more active on twt now srry (same @)

reyna/stel (call me what you like!) | she/vi/ae | multifandom (current: idolish7, a3!) | just here to vibe

[starrybury]

intro post i guess?

i've been on tumblr for a while but i just changed emails so i'm starting fresh

howdy fellas, you can call me reyna or stel. i occasionally write and draw but mostly i just ramble and overthink and make self-indulgent aus and meme

i jump fandoms very very quickly so be warned

i am allergic to internet drama and avoid it like it's the corona. people who start discourse on purpose dni. discourse dni. if you try to seriously start shit with me i will not hesitate to block you <3

please use tone tags with me /gen

my pronouns.page (might change bc i'm still figuring out my gender personally)

my twitter

my ao3. i've written two oneshots for idolish7 and one for a3, and might make a few more once college stops kicking my ass /lh

[starrybury]

GOOD LUCK TO APOLLO JUSTICE DEFENDING IN HIS FIRST TRIAL TODAY

[persianmom-deactivated20251026]

not to be dramatic but sometimes i feel like i don't belong anywhere on this earth like maybe all there is for me is perpetual loneliness + constant desire to go back to a place that doesn’t exist anymore

[ebb-is-learning]

being anti ai is making me feel like in going insane. "you asked for thoughts about your characters backstory and i put it into chat gpt for ideas". studies have proven its making people dumber. "i asked ai to generate this meal plan". its causing water shortages where its data centers are built. "ill generate some pictures for the dnd campaign". its spreading misinformation. "meta, generate an image of this guy doing something stupid". its trained off stolen images, writing, video, audio. "i was talking with my snapchat ai-" theres no way to verify what its doing with the information it collects. "youtube is impletmenting ai based age verification". my work has an entire graphics media department and has still put ai generated motivational posters up everywhere. ai playlists. ai facial verification. google ai microsoft ai meta ai snapchat ai. everyone treats it as a novelty. every treats it as a mandatory part of life. am i the only one who sees it? am i paranoid? am i going insane? jesus fucking christ. if i have to hear one more "well at least-" "but it does-" "but you can-" im about to lose it. i shouldnt have to jump through hoops to avoid the evil machine. have you no principles? no goddamn spine? am i the weird one here?

[drfunkbeat]

there's this one review on mal where someone complained about how much they suffered through watching the i7 anime and that they hated idolish7's music, but they like zool because they're a "real idol group". obviously i love zool but that's the funniest possible comment you could make about them when the group was formed as an industry plant

[slow-burn-sally]

I love Vincent Benitez so much. He's all soft spoken and smol, and he shows up at this election where everyone is vying for political power and stabbing each other in the back, and he's like "Hola vatos, I'm super tired from dodging bullets and watching people die in my arms, would you guys kindly shut the fuck up and do better," then he just drops the mic and they make him pope. Gangsta.

[swagpaws]

when u exit hyperfocus mode and ur immediately hit with every status effect ever

[verthanthi]

Oh fuck I gotta pee. Wait wait, I can’t stand up I’m gonna fall over. Shit I haven’t eaten in like 23 hours. Damn I’m thirsty, maybe I should— fuck why am I nauseous? Oh, I didn’t eat, right. It’s WHAT time? 3AM? Do I even have time to eat? Shit, I forgot to take my meds earlier. Or did I? Damnit. Why is my head pounding, oh, right, haven’t eaten and I’m dehydrated… fuck I still gotta pee

[maestrosmassacre-deactivated202]

[a-real-human-person-not-fake]

*minimizes word document and stands up* My body:

[reserve]

Horrible that this also extends to every alert on your phone and computer. You exit work focus mode to find you’ve missed 17 emails and multiple teams messages which eventually led to text messages bc you were too focused on Work to do/see/acknowledge Other Work. PS: I can admit that I originally read OP’s post as “status alert” but I think this might actually be a gaming joke idk unclear my comment still stands.

[strawbncream-deactivated2026050]

[utanoshitpostsama]

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

there is so much beauty in a creator basing a protagonist on themself, and not realizing that this will result, inevitably, in a profoundly autistic-coded character

[quinnduck]

Odysseus: *gently hands Athena baby Telemachus*

Athena: …you were PREGNANT AND YOU DIDNT TELL ME?!

Odysseus: what?- no-

Athena: DO YOU KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS?! I WAS TRAINING YOU!

Odysseus: no I wasn’t the one-

Athena: THAT POOR BOY WAS PROBABLY SO SQUISHED IN YOUR HELMET! LOOK AT HOW SMALL HE IS!!

[saturnsconstellation]

Men use “I’m just a man” to cheat on their wives. Odysseus uses “I’m just a man” to kill, slay and torture people to get back to HIS wife. They are not the same.

[two-bees-poetry]

twenty years across the sea

[jeeniefish]

Some thoughts on Mouthwashing ive been having...

the fact that at the end of the game, Jimmy still doesn't understand what he needs to take responsibility for. he thinks its for hurting Curly and crashing the ship when really he needs to take responsibility for a lot more than that, like manipulating Daisuke and assaulting Anya. It's like what Polle says at the end of the game, "If all of that is true... why are you still so concerned with him?" Jimmy is too arrogant and self-absorbed to really even take responsibility at all. Even in his final moments, he shifts the responsibility to Curly, making sure he is the one with the chance of survival by putting him in the pod and calling him "captain", putting him in charge.

After Anya's death, there's the appearance of multiple flowers in areas relating to her, like her grave and the vents. I recognize these flowers - they're actually quite popular in Queensland, where I'm from. I'm pretty sure it's a Hibiscus, with meanings often associated with personal power, fame, and glory. Personally, I reckon this meaning relates directly back to Anya's assault and the power that Jimmy held over her (and also the fame and glory meanings remind me of the fact that women are often seen as prizes to be won, sexual prizes). Flowers in media are also associated with sexual organs or pleasure, and then there's the fact that flowers are pollinated, which just reminds me of Jimmy's assault on Anya and giving her this unwanted pregnancy. the fact that these flowers show up in her section absolutely disgusts me, as it's the way Jimmy sees her, as a flower, weak, fragile, and to be pollinated.

And that whole dead pixel scene with Anya and Curly - I don't see a lot of people talking about that. the fact that Anya was able to see the dead pixel clearly, while Curly couldn't find it at all, symbolizes to me the fact that Anya was fully aware of the monster that Jimmy was and what he was capable of, while Curly was still stuck in his optimistic "a bad action doesn't make you a bad person" rose-tinted glasses.

And then the fact that the only time Anya is mentioned or hinted at after her death is in the form of a womb and a monstrous baby, which looks like the Polle statue. Jimmy truly did not care for her at all. all he can see in her is his own punishment and the consequences of his actions. She is viewed as only her womb, only what is growing inside her, only as an object. and the baby being in the form of a horse for Pony Express shows how he really doesn't view the fetus as a real biological entity, but instead the fear of what could happen to him after the ship arrives at his destination. Jimmy has never cared for Anya. he doesn't view his assault as wrong.

and then when Anyas about to die and she talks about how Jimmy was right, and she should've done this from the beginning, that just makes me feel like he's told her to off herself in the past?? which is just so insane if true

Theres literally so much I could talk about with this game, I could write a whole essay. actually, if anyone wants me to write an essay about this game I absolutely will. but these are just some thoughts I had that I haven't seen many people talking about elsewhere, so I thought id put them here. Anyway, Mouthwashing is an amazing game. Probably one of my top ten now.

If ive made a point you disagree with or want to add onto, let me know in the comments. I'm always up for a discussion!

[fayevalentinesgamblingchip]

theres so much to be said about horse symbolism anya her rape pregnancy and curly after the crash,,, jimmy's joke of being sexually attracted to cartoon horses and him proceeding to rape her by spiking her drink the same way he did to swansea,,, the fact that anya herself doesnt get a guilt sequence after she overdoses while the unborn fetus does,,, the way the fetus in her is portrayed by a foal implying that jimmy views anya not as a person but a broodmare,,, the way curly was the first to learn of her assault and pregnancy and after failing to stop his friend experiences the similar violation to anya when jimmy forces pain killers down curly's throat,,, the way curly is portrayed like a helpless baby; unable to move, speak or eat himself, only able to communicate with grunts, only able to follow ppl with his eyes,,, the way its anya's, the woman's, job to care for curly and the way jimmy gets angry with her for being unable to do so,,, the way she cant feed curly painkillers bc it pains him and reminds her of her rape and the way jimmy has no qualms about doing so,,,,

[stellarphileistic]

Swans kill their young when they are injured/sick, also there is a town in Wales called Swansea and was declared once as the “graveyard of ambition”. Which kinda sums up the character of Swansea, but I’ve also seen someone say that Curly was also inspired by Laika who’s nickname was kudryavka which translates to curly. Kinda insane, especially since they sent Laika out into space knowing full well she will never return. Oh and Anya in hungarian is mother so there’s that. Actually every character’s name has a deep meaning. Daisuke with the right kanji means “great help”.

[victusinveritas]