss my pussy"
"I'm gonna be thinking about that probably for the rest of my life in here. If I don't abstract of course." He said in a joking manner but deep down you both know he's not joking.
a/n: there's some jazz dance terminology, it's okay if you don't know what it is bc it's just 3 short paragraphs. i tried to explain them as well. oh yeah, smut is happening in this fic, prob next chapter who knows
Chapter 4: I Miss Dancing…and Talking
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You spat out the water from the adventure.
"Gross." Jax said.
"Well, that sure could have gone better. But I'm sure the next adventure would be less...uh, wet." Ragatha rung out the water from her dress.
Caine yelled, "That's it! Everybody besides Zooble, get over here! Everyone, I'm going to pitch to you some adventure ideas, and I'm going to ask you to give me your honest opinions on them."
"I was gonna sleep." Jax crossed his arms.
You wrote in the notebook, "why do u always sleep?"
"To get away from everyone." He mumbled, chewing on the inside of his cheek.
You looked at him with skepticism.
Caine continued, "Alright! So I've got an adventure where you all tour my amazing chocolate factory, and get killed off one by one from OSHA violations, one where a sentient cardiovascular system goes to war against the United States military, and one where you have to survive in a post-apocalyptic nuclear wasteland with a telepathic talking dog who's mean to you the whole time! What do you think?"
"Uh, I don't know. They all sound a little...uh, dark?" Ragatha chirped.
"I can't tell a compelling story where nothing bad happens! Where's the intrigue? The stakes?"
"You know," Zooble started, "you could always try the suggestion box again. I honestly didn't hate the last one we did with it."
"You!... didn't hate it?"
"It was kind of refreshing doing something grounded in reality."
Pomni raised her hand, "Yeah, I...really didn't mind...that one, either."
"Uh, what about the rest of you?"
You violently shook your head no while everyone else talked.
"Well, how am I gonna please everybody if you all like different things?!"
"Maybe just keep your adventures open at all times and let us do whatever we want, when we want." Zooble stated.
"Okay, well, how about this? We'll do a LIGHTNING ROUND, going through all suggestions in the suggestion box in rapid succession! And if you don't like one, you can all vote to skip it!"
"What? Like, now?" Pomni asked.
"That's right! So, grab your bones and pop your pansies, 'cause here we go!"
Caine created a large portal and pushed everyone inside. Some debated not to, and once the world regenerated Jax smiled, "Oh, wait, I know what this is! Hi, everyone! In today's episode of "Poach Everything", I'm going to be hunting the critically endangered red ribbon rhinoceros."
Jax pointed his gun at the rhinoceros, shooting it. Jax chases the rhino like a rabid dog, tearing the ribbon apart with his mouth.
"Oh my god." Zooble said with disgust.
"Ahh, delicious meat! One down, four to go!"
"Don't you mean 5? Wait, why is Y/n the only one that's not an animal?!" They yelled.
"Oh yeah, completely forgot about her."
Pomni added, "You sure? I think it's because you don't want to shoot Y/n?"
"H-Hey! No!"
"Sure." She teased.
"Alright, I'm calling a vote." Zooble said, "Let's skip this one... and also make Jax a vegan for the rest of the day."
"You can't do that...What do you mean you can do that?! Let's make a vote to make Y/n talk for a day!"
Wait-"What?...Oh my god."
Jax's jaw dropped, "No way! That worked?"
"No no no no no! How?...Caine could've let me talk!? This entire time??!" You screamed out.
Kinger screamed back.
Pomni jumped in, "I thought Caine couldn't...never mind."
Jax pulled you in closer to him, "Nice to hear you talk! Now I can purposely forget and ignore you!"
"F%%^ off!"
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"Wait, what? Why me?" Pomni stammered, looking down at her presidential outfit.
"Eh, I thought a position of power suited you." Jax replied.
"What am I supposed to be?...God it feels so weird to hear my voice again."
"The department of military or something." Jax said.
Zooble groaned, "Oh my god, are these all gonna be Jax's ideas?!"
"Well, Ms. President, it looks like there are some new developments in the ongoing war between Australia and New Zealand. We may need to take in some refugees. What do you think?" Kinger replied.
"Wh- how do you know what to do? What?" Pomni replied.
"I think we should send in Y/n to defeat the Australian!"
"Me?! No! I don't know anything about the military!"
Kinger motioned the two of you to go under Pomni's desk. "We all got briefs on our characters. I'm your assistant Pomni! And Y/n, you're in charge of fighting back! Didn't you get one too? I figured we were all on the same page here. But, if not, you're gonna have to tap into those golden improv skills."
"Oi, mate! I'm an Australian extremist, and I've come to detonate this bomb that'll release all the world's deadliest spiders into..." Jax looked over and saw you between Kinger and Pomni, "Did I pick a bad time?"
"Why wouldn't the president have a bomb squad?!" Pomni yelled. "Isn't this supposed to be Y/n's job!"
"I'm just apart of the military according to Jax."
"Very weird to hear you talk." Pomni replied, "Not complaining though...and which wire do I cut?"
"Follow your heart." Jax said.
"You stay out of this! Shouldn't Y/n arrest you... or something?"
"I don't want to get handcuffed by her!"
Gangle busted through the door, "Hi! I'm a New Zealand extremist, and... I... don't know what New Zealanders threaten people with-" BOOM
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"Anime?" You looked around to see everyone wearing school uniforms.
"What is this? I don't like this." Jax looked at his new clothes.
"At least we finally have one that's by someone else." Zooble spoke.
"Can you believe this, Pomni? First Gangle draws anime, now she drags us all into one. She must be one of those, uhh... losers."
"You threw me out of a moving truck."
"Fine, I guess I'll talk to Y/n!" Jax stood up and sat on your desk, "So, you liking your new speaking abilities?"
"Why did you even suggest that?"
He shrugged, "It's easier to get a reaction out of you."
You squinted your eyes, "You sure? Because I think you did it so you can hear my voice and actually talk to me." You teased.
Jax scoffed, "Uh no? Why would I care about that? Let's vote on Y/n going back to silence!"
Everyone voted no.
"Ha!" You laughed in his face.
"Alright, class. Today we're gonna learn the popular foreign language known as...English?" Kinger said.
"This is boring. I vote we skip it." Jax yawned.
"Shut up, we're not skipping it!" Zooble said.
"Slice-of-life animes are the worst ones. It's embarrassing! I mean, I guess it's not as embarrassing as that time Gangle took an anime figure and-"
"Actually, yeah! We can skip it, that's fine! Let's skip this one!" Gangle stammered.
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"Are we just... chilling for this one? Can I finally relax?" Pomni sat down on the grass.
You sat beside of her, "Yeah! This was my suggestion."
Jax planted on the other side of you. "Do you think Gangle is actually capable of being happy?"
Pomni tilted her head, "Are you asking me or Y/n?"
"Y/n, duh! Tomorrow she won't talk again! Gotta get all of my questions out."
Pomni sighed and walked away to sit with Kinger and Ragatha.
"Shouldn't I be the one asking questions? Because I have a lot."
"Fine, ask a question."
"Why are you so mean to people?"
"I'm not mean! I'm just being honest."
"Really? Because you act so mean to others. Maybe that's why you don't have any friends."
Jax glared at you, "I wish I didn't make you talk."
"Okay, okay, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that."
He let out a long exhale and laid down. "What made you want to go star gaze?"
You laid down as well, "I loved the stars. When I was little I would go outside when my parents start fighting and look at the stars, they calm me."
Jax didn't say anything, he glanced over at you, your eyes reflecting the stars from above. It was..pretty.
~~~
"Gimme a whiskey sour. But hold the egg white, since I'm a vegan. Wha-- I hate this! How is this even possible? I thought Caine couldn't--" Jax groaned.
"I'm still confused as to why I couldn't talk until now." You took a shot and shivered because of the burn. You looked down at your flapper dress. "Interesting." You mumbled.
Kinger and Ragatha walked in and ordered some drinks.
"You know your way around alcohol, huh?" Pomni said to Zooble.
"Yeah. This was one of my suggestions. I worked at a bar briefly. I like making drinks."
Jax scoffed, "That sounds fitting for you."
"I know there's an implication there, but I can't be bothered to figure it out."
Jax turned towards the jester, "So, Pomni. You ever have any jobs, or are you too young for that?"
"I'm 25 years old. And yeah, I was an accountant for a- a supermarket chain. I would seek out mild thrills. Like exploring abandoned buildings, you know? And posting videos of it online."
"Ah, a YouTuber!"
"Not really. Nobody watched them. It was just something I did for me."
"I used to dance," You added, "I was good at it too."
Jax laughed, "I doubt it."
"Oh really? Want me to show you?"
"Not really-"
You pulled Jax out of his seat and held his hands in a classic jazz position. "Does anybody know piano?"
"I do!" Kinger said, rushing over to the piano, "What song?"
"Any jazz song."
As he played the keys you started out on a jazz square. Moving feet from side, back, side, and forward. Accidentally stepping on his feet, but soon enough he got the motion of it.
As the song gotten a little faster, you spun out of Jax's hands and did an axel turn, posing with your back leg straight and your front leg bent. Jax didn't move, just stared out of awe and surprisment.
You jazz walked back to him, your flapper dress constantly moving with you in such fluidity. In the original position from before the two of you did another jazz square, but this time Jax dipped you, his hand on your back while the other is supporting your straighten out leg. He smirked, eyes half lidded.
He brought you back up, you spun to where your back rested against his chest. His hands gripped your waist as you did a fan kick, your leg travels in the air in a circular motion before finally planting back onto the floor. He turned you to where your chest is directly against his.
You wanted to kiss him right then and there. Wait, ew no I don't!
Everyone clapped, cheering out your name.
Ragatha spoke, "You two have chemistry!" She drunkenly said.
Jax eyes widened and pushed you off of him. You crossed your arms and glared, "Told you I can dance." You gritted your teeth.
The two of you sat down as Kinger continued to play with no point in stopping.
"When did you learn to dance Y/n?" Pomni asked.
"For as long as I can remember." You mumbled. "What's your story, Ragatha?"
"Oh, jeez, where to start? Um, I was born from a fairly wealthy family. We had a large property with horses and chickens. And my mother... uh, well... my mother was... a lot. Uh, I worked in real estate for a bit until I ended up... here. I'm sure she doesn't miss me. I certainly don't miss the yelling... and the berating... and guilt-tripping. And the...Uh, yeah! Just kind of a farm girl. Nothing too out of the ordinary!"
You ordered another drink, a type of whisky this time. Overhearing everyone's else's conversation, but you were too caught up in what Jax just did during the dance. He looked happy and was enjoying dancing with you, the intimate touching, and he just shoved you away like nothing happened? Ignoring again? Forgetting? Forgotten? This is too much for you. You wanted out of here.
"Uh... apology accepted. I guess." You snapped back in reality after hearing Pomni speak.
Jax hugged Pomni, "Wow, the first steps of a budding friendship! Right, Ragatha? Ooh! Remember when you got high at McDonald's and told Gangle to kill herself? Now that was funny."
"What?! I-I did not say that! I-I think. No. No, of course I didn't. I- And I am still so, so sorry about that, Gangle! I would never have said anything like that if I didn't get that stupid...sauce in my eye! Well uh...Jax put Y/n in his car that night! Isn't that a little weird?"
"Wait what?" You said, leaning more on the counter bar.
Jax replied, "You were too high or drunk or whatever to do anything so I put you in the back seat, so what? Aren't you guys forgetting we can't #%^* here?"
Everyone's jaws dropped.
"What? I know you guys tried at least-" Zooble placed corn in front of him. "Wh- What is this? Why'd you do that? Can you get that thing away from me?"
The two bickered for a moment while you were completely immersed in the thought of f#%%*>...more like the lack of.
How did Jax even know about this- never mind forget it.
Caine appeared again, "It's softball, ladies and gentlemen!"
~~~
"Beautiful night for a game, right Bubble? We've got the Big Tops playing against the Evil Big Tops!"
"Huh, looks like my evil self can't talk."
Jax rested his arm on your head, "Soon enough you're not gonna be able to talk!"
"Yeah, yeah I know."
After some people pitched and swung it was your turn. With a tight grip on the bat you swung, but Evil Pomni caught the ball.
"f#%^ yeah, that's what I'm sayin'!"
Jax walks over and grabs the softball bat from your hand and took your spot.
"Whoa why the f#%^ are you wearing that?" You laughed.
"Shut it! Ugh, I wish you couldn't talk."
"F#%^ you!" You groaned, walking back to the benches.
Pomni tilted her head, "You okay?"
"I don't know. I liked it better when I couldn't talk."
"What happened?"
"It's Jax! Before all of this he wasn't that much of an @$$hole to me. And these adventurers at one point he likes being around me and then all of a sudden pushes me off? Like...gah!"
"Why does that bother you so much?"
"I don't know." You mumbled, "It is nice to finally talk, especially to you."
Pomni giggled, "Yeah, do you think we can convince Caine to let you have the ability to talk?"
"I doubt it." You straightened up your poster and acted like nothing happened once Jax nudged himself between you and Pomni.
"Having fun?" She asked.
"Oh, you know it. Oh, look, Gangle's up to bat. How do you think this is gonna go?"
Ragatha walked up, "Would you stop trying to force the two to act like you?"
"Oh yeah, I should force Y/n and Pomni to be happy all the time instead, right."
"Well, it's better than turning them into some insensitive jerk who deflects everything!"
"Any minute now Y/n can't talk so does it matter?"
"Can you guys just stop? We're getting nowhere." You suggested.
You looked over and saw evil you talking to evil Jax.
"Huh? Oh, cool, I'm not a vegan anymore." Jax runs off towards evil Jax.
You tried to speak but time is up.
"I'm sorry, Y/n." Pomni said, "We can try to convince Caine to permanently let you talk."
You lightly shrugged, not having any hope. It was nice while it lasted I guess.
Caine teleported everyone back, "Well, I hope we all learned that suggestion box ideas are actually not fun at all, and Caine's ideas are much better!"
"Well, some of them were pretty okay." Zooble said.
Pomni took hold of your hand, "Caine? Is there a way to permanently let Y/n talk? We all enjoy it."
"Not me." Jax huffed.
"I can't do that, like I said from before, I can't control you guys!"
"But you made me vegan—" Jax stopped mid-sentence. Something is up.
~~
You've been in your room pretty much all day. Too depressed to do anything, you hate yourself for it. You thought you could be okay with the whole circus thing and not even wanting to abstract, but after some events it's pushing you more and more.
Your door unlocked, immediately looking at Jax and pointed at him to get out.
"Relax. Look, I'm sorry for being an @$$ to you yesterday. Somebody mentioned something and it made me mad."
You pointed at yourself.
"No not you." He leaned on your wall, "I do miss your annoying voice." He chuckled. "Anyway, come on out. Hate it when you're in here."
You wrote in the notebook, "why?"
"Because uh...does it matter? Come on." I can't be the cause of another abstraction, especially her.
a/n: format is weird bc i’m lazy to fix it 😭 tag list open!
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"Wake up sleepyhead!" Jax ripped the covers off of you.
You "whimpered" once the cold air sat in, waving your hand to shoo him away.
"Thought you abstracted, I'm surprised you lasted this long." He said with a coy smile.
You swung your legs off of the bed and stood up, shoving him away from you and left your room. Jax soon followed you out.
Once you arrived to the main area you overheard Ragatha teaching Gangle how to play softball.
"Oh hi Y/n! Do you want to play softball with us?"
You shook your head.
Jax picked up the softball bat, "I do!"
Gangle and Ragatha exchanged glances before finally agreeing, "Yeah..I guess." Gangle said.
"Sweet," Jax replied, getting into stance.
Gangle pitched the ball to Jax, as he swung the ball the it directly hit Gangle's comedy mask,"Oof!"
"Jax!" Ragatha yelled.
"I actually didn't mean to do that."
"Why do you always gotta do this?"
Jax walked towards Ragatha, "What? I just said it was an accident."
"Unbelievable. You are unbelievable!"
You continued to watch them argue as Zooble talked to Gangle before finally walking away.
You followed them as Ragatha and Jax followed behind you. The three of you (plus Pomni,) peaked through Zooble's room.
"What the heck is this?" He leans against the door, "You're just givin' away parts now?"
"So what if I am? I'm not giving any to YOU."
"Darn. I guess you're never gettin' that unicorn horn, Pomni."
"When did I ever say anything about that?"
Jax looked over to you, "Huh, forgot you were here."
You rolled your eyes.
"Did somebody say "adventure"?" Caine appeared.
"No...?" Pomni tilted her head.
"Today's adventure is...THE CURSE OF THE VIOLENT PSYCHOPATH BUTCHER! That's right! Scary human meat is all over the walls, and boy, is it smelly! It's up to you to--"
Pomni interrupted, "Okay, wait, wait, wait, wait. Can we, like, chill with the horror? Please? I really don't want this to be like last time."
"What happened last time? Was that the one made for me?" Zooble raised their voice.
"There was this awful, horrifying angel head thing. And when we tried to fight back at all, we got sent to Hell, where evil souls tried to infest our bodies... It was bad."
What the f#%*?
"Have you not checked the suggestion box once?" Zooble yelled.
"Gonna be real, I forgot we had that." He replied.
"We have a suggestion box?" Pomni questioned.
"Basically, no."
Caine teleported the box and dug through the notes, ""How about an adventure where Zooble gets turned into a piñata, and we all take turns beating them up?""
Jax chuckles, "That one's mine."
""Let's just have an adventure where Jax can't talk...for the entire thing.""
"Can we maybe pick one that's more... normal?" Gangle said.
"W-Well, I don't know what's NORMAL to you people! "Let's have one where we all work at a fast food place.", Is that normal?"
"Uh, yeah, that's pretty normal." She replied.
"Great! An Honest Hard Day's Work at Spudsy's Restaurant Chain! And YOU can be the shift manager!" He pointed to Gangle.
"Well, see you guys when it's over." Zooble started to walk away.
"What!" Caine yelled.
Kinger gasped, " Oh! I know! I could sit this one out, and Zooble could take my place!"
"Wh-- That's not how that works!"
"Great idea, Kinger! It'll be nice to have you back on board, Zooble."
Zooble argued back but before they could finish their sentence Caine teleported them.
You wrote in the note book, "i really don't want to do this."
"Too bad, mime." Jax pushed you through the portal.
It was nice to see everyone have different clothes on this time, and you believe you don't look too shabby yourself.
"Let's get to work, guys!" Gangle said, "Jax, it's your job to set up the drink station, make new coffee and iced tea, and fill the ice cream machine. So, get to it!"
You pointed to yourself.
"Hmm," Gangle thought, "Since you can't really talk, I guess you can put the food together!"
Of course.
"1 burger with stupid sauce!" Pomni yelled.
"Heard you loud and clear." Ragatha replied. "Gah!" She squirted the sauce in her eye. Out of curiosity you picked up the sauce and squirted a little bit into your mouth.
Ew, what kind of flavor is th-
All of a sudden it hit you. Seeing light colors, brain shutting down a bit, Oh my god.
You leaned over the silver counter, resting your head on the cold service. Jax lightly hit your cheek with the back of his hand. "What's up with you?"
Your eyes traveled from his hips all the way up to his face. He's actually kinda attractive in these new clothes. Must be the sauce.
"You look high," He laughed, "Nightmare nightmare nightmare!"
You scrunched your face and slowly sat up, feeling too dizzy you leaned onto Jax. "Hey now." He gently laid you on the floor. "I don't want to take care of you."
Gangle walked over, "Y/n! Do your jobbb!Anyway, put away that breakfast menu, because it's lunch time!"
You used Jax to stand back up, holding onto his arms. He stiffened up and lightly pushed you away.
"Oh, Ja-ax! The bathroom looks like a biohazard and needs a good scrubbin'." Gangle yelled.
"Uh, I dunno- shouldn't, like, a biohazard crew take care of that?"
She laughed, "Oh, Jaxy-boy. Don't you want to be a model employee?"
"No. I don't care about any of this. Just make Y/n clean the bathrooms!"
"Well, that doesn't really sound like a can-do attitude to me. Besides, Y/n is too high out of her mind to do anything! Maybe you two just need some more...training!"
Out of nowhere, two large hands grab you and Jax, pulling you into a dark room.
"Uh- Huh? Huh??" Jax stammered.
The hands tightened on you two, squeezing your bodies together. He's so warm. You rubbed your head on his shoulder.
"Stop doing that!"
You mouthed, "You're so warm."
"Gah!"
Suddenly, a video plays on a TV in front of you, showing Gangle talking about Spudsy's.
"Let me out! I don't want to be here!" He yelled, glancing over at you still mouthing all of your thoughts. "You're still trying to talk?!"
"F#%^ you."
He sighed, "Yeah, expected that one."
Finally after excruciating minutes later, the two of you were finally let go, planting onto the floor. He got up, looking down at your laying body. He sighed and threw you over his shoulder.
Jax laid you down in the booth and walked back into the kitchen, looking up at the clock. "Oh, are you KIDDING ME?! Hey, Gangle! I think the clock's broken."
You sat up in the booth and overheard Jax talking to Pomni.
"Y/n is high or something. Her and Ragatha."
"Is she okay?"
"I don't care about Ragatha."
"No, I meant is Y/n okay?"
He stayed silent for a bit, "Yeah." He whispered.
" Jax!" Gangle shouted, "There's dishes back here! You got time to lean, you got time to clean!"
"Ugh, God... I'm on it!"
At some point you ended up falling asleep in the booth, only to get woken up by Jax. "Let's go." He picked you up and threw you over his shoulder yet again. You softly tried to fight back but he didn't budge, just say "Stop it."
He threw you in the back seat before getting in the front. He sighed and looked at you in the rear view mirror. "Where am I even driving to?" He mumbled.
~~
A hesitant knock was on the other side of your bedroom door.
"Uh hello? Y/n?" Pomni said.
You got out of the bed and dragged your feet, opening the door to see Pomni with her wide red and blue eyes. "Oh thank god you're okay, I was worried."
You cocked your head.
"You just got really high during the adventure and saw Jax taking you to his car. Just wanted to make sure you're okay."
You gave her a comforting smile and walked out, walking with her to the main area.
Back on regular schedule, everyone gathered around the table again to eat digital sausage and bacon. You sat down between Pomni and Zooble, and was waiting for Jax to sit across from you, like he always does.
But this time he sat far away. You chewed on your lip. God why am I so upset over this? Get over it!...Must be the hangover from the sauce.
You debated about it for a minute or two, and then finally gave in. You grabbed the digital plate and walked over to sit across Jax. You didn't make any facial expression once you sat down, just continued to "eat" like nothing happened so you don't feel the embarrassment and the possible humbleness.
Jax glared at you, but soften his look. He slightly smiled to himself. "Did you get sad that I didn't sit across from you? You sure are clingy." He rested his arms on the table, giving you that same, cocky grin. He let himself get too close to you.
Your lips curled into a small smile, flipping him off in a playful way.
"I take that as a yes."
Thank god he's not mad at me.
Caine appeared out of thin air, with Bubble floating beside of him.
"Alright everyone! Im going to be busy so today is going to be a free day! You can do anything! Just don't go to the void, or any exit sign."
"We're going on a date." Bubble stuck his tongue out.
You turned your attention back to Jax, then tapped his hand so he can pay attention to you.
"What?" He looked a tad annoyed.
You shrugged your shoulders, made a X with your fingers, then used the same fingers to make a walking motion, meaning "Why no exit?"
"Beats me. We all asked that same question." He stood up from his chair but leaned onto the table so he's closer to you, and talked in a low voice, "Let me guess, you want to leave?"
You inaudibly gulped and made a "somewhat" sign with your hand.
He sat back down in his seat with a thud. "Are you trying?"
You felt uncomfortable, just staring at him. Eventually you answered his question, shaking your head no, but Jax had a hunch that youre going to try it, or is already trying.
About a split second later you got up from the chair and started walking away but Jax grabbed your arm, "Follow me,"
Jax led you to the hole that you orginally fell in days ago. He let go of your hand and turned around, giving you that same cheshire grin. "Go in."
You rolled your eyes, getting ready to jump in until you felt a push,
You mouthed, "Jax you b@$t3rd!" God I wish he could hear that. You landed quietly, with Jax sliding down right behind you.
"Fun wasn't it?" He laughed.
Not really. You got up and dusted off your clothes, mocking a smile.
"Oh come on you loved it. If you didn't then why would you come down here?"
That f^€|!ng smile. Your eyes rolled.
"Come on, let's play pool. I would make someone else play it with me but..I don't really like any of them. Plus I don't even think Zooble or Gangle can even play pool." He laughed to himself.
You stood there awkwardly, didn't know how to play. You know the rules, get your balls in the hole, but didn't know how to hold the cue sticks correctly.
Jax sat up the balls in the triangle order, and grabbed one cue stick, and then threw the other one to you.
Thankfully you caught it and then walked over to the pool table, standing across from Jax.
"I'm going first. I can always put it in first try."
He leaned over and held the front end of the stick with his left hand, and his right was gripping the bottom end.
Since he's the one that's breaking the triangle shape, he didn't have to measure or anything, just hit the white ball. The ball hit the other ones, and a stripped one went in the corner hole. Jax smirked, walking over to where it would be an easy success for the white ball to hit a stripe. To your surprise, he was actually good. He hit every single ball until he missed one. So now he only has 3 balls left.
"The cue slipped, thats all." He huffed. "Anyway mime, your turn."
You gave him a worrisome thumbs up and walked over to the white ball. You watched how he holds the stick and you definitely didn't want to ask for help.
You sighed and bent over like how he did, and held the cue stick. But it was hard for you to balance it. How the f^€| did he do this.
You ended up hitting the green cloth instead of the white ball, you mentally face palmed. Jax was practically in tears. "How did you managed to do that?" Jax slapped his knee.
You turned to him and shrugged your shoulders, pointing to the pool table.
Jax had to dramatically catch his breath. "Wait, you don't know how to hold it?"
A flush crept across your cheeks, shaking your head.
"Finnne, let me teach you." Jax dropped his cue stick and walked over to you, awkwardly getting behind.
"Basically you bend down to where your face is practically touching the rim of the table," He put his hands on your back, lightly forcing you to bend down. "Which one is your dominant hand?"
You lifted up your dominant hand, to which he grabbed and put it on the back end of the stick, his hand still on top of yours. "You're going to use this hand to push, and the other," your and his other hand was holding the front part of the stick, "hand is going to hold the stick so it's easier to line it up with the white ball."
Since you both was holding the stick and bent down, your a$$ was touching his groin.
Kill me now.
Jax didn't realize the position that you guys was in until he felt your @$$ on him, he wasn't complaining, but he didn't meant for it to happen.
You tried clearing your throat to make it not awkward. Well $h|t
"So once you measure it, you push the stick." Once the white ball started rolling you guys quickly got out of that position. The ball hit the red fully colored ball into the hole.
"Told you I can put it in first try." He winked.
You flipped him off and leaned against the wall. "You have to go again." He put one hand on his hip.
You rolled your eyes and got in that position again, hitting the white ball to the full colored one but missed the hole.
The two of you went at it for some time. "So," Jax started, "Do you remember anything from your past?"
You answered "somewhat" with your hand.
"Like what?"
You pointed to your mouth.
"Charades? I'm also pretty good at it." He grinned.
You put your cue stick down and thought about it. You put your hands up and made a mouth with your fingers, making both hands "yell" at each other.
"Uhhh people yelling?"
You nodded.
"Parents?"
You shrugged, but youre thinking that's what might be it. You then did the "mime" cry where they ball their fist and make a "boo-hoo" motion.
"You were a cry baby?"
You glared at him, but then nodded. You hugged herself and shivered.
"You were cold all the time?"
This @$$hole.
You did it again, then added the yelling, then crying.
"Oh, scared?"
You stopped what you were doing and nodded your head, grabbing the cue stick again.
"You must remember a lot because I barely remember what my life was like."
You shook your head and pointed to your temple.
"The emotions of your past?" He grabbed his cue stick as well.
How the h3$& did he guess that?
You nodded as you got in the position again to hit the balls, in which you still didn't succeed.
Jax focused on you, not on your form of playing pool, but focused more on your face. Your lips trembled a bit, and your blinking increased like you was trying to hold back tears.
You slightly remember how you never talked to anyone, you were often pushed to the side or forgotten. Now it sucks because A: you dont remember the exact events, and B: you can't talk anymore and is easily forgotten because you can't make any sound.
Jax got up since it was his turn to play, and he ended up missing a perfect shot because he wasn't focused on the pool game. After that weak shot, he walked over to you and patted your back once or twice, "There, there."
You slowly looked up at him and tried not to laugh, but ended up silently laughing.
"I can't tell if you're laughing or crying." He joked, he can see your full smile, chest moving like how a normal person would laugh. He never saw you laugh until now. "By the way...do you remember anything at Spudsy's? You were really high."
You made a "eh" face.
Jax laughed, "You were so annoying. At one point you kept nuzzling me or something!"
You covered your face with your hands.
"Can't wait to tell everyone!"
You frantically shook your head no.
"Awh, now I'm sad that you don't want me to tell anyone! Too bad, because I already told them!"
You lost count of how many days it's been since you got here. Everything stays the same, even the clock in your room. Sometimes you think this is your personal hell after potentially committing suicide.
Everyone sat down for lunch while you stared off into the distance, almost like the 1000 yard stare.
"You're quieter than usual." Jax said as he sat across of you. You shot him a look.
"Oh right." Jax's cheshire grin gotten bigger, "Just use the pen and paper Ribbons got you."
Ah $h^*, I didn't bring it with me.
Ragatha sat down beside of you, whispering, "Are you okay? Kinger told me you asked him a lot of questions about abstracting."
You quickly dismissed it by giving Ragatha a thumbs up.
"Abstracting? Why the h€|| are you asking about that?" Jax's eyebrows furrowed.
You shrugged.
"I think she's just curious and wants to learn about it. I think everyone should know about it to prevent them from going insane." Ragatha explained.
Zooble chimed in with a hint of sarcasm in their voice, "Are you going to be a 988 call now?"
"Well..no but that does give me an idea!"
Caine floated to the table, "Enough of this 988 call and abstraction, let's just eat! Since everyone keeps talking about abstracting, you guys have to perform your own acts tonight before dinner! So between now and then, go practice! It'll keep you busy!" Caine winked before disappearing.
"How is Y/n gonna perform?" Kinger asked.
"Mime." Jax replied, looking over at you rolling your eyes.
"That's all you do huh?" He chuckled.
"That's the only thing she can do, Jax." Zooble hissed.
"Yeah, yeah whatever. I'm going to practice my act." Jax put quotation marks around "act", meaning he's not going to practice it and just wing it on stage.
Minutes later everyone started coming up with ideas for their acts. Kinger was thinking about singing opera, Ragatha was going to dance, Gangle was going to say that Hamlet monologue, "To be or not to be," and Zooble and Pomni didn't know what they were going to do. Zooble flat out didn't want to do it, Pomni was too stressed out to do anything. Jax was just staring at everyone making a fool of themselves (his exact words).
However his eyes gazed at you sitting alone in a dark corner (shocker to find because everything is so bright). You brought your knees to your chest, although your eyes was open it didn't look like you was staring at anything. You gotten some form of flashback to where pre-digital circus you was sitting in a corner, hearing people yelling and screaming at each other. At that moment, you were thankful that you escaped the old environment.
Jax kept watching you, he thought it was strange that youre the only human that didn't freak out within the first 5 minutes of them arriving. He never saw a person be so quiet and act "normal." Sure, you can't talk, or make noise, but even him noticing that you was acting fine about this whole thing so fast is unusual. To his knowledge, you accepted it so fast, (and it's true), but he doesn't know why.
"It's not a big deal." He mumbled quietly to himself, but he couldn't get his mind off of it. He shook that feeling off and walked over to you. "Is this your act?" He looked down.
You slowly looked up at him and nodded with a sorrow look on your face. Jax ended up snickering, not at you this time, but genuinely laughed.
His laughter was different than the laughter he gives off whenever he's degrading, or flat out being a nuisance. The way he laughed his eyes squinted and his grin wasn't sadistic-like. "I got to admit, you actually made me laugh a little."
You looked up at him again, a touched of a smile. Jax had to take a double look, he never saw you smile because of him. Jax didn't want you and the others to think he gone soft, so he teased you a bit.
"First time I saw you smile, am I that dreamy?" He flattered himself.
You pulled out the paper and pen and wrote "no" before showing him.
His sly smile dropped, "You didn't have to do that, you could've shook your head."
You stuck your tongue out playfully.
Jax didn't want to go soft, especially towards you, or even anyone. He wants to keep his superiority, his ego, he doesn't want to go through that again.
Caine interrupted this moment, "Alright ladies and gents and they/thems! It's time for our performance!" He did a flip in the air. "Who wants to go first!"
You eagerly stood up and practically pushed Jax out the way and raised your hand.
"Okay! Y/n is up!"
You swiftly made your way to the stage and examine everyone. You then came up with the idea on the spot and pretend to fake cry, then put on a broad smile and pointed your finger in the air as in you had an idea.
You sat on the floor and rocked yourself back and forth, practically tweaking at this point to indicate you gone crazy in your act. The back and forth abruptly came to a stop and you laid flat on your back.
Jax was the only one clapping, the others was horrified. You got up and bowed, then quickly ran off stage. You stopped dead in your tracts once you were out of eye sight.
How the f^€| do I even abstract? Am I even crazy enough to even do so?
Jax on the other hand, was watching Kinger do his act, opera. The rabbit wasn't too thrilled and became bored, so he got the bright idea to follow you. He doesn't care what Caine will do to him if he doesn't perform, he knows it's going to be a weak punishment like organizing shapes.
Jax walked down the long hallway, glancing at the others room with their faces marked out.
"Hate, hate, hate," He mumbled as he saw Gangles face, "Absolutely loathed."
His eyes finally reached the mime's face. He put his ear to the door and didn't hear anything, "Oh right, forgot."
Jax flipped through the keys and unlocked your door. You flinched because you wasn't expecting a visitor, let alone Jax.
Jax saw you sitting on the ground, knees to your chest rocking back and forth. His eyebrow raised because this looked exactly like your previous act.
You stood up and pointed to the door, eyebrows furrowed.
"Relax, I'm not here to bother you." He put his hands up in defense.
Then what do you want? You cocked your head.
"Just coming here to tell you that was a great performance." He slowly clapped. You couldn't tell if he was being genuine so you gave him an awkward smile and did a thumbs up.
Jax was actually annoyed that you can't speak. He's always wondering how things would be different if you can talk. Would they be friends? Are you mean? Do you have a pretty voice? Manly? He wants to ask you complex questions because he's genuinely interested in you, but he knew he can only get a smile, frown, raised eyebrows, and flipping him off from you with the occasional writing on paper.
"What were ya doing in here? Feeling crazy yet?"
You didn't "say" anything. You pulled out the pen and paper and wrote, "sorta" on it before showing Jax.
He became skeptic, but chose to not care. He has to NOT care. "I'm gonna go take a nap. Don't bother me." Jax said right before he slammed your door closed.
~~
You woke up later than usual. It is hard with this pitch black room to determine if it's day or night. Very forgettable.
You shuffled your feet out of your room and down to the main area to see Pomni's face switch colors.
"Oh look, Mime is here." Jax pointed.
Pomni exhaled before inhaling again, "Why am I the only one doing this?"
"Because something different happens to each person! For instance, Kinger starts glowing... Ragatha's hair noodles stick up... Gangle's mask starts spinning... and Zooble turns straight." Jax smirked.
"What? My arms turn—f*#% it."
"What about you, Y/n?" Gangle asked.
You shrugged, not necessarily wanting to try it.
"Please go, because I don't want to be the only one doing this." Pomni huffed.
You sighed before taking a deep breath in.
Everyone watched closely as you slowly became more and more transparent before you're completely invisible.
"Holy $#^%!" Jax laughed, "Invisible!"
You gasped for air, hands resting on your knees to catch your breath.
"I guess that'll come in handy one day?" Pomni giggled.
Great, forgettable.
Caine instantly appeared above your head, "Why is everybody just standing around when there's ADVENTURE to be had? Today's adventure is... The Mystery of Mildenhall Manor! That's right! This big, spooky mansion has been rumored to be filled to the brim with paranormal activity! It's up to you to solve the house's deep mysteries and capture all the ghoulish ghost activity you can. And for the first time ever, you can...Where's Zooble? I-I made this adventure really cool for them!"
Oh lord not ghosts.
Pomni spoke up, "The NPCs aren't gonna become self-aware in this one, right?"
"How should I know? I'm not the boss. Oh wait -- yes, I am! Anyway, everybody into the fractal noise. It's adventuring time!"
~~
A look of disgust crossed your face.
"Oh, this place is spooky. I wonder how hard Caine's gonna go with the scare-factor?" Ragatha questioned.
"I hope this adventure doesn't end up being another horrible nightmare. I'm not really a fan of horror, and I don't really handle jumpscares that well." Pomni replied.
"Boo!" Jax yelled, startling both you and Pomni, "Ah so you CAN get scared!" He ruffled your hair.
You groaned while shoving him away from you.
"Oh how I wish you could talk." He batted his eyelashes.
"Leave her alone, Jax." Ragatha said, "I feel like I'm always telling you that...What was that noise?"
You hate ghost—
"Hi everyone! My name is Ghostly!"
Jax nudged your shoulder, "I never seen you so scared before." He smirked, "Ghost isn't your type of thing huh?"
You gritted your teeth.
Ghostly spoke again, "Before you continue on your adventure, you have to choose which door you're gonna go through! The door on the left is the NORMAL door! The door on the right is the really scary door. It's up to you to deci--" Ghostly screamed as you sucked him up with the vacuum.
Jax's jaw dropped, "Never saw that comin'! Good job mime!"
"Y/n! Why did you do that!" Ragatha yelled.
You pulled out the notebook and a pencil, writing "I f%*<>*!< HATE ghosts."
Gangle stepped closer to the group, "Uhh... which door should we choose?"
"Hmm, not sure. Let's try this out." Jax grabs Gangle's comedy mask and throws through the scary door.
"Aww..." She frowned.
"Don't worry, Gangle! I'll get it for you!" Kinger dives through the door, pulling Pomni in with him.
"I'm sure they'll be fine...right?" Ragatha asked.
"It's a Caine adventure, I doubt it's dangerous." Jax huffed.
Gangle pointed to the other door, "Should we go through that one?
You shook your head, you didn't want to do any of this at all. You despised ghosts. Worst part about this fear is that you don't know why you have it in the first place. Growing up you were just afraid of them, even the ones that look "cute."
You stood in place, watching the others walked through the door. Ragatha turned her head and held her hand out, "You're going to be fine I promise! I doubt it's gonna be scary."
~~
Great. Stuck in a hallway maze.
Everyone else got separated on accident...more like Jax ran off and scared Ragatha and Gangle. You were too far behind to even recognize what was going on.
Worse part? You can't even shout for help, they can't hear you. Plus side, you can vaguely hear them yelling out names, so all you have to do is follow their voices.
Another dead end...I can't even hear them anymore. F#%*.
You slid your back down against the wall and planted on the ground, no noise to be heard from you. Alone, forgotten, unnoticed. You hate this. Always having problems with these specific things and now you literally became that. Can't talk, can't make noise, hell turn invisible when you hold your breath.
Even when you cry it's silent. You're "yelling" out of frustration and screaming bloody murder.
"Jesus, you're crying like Gangle." Jax stood right over you.
Your face wet with tears looked up at him, eyebrows and lips curved downward.
"Never seen ya this sad before. Is this because we all left you?"
You stared at him, not changing any facial expressions.
"Oh get a grip. I found a way out and I already know what you're saying, yes Ragatha and Gangle made their way out, and yes, they made me come find you. By the way, very hard. Now come on." He held his hand out, but you refused to take it or even stand up.
Jax groaned, "Are you that terrified of ghosts?"
You slowly nodded.
"The more you stay here the bigger the chances of a ghost appearing...where's that vacuum anyway?"
$h*+
You stood up and closely followed behind him as he navigated through the maze. "Why were you crying anyway?"
You can't explain all of it in writing, too complicated, especially right now since the two of you is trying to leave the maze. "We're here." Jax opened the door, immediately getting greeted by Ragatha, Gangle, and-
Another f%*+^% ghost?!
You tensed your body up, holding in your breath.
"Right, I forgot you can do that." Jax commented.
You let go of your breath and stood back against the wall. Sure, this ghost is a very pretty woman, but she's still a ghost.
"Why hello! Sorry to have frightened you! My name is Martha Mildenhall! Come eveyrone sit down for tea! And a story about this place."
You hesitantly walked over to the table and sat the farthest away from her. Jax (being an @$$hole) sat right beside of you.
Ragatha looked over, "I'm so relieved that you found your way! We were so worried."
You slightly smiled.
Gangle giggled, "Especially Jax. He's the one that volunteered to find you."
You looked over at Jax and tilted your head. Seriously?
Jax glared at Gangle. "No I didn't!"
She winced, "I'm sorry! It just slipped out! I wasn't—"
Jax ran over to Gangle and tackled her. Everyone shouted while you stared at the commotion. Did he seriously volunteered himself? What is this guys deal? Does he hate being around me or not?
"That's enough!" Martha shouted out. With a snap of her fingers Jax got tied up with duct tape on his mouth, sitting on a wagon. His shouts was finally muffled. "I'm so sorry about that. He sure is something." Martha giggled. "It's time to finally hear my story and how I ended up like this."
Hearing this story and that's when it hit you all of a sudden, it's not specifically ghosts, it's just the dead. That's what's making you feel so uneasy, it's basically like being around a corpse. You shivered and sank more into your chair.
Jax finally stopped struggling and glanced your way. He could tell that you were about to have another breakdown again. He's thinking to himself, "d@&$, she really hates ghosts."
"Sorry again about your husband killing you and everything." Ragatha said.
"Oh, you know how men are. Always having the silliest priorities."
Ragatha chuckles, "Don't I know it."
"If your friends see him, I only hope he doesn't bore them to death with his endless monologues. That man could turn a 57-second story into a Greek tragedy."
"I'll be sure to ask them next time I see 'em. Thanks again for the tea. I had a really nice time here." She stood up and smiled.
"Don't mention it. Feel free to visit anytime."
Ragatha pulled Jax out the door with the wagon as you and Gangle follows from behind. "Definitely!"
After leaving through the exit door Caine appeared, "Congratulations, my little ironclad waffle cones! You've taken the pacifist route, and you should be proud of what good people you are! Unfortunately, we still need to wait until your other teammates finish their adventure before I can grant you permission to leave!" Caine disappeared yet again.
I'm stuck here until they finish?
You were the first one to sit on the floor, then Ragatha and Gangle. Jax was begging with his eyes at you to undo the ropes.
Ragatha and Gangle continued to talk to each other about stuff that you didn't necessarily care about. Jax kept looking at you and then the other end of the hallway. With an arched brow you slowly stood up.
"Where are you going?" Ragatha asked.
You grabbed onto the wagon handle and pulled Jax all the way to the very end of this very long hallway. Far enough to where you can barely hear the other two.
You ripped off the duct tape from Jax's mouth. "Ow! F%^* that hurt! Thanks for rolling me away, I can't stand those two."
You sighed and scribbled in the notebook before shoving it in his face, "You used me for that?...You catch on quick!" He laughed.
His laughter quiet down once he saw your lip was quivering. "You're not so emotionally stable today. When that ghost woman was telling her story you looked like you were about to cry. What's up with that?"
You tried to write it out on paper but it was no use. Whatever you write it's just going to get overlooked at. It's not the same as talking. Finally, you just wrote down, "Uncomfortable with corpses."
"Sheesh, you acted like you've been around a corpse haha!...oh $h*^...where?"
"in the real world"
"Yeah, I don't know what to say to that. Sorry or whatever."
As you flipped him off you put the duct tape right back on his mouth and rolled him to where the others are. Right when you parked the wagon Pomni and Kinger finally showed up.
Ragatha stood up, "Oh, Pomni! Kinger! Are you guys okay? Was it scary?"
"I'm fine, actually." Pomni looked over at Jax, "What happened up here?"
description: (Jax x Reader) Like everyone else, you got transformed into the Digital Circus and you just so happened to have a mime avatar. Mimes can't talk right? Can't talk about complex feelings, or hold an actual conversation, you and Jax have a LOT in common. Including abstractions.
notes: comment to be added to tag list! 4 chapters already posted on wattpad, “blue_albarn”
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Chapter 1: Ah $##^, I Can’t Speak
You felt like you've blacked out for days but it was only 3 seconds before you could flutter your eyes opened.
A red curtain was in front of you with loud, children-like-tunes coming from the other side. Looks like a theater...where am I?
With shaky footsteps you peaked through the curtains and saw 6 other players, not exactly human.
There was floating teeth and eyes but he had a body and looked like a ring master from a circus.
You opened your mouth to say f$€\ but nothing came out. Confused, you tried saying hello but again, nothing.
You started to panic as you looked around once more and saw a reflection in a mirror. You began to think your eyes were deceiving you so you walked closer to the mirror, still standing behind the curtain. Your jaw dropped, this can't be me...right?
Face was painted white, with 2 straight dark lines from your forehead to the bottom of where your eyes were. Nose was painted red and your lips had some sort of permanent black lipstick. Your hair stayed the same but it was black like how a typical mimes hair would look. Im a %*<€ mime.
You walked closer to the mirror accidentally bumping into it, making the mirror dramatically shatter. The noise was like one of those stock audios of glass shattering.
You stood still once the curtains opened up. Everyone was already looking at your way. Some looked annoyed, others showed sympathy, and a few looked scared.
The moving teeth and eyes guy floated to you, almost knocking you over.
"Why hello! Welcome to The Amazing Digital Circus!"
You froze, didn't know what to say even if you could talk.
"I'm Caine, the ringleader! And you must be?" He pointed his staff to you as you looked at the others, still very much confused.
"Caine she probably forgot her name, like how we all did." The rabbit crossed his arms.
"Oh right." Caine put his hand underneath his mouth that acted like a chin. "What do you want your new name to be! It can't be-"
You slowly backed away as Caine was speedily running through the terms and conditions before sighing. You tried to tell him what you want your name to be but like from before, you literally can't talk.
"Oh God! She can't speak!" A king chess player threw his hands in distressed.
"Hmm yeah that's going to be a problem." Caine scratched his back with his cane.
"She has to do mime stuff." The rabbit smiled, as if he wasn't already smiling.
You glared at him, soon turning your attention back to the matter of the problem, you can't speak.
You mouthed your new name, but nobody was getting it. If you could speak everyone would hear you groan.
"Let's just pick Y/n." The shapes and colors one spoke.
"Y/n it is!" Caine shot up. "Well everyone! The daily adventure has changed! Originally you guys would had to run and find my worlds smallest violin, but now you have to show Y/n around!" Caine pointed at you.
You didn't know what to feel, scared, angry, confused? You stared at everyone because that's the only thing you can do. Didn't even know if this was real or not, couldn't exactly tell if this is a dream or if youre actually in this world.
"Good thing she can't make a noise, or she'll be annoying by screaming. No offense Pomni." The rabbit said.
"Uh..none taking."
You saw the one made out of shapes leave, didn't exactly know their name and didn't even know how to ask her name, same with the others. You would have to rely on other people saying each other's names, like how with Caine and Pomni.
The comedy mask- well now it's a crying mask because the rabbit pushed it out of nowhere- picked up her broken mask. "Jax! This time you did it on purpose so don't even say it's an accident!" She cried out.
Right so the jack@$$ is Jax. Great.
"It was an accident, I just tripped." He smiled, looking at his gloved hand like he was checking his nails.
"Jax leave Gangle alone."
Ah, now I know some of their names.
"I'm sorry about him, I'm Ragatha, that's Gangle, Pomni, Kinger, Jax, and Zooble." The doll walked over to you, in which you just wave, making Jax hysterically laugh.
"Oh my god, this is going to be the funniest thing ever."
"What is?" Ragatha questioned.
"A mime doing mime things!"
"It's really not that funny.." Pomni quietly said.
"You have no sense of humor." He huffed.
You wanted to ask questions, it was killing you. To make matters worse you didn't know how to even mime things. You wanted to ask if there's a way to leave.
"Well come on! Let's show Y/n around!" Ragatha lead the way, followed by everyone else. You just stood there, debating on either running away or following them.
The others didn't realize that you weren't following, they just kept going, so you turned around and started to walk the other way. You didn't necessarily wanted to be around with those "people" because there was no way of communicating, you was just...there, not knowing how to ask complex questions. You're just left alone in the metaphorical dark.
You ended up wandering in this hallway of some sort, with doors lining up on either side. As you were walking each door had faces on it, and some doors had faces that were marked out.
Bedrooms?
You looked carefully at each one, trying to find yours. You saw Jax's door, and then yours was sadly right beside of his.
It was a mime face, not exactly your face. The only thing you remembered about your life was your looks and the feelings of uneasiness, loneliness, and remembering that you didn't want to be there anymore.
Frankly, you honestly don't mind being here if it means you wouldn't ever have to go home again. It's still a mystery to you as in what exactly happened, just feeling all the emotions.
But it's killing you on the fact you can't ask questions. You still wanted to ask how did you get here and what did you do, but you couldn't communicate other than "miming."
Once you came to a conclusion that you can't mime complex questions, you inaudibly sighed and opened your door, silently shouting because Jax startled you.
"Nice room, very dark."
You had to exaggerate all of your body language to even remotely communicate. You made a "what the f^(|" face and thank god that Jax isn't stupid.
"I got everyone's key, and let's just say, your room is by far the stupidest."
He wasn't wrong, the entire walls, floors, decorations, bed, it's all the color black. It looks so sad and uneasy in there.
"Oh by the way, did you get lost or something? To be honest since you can't talk and your footsteps are silent, you're easy to ignore and we- well more like I- forgot you were here until we walked past your room. The others kept going thinking they're giving you a tour, but I made a pit stop."
Your eye twitched.
"Anyway, your room is making me want to scream, so I'm gonna go now." He closed your door, leaving you alone.
Once it settled, that dreaded feeling of loneliness washed over you. You can't decide if it was because you got stuck here or if it was the lingering feelings of real life before you got stuck.
Your breathing picked up, leaving your room and bumping into no other than Caine.
"Hey there champ! How are you liking this place!" He waited for your reply. "Oh right you can't speak." You rolled your eyes. "Anyway! Bedtime is soon so you have to stay in your room!"
You tilted your head and made a walking motion with your fingers. Please don't be stupid.
"I don't want anyone getting hurt! Would that make me a bad leader if I let you guys get hurt?"
You shook your head.
"Hmm...technically you can't get hurt...just stay out of trouble if you don't want to stay in your room."
After he smiled with his huge teeth he disappeared within a second.
If you could make a noise everyone would hear you scream out of frustration. You tried punching the wall but even then, no sound. Comes in handy I guess. At least I'm allowed to hear my thoughts.
Out of curiosity, you opened your bedroom door and shuts it, realizing that when you do things, it's quiet, like shutting a door, but when Jax does it you could hear the door shut.
~
You didn't know how long you was laying in your bed for. The clock on the wall didn't move, it stayed constantly at 9:30, AM or PM, you didn't know. You tried sleeping, like closing your eyes, daydreaming, but you couldn't get that satisfaction of drifting off to sleep. Your eyes stayed open as you gazed upon the ceiling.
The morning alarm went off, startling you but realized the song was "Crazy Frog."
What the f^(|?
You opened your door and saw everyone leave their rooms. Some of them were talking to each other, like Gangle and Kinger, Ragatha and Pomni, but the others just kept silent. You followed behind everyone, not knowing what to do next.
You tapped on Kinger's shoulder to get his attention.
"Gah! Oh sorry, you startled me." Kinger looked at you, waiting for you to speak but youre trying to come up with how youre going to mime, "What are we going to do"
Finally you pointed at everyone and then shrugged.
It took him a few moments and then finally answered. "Ah! We usually eat breakfast, adventure or games, lunch, free time, dinner, free time, and then sleep! It's good to keep a schedule so we can stay sane!"
Sane?
The schedule wasn't that bad, at least you will know that there's stuff to do everyday, but it's going to be monotonous. Having to do the same thing, over and over again.
"Hello everyone! Breakfast by your chef, Bubble!" Caine floated and pointed at well...a bubble.
Your jaw dropped a bit, but this doesn't actually surprise you because you experienced all sorts of weird things within 24 hours.
You eyed everyone's reactions, and it seems they're used to this by now, except for Pomni of course who was still shaken up and scared.
Since you can easily relate to Pomni, and talked to Kinger earlier, you sat between the two and stared at the digital pancakes that looks rubbery. Everyone else was happily eating except for you and Pomni. The jester was picking at her food, debating whether or not she should eat it.
"Why are we eating like it's the last supper?" Jax huffed.
"Last supper?!" Kinger shouted, startling Gangle.
"Not an actual last supper, the one in the Bible where Jesus and his disciples sat on one side of the table." You looked over Jax, watching him get up and sitting directly across from you.
You kinda felt weirded out, feeling sceptic. Didn't know why he chose to sit across from you, but Jax kept that usual smile and looked at you.
Conformity took place and everyone else changes their seats to sit across from the others, Gangle and Kinger, Pomni and Ragatha, but Zooble just stayed in their spot.
You inaudibly hissed as you felt an aching pain on your leg, while Jax was laughing. You glared and made a "why" face as to why he kicked you.
"It was an accident mime, I have long legs." He smirked.
With the confused look you pointed to Jax's original seat and then pointed to his new seat, mentally asking "then why did you move all the way over here."
"I need change in my life." He shrugged, having that smug look on his face.
You flipped him off, but the word "Censor" covered it up.
"There's no need to censor that since everyone knows what that means." Zooble spoke.
"Are you questioning my rules!" Caine pointed his staff at them.
Zooble rolled their eyes, "No, just stating the facts."
"Lots of sass going on! You deserve punishment!" Caine shouted, not necessarily in an angry way, just assertive.
"Oh yeah like what?" Zooble stood up, but Caine was floating so he was still above them.
"Cleaning!" He pointed his finger in the air, other arm on his hip.
"Oh Lord." Zooble sighed.
You pointed at Jax and then your leg, mentally asking "How come Jax didn't get in trouble".
"Oh wow you're good at miming." Caine spoke. "Oh right, Jax, you help clean."
"Hey now, mime over here flipped me off, shouldn't she clean as well?" He tilted his head at her.
"Hmmmmm," He kept going, "I suppose!"
You gave Jax a "Go to hell" look, in which he just smiled politely.
The others were dismissed to work on an adventure together while you, Zooble, and Jax being left behind to "clean." Originally there was nothing to clean since it is a digital circus. So, Caine spilled black goo everywhere around the dinner table and made the three of you clean it up.
"I'm going to sit this one out." Jax sat down on a bean bag chair that appeared out of nowhere.
"Jax, come help. If you do then the faster we get done."
"Fineee. I'll help since you two desperately need me."
You ignored the bickering and just kept sweeping around the place, being alone with your thoughts. Usually you hate it, but you can't hear your own voice now, so hearing it in your thoughts keeps you grounded.
"Y/n take out the trash since you're new here." Zooble threw the trash bag at you, making you lose your balance and fall silently.
"You can't even fall without making a noise?" Jax laughed.
You stood up and pointed to the bag, dramatically shrugging as in you didn't know where to put it.
"Jax go show her, I'm done around here." Zooble walked off.
"No." He walked the other way, leaving you clueless about where to even put this. You groaned silently and picked up the yellow trash bag before you started to walk.
You kept walking and found a black hole that lead to nowhere, just a plain black hole sitting on the ground.
F^€| it whatever.
You tried to throw it in there, but ended up falling with it, screaming silently and landed with a silent thud. You "groaned" and your eyes opened, it was like a man cave of some sort with neon lights and a magenta couch.
Who owns this? You got up and dusted yourself off.
"Trash doesn't go here." Jax stood in front of you, crossing his arms.
You raised an eyebrow and pointed to the hole above them, which was now gone.
"We like holes." He smirked, but you just stared deadpanned with your arms crossed.
"I'm joking jeez. You know, I actually like talking to you because I just get to hear only my voice and not yours."
You were starting to get annoyed with this guy. No matter how much you try to stay away from him you two always end up together in the same room, or even stuck in a conversation.
You pointed to yourself and then pointed to the hole that was originally there.
"Oh, you have to use the escalator,"
You didn't make any sort of facial or body language and just started walking to it, with Jax following behind you. You rolled your eyes even though he couldn't see.
You were about to step foot but got pushed out the way by him, "I like being the leader, sorry."
Once the two of you arrived you quickly got away from him. Jax was starting to get annoyed by this, he genuinely likes talking to you because you cant talk, keeps him entertained.
"Where are you going?" He shouted since you were halfway across from him, but all you did was shrug.
"Don't go dropping into holes!" he smiled widely with his teeth.
You flipped him off since that was the easiest way to communicate, then ran away.
Jax kept an eye on you until you left his eyesight. He sighed and started walking away, back to that cave he always goes to.
~~
Since you can't speak, all you do is think to yourself and have conversations in your mind. It's quite nice sometimes.
Your thoughts got interrupted once you ran into Kinger.
"AHH! Hello."
You smiled and waved.
"How are you liking it here? Don't tell me, did you go crazy!" He looked distressed.
You made a "ehh" face, using your hand to make "somewhat".
Before Kinger could answer a scream was heard, followed by him screaming.
Why are you screaming? You raised an eyebrow.
The screams and cry's for help didn't stop, Kinger followed the screams, with you following behind him.
Pomni was beating her head against the wall, screaming how much she wants out of here and that it's driving her crazy. Your eyes widened out of fear as you slowly gotten closer to Pomni. Although you don't know much about her, you wanted to her help her.
Caine teleported to the scene, grabbed Pomni as she was still screaming bloody murder, and left again in a split second.
You looked at Kinger with eyes wide open, "Oh yeah, whenever somebody mentions how much they want to leave, or starts having a crisis, they go to this colorful padded room and have activities to prevent you from going insane, as well as Caine being your therapist!" He proudly said.
You pointed at him, eyebrow cocked. "I've been in there multiple times, and it seems to work! Only temporarily." He quietly said the last part, but then perked up. "But! It's great to have so it can prevent us from abstracting."
Abstracting? Is this the whole part about keeping sane? You wanted to ask questions but don't know how. You sighed and was trying to come up with a way to ask.
You waved your arms around and then shrugged, mentally asking "What's abstracting?"
"It's where a person goes crazy and abstracts. It happened to our good friend recently." Kinger didn't exactly answer your questions. "Oh god!" He wailed. You patted his back, Guess he misses his friend.
Kinger calmed down, "You're right you're right, there's nothing we can do."
You did the motion again from before.
"Basically when a person abstracts, they turn into this weird, glitchy monster with eyes all over. It looks scary to most people but...what was I saying?"
You tilted your head, and scratched the side of it to indicate saying, "What happens to them?"
"Caine usually puts them in the cellar, but we don't know if they're aware what's happening or if they're in a coma of some sort. Caine usually never tells us."
You shrugged your shoulders, indicating "How?"
It took Kinger awhile to figure out what you were trying to say, "Existential crisis, giving up, showing signs of going insane, etc. etc."
Your eyes widened, could this be your escape? It's not like you wanted to "die," it was more of you wanting to stop having these feelings of dread, guilt, uneasiness, and loneliness. You're actually pissed off that those feelings before you got here lingered to this digital world.
But you're debating whether or not to go through with it because you don't know exactly what would happen.
Kinger stared at you, "You okay there?"
You broke out of your thoughts and looked up at him, nodding your head and waved bye before walking away.
You overheard Ragatha talking to Gangle about the most recent one that got abstracted, Kaufmo. Apparently Ragatha, Pomni, and Jax was the ones who first found him in his room abstracting.
You definitely didn't want to deal with Jax, Pomni is still in that padded room receiving help, so you walked around trying to find Ragatha.
Eventually you found the ragdoll, and tapped her shoulder.
"Oh hey Y/n! What's going on?" She smiled.
You took her hand and started walking to the rooms, looking for the clown face.
"Whoa where are we going?"
You looked back at her and annoying pointed to your mouth.
"Oh right...you can't talk. Sorry about that."
You waved it off and stopped in your tracks once you saw his face, but it was X'd out.
Ragatha let go of your hand, her breathing stopped and touched his face with her doll-like hand.
"Why did you drag me out here?" Her voice trembled. You started to feel bad bringing her out, knowing that it was going to be a touchy subject for everyone because it happened so recently.
You pointed at his face, and then made the universal symbol for, "Crazy", by swirling your finger in a circle where your temple is, and then put your hands out, indicating, "What happens when they're crazy?"
You absolutely hate miming, thinking it was stupid and a nuisance, but you're secretly thanking god that none of them are stupid.
"Oh! Uh...well...I assume you know about abstraction, but basically they go into this weird state. I witnessed it first hand and could definitely say that Kaufmo wasn't all there. It's hard to explain, like he was there, but something took over him to make him so...aggressive. Whenever we were friends he wasn't ever aggressive, to anybody. He was so sweet and—..." Ragatha started to tear up, but quickly wiped her tears away. "Why are you asking?"
You froze, shrugging your shoulders and then put your hands together as if you were praying, but used it for "thank you."
"Yeah sure...no problem.
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Luckily you and Zooble didn't have to do the Candy Land adventure. Caine was too busy with them, and you were relaxing in your room—and yes, you did became more comfortable with it.
Since Caine knew that you couldn't talk, he allowed you to skip out on this one. Sure, you were bored, but you weren't too fond on the idea of going on adventures.
With an inaudible sigh you got up from the bed and walked your way down to the main lobby where the others should be getting back. Zooble and Caine was already standing there. You lift up your hand to give a small wave to the both of them.
"Where were you?" Zooble asked.
You did the classic "sleep" sign. F#%£ I wish I could talk.
Moments later the portal opened up, and thank god you didn't go because they all look miserable.
"I think you'll like it here, Gummigoo." Pomni smiled.
"This place looks amazing!"
You arched your eyebrow and pointed to him, "Don't bother, just an NPC that Pomni fell in love with." Jax crossed his arms.
Pomni glared at him before Caine perked up. "Looks like this one got away!"
"Wait Caine—" Pomni yelled before her face dropped. Gummigoo disappeared without a trace, other than the confetti.
Holy $h*+.
"Sorry about that, can't get them loose because I wouldn't be able to tell who's an NPC and who's not!" Caine laughed and disappeared, but everyone just stared in horror.
"Mime, you would've loved this adventure." Jax rested his arm on your head before you quickly shoved him off.
"Y/n," Pomni walked closer, "Would it be easier if you have a pen and paper to communicate? Is that something you would want to do?"
A smile appeared on your face as you nodded.
"Awh come on! It's funnier if Mime over here has to do charades every time we try to talk to her!" Jax pointed.
"It's really not." Ragatha added on, "I know we're all curious on what she really has to say."
I have a lot to say.
Gangle handed you a piece of paper and a pen, "I think this will be good, right?"
You smiled and took the items from her before writing, "Thank you" on the paper to show everyone.
Jax was about to whisper in your ear before Ragatha interrupted, "I think it's time to give Kaufmo a funeral." She spoke in a gentle voice. Everyone agreed except Jax. He just rolled his eyes and stepped to the side away from everyone.
At the funeral Jax was still standing far away. You occasionally would turn your head his way, but he ignored.
hii, can u do a oneshot about jax getting hit with a cupid arrow (courtesy of caine) and starts acting super lovey dovey with his girlfriend? like clinging to her, compliments, and constantly trying to kiss.
thank u for writing and I love ur work!
a/n: ofc! and thank you so much!
cw: slight angst, established relationship, angst with comfort,
contents
cupid
“today’s adventure is….valentines day!”
“that’s actually kinda cute,” zooble looked over at gangle with awe.
“in this adventure you have to avoid getting struck by cupid’s poisoning arrow!”
“anddd there it is.” zooble sighed.
you glanced over at jax who clearly looked like he didn’t want to be here. you found it odd though, months before he was acting like a good boyfriend. always talking to you, play easygoing pranks, cuddling, fucking, always being there for you, but lately he seemed a little off and has slightly been ignoring you. you tried to talk to him about it but he’ll shove you off and say you’re clingy.
“…ready…set…”
“wait caine!” you shouted, grabbing his attention, “what are we doing again?”
“god you weren’t even listening?” jax smiled and nudged you.
“when i say go everyone has to run while i chase them with this bow and arrow!”
you looked at him dumbfounded, “how is that fun?”
“the adderenal rush!”
you sighed and prepared to run, and the moment he said “go” you booked it as he aims at everyone. luckily you knew a hiding spot that jax would previously take you if he wants some alone time with you.
you jumped in the hole and slid down the slides before landing on your stomach. no matter how many times you two went down this hole he always lands perfectly on his two feet while you face plant to the ground. this time is different though because there was no one to help you up and laugh it off.
you grunted and walked over to the neon pink beanbag and planted your body on it, immediately relaxing on the cold feel material. as moments went by you increasingly got upset at the relationship and how things are right now. what even happened? he never once treated you like this.
you quickly rub your eyes to wipe away the tears that was sitting in your water line the moment you heard a noise. your body stiffened and looked at the slide, but nobody was there. you let out a sigh of relief gazing at the shelf that was covered in stuff when you and jax would steal things from the circus and the adventures.
maybe coming here was a bad idea, you thought.
you snapped your head back at the slide, hearing tumbling and laughter before jax falls on the ground. he slowly stood up, then locking eyes with yours. his pupils dilated as his smile grew bigger. he wobbled over to you, sluring your name, “y/n!” he collapsed on the bean bag and pulled you on top of him, “i was looking all over for you!”
“you were?” you mumbled into his chest due to him pinning you against him.
“duh, why wouldn’t i want to see my pretty girlfriend?”
you managed to break from his grip and leaned up, “why are you acting like this all of a sudden?”
he cupped your face, “like what?”
“being so…romantic? lovey-dovey?”
he placed his forehead against yours, “i just want to show my love to you, that’s all.” he spread kisses all over your face, then finally planting his lips onto yours before pulling you back down on him.
he broke away from the kiss and held you tight against him, “you’re so warm,” he mumbled, “i want to lay like this with you forever.”
“you don’t mean that.”
you couldn’t see his frown, “what makes you say that?”
“you’ve been so distant lately, that’s all.”
jax held you tighter to the point where you almost couldn’t breathe, “i’m afraid of losing you,” he mumbled.
you broke from his grip again, hands on chest while your legs squeezed either side of his hips, “you’re not gonna lose me. i’m not planning on abstracting any time soon or even break up with you.”
his pupils constricted, raised his hand to cup your cheek, “you’re so pretty.” he said above a whisper.
the corner of your lips turned upward, turning your face slightly to kiss the palm of his hand. he pulled you back down onto his chest and wrapped his legs around your hips so you wouldn’t move this time. he kissed the top of your head over and over again.
“did you get hit by caine’s arrow?”
“maybe,” he replied with reluctance.
“so whenever this thing wears off you’re not gonna be as lovey anymore?”
“just be lovey with me, im sure i’ll reciprocate.”
“and if you don’t?” your voice cracked.
he was silence for a bit. he let go of his grip and let you lean up from his chest, then sat up as well, his face inches away from yours.
jax cupped your cheeks with his hands once again, “force me. i want to be with you until the end comes. you make me happy, y/n….oh come on, why are you crying?” he wiped your tears with his thumbs.
“i don’t know,” you let out a weak laugh, “i just—AH!”
you glanced down at your shoulder, seeing an arrow piercing through your skin. “what the h#%% caine! why does this hurt?”
“to enjoy the full experience!” he poof away.
seconds later your eye lids partially closed as the arrow disappeared. you glanced back at your boyfriend who stared at you with worry eyes.
“did i ever say how much i love it when you hold me?” you giggled, planting your full body weight back on jax’s chest.
“can we sleep here?” he replied, wrapping his legs around your hips once again.
🃏 Dating Jax means being his favorite target. He’d rig your room to flash neon colors every time you blink, laughing his ass off as you chase him through the Circus, yelling threats you don’t mean.
🃏“Gotta keep you sharp, sweetheart,” he’d drawl, dodging your swats. But when you counter with a prank (like glitching his tail to sparkle pink) he’d laugh, genuinely impressed, his yellow eyes glinting with a rare, “not bad, rookie.”
🃏 Your conversations are a battlefield of wit, Jax lobbing sarcastic quips like grenades. At dinner, he’d lean across the table, stealing your food with a smirk. “You snooze, you lose, babe.” You’d fire back, hiding his room key in the void, leaving him to beg Caine for a reset.
🃏 The banter turns heated in private, his voice dropping low as he pins you against a pillar, whispering, “keep talking back, and I’ll make you regret it,” his grin sharp but his touch light, betraying a flicker of affection.
🃏Jax drags you into his schemes all the time, whether it’s hijacking Caine’s latest adventure or doing something he knows would upset zooble.
🃏Jax’s rare tender side slips out when he thinks no one’s watching. After a rough day in the Circus’s chaos, you’d find him lounging in your room, tossing you a blanket with a gruff, “you looked cold” even though you’re not. He wouldn’t even answer why he was in your room instead of his in the first place.
🃏 He’d sprawl beside you and murmur something about “not hating your company,” his eyes avoiding yours. If you call him out, he’d scoff, “don’t get sappy,” but his hand lingers on yours.
🃏Jax doesn’t do jealousy outright, but if someone else like Ragatha gets too chatty with you, his snark sharpens. He’d sling an arm around your shoulders, smirking at them and say something stupid like “sorry, they’re booked with the fun one.”
🃏 Later, he’d crowd your space, his voice low and teasing, “you trying to make me jealous, doll? ‘Cause it’s not working.” Even when it’s very clear it is. His fingers brush your jaw, playful but possessive, his eyes glinting with a mix of challenge and want.
🃏I feel like during every adventure he seeks out little places he can pull you aside just to have a moment alone. He’d drag you away from the group and over to a spot he found, pulling you down beside him. “Not the worst place to hide, huh?” he’d say, his hand brushing yours, the rare stillness letting you see the Jax he buries that is lonely, restless, but tethered to you in a way he’d never admit.
🃏 Your arguments are half-play, half-fire. Like when he pranks you one too many times, and you tackle him onto a bouncy Circus floor, pinning his shoulders. “You’re in trouble now,” you’d say, and he’d grin, flipping you with ease, his body hovering over yours. “That’s my line,” he’d murmur, the air crackling with tension that’s more than just playful. He’d let you win just once.
🃏Jax plays it cool, but when an NPC is chasing you in some crazy dangerous adventure Caine thought up, he’s there, shoving you behind him with a snarky, “stay back, I’ve got this.” He’d dispatch the threat in some dumbass show-off way, his usual grin sharper, more feral. Afterward, he’d check you over and then brush it off, “can’t let my favorite toy break.”
🃏Even if you two were official, I don’t think he’d want the others knowing. And if anyone questioned it, he’d jump in by saying something he doesn’t mean only to make it up to you later on. He doesn’t want anyone else to see if even know he has that softer side to him. And he definitely doesn’t want anyone else to think he sees you or anyone else as more than what he lets on.
