I don't have much to say tonight, but I come with a small confession.
It's not a surprise that vampires and vampirism is appealing to me, and while I know you aren't a huge proponent of fledglings being made, I am undeterred in my wanting.
I know there are a multitude of reasons why a life with the dark gift is burdensome, and undesirable. My teeth still ache all the same.
It's good that I want it and can't have it, though. That's most definitely where the romance lies, in the idea, the intangible. I suppose I've really come in the hopes you'd indulge me in my fantasy.
Beloved Angel,
You know me.
You know who I am. What I am. What my thoughts and feelings are on the continuation of our damnable species. Passionate as I am. Adoring as I am. My capacity to truly love with all mind, body, heart and soul is so lesser now than when I was a human man. Time has tempered me in wisdom and experience. I know things now that, in hindsight, I wish I knew five, ten, twenty-five, fifty, two hundred years ago. Knowledge changes perspectives and ideals.
What I gave to Daniel Molloy, I'd never repeat again. Ever.
You know why.
But for just one moment, let's indulge this romance. Let's sink into this dark fantasy together.
Close your eyes and imagine…
We meet in the dark streets on a balmy night whilst the moon in high and the breeze is still. You can't make our my face through the shadows that fall from the brim of my hat.
You don't see the way my nostrils flare at the scent of your blood as it gallops through the brilliant architecture of your veins.
I don't see you… as a human being. A person with a heart and thoughts and feelings, nor trials and tribulations of your own.
What I see is a living bio-organism of insurmountable beauty, encased in a delicate silken vail of tender skin so sheer it barely holds back the perfumed heat of your lifeforce. My teeth ache.
I pass my tongue against my gums to massage the throb and catch the wicked sharp ivory of my own fangs. Petite and perfect. Passed down through our carnivorous ancestry. Designed to pierce, hold, tear.
God, I thirst. I'm parched. My tongue thickens in my mouth at the scent of you. The swirl of your body heat permeates the subtleness of your pheromone signature. From it's delicacy I can read your height and weight, your health, your last meal, your emotions, thoughts and feelings.
And I want you…
So time slows between us. We pass beneath a cone of lamplight and under its glow your gaze is captured by the fires in my amber eyes.
Now you're mine.
There is no escape for you.
Twenty minutes later… And I have you in safely locked away in the penthouse suite of a luxurious hotel. It's unusually quiet. Because I booked out the entire floor so as we may be alone and undisturbed.
God, you're beautiful. They way you move, the curve of your lips as you smile. The way your fingers press over my hands.
You don't question who I am, or why you're here. In fact, you're convinced you wanted to be here all along. You've been aching for this moment. I'm your oldest friend, your lover. No one understands you the way I do.
I'm so cruel… I want to watch you. Preserve your memory in this moment forever.
I sit across from a dining table with you, my heart and loins aching in unrepentant arousal as I watch you eat your last and most sumptuous meal. I love to watch you bite, chew, swallow. I'm feeding off the pleasure of your taste buds firing under the stimulation of flavours and textures I'll never experience.
By dessert, my resolve is broken. I'm straddled atop your hips feeding you that lush, cool strawberry with my own mouth. I take your kiss and for each one you give me I offer five more in turn. Each deeper than the last.
I want to play with you… I take you upstairs to the rooftop pool beneath the celestial indifference of the stars. You undress me, I undress you. Naked and pure we enter the water together. We swim, we frolic and play.
You come back into my arms and I clutch you to me beneath the warm water, listening to your final confessions. The satin timbre of your voice is locked in the chambers of my immortal heart for an eternity. I give in to desire. My lust overwhelms you and I there, beneath the open sky we make love.
You don't resist me. I push your body through extremes of pleasure and in the wake of your most blistering orgasm I sink my fangs into you, draining droughts of rich blood so sweet and thick into me. Time slows dangerously for the both of us. You're fading… The more I drink from you, the cooler you become. Your heart begins to slow. Your grip on my body slackens. Your hands and feet tingle. Your vision blurs badly and I know you're on the cusp of blacking out. Your body's starting to shut down.
Steady, Angel… Not yet…. Don't leave me yet. I need you here with me. You're mine now. Forever.
I tear a thin, perfect gash into my wrist, puncturing the vein. My blood infused with yours, entwined forever… I force it into your mouth. You're too weak to deny me.
There's no pain…
'Drink from me…' I whisper. The words appear in your mind and its the last time we will ever speak with this Mind Gift.
By dawn, you have died.
By dawn, you have been reborn.
I won't leave your side. I'm locked within you forever. As you are with me.
I love you… I love you…. I love you….
And I hate what I did to you.
How could I?
How could I rape your will and turn you into this?
Monster.
Your beauty is brighter that ever before. Your skin luminescent, your hair radiant, your nails like glass and your eyes… impossibly bright.
You tell me you love me. That you need me… That your hungry.
I take your hand in mine.
And I stand by as you kill someone…
They were beautiful.
They were just like you.
Yours Immortally