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can we create something beautiful and destroy it?
ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ ⌗ STAR ˚ 🍒 swagalicious
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OHMYGOD. literally ran here after finishing that new eren fic you’ve put out !! ohmygod….
i know there’s only like one chapter and this may sound like crazy ass glaze but i love it already. like the concept and EVERYTHINGGG and ugh y/n is just soo i love her. love how wild she is its so perf!! i cannot wait to see how this plays out eeekk
can feel the angst incoming too…..
OMG HI!! im glad u enjoyed hehe <33 and keep the glaze going my ego needs to get bigger 😈😈
working on ch 2 rn instead of studying cause i fr love this fic. yn being a little weirdo and eren being so sick of her immediately 🙁🙁🙁 i love them.
angst.... would it really be a _starrrlost fic without terrible gut wrenching angst and a mind numbing slow burn?
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MY FUCKING GOAT I LOVE U GPS MY BELOVED GIRL 👩❤️💋👩👩❤️💋👩👩❤️💋👩👩❤️💋👩👩❤️💋👩
𝑫𝑶𝑵𝑻 𝑮𝑶 𝑩𝑨𝑪𝑲 𝑻𝑶 𝑯𝑰𝑺 𝑨𝑺𝑺!
you’ve blocked him on everything, and email is unfortunately the only place he can go to ask for you back ; (does this count as a smau ?)
𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 ✿ ex!porco galliard , reader in college
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 ✿ not really sure of anything that would be a ‘warning’ per say
From: [email protected]
To: y/n.l/[email protected]
Subject: Please don’t ignore
Hey,
I’m not really sure how to start an email to an ex-girlfriend but I hope “Hey” is acceptable. Maybe it’s too informal for email but you blocked me on everything else so here was my last option.
Also not really sure how to ask for forgiveness either but this is my attempt. And considering we broke up a week ago i’m guessing this is my last chance before you can find another guy
Please consider hearing me out. It was stupid of me to not make time for you and I especially understand that now that I don’t have you making out with me every other night and help me with well…everything. I miss you. I miss you being here, with me. I miss us. Trust me if you wanted me to quit the extra shifts at my mom’s, the smoking, hell if you wanted me to drop out I’d do it all in a heartbeat.
P.S: If there’s another guy already, please forward me his number and me and him can have a ‘talk’.
Please reply.
With love and regret,
Porco Galliard
From: y/n.l/[email protected]
Subject: Re: Please don’t ignore
Are you serious or high again?
You started an argument with me about me “being too needy for you” right before valentine’s day—which I was alone for, Porco— and your big grand apology email consists of saying you miss making out with me?
Trust me, you won’t have to worry about quitting all those things because we won’t be getting back together.
Go to hell and don’t bother sending another email either. I won’t read it.
Y/n L/n
From: y/n.l/[email protected]
Subject: Stop.
Porco, believe me when I say this,
Leaving me chocolates, my hoodie, flowers like were still together at my door won’t fix us back together.
And the note attached saying “P.S: Technically this isn’t an email. I still miss you.” is probably as idiotic as something can get and isn’t aiding .
P.S: You didn’t even use P.S the right way. This is how you use it, in a formal letter or email, not attached to a poor attempt at getting your ex back. And you used P.S right the first time how did you fuck it up now ???
With annoyance,
Y/n L/n
From: [email protected]
To: y/n.l/[email protected]
Subject: Re: Stop
I know you said don’t email again but you emailed first this time so this felt like a get out of jail free card.
I really am sorry I ruined your valentine’s day. I didn’t really think it was all that big of a deal. Which sounds worse than I meant but we can both agree I’m an idiot.
And if giving you stuff won’t get us back together, what will? Because to me that sounds like another chance and I’d really appreciate one of those.
Also because I never followed up to ask previously you’re not seeing someone else, right?
If you are please tell him I did boxing in highschool and serially got into fights (and am willing to re-hash that ability if it means winning you back.)
P.S: Sorry about my misuse of this last time.
Lovingly and panning for forgiveness,
Porco Galliard
From: [email protected]
To: y/n.l/[email protected]
Subject: My unfortunately stupid brother
Hi, Y/n!
I know we haven’t technically talked since you and Pock’s breakup but you liked my story the other day so I’m assuming this isn’t breaking any immediate boundaries.
I do seriously think you should give him another chance. He really is depressed without you. Clearly, because he’s an idiot, he didn’t realize that he can barely function without you when you were together. But now he does and is bitching to me about it every god damn day.
It is a little bit selfish of me to ask this because I want him to not complain and whine to me—about “I just wish she would give me another chance”, “Fuck, do you think she found another guy?” and “She’s too good for me. Fuck.”, trust me it gets annoying—but you understand just how relentless and pestering he can get.
Please, Y/n. I am begging you to at least try with him again. For my sake at least.
With best regards,
Marcel
From: y/n.l/[email protected]
Subject: Re: My unfortunately stupid brother
Marcel,
Respectfully, stay in your lane.
Look, I do not hate you, but trying to meddle with me and Porco doesn’t particularly come off as helpful as you think.
While it’s a sweet thing to do at heart, it doesn’t help me in the slightest to open my school email and see one brother begging, and another begging for him as if we’re middle schoolers.
If Porco is that desperate for a date, tell him to wait a month to at least let me think it over. I still have life, class, work, etc., and trying to get back with the asshole who called me “too needy” does not touch the top ten of my priorities.
P.S: Also tell him to stop having Pieck message me about our breakup as well.
Sincerely,
Y/n
From: y/n.l/[email protected]
Subject: Stop (2)
Porco,
What part of “let me think it over” is incomprehensible to you. I know Marcel told you what I said and I know the message of “leave me alone for a while” was clear. So why on God’s green earth do you continue toleave gifts outside my door?
Do you have any idea frustrating it is for you to ignore every single thing I ask of you?
If you want to have any hopes of us getting back together in the future, stop leaving gifts, stop emailing, stop getting your brother to email you, and stop getting Pieck to message me on Instagram because I know she’s not doing that on her own.
And so help me God, if Reiner asks me if I’m seeing anyone, then immediately pulls out his phone and texts you the answer after class again, I’m going to march to your apartment and shove a lit blunt down your throat.
P.S: This is not flirting. I know when we were together I got mad like this and you thought it was hot, but don’t take it that way. I’m genuinely upset and annoyed by you, Porco.
From: [email protected]
To: y/n.l/[email protected]
Subject: It’s been a month
At risk of being repetitive,
I’m sorry. Please take me back.
this was so fun to write lol
ugh i love porco hes such a fucking bitch but hes my bitch 😈
highkey jealous of the jean kirstein headcanons as an eren girly i mean dang we didnt get no refs or that much detail 😒😒
(just joking btw !! loved both…
but we deserved eren refs 2!!)
LMFAOO HELP. i def agree with u cause there def isnt as much detail. part 2 this week cause i also started a new eren fic on my spam wattpad acc (@STARPHERNELIA) 😈😈
༝༚༝༚ jean kirstein headcanons ! ⋆˚࿔
au: modern college/uni life!
warning: nsfw lol! spice is a lot... spicier than my eren one...
includes: general, personality, appearance, friends, as ur bf, spicy
inspired by my jean kirstein fic: k&cherry!! can be read exclusively on ao3 at the moment.
a/n: these are MY personal headcanons, if you don't agree with stuff that's fine lol, it's a headcanon for a reason. i don't normally write smut/spicy stuff so if it sounds awkward its cause im probably bad and just awkward abt it LOL. this is a lengthy (very long) post. wc: 5.6k
god i fucking ATE this this post icl. so so good mmmmm
⋆. 𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐍𝐃
𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋ किस तरह छीनेगा मुझसे ये जहां तुम्हें ?⠀. ⋆⊹ . .
art cred / divider: @cursed-carmine / i cant for the life of me write anymore someone pls kill me 😹😹😹😹💔💔💔💔 so here's a moodboard if someone even gaf
im highkey scared wait stop
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attack on titan ┈─
cherry flavoured, jean kirstein ⊹ᡣ𐭩₊⋆ long fic, hockey player! j.k x ballerina!reader
light speed, eren jaeger ⊹ᡣ𐭩₊⋆ long fic, street racer! eren jaeger x fem!reader
eren jaeger headcanons
jean kirstein headcanons
jujutsu kaisen ┈─
"I like it when you're mad", satoru gojo ⊹ᡣ𐭩₊⋆ one shot, nerd!gojo x bsf!reader
big yuji
anytime anywhere all day all night till I pass out and then when I wake up we do it all over again.
༝༚༝༚ "i like when you're mad at me" ! ⋆˚࿔ gojo satoru
in which satoru gojo confesses his very real crush on his chronically angry best friend at a house party, accidentally ruins her peaceful reputation, and then casually admits he meant every word—because, unfortunately for her, nothing turns him on more than the way she looks when she’s glaring up at him like she wants to kill him.
pairing: (sorta)nerd! gojo x angry bsf ! reader
content warning: MDNI !! nsfw, profanity, oral sex, gojo being an edge lord
a/n: i haven't written smut in a HOT minute (like 4 or 5 years) so please bare with me i'm trying to practice for an upcoming chapter in my eren fic... also if u know me personally PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont read this ill literally die. thx. also also i listend to rush by troye sivan abot 61 times while writing this so maybe listen to it while reading. art by nek0zuu_ on x <3
Tomorrow.
clean up in aisle my pants OH MY GOD AHHHHHHHHH
𝐓𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐒 ࣪ ˖ 𖦹°⋆ JEAN KIRSTEIN X F!READER
jean comforting reader and your daughter during a thunderstorm. domestic fluff. can u tell i dont like thunderstorms 💔😆 dividr credit: saradikagraphics
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Macy's teacher passed a mean comment to her once? You made sure to make a scene and get her fired. They called you dramatic, scary— but you don't make excuses when your baby comes home crying.
There was a cockroach on the kitchen floor? Oh, you stomped it to death before your husband came screaming at you for help.
You put a certain someone back in his place when he tugged at your pigtails too hard in sixth grade. (That certain someone happens to be your husband now, and he's probably scared of you more than anything)
You're not scared of anything, really.
So why were you in the kitchen trembling at the sound of the first lightning flash outside your home?
Outside, the wind howls louder, angrier— enough for the doors to swing by itself with a loud bang!
You try not to flinch. Focusing on stirring the curry infront of you instead of letting the fear crawl towards you.
And just like that the power goes out, your vision reduced to nothing but infinite darkness and you're left standing in the cold, empty kitchen all by yourself.
“Mommy?”
Your daughter stands somewhere near the entryway, probably rubbing her eyes, one arm out of her tshirt with her messy hair as she tries to reach out for you.
With the help of the faint glow that somehow makes its way from the windows, you make out her figure and kneel right infront of her.
“Yes, baby?” you smile. “You slept good?” you softly nudge her cheek. “Mhm” is all she says.
Outside, headlights of a car cruise through your neighborhood and it makes Macy's face visible for a breif while before the room is engulfed by the dark again.
“What was that sound?” her face twists a frown, the kind she gives you before you know she’s about to cry.
And as if the universe wanted to laugh at your predicament— there comes another earsplitting sound of thunder that resonates all throughout the house. Flickering all over for half a second, unsteady and haunting.
Macy's expression contorts before she throws herself into your arms and clutches you like you could keep her safe. But your hands, too are shaky and your heartbeat is revving faster than before.
Poor girl doesn't realise her mommy is just as scared as she is.
“No, no, no, no, May” you softly manage, stroking her h/c hair. “Mommy's right here, I'm here—o-okay?” But it's useless, she only cries as clutches at your chest hard.
You sigh and pick her up in your arms, ready to put her back to sleep again. But as you start to walk your head collides with something warm and solid.
“Ow!”
Your husband.
“You scared me Jean!” you whisper shout, glaring sharp as he grins down at you.
“What do we have here?” he ducks his head down at you and Macy, worry etched on his face.
“She's scared. She's trembling hard. Look.” you rock her in your arms, stroking her hair.
“Her mommy's trembling too.” He chuckles, patting your head as if you need comfort like Macy. “Poor thing.” He grins hard as if asking for a challenge, and he doesn’t know you're going to punish him with washing the dishes for the entire week for this one comment alone.
“Yet she came for me, not for you.” Your eye twitches. “We don't need you, move.” you walk past him, your shoulders brushing hard enough to make him shudder.
“Really?” Jean presses his palm over his heart. “You're going to say that? To me? The love of your life? The apple of your eyes?”
You don't say anything, just frown as you walk over to Macy's bedroom as Jean follows you close from behind.
As you sit on the edge of her bed another light flickers— signalling another oncoming wave of thunder.
“Quick, close the curtains!” your voice climbs higher as you squeeze your eyes shut and cover Macy's ears.
Jean closes the curtains before he sits right beside you, leaning into Macy's face and smiling warmly, your protective hold on her never faltering.
Macy reaches her one arm toward Jean’s face, whining as she grabs onto his jaw. Babbling some nonsense to him, fat tears rolling down on her cheeks as she keeps shaking.
“Yeah, come here, it's okay— there's nothing to be scared of.” Macy reaches her arms out to Jean before he cradles her into his arms, softly shushing her as her cries die in her throat. He leans back on the headboard, legs spreading wide as one remains folded under him.
“See? She needs me.” Jean grins at you as you keep glaring at him. Because really, she only ever calms down in his arms. And you will have to live with that fact.
“Daddy? What are those sounds?”
“Nothing, just a fraction of your mother's wrath.” he chuckles as he stares down at her.
“Stop playing around, keep her ears covered, Jean.” you warn, scooting closer, still trembling, voice shaky.
“Well, this one's stubborn.” Jean presses his index finger onto your forehead. “You're scared, I can see it.”
“I'm a grown woman, I'm not scared.”
“You're shaking,” he presses.
“I'm not.”
“I have eyes, you know.”
“I will literally kill—”
The wind howls strong enough to knock your house down and another thunder strikes, louder than any of the prior ones. And before you know it Jean’s strong arm wraps around your waist and pulls you closer and closer till your face is buried in the crook of his shoulder, your hands instinctively grabbing onto his collar as you squeeze your eyes shut. His one presses onto your ear as his another stays fixed onto Macy's just like you demanded him to.
Your breath grows raggedy as you let out a shaky noise. Refusing to detach yourself from the crook of his shoulder.
Jean rubs your back, silence filling the space between you— even Macy keeps her eyes wide open to spy on whatever scene was unfolding in front of her. Her wrathful mom melting like putty in her daddy's arms. Macy shifts between the both of you, giggling as her damped cheeks glisten in the dark.
“My fearless, warrior of a wife—” “Oh god, what is it now?” you chuckle, annoyance melting away. “Stop trying to act so tough.”
“I need to get over it.”
“Not when I'm around," Jean squeezes the both of you, planting a kiss on your forehead as he stares down at you with that easy, warm smile that always comes around you and only you. "I'll keep you both safe.”
And he will. You both are his entire world, after all.
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i miss u author :((
I MISS ALL YOU YOU UGHHH!! I've been so busy with uni :((
heyyyuhh 3>3 lovelove lightspeed!! ₍^⸝⸝> ·̫ <⸝⸝ ^₎
i was wonderingg, is lightspeed headed towards a happy ending ?
- lootsss oflovee 𐔌՞ ܸ.ˬ.ܸ՞𐦯
hi hi !!
so at the moment, I have two possible ending written for light speed and one of them does have a happy ending BUT I'm still not sure which one I'm going to pick!! light speed is still a long way away from being done unfortunately but I'm trying my best to finish it up with in the next couple of months <3
cherry flavoured is too nostalgic like i feel this pit in my stomach everytime i read it--literally any of the versions that you have released in the past lol the premise is so beautiful+unique, and your writing is wonderful, but omg it's so nostalgic it HURTS in the best way possible
haven't read lightspeed but i heard it also follows a cherry theme and tbh i think the cherry part rlly gets to me cuz of my perfume hahah
anyway i just wanted to tell u i love ur writing girl youre an angel and take care of urself <333 (also i don't find a lot of south asian girls who write jean fics hehe i feel so connected <33)
UGHH OMG THANK YOU SO SO MUCHHHH!!! I'm so glad cherry flavoured feels nostalgic ahhh I really wanted that to come across in my writing and im so happy it did!!
lowk just here to talk ab smth that haunts my mind… eren as an ice hockey player.
sometimes i wish lightspeed eren did ice hockey too or used to, wouldve been sexy af 😛😛

OMGGGG UGH YES. as a born Canadian I LOVE hockey!! i actually had a challengers style erenxreaderxjean one shot planned out where eren and jean were both hockey players... maybe I'll write it one day
just came from ao3 and can i just say how utterly amazing light speed is, like the songs, the details to eren and mc, all the diff characters are just chefs kiss omg! <33
i’m actually in love with the way you write, esp eren! the lotus detail was so pretty in the recent ch too like ugh my babies 💔
even though cherry flavoured is short so far, i can just tell i’m going to love it omg - i love jean. btw do you think you’ll update it? totally no pressure if not :))
hi hi omg!! sorry for the late reply I always forget I have tumble LMAO but omg thank you so much this means literally everything to me 😭 I'm so glad you enjoy light speed and cherry flavoured!! I'm actually in the process of writing ch 3 of cf rn and it will likely be up within the next couple of days <3