STAR TREK ENTERPRISE, SEASON ONE. (always accepting.)
“I’m fine.”
He’s not, by any sense or meaning of the word. The blast wound in his side burns and stings and, thanks to the planet’s heat, he already feels a feverish, sickly warmth beginning to spread.
But the ensign’s priority is his captain: just as the son’s priority is his father.
A little directing of the away team’s worry and urgency it all fell into place. It wouldn’t last forever, he knew that, he wasn’t stupid, but it didn’t need to. It just needed to last until they were alright and they were so close. He’d kept it up this long, he could keep it up a little further.
And there was the stubborn side of him, the one that had Kirk written all over it, that didn’t want to admit he’d gotten himself hurt on one of his first away missions.
“We’re almost there. It’s just up ahead—”
He stumbles, tripping over his own feet, bracing himself up against a nearby rock face as the grasp on his emotions slips for a minute, letting them flood out of him. Every inch of him is heavy and hot and pain and he shivers. He closes his eyes, trying to stop his head from swimming.
STAR TREK ENTERPRISE, SEASON ONE. (always accepting.)
The child moves away obediently, head canting, green-brown eyes studying the captain. Curiosity itself seems to unfurl, filling the space between them, tentatively reaching, searching.
"Sorry," he says, voice soft. His attention turns back toward the computer console, the vast array of buttons, switches, and dials he wanted nothing more than to reach out and touch. Excitement thrums under his skin, pulsing into the air around him, softened by the warning. "How?"
After a moment, Asa rephrases, trying to remember that he needs to use his words now. "How does it work?"
the following is a collection of sentence starters from star trek enterprise.
is he dead?
so that’s your diplomatic solution? to do what they tell you?
you’re not going to let them do this, are you?
you have no idea how much i’m restraining myself from knocking you on your ass.
this is no time to be imposing your ethical beliefs.
when your logic doesn’t work, you raise your voice?
i had a feeling their approach wouldn’t sit too well with you.
don’t screw this up.
i don’t think i’m quite ready to have my molecules compressed into a data stream.
they claim it’s safe.
keep your shirt on, (name).
is it me, or does the artificial gravity seem a bit … heavy?
i believe you missed a spot.
think you can handle it?
keep trying, you’ve almost got it.
it’s impossible for me to leave now.
i could order you.
do you really want someone else to do it?
in the meantime, we’re to extend them every courtesy.
is there a problem?
while you may not share our enthusiasm for this mission, i expect you to follow our rules.
if there’s nothing else …
can you prevent it?
when will we speak again?
don’t be concerned with ‘when’.
love what you’ve done with the place.
what you lack biologically, you make up for with your … charming optimism.
be very careful with that.
if you’re going to try to embrace new worlds, you must try to embrace new ideas.
please, no apologies.
what better time to study human beings than when they’re under pressure?
i’ll do the best i can.
you’re upside down, (name).
sightseeing was not one of my assignments.
all work and no play … everyone should get out for a little fun now and then.
you should have started without me.
you have yet to embrace either patience or logic.
with proper discipline, anything’s possible.
perhaps you’d like to go to your quarters and lie down.
i’m sorry, (name), i’m doing the best that i can.
we’re losing power on all decks.
shut up!
there’s someone here.
are you alright?
we have state of the art senses. why the hell didn’t we detect them?
there’s no way you could have anticipated this.
your mission is over.
space is very big, (name).
your reaction to this situation is a perfect example of why your species should remain in its own star system.
get the hell out there and make yourself useful.
i’ve never seen anything quite like it.
did it ever occur to you that i might know what i’m doing?
any luck?
are you sure it’s safe to stand so close to that?
why the hesitation?
i wasn’t authorized to reveal the details of our findings.
i’m not going to harm you. tell me where it is.
are you certain they’re telling the truth.
i don’t know what you’re looking for.
you have a tendency to be … gregarious. i suggest you try to restrain that tendency.
it’s nothing that concerns us.
but first — you should enjoy yourself.
we should get going.
i’ll meet there as soon as you can.
you should learn when to interfere and when not to.
maybe we should get back to where there are more people.
you better be careful.
if you’re thinking of harming me, i’d advise against it.
what are you doing?
you know, under different circumstances i might be flattered by this, but …
that’s … never happened before.
you know i’m not lying to you. now what?
they’re simply soldiers fighting a temporal cold war.
you need to get up here as quickly as you can.
the storm’s getting worse.
the storm’s kicking up too much interference.
i can’t do it.
it shouldn’t take more than a few moments.
you must really be proud of yourself.
you didn’t wasn’t much time, did you?
how long before we get back to (planet / place)?
what happened to, “this is a foolish mission”?
my instincts tell me not to trust them.
there’s too much distortion.
your instincts were right.
i believe we have found what we’re looking for.
they followed us here.
i’m okay, (name).
wouldn’t exactly call this an improvement.
it’s just a little bad weather.
we’re too far away.
if we remain here, they’re going to locate us.
how complicated can it be? up, down, forward, reverse … i’ll figure it out.
it’s illogical to attempt this alone.
never put off ‘till tomorrow.
if anything happens to either of you, i’ll be held responsible.
they have two settings: stun and kill. it would be best not to confuse them.
i really don’t want to have to carry you out of here.
be quiet!
i’ll be right behind you.
i don’t particularly like the way you smell, either!
wait a minute. i think i’ve got something.
i’m only picking up two bio - signs.
turn the ship around. now.
what’s there to interpret?
what the hell is that supposed to mean?
i can’t believe this!
the situation must be analyzed logically.
you’re wasting your time.
it would be unwise to discharge that weapon in this room.
am i supposed to be impressed you know my name?
i was going to let you go.
what you call tricks, we call progress.
sorry, (name). i had no other choice.
i’ll take that as a “thank you”.
let’s hope that’s the last time somebody takes a shot at us.
if i’m going to pull this off, there’s a few things i need to leave behind.
this mission would have failed without your help.
i hope you’re not in a big hurry to get home.
i didn’t realize you spoke slug.
she doesn’t look any better, does she?
i promise to do my best to keep it alive.
he’s gonna make you all better.
we’ve been out here for two weeks, and the only ‘first contact’ we’ve made … is with a dying worm.
shh! hear that? squeaking. something squeaking.
my people don’t share your enthusiasm for exploration.
i know the statistics!
i’ll leave you to your … exploring.
… i’m having trouble sleeping.
the further we are from everyone else, the better.
are you sure it’s not the simulations that are off?
it’s time for a little target practice.
anyone sitting here?
no, please. sit down, sit down.
try the potatoes. they’re delicious.
wasting time seems to be all we’ve been doing. starting to get a little antsy.
we’ve been on the move for two weeks, and we haven’t seen a damn thing.
every moment’s been an adventure for me.
humans are so unpredictable.
it’s good to see you’re enjoying yourself.
how big is it?
doesn’t seem to be moving very fast.
if you insist on allowing your curiosity to dictate your actions.
are those venting ports … or hull breaches?
those look like scorch marks.
if there is anyone home, you can be they know we’re out here.
not everyone chooses to answer the door when they hear a knock.
it would be best to resume our previous course.
maybe they’re in trouble — sick, or something.
is there a problem, (name)?
we’re not breaking in. we’re just going to see if everything’s okay.
there’s gonna be plenty of time to go exploring.
whoever’s on that ship might not want us nosing around.
maybe they could use our help.
sorry to bother you, (name).
it should be exciting.
the environmental suits, they make me a little … claustrophobic.
you talked me into it, remember?
what is it, (name)? is something wrong?
hang on, i’ll come with you.
can’t be too careful, (name).
you’ve seen too many science fiction movies.
is this necessary?
just a precaution.
just our luck.
blood?
whatever it is, it hasn’t been here very long.
(name), where are you going?!
my guess is, they’re coming back.
we should leave.
you’re telling me that we should just leave them there?
your intentions were admirable, (name). but there’s nothing we can do for them now.
i’d never seen that many dead people in one place before.
you have nothing to be ashamed of.
i screamed like a 12 year old girl.
we’re all frightened by unfamiliar things.
you should be grateful that your body of experience doesn’t include rooms full of corpses.
it goes without saying that you’re going to encounter the unexpected.
i shouldn’t have brought her onboard.
what kind of pasta is this? it’s great.
too spicy for you?
they were crewmen. murdered on their own ship.
what’s the matter? the tension bothering you?
must be great, not to let things bother you. no remorse, no guilt.
we don’t know where they came from.
we didn’t even try.
am i the only one who’s having a problem with this?
so we should avoid confrontation at any cost?
you got an answer for everything, don’t you?
we have a code of behavior, and we try to obey it.
it took a few thousand years, but i think we’re starting to get it right.
how were they killed?
care to assist?
could be a laundry list. or instructions on how to conquer the universe.
i’m surprised you’re not familiar with it.
how long before the transceiver’s online?
the quicker we get this done, the quicker we can get back to the ship.
i’m not suited for this.
give it a try, you’ll be fine.
i think i’ve got it!
they’re still not responding.
we’re dead in the water, (name).
i’m afraid we’re stuck here for awhile.
it doesn’t have to be perfect.
i’ll get it all wrong, and i’ll — i’ll just make things worse.
things can’t get much worse.
you’re gonna do just fine here.
how can you eat that stuff?
did you hear about this?
i wonder if someone lives there.
someone may have a claim on it.
i understand that you have a more cautious approach, but i didn’t come out here to tiptoe around.
thanks for choosing me for this mission.
you’d have better luck making friends with a housefly.
i almost forgot what fresh air smelled like.
take a minute to enjoy yourself.
perfect. hold it right there.
you have your assignment. we’ll rendezvous here at 1900 hours.
i’m afraid my log entry isn’t going to do this justice.
don’t worry, i’m not going anywhere.
you’d be lost without me.
sorry. i lost track of time.
glad to see you’re getting into the spirit of things.
when’s the last time you slept under the stars?
this isn’t shore leave. this is a research mission.
research isn’t the only reason we’re out here.
you almost destroyed the ship!
let me guess: no ghost stories where you’re from?
when i was a kid, i’d go camping with my buddies. we’d spend half the night looking up at the stars, wondering what our own sun would look like from this far away.
headache. if it’s alright with you, i’d like to lie down before we get back to work.
nice going, (name). you scared off the bugs.
did you hear that? someone’s out there.
are we allowed to squash alien life - forms?
you want to shoot a bug?
do you require assistance?
we should leave!
where do you propose we go? back out into the storm?
it’s too dangerous. we should go back.
who were they? who were you talking to?
there’s no one here.
we’re apparently not alone.
we’re getting out of here.
why won’t you tell me what’s going on?
i have no reason to deceive you.
you’ve held things back before. you might be doing it again.
this is pointless.
we’re stuck down here for god knows how long, with a bunch of rock people who, for all we know, are staring at us from these walls right now — not to mention a crewman out there who probably won’t last the night.
if we’re gonna get through this, i need to know what the hell’s going on.
you couldn’t care less about him, or any of the rest of us!
your emotions are beginning to effect your judgement.
you’re becoming irrational.
you’ve never seen me irrational.
i’d hate to add to our problems, but we’re running low on water
join me, if you’d like.
sit down. you heard me.
find anything you wanna tell me about?
there’s nothing of scientific interest on this planet. our mission here was a waste of time.
i’ve learned a great deal about human behavior.
i thought you had your emotions all locked up.
having a little problem, are you?
you think we’re gonna wait around here for you to slaughter us?
i’ll blow this whole cave apart if i have to.
i know you hear me!
these wounds should heal nicely.
you don’t understand what’s going on.
put your weapon down, (name). bthat’s an order.
have you been affected?
(name)? you still with me?
listen to me. i’m giving you an order.
what’d you do to him?
i have no idea what you just said, but it didn’t sound very nice.
you’re making a mistake, working with her.
i thought you said he was going to be fine.
i … think it might be too late.
i can’t tell you how sorry i am, (name).
i need to know if they’re going to be dead when we get there in the morning.
can’t afford to have you going out on me.
say one more word of that gibberish, and i’m gonna split you in two!
(name), how long have we known each other?
i’m asking you to trust me now.
this is a major breach of security, but i’m going to have to trust you.
i hope you know the difference between ‘stun’ and ‘kill’.
you didn’t shoot me last night, did you?
i was hoping it was all just a bad dream.
look, i know i kind of shot my mouth off last night…
challenge your preconceptions, or they’ll challenge you.
Sam doesn't know what the hell is happening at first. The impulse is to find a way to make it stop. His own experience with sudden, vivid memories isn't good. Bad, actually. He used to have to take medication for it. But this isn't like the flashbacks exactly.
For one thing, they aren't his memories.
And Jim isn't a kid in these ones. He's older. Older than Sam, actually, which makes his stomach lurch, like when gravity changes. He'd never been able to get used to it, always felt a little nauseated and disoriented, like everything had gone slightly wrong, like maybe he should've given up his dreams and stayed on his own planet.
Then there are the words, too, only a little less jarring than the memories. "I don't have..." He stops himself. Think it through, Sam, you're a Starfleet officer. "It was temporal. Some kind of temporal thing. It's either that or I'm losing it, and there's nothing we can do about it if I'm just crazy, right?"
Nephew. Jim has a son. At least he'd managed to make some personal connections in his life that he hadn't abandoned. Are there more? A nephew! He'd wanted to be an uncle so badly, and he'd wondered if he ever would be and--
No time to go down that line of thought. They can talk family once he makes sure this nephew of his is okay.
"I think... I think we're in your time. The way my sensors went dead, I think I'm the one who went through." Which would mean he's in the future. He'd left his family behind. Where would Aurelan be now? Where would he be? And his sons would be grown. No, no he doesn't have time for those thoughts either. "If I'm right, you know better than me how we're going to get somebody to notice we're down here and come get us. And that means I need you to be conscious, okay?"
"I'm sorry," he apologizes, having been distantly cognizant of the other's urge to recoil, the wrongness he felt at the onslaught of memories. "I had to make you..."
Asa feels himself fading, and he clenches his hand in a fist, fingernails and pebbles digging in his palm as he tries to keep himself aware. "...I had to make you understand. Neither one of us is crazy. Either that, or we both are." He offers a small smile.
Though some kind of temporal anomaly is the only logical explanation, a part of him would almost find it more believable if his uncle's spirit had materialized from his father's photographs and the disembodied voice on his officer's log like something out of Shep and Medina's ghost stories.
Shep. Medina. Ash. Asa shakes himself out of it. Head injury or not, his uncle needs him. He's the captain. He needs to get them out of this.
"My ship might still be in comms range," he returns. "I left her at a safe distance. I couldn't risk my crew. If any of our communicators survived, we should be able to reach them."
Asa moves his shoulders back to try to push himself up, only for the pain to make a sudden and unwelcome reappearance. Instinctively, he winces, eyes squeezing shut, only for them to reopen a moment later.
It’s not that he’s braver or smarter or better than anyone else, he simply had the advantage of being raised on board a starship, and as a Kirk at that, and there isn’t as much of a wait for an assignment to a science ship as there is for a frontline vessel.
Perhaps his early captaincy appointment was Starfleet’s attempt to try to encourage his father to lay down his arms, to finally give up and take retirement (which Asa knows he would never do), or simply a way of incorporating new ideas and new blood into Starfleet. Either way, while he is a good captain, with the makings of a great one, and he always tries his best, there’s a lot he doesn’t know just because he doesn’t have the experience, and like anyone, he makes mistakes and poor judgements, particularly early on. His crew are fiercely loyal to him, but that’s also because they’re about the same age or younger than he is.
@ofstarfleet wonders: i’ve had people out, trying to find you everywhere. why did you worry us like that?
STAR TREK: THE NEXT GENERATION. always accepting.
"...Worry?" Asa repeats, blinking as his head cants to the left. The young boy knows that the captain's words are true-- worry, anger, and fear are all swirling in their eyes-- but he's confused. He was always on his own back home and none of the Dreamers minded, so--
"You couldn't tell, could you?" he murmurs, remorse radiating from him and flowing into the surrounding air at the realization. Remembering that he has to be more clear, he continues. "That I was alright?... Back home they could. They always knew. They still do," he elaborates. The idea that people light years away know more about him-- his thoughts, his feelings-- than the crew right in front of him is so strange.
"I'm sorry," Asa apologizes, genuine. "I thought you knew, too." After a moment, the boy looks up at the captain. "Do you want me to tell you next time, before I go?" he asks, before echoing something Doctor McCoy had told him. "Use my words?"