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If you ever see this, just know that I know I messed up. I know that I'm at fault and I'm willing to admit that I have a ton to work on before I'm ready to be a good partner to anyone again.

But fuck it still hurts. It hurts so much to know that I wasnt enough for you. That despite my flaws, and my mistakes, I still thought you loved me. No matter what I did, I never stopped loving you. Not for a second. At this point it feels like I always will. I'm sick to my stomach and I feel like there is literally no end in sight.

I'm sorry to be selfish, but I know you will move on. But me, I have no idea what I will do now. Im completely lost in a world I thought I finally understood for the first time. All because of you. Every crushing pain I feel, every breakdown, every bad day, its because of you.

This time, I wont be okay.

This time, I dont have hope for the future.

This time, I may actually be better off gone.

I'm lost.

I've lost the love of my life. My own doing. As always.

I wasnt present enough. I ignored constant warning signs and I kept numbing myself to everything.

I'm so fucking broken. I should have listened more. I should have paid attention.

A part of me still Hope's you will give me another chance. But a bigger part of me knows you've already made up your mind.

I've never hated myself as much as I do now. I've lost everything I could have ever wanted and I have no one to blame but myself.

I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry.

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YOU GUYS IT’S DECEMBER 10TH YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND THIS HAS BEEN IN MY QUEUE SINCE FEBRUARY

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you have the rest of the day to reblog this

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This is more punk than the whole of punk history.

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I’ll tell you what’s ferocious. Freddie’s comeback to Sid calling him “Freddie Platinum” when they were recording down the hall from each other at London’s Wessex Studios (Queen for News of the World, Pistols for Bollocks).

Sid Vicious made the mistake one day of bursting into Queen’s control room and antagonizing their frontman. “Have you succeeded in bringing ballet to the masses, then?” he sneered. “Oh, yes, Simon Ferocious,” Mercury replied. “We’re trying our best, dear.”

Then, according to Queen biographer Daniel Nester, Freddie rose from his chair and began to playfully flick the safety pins displayed on the front of Sid’s leather jacket. “Tell me,” he asked, “did you arrange these pins just so?” When Sid stepped forward in an attempt to intimidate Freddie, the singer simply pushed him backwards and inquired, “What are you going to do about it?” Sid immediately backed down. [x]