once upon a tIme there was a gIrl named Stacy . She lIved In upstate New York -- Poughkeepsie to be specIfIc. She suffered from what today Is a very very common problem-- AddIctIon . SpecIfIcally opIate / heroIn and crack addIcton. No matter what ones opInIon Is about addIctIon ( nor do I care whether or not If you agree ) It's a dIsease . - A terrIble dIsease . One that wIll take you to places that you never , ever want to vIsIt . The deepest darkest places . I guess I wIll start at the begInIng - So here goes nothIng
part one : before It all started
Born In November 1993 , Stacy grew up wIth both her parents , not a lot of money but enough to get by nIcely. She hd the thIngs that she wanted . She was an only chIld up untIl 2002 when she was 8 about to be 9. Then her beautIful lIttle brother entered the world. Sure she was a lIttle jealous - all chIldren whom had been an only chIld there whole lIfe but she was happy and she loved her lIttle brother. After her mom had her brother she had , what I guess you could call a " mental breakdown" . She was In and out of PsycrIatrIc hospItals - Stacy practIcally helped her dad raIse her lIttle brother because her mother was absent. ( I know that sounds kInd of harsh but I don't know what other woed to use) . When she was younger she hated her mother for It - she saId some very hurtful thIngs to her mother on a couple occasIons .
Now her mom dIdn't really have all that many frIends- she dIdn't have frIends at all really for that matter . There was thIs one woman - Leanne . Stacy fuckIng hated Leanne - wIth a passIon- before the nIght I am about to tell you about when she was about thIrteen - Stacy's father hated Leanne more then she dId. So Stacy's mom hung out wIth Leanne from tIme to tIme - and from my understandIng every so often they would snIff coke together (they as In Leanne and Stacy's mom) and that was somethIng that her father had saId "had to fuckIng stop, or there was goIng to be a problem" -- So one nIght Stacy's father was out , and she was home wIth her mother and her brother and then Leanne and her son JustIn came over - ( JustIn was a bad bad chIld - vIolent and what not- but takIng Into account who hIs mther was I understand why ) -- So Stacy, her brother, and JustIn were raIsIng hell around the house whIle Leanne and her mom were locked In her parents room for some reason. Stacy's father came home and asked Stacy " Where Is your fuckIgn mother?" whIch she obvIously replIed " Her and Leanne are In your room." -- Her father went to the room, seen the door was locked and started freakIng the fuck out - then he got Into the room and world war three started . There was yellIng and screamIng , slammIng and bangIng -- and before Stacy knew It her mom was gettIng her thIngs together and gettIng rady to leave -- her father saId to her mother " If you leave rIght now , you're leavIng your fuckIng famIly for good " -- for some reason - unknown to Stacy at the tIme -- her mother grabbed her car keys and left , rIght behInd Leanne. A couple hours later Stacey's father asked her and her brother If they wanted to take a rIde to the dInner and get a late nIght snack- whIch Stacy and her brother were excIted about - even though they were upset from all the fIghtIng and mom leavIng ( TImmy - her brother -- was too young to really understand what was goIng on - even Stacy was confused about all the detaIls but she dId know that her an alterIor motIve behInd why he wanted to go out - he wanted to go see for hImself If her mom really went to Leanne's house - whIch she dId. The next mornIng she woke up and her mom stIll wasnt home- they had to go to PoughkeepsIe for some reason so her dad locked up the whole house (thInkIng her mother dIdn't have a key) and left. WhIle they were drIvIng , not too far from they house they passed her mom, her dad swerved toward her - not tryIng to run her off the road just tyIng to get her attentIon -- but her mom thought he was tryIng to run her off the road-- so her father , brother and her kept on theIr way and her mom kept on heer way home . When they got to PoughkeepsIe her father got a call from her aunt sayIng that she just called 911 and we had to get home ImmedItly -- Her mom took every pIll she could fInd In the house and luckIly she called her sIster In South CarolIna to say goodbye ... whom called her aunt In New York --- They sped home and got to theIr house -- a normally 20 mInute drIve -- they made It there In 7 mInutes.-- on the way home she overheard her father make a phone call to , who she assumed was Leanne -- " If anythIng happens to my wIfe, I have a bullet wIth your fuckIng name on It" made It to the house just as they were brIngIng her mother out -- her and her brother sat In the car for a short whIle untIl the state troppers and what left -- when they fInally went InsIde she looked on the stove ( whIch Is where the famIly left notes for one another ocassIonally ) -- on the stove there was a note on the stove that read .. " Stacy -- I want you to know thaat I love you and your brother very much and I m sorry but you are better off wIthout me. I love you -- mom " --- later she talked to her father about It and found out that Leanne had graduated from snIffIng coke wIth her mom to smokIng crack wIth her mom ... she was crushed . -- So her mom had an "extenended stay" in a mental ward at the hospital for t he attempted suicide .
She didn't partically like school - for some reason her parents were extremly strict -- ( I think partly because her dad was a tad bit crazy ) she never went to a sleep over besides maybe once - she never had a friend sleep over her house -- she never went to the schoool dances -- never went on a date in high school -- outside of school she didn't really have s social life --- nor did she really have any friends -- she was a "four-eyed , over weight , outcast" --- back then she cared so much about what people thought about her - like her freshmen year she started smoking cigarettes because the couple kids she hung with smoked-- ever morning she would go into her parents car and "steal" a pack of her dad's Marlboro Red shorts because he would buy like four at a time so for a whole he wouldn't notice and then he eventualy did notice and stated to lock them in the glove box because for a long while her parents absolutly didn't approve of her smking ( a tad bit hypocritical if you ask me though on accont of her father smoking like a fucking chimney) - and that's partly why I think she got caught up in all the shit that she did - but that's just my opinion .. so when she went to school she used that time to socialize with the couple friends that she did have -- which led to her constsnly getting suspended --- she would either get suspended for skipping class or cursing her teacher out when she did go to classs . -- at her "home school district" ( the school she was supposed to be in -- i'll explian why she stopped going to that high school in a minute ) had somethiing call In School Suspension -- for short ISS -- so they would try and put kids in ISS and if that didn't work they would give you Out of School Suspension or OSS -- she would always walk out of ISS because she had a problem with the teacher that supervised the ISS room most of the day -- Mr . DuBois -- one day he had said to her - " you're just going to grow up yo be nothing but a drug addict prostitue" -- and she threatened to chokee him with his tie and of course SHE got into trouble ( and they didn't take any disiplinary action towards him which I really don't find fair - how is it oky for a teacher to say that to a student -" It was bad enough she got picked on by her peers , she had to take shit from the fucking teachers to. GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE, I wouldn't want to go to school either if I was her. She was at her "home school" until the middle of her sophmore year and she got kicked out ( No surprise her disiplinary file was a big as two phone books ) -- she got sent to an "alternative high school" -- a school for "bad kids" -- she went to that school from the middle of her sophmore year until about a quarter of the way through her "senior" year
in january third 2010 she ended up loosing her virginity to this kid Chris -- a guy she had considered her "boyfriend" her freshman year -- but she was prude back then -- she wouldnt even kiss him then but she snuck out of her house late one night and Chris had his dad pick her up -- she stayed the night and ended up having sex with him -- then she never spoke to him again after that night -- she regreted that for a while -- every girl wants prince charming to take her virginity but realistically it doesn't usually happen like that -- ecspecially because there are guys like Chris who go around "collecting girls V-Cards -- ( aka their virginity ) -- she let that bother her for a long time but she eventually got over it ---- but we will get to that later .
it was when she was going to alt ed that she started running away from home-- she ended up in Ellenvillle with her friend Sonia -- there she met this kid NIck -- she was hanging out with this kid for the week she was there -- this was in March 2010 -- one night Stacy was hanging out with Sonia Nick, Sonia's mom and step dad and drinking and she ended up going home with Nick-- she was flirting yes so Nick assumed that she wanted to have sex -- she kissed him and what not but when he tried to take her pants off she told him to stop and he didn't and he endded up having sex with her no matter how much she said "no" and "stop" .... that was the first time she got raped --- she blamed herself -- thought it was her fault .... she crawled up in a ball in the bed and couldn't wait to go home - but she had no way to - so she had to settle for Sonia's house -- she didn't tell any one what happened . eventually the state troopers showed up at Sonia's house to take Stacy home -- the day that happened she could not be more relieved.. she had never been so happy to walk into her parents house .
she was in her fourth year of high school but in at most sophmore classes and most of them weren't even sophmore they were still freshman -- not becausde she wasn't smort but because she just didn't go to class ever or apply herself . ( when she did she did good - like she had her english teacher Mr Jordan -- she was the only one to get an A in his class out of all his students - not that there was all that many , the school only had about 200 kids .. but still --- that was her first A since elementary school ) -- but she ended up being at the Alt. Ed. high school until a quarter of the way thru her "senior year" then she ended up back at her "home school disrect" -- but t didn't matter she was 16 or 17 when she dropped out ...
the summer the year she dropped out she ended up running away from home and goi ng to Kingston with her friend Kate to meet this guy Miguel that Stacy had met on Facebook -- Miguel lived in this "rooming house" called Elizebeth Manor --- him and his friend CJ -- at first they would sneak us into Elizebeth manor but then Miguel got kicked out and Kate Stacy Miguel and his friend KillahKye were started sleeping on fucking picnic tables in parks and then they found this guy Shep -- she had an apartment on North Front Street in Kingston-- and Stacy's childhood friend Simone lived there -- so that was how Stacy got to stay there ..
Stacy stayed there for a while -- even after Kate and Miguel had to leave -- Mainly because Kate was nothing but fucking DRAMA -- she was a pathological liar and an attention whore so it was a lot better without her there-- so Stacy and KillahKye were allowed to stay -- and then Killah Kye left and it was just Shep Simone and Stacy staying there ..
Stacy was bi-sexual and Simone was the first girl she was intimate with -- they were in a relationship for a little while but they eventually realized that they were better off as friends. Then Stacy started talking to the kid that lived in the first floor apartment in the building she stayed in -- Jason .. she hadn't had sex since the incident that happened in Ellenville -- but she ended up having sex with Jason -- the first two times she bled a little -- the first time i think he popped her cherry and then there was the third time --- they had been drinking and they ended up in the abbandoned second floor apartmeent in their building == where they would go to hook up because he lived with his mom and she 1000% did not approve of their "relationship" and there was not privacy in Sheps apartment --- so they were drunk -- he "slipped out of her " and kind of "jammed himself " back into her and all of a sudden she felt a loy of warm liquid --- and she asked Jason " what is that ? " his response was " did you cum ? " -- she said in a wise as tone " don't you think I would know if I fucking came ? " . There was no electric in the apartment -- which means no lights so Jason grabbed his cell phone and shined the light on the floor and beneth her was a puddle of blood- she didn't feel any pain until she seen the blood and then the pain hit her. She was bleeding so bad -- she walked over to the stairs , a trail of blood behind her -- she yelled up the stairs to Simone -- " I need a little help here " -- Simone came t her and started freaking the fuck out " what the fuck happened Stacy ? " .. Stacy then explained what happened and Simone told her she had to go to the hospital and she refused -- she said she was going to be fine. She went upstairs with Simone and put i towel between her legs to catch the blood - it hurt to sit - it hurt to stand she didnt know what to do -- at one point she stood up , walked maybe 6 feet and then passed out banging her head on the door frame -- she was out for a few minutes and when she came to Simone insisted she go to the hospital . She called an ambulance to the store on the cornor ( she couldnt call it to the house because she was on probtion and she couldn't attract attention to the house) -- she helped Stacy to the cornor store by the house and they waited for the ambulance -- when it got there and Stacy stood up there was a huge puddle of blood where she was sitting on the step. She then went to the hospital-- she was so embarassed and in so much pain.They tried to examine her but she wouldn't let them touch her because she was in so much pain. Her dad showed up and she couldn't bring herself to explain to him what happened -- all she told him was that she had not been raped -- which is what everyone automatically assumed that is what had happened -- she ended up having reconstructive surgery and nine internal stitches .She ended up going baak to her parents house after that happened and she stayed there for a while -- she still snuck out here and there and , I guess you can say, did what she wanted .. but for the time being she was home ---- at least until she started hanging out with Kate again. And then that 's where it all began .
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