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the journal factory blew up 20’s, she/they

[starlingskulls]

it’s pissing me offffff it’s pissing me off more than it is making me feel like i’ve “won” which just pisses me off more because can’t i have just a little victory goddamn 😭😭😭😭

[starlingskulls]

WOMP WOMP

[starlingskulls]

damnnnn isn’t it crazy how when you’re fucking rude people don’t want to talk to you anymore? who would’ve thought

[bpdmutt]

toxic co-dependent queer-platonic relationship.. sighs dreamily

[starlingskulls]

hanging out with people who entirely planned on excluding you before realizing it would be way too obvious is tough but somebody’s gotta do it!

[grlstlker]

often times i have to hold myself back from saying the most pathetic things ever

[luguuuu]

sorry i’m so weird and needy

[digitansdiaries]

I got that dog in me

(Obsessive tendencies and abandonment issues)

[starlingskulls]

i saw this posted somewhere else first im sure but i do hate when you find something out but you can’t mention it at all because the way you found out is insane

[givemeantypsychotics]

i don't want to heal i want them pay for what they did

[cassketts]

I hate that I’m like this. I hate that I care this much. I hate that a single thought can ruin my entire week. I hate that i react this way. Does this ever end?

[meowurgh]

[spookyboywhump]

Guy who never feels like his problems are “bad enough” to be taken seriously: what if I hurt the character so horrifically that everyone around them could not possibly deny the severity of their pain even if the character themself tries to downplay it.

[coffeeandthoughtspoetry]

have you ever typed a message but halfway through you think "you know what, they don't even care" and deleted

[starlingskulls]

when ur undiagnosed but every relatable post on here has been tagged #bpd #bpdsplitting

[starlingskulls]

it’s so fucking terrifying when the people i love love me back. i hate knowing it’s only a matter of time before i mess it all up and have to start over with someone new. i’ve never been able to keep a friendship for longer than a few years. either i was too mean or too annoying or just that fucking forgettable. it never lasts. i want to enjoy their kindness and maybe even believe it’s something i deserve but it only makes their eventual leaving hurt more

[starlingskulls]

and i was right ‼️

[starlingskulls]

logging back on here because i need to get it out but genuinely fuck you for making me feel like im nothing and fuck you for being so massively concerned with how that made you Look rather than concerned about the way it made your literal girlfriend feel and im so mad at you and so fucking angry with myself for being so caught up in it and for letting any of this shit happen and for being so stupid as to believe i could have had a connection that was permanent even though my entire fucking life has been a cycle of having to start over every few years with new people because nobody can ever stand me for too long even when i finally do everything right and i try and try and try and it still ends up with me being so embarrassingly disposable