It feels like everything, everyday is happening in slow motion, your attention distracted by the moments that you shared replaying in your heads, like a pop ads, undesired and uncontrollable. Waiting for time to past until you see them again could be consider a CIA torture tactic. Because I swear if I could only see them faster I will tell you the crabby patty formula in a heartbeat. Mediocre days are both suffocating and tortuous. Suffocating, in that your feelings for them may burst out of your chest and spill out everywhere in an instant if you're not careful, like a shaken soda bottle. Having to be careful of every word that comes out of your mouth or through your thumbs, because one slip up and you might accidentally word vomit all the love and joy and that you've been holding in for the past couple of days. And don't get me started when you get a notification from them, the intense euphoria that consumes you and splits you back out. Words can not begin to describe how it feels. Its like when stretch your entire body after a satisfying nap. Or when you hear that part of the song where all of the harmonies just hit your ear bones jut right. If you're autistic or have ADHD, the random need to happy stim (shaking your hands, closing your eyes super tightly) when they just fill your mind. And when it's unrequited love... it's like trying to have a serious conservation with a toddler throwing a tantrum. Your naive heart dead set and fixated on this person, but the adult your/your brain is trying its best to straighten you out and let you know reality, and your toddler is just scream with their fingers in their ears. You become more desperate to instill the gravity of what reality is, while your toddler also becomes more desperate. It's a losing fight with no end, but one that you can't give up, because as much as you want to instill reality in the toddler, you also don't want to hurt it. It's a lonely fight, because the one that started this battle, left without responsibility, someone that poured vinegar on baking soda, and just walked away, unscathed.
A/N: I can’t find this specific clip as a gif so I just pasted the tiktok.
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“Jihoon-ah we gotta get going, we’re gonna be late for school” I said arm cross and standing at the front door. “Yah yah, I’m coming, give me a sec.” Jihoon said as he zooms around his house disappearing and reappearing with different articles of clothes changes. I huff out, grab his backpack and open it up, “Yah, don’t forget your calculator-“ “Here” he says as he zooms by tossing a calculator at me, and I catch it with his open backpack. “And your-“ “Open” I look up and Jihoon stuffs an apple slice in my mouth “m-thwnks” “And here” As he tosses his pencil case towards me, and I catch it again with his open backpack (this is a meticulously practiced daily occurrence, thank you very much *bows*). “Go go go”, says a mouth stuffed Jihoon says as he pushes me outwards to quickly slip his shoes on as I make my way outside, still carrying his now closed backpack. I continue walking down the sidewalk, and soon hear quick steps coming from behind getting closer and closer, and when I think he’s close enough, I stick his backpack to the side of me “Oof- damn your timing was good this time, almost knock all of the wind outta me.” “It’s heavy” I say and turn my head to look at him. “You loveeee me” he says with an eye smile. “Whatever” I walk a little faster. “Ok ok, I’m sorry, wait up” Jihoon says as he jogs to catch up to me.
“Jeez, we were almost late” I said as I sat down at my desk a little out of breathe. “But we weren’ttt” he answers. “You owe me” “Yes, ma’am.” He salute jokingly. “I want ice cream.” “How does chocolate flavour sound?” “Fine” I smiled. “Your wish is my command” he bows, laughing before leaving to the school store.
I put my head on the desk and look outside, whatta nice day today is, as I drifted off.
When I suddenly felt something cold on my cheek, I popped up and turned my head. “Deliveryyy” Jihoon says with 2 ice creams one in each hand as he waves my chocolate ice cream and hands it to me. “Thank you” “Yes, princess” he says jokingly, I smack his arm, and he laughs. We sat there and ate our ice cream and I kinda just zoned out, without realizing my ice cream was melting. “Yah- oh” Jihoon says suddenly turning towards me “What?” I said still eating my ice cream and turned to look at him. “Your shirt” “huh?” I looked down. “Oh shit” I jumped up, frantically trying to clean my uniform shirt with a tissue. “Shit shit shit, what do I do?” I ask Jihoon. “Gym uniform?” “I brought it home yesterday to wash.” “Umm” “I have a test next period, and the teacher is real strict about the uniform, what do I do???” “Ok wait” Jihoon says, as he finishes up his ice cream “Yah Park Jihoon, this isn’t time for ice cream, help me pleaseee.” “I am just one second.” He says as he finishes up his ice cream and gets up to throw it out, he walks back to me as he unbuttons his uniform shirt. I turn my head away, “wh-what are you doing” “Chill, I have a shirt under.” I slowly turn my head back towards him, as he’s done unbuttoning and starting to take of his shirt. “What is going on right now?” “Here” he says, holding out his uniform shirt, and pushes it into my hand. “Hoonie you literally have to take the same test, she not gonna let you take it if your not in proper uniform.” He thinks for a second. “oOo oW, I’m not feeling so well” he pouts. “I think I have a headache” he says overly dramatically resting the back of his hand on his forehead, looking up, and then turning to smile at me. “Your an idiot, hoonie.” I smile. The bell rings and the teacher walks in. “Jihoon, why aren’t you in your uniform?” “*cough cough* Sorry Ms. I don’t feel so well, can I go to the nurse? *cough cough*” “Yes, but youre going to have to make up the test another time, come see me tomorrow after school.” “Ok, miss.” Jihoon says, as he picks up his bag and walks to the door, just before leaving he turns and winks at me.
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A/N: I tried angst, but I really can’t write fully angst, so it ends in fluffish. Mention of depression warning? Sorry, it’s short.
Shit. Its getting bad again. It’s been a long time since the last time I felt like this. Not again. Fuck. I knew I felt somewhat off yesterday, but I didn’t know what it was. Shit, shit. It’s been month, since the last time my depression came back in full force. I haven’t felt like this since I met Baekhyun. In the dark, I roll to the side to blindly search for my phone. Feeling the bedside table I traced my hand up the table leg, and pat my hand on the top to feel for my phone. To no avail and feeling weak, I gave up and rolled back into a ball, rocking myself back and forth to try and soothe the gut wrecking feeling I have. It’s ok, it’s ok, i’m fine, everything’s ok. Where is Baek?? Uncontrollable tears start to run down my face, and sobs begin to escape. Please stop, please stopp, I can’t, I can’t do this.
I frustratedly rub my hands on my face, angry at not being able to control how I feel. Feeling almost in physical pain, I clutch my chest, and continue rocking trying to soothe myself as best as possible to absolutely no avail. i can’t do this anymore. Oh my god, i can’t do this anymore.
“Babe, you’ll never guess what they had on sale at the-” Before the end of Baekhyun’s sentence, I heard a plastic bag drop and quick footsteps coming towards me, and suddenly the door bursts open. “Babe!” he says while rushing towards me. “What’s wron-” “No, no, don’t.” I said weakly pushing his arms and him away from him. Tears streaming down my face, and loud sobs, I cover my face, not bearing to see how Baekhyun’s looking me, and push myself backwards into the corner of the wall and the headboard. “Don’t, don’t touch me, please.” “i- what do you want me to? how can I help?” he asks very concerned. No words come out. “Please, I want to help you, please tell me how.” “I- i don’t know, it hurts.” I said burying my head into my knees. “What, what hurts babe?” “My, my heart, it hurts so much. I-it fe-feels like some-someone’s riping out my heart.” “I-” Suddenly I feel arms around me. Baekhyun is kneeing in front of me and pulling me into his chest. “No, i-” I tried pushing him away. But, he doesn’t let go, he starts soothingly strokes my head. As I continue sobbing and shaking. “I love you.” he says into my hair. “Everything’s going to be ok, I love you so much.” A little later, we reposition to laying down, me still cuddled into Baekhyun’s chest, and hanging on him as if he would disappear if I let go. “I love you so much, y/n.” he places a kiss on my temp.
A/N: idk why this was so long, I’m sorry I didn’t really know how to end it. Sorry if there’s mistakes, I’ll edit it later or something. Request if you want, I wanna write more before school starts. :)
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Waking up, I peeped at the clock on my bedside to see what time it was, 10:40am. Oh, not bad, I got like 11 hours. Cool cool, it’s not like anyones looking for me. Still tired, I laid back down and closed my eyes. I feel lonely but also still exhausted, fun. Its not like I have any friends, but at least I’m happier in different ways, I think. Bored, I reached for my dry phone to start my endless scrolling of social media. Like usual, no notifications, whatever it’s better this way. And so I opened, closed and repeated the multiple social medias.
After a few hours of scrolls, I got kinda hungry so I made my way downstairs to look for something to eat. Let’s see, what’s good to eat. Leftovers, nope. Soup, nope. Ummm, ramyeon it is then. So I walked over to the cabinet and searched for a ramyeon that looked tasty, grabbing it, I then got a pot and filled it with water and set it in the stove. Waiting for the water to boil, I opened up the package and poured in the seasoning packet, tossing the dried vegetables to the side, because I don’t like it. And when the water finally boils, I carefully put in the noodles and wait for it to cook. When it’s done, I bring over the pot and all, setting it down at the dinner table on top of a mat, and went to pour myself a drink before sitting down.
Once I sat down, I pulled up a show on my phone and propped it up so that I could watch it while eating. Yumm, so hungryyy. After a few bites I got a text.
Kyungsoo (1:34pm): Hey y/n I have a dinner party at my house tonight, and I could really use an extra pair of hands, and I really only trust you as my kitchen assistant. Are you free? I’m making some of your favourites :)
Y/n (1:42pm): I appreciate it Soo, but I’m not gonna know anyone, and you know how awkward and shy I am with ppl idk.
Kyungsoo (1:45pm): You’ll be fine. I’m there, and I won’t leave you alone, and it’s just exo and a few other friends. Come on you’ll have fun.
Y/n (1:50pm): idk soo
Kyungsoo (1:54pm): I’ll make your favourite, creme brûlée
Y/n (1:55pm): What time do you want me there?
Kyungsoo (1:57pm): 3:30pm, please.
Y/n (2:00pm): ok, do you want me to buy anything before coming?
Kyungsoo (2:03pm): nope, I should have everything I need. Thank you thank you.
Welp, apparently I have plans tonight? Damn Soo, knowing my weakness, food and sweet sweet crème brûlée. At least I don’t have to think about what to eat tonight. Finishing up my ramyeon, I set the pot into the sink and did the dishes before returning to my room. 2:27pm. Still earlier, I’m just gonna lay down for a little.
Around 3, I left for Kyungsoo’s place. Stopping at the grocery store before to grab some fruits because I didn’t know how fancy this dinner would be and I felt kinda bad turning up without anything, so I picked up some grapes and strawberries for the dinner party.
Arriving at Soo’s place, and having been at his place many many times, I punched in the passcode to his house and walked in. “Soo, I’m here.” I said as I took my shoes off and walked into his house. Emerging from a corner with an apron on, Soo greets me. “Hey, y/n, I said you didn’t have to bring anything what is all this?” He says while taking the bag from my hand. “It’s strawberries and grapes, I didn’t know how fancy this dinner would be, and I didn’t wanna turn up empty handed.” “Oh, no worries y/n, it’s just a casual dinner party, no big deal. We can eat these tonight or something tho, thanks.” He says and heads back into the kitchen. I hang up my coat and head to the kitchen to look for Soo. “So, no one’s here yet, but we got a lot to do, I said for people to come around 6. So, ya. Oh, also, you can stay the night if you want, if you drink or something, no big deal.” “Ok, thanks Soo. So, what needs to get done.”
I don’t know if it’s a curse or a blessing, but over the next hour or so, we work in unison to make the various dishes that Soo wanted. And around 5:30 the door rang. Wiping his hands Soo made his way to open the door, as I stayed in the kitchen watching over the stove, I could hear the person at the door and Soo chatting. “Hey, Jongdae, you made it.” “Heyy, ya, I came a little early to see if you need any help with cooking.” “I’m good actually, we’re just about ready for everyone. I called my trusty cousin Y/n, to help me.” Trying not to be rude, I poked my head out of the kitchen and bowed my head a little and said hi. “Hi, I’m y/n.” “Hey, I’m Jongdae, Soo’s mentioned you before, something about the only person he trusts with a knife and by the stove.” I laughed. “I think that’s me.” I responded, smiling. “It’s smells so good, I’m sorry Soo’s got you working so hard.” Jongdae says. “Haha, no worries, I like cooking.” I responded.
After a little while, the rest of exo came, chatting and laughing. As more of them came, I just stayed in the kitchen after quickly greeting them. It’s not that I’ve never met them, I just feel awkward and don’t really know what to say to them, so im just staying in my comfort zone. But, soon all the cooking is done, and it’s time to eat. I helped carry out the rest of the dishes to the dining table, and awkwardly hung around not really knowing where to sit. But Soo, knowing how I am, just pulled my sleeve to sit next to him, which I did. A few minutes later, Chanyeol sat down on the other side of me, slightly nodding and smiling before fully sitting down, which I smiled back.
Soo, said a few words, and thanked you for helping with dinner, and then everyone started digging in trying the many dishes we made. Soo then suddenly stood up, which my eyes instinctively followed, and looked at Soo with the meaning of where are you going? Knowing what I meant Soo says, “give me a sec, I’m gonna go grab something right quick.” I nod. Chanyeol, noticing the similarity of shyness between me and Soo, tried distracting me a little to help. Having tried a bite of the fried dish, Chanyeol says “mmm, this is really good, y/n have you tried it yet.” “No, not yet.” “You have to, here.” He picks up some with his chopsticks and put some on my plate, which I then pick up and put some into my mouth. “Mmm, you right, this is really good. I’m glad I seasoned it well.” And that’s when Soo sat back down, setting a beer in front of me. “Here, drink this to relax a little.” I smiled.
Though the beer did help me feel a little more relaxed, it didnt really help me feel less awkward and shy. And so, since the table was kinda long, and there was a lot of different foods, I’d pull Soo’s sleeve sometimes when I wanted some of the food that I couldn’t reach, which he didn’t mind and was honestly use to, and help put some of it on my plate. Which was something that Chanyeol picked up on. And since the seat that Soo chose was pretty centred, there was a lot of food that I couldn’t really reach and felt too awkward to reach around to grab, so I was just not gonna eat those dishes. But, interestingly enough, Chanyeol would occasionally put food of different dishes I couldn’t reach onto my plate. “Here, try some of this, it’s really good.” Cute, stop what are you think right now. He’s just trying to be nice right now. And it really help, because I felt a little more comfortable with them.
Many hours, and many empty dishes later, it was now late into the night, early morning even, about 1:30am. “Whoa, Soo it’s almost 2am.” “See, I told you you’d have fun tonight, time flew time didn’t it. Did you eat enough?” “Ya I guess it was fun, and yup I’m so full right now.”
“Hyungs, me and Jongin are leaving.” Sehun says. “We’ll take the trash out too.” Jongin adds. “Thank you thank you, drive safe.” Soo says. As they’re by the door about to leave, and I’m in the dinning table gathering the dishes, I heard a “Goodnight Y/N, thanks for the food too.” from Sehun and Jongin as they poke their heads to where I was to bid me goodbye. “Byee, no problem, drive safe you guys.” I said waving my hand at them and giving them a small smile.
I then continue to move the dirty dishes to the sink, and help wipe down the table. As I’m doing that a hand with a grape sudden appears in front of me, and I turned to the owner of the hand, and see Baekhyun smiling at me while chewing, which he says “ahh” while opening his mouth a little gesturing for me to open my mouth. As I do so he put the grape he was extending out to me into my mouth, and I chew. “Thanks” I mumble with the grape into my mouth. He just smiles at me, and continues with cleaning.
By now, most of them left, and it was just Soo, Chanyeol, Minseok, and I. “Ok, cleaning is done, I’m gonna go home now.” Minseok says while putting on his coat, heading for the door. “Goodnighttt.” Chanyeol, Soo, and I say together.
“Ok, you two are crashing here tonight, since you both drank.” Soo says, before heading to the bathroom.
It’s cool, Soo has two couches so we’ll just each take one. We were both already each on a couch so I’m assuming that that’s where we’re sleeping tonight. Cool cool. Tired, I laid down, and went on my phone. Somewhat dozing off, I looked around the room for extra blankets and found they were under Chanyeol. Awkward and shy, I didn’t wanna ask him for them, so I just pulled my hoodie sleeve done my hand, and rolled into a ball and continued to go on my phone. And somewhere along the line, I fell asleep.
A few minutes later, Chanyeol looked up from his phone and noticed I fell asleep already. Cute. He looked around the room to try and find a blanket for you, but couldn’t see any. A little confused Chanyeol was gonna get up and search for a blanket, but when he put his hand down to push himself off of the couch he felt something soft, and looked down. Oh, here’s a blanket. There’s only one. Scratching his head a little, he shrugged and got up grabbing the blanket and laid it over you, before heading back to the original couch he was laying on, and just decided to zip up his sweater before dozing off himself.
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In morning, I stretched my arms and back from sleeping on the couch. After which I flopped my arms back down, and felt something soft and fuzzy. I don’t remember having a blanket when I went to bed, huh? Whatever. I looked around and didn’t see anyone, so I felt around for my phone to check the time and for any messages. 11:26am.
Kyungsoo (10:45am): Morning y/n, I’m off today I just had to attend a quick meeting in the morning, come to SM and we can hang out today.
Y/n (11:30am): Ok, I just woke up, lemme go back to my apartment change and I’ll be on my way.
Kyungsoo (11:35am): Okok.
After returning back to my humble abode, taking a quick shower and getting changed, I head out again. First stop, coffee. Assuming since Soo, said to meet him at SM, it probably means that the rest of EXO is probably off today too, so I’ll just grab the rest of them coffee well. Arriving at the cafe near SM I walked in to order. “Hi, can I get 10 iced americanos, thank you.”
Arms now full with coffees, I head back into my car, and drove to SM, pulling into the underground parking lot. Now, standing in the elevator I head up to the third floor, and when the door opened, Lay was outside of the practice room just hanging up the phone. “Hey, y/n, nice to see you again.” He says. I once again, awkwardly nod my head a little and smiled at him. “H-hey, I bought coffee.” I said raising the abundance of coffee I was carrying. “Oh, whoa-” Lay says before giving me hand and leading me into the practice room, which I could already hear laughing and yelling. I walking in I heard a unison, “Y/n”. I smiled shyly, and nodded my head a little. ‘I brought coffee.” I mentioned. Which were reciprocated with responds of cheering. I head towards Soo, handing him the other coffee I had in hand. Just then, he receives a phone call. “Give me a sec.” He says before leaving the room. I then go sit in the corner to not try and get in the way of anyone, I then look around the practice room.
A few minutes later Soo comes back into the practice room, pulling on his coat and with an apologetic expression quickly walks towards me. “Hey where are you go-?” “I’m really sorry y/n, I was told that I had an off day today, but my manager just called me saying that I had an interview and they forgot to tell me until just now.” “Oh, no worries, it’s fine. You guys are busy, I get it.” I said. “No no, it’s just me, the other guys are off today. I’m still really sorry.” “It’s fine, really Soo, it’s not your fault. I’m gonna head home then.” “No, y/n, hang out with the guys. It’ll be fun.” “I don’t know Soo.” “You had fun yesterday, today will be no different.” “But, you’re not there, you know how shy and awkward I feel with people I don’t know well.” ‘It won’t be awkward, and plus I think they’re going to the fair today. You love the fair.” Somewhere during the conversation, Chanyeol overheard and came over to try and soothe your worries. “Come on y/n, it’ll be fun.”
Some more convincing later, I caved. Please don’t be an awkward day, please don’t be an awkward day. So, they were actually planning on going to the fair today, but since it was still early and no one’s eaten yet, food was first.
When we all got there, we all sat randomly, and I ended up in the inner seat of the booth, with Baekhyun in front of me and Chanyeol next to me. “So, what does everyone want to eat.” Suho asks. I just scan the menu, flipping back and forth. Chanyeol taps my wrist lightly, and I turned my head to look at him. "What do you wanna eat?" He asks me. "Umm, it's doesn't anything's fine." I said while closing the menu. "Pick something." he encourages. "I don't know, really, anything's fine." I said not trying to be a bother. "Nope, you gotta pick one thing. Something you like." "It doesn't matter to me really." "How about, tempura? (Japanese fried shrimp)" How did he know I was looking at that. "Sure, it looks really good." Yeol Mental Note # 1: Y/n likes fried crispy things. A couple of minutes later, a server came took our order. "Any drinks for you guys?" "Cola" "Cola" "Cider" "Water". I flipped to the drink section of the menu just to see if they had any interesting drink, and I ran my finger down the list of drink on menu. Tea, coffee, juice, ooo grapefruit ade. That looks really good. Finger still pointed at the grapefruit ade, I suddenly closed it back into a fist being too anxious to actually order it. Just then, I looked up, and Chanyeol turned his head back to the server, "And a grapefruit ade please, thank you." he says. "Ok, and I'll be back with your order." says the server. He then turns to look at me with a small smile on his face. "Thanks" I said. Yeol Mental Note #2: Y/n likes grapefruit flavored things. And similarly like the dinner party, Chanyeol would occasionally put food from different dishes onto your plate. Lunch was honestly so much fun, they all told different stories and some were hilarious.
After lunch, we then headed to the fair. And it was packed. Worried I’d get lost, I hung onto Chanyeol’s sleeve for a little bit to not get separated from the guys. After a little bit of walking, there was a little less people and I let go. “Sorry.” I said, explaining that it was just something I was use to doing with Soo, and it’s just become a habit, but he wasn’t here. “No worries, just hang on to my sleeve or grab my arm or something if you’re ever worried or need anything.” “Thanks, I’ll try not too.” Worried that it was just something Chanyeol was saying to making me feel better, but didn’t actually like. After a little bit more of walking, it become even more crowd than what it was like at the entrance. Literally now terrified, from the amount of people touching me, and feeling like I can’t breathe, I quick grab onto Chanyeol’s wrist with both of my hands, lean my head into his arm. Noticing you, he realizes that crowds cause you a lot of anxiety. "Hey, guys how about we go to that arcade over there." Chanyeol suggests to the other guys. "Sure" "Ook" "Let's go" Yeol Mental Note #3: Y/n doesn't like crowds. Worried, Chanyeol puts his other hand over your hands on his wrist, pulling you in front of him to try and block some of the people bumping into you with his body, and lead you towards the less crowded arcade. Once there, Chanyeol leans down and with a quiet voice says “Hey, you’re ok, it’s less crowded here, look.” Hesitantly I slow open my eyes and look up, and see Chanyeol with a worried expression on his face. Realizing I’m still holding onto him, I quickly let go and move back a little. “S-sorry, thanks.” “No worries, are you ok?” “Ya, thanks for letting me hang on to you.” Why is my shoulder so cold? “Uh, Y/n, I think someone spilled something on you.” Lay says cautiously. Confused, I looked at my shoulder and there was a giant blue stain on it. “Here, take this.” Chanyeol says while shoving something into my arms. “We just gotta find you a bathroom to change or something.” “Uh, Chanyeol, I look.” Jongin says to Chanyeol, pointing out the massive line to the bathroom. “Damn.” “It’s fine, I’ll just wait, you guys go have fun.” I said. “No, we’re not leaving you here like this.” Baekhyun says. Chanyeol then suddenly whispered something to Suho. “I mean, it’s not a bad idea, but would Y/n be comfortable with that tho?” Suho says. “Huh?” I said. Chanyeol rubbed the back of his neck. “My idea was that we’d put up like a barrier or something, and you could quickly change here.” He’s so thoughtful. Omg, stop, wtf am I thinking right now. “Uh, how would you guys like put up a barrier?” “Um, we could just hold up our sweaters to block people from seeing you change, and I think Suho has some wet wipes or something in his bag that you could use to wipe your shoulder before changing, if you want.” “Uh.” “Come on, Y/n you’re gonna catch a cold at this rate. I don’t wanna pressure you but I also don’t want you getting sick.” Sehun says. “Are you guys sure?” I asked. “Ya, it’s fine, we promise we won’t look. If they do, I’ll beat them up.” Minseok says. I laughed. “Ok, I’ll be quick, thanks.” I said. “Ok, everyone take off your sweater and hold it up in a circle” Chanyeol instructs. And surprisingly very efficiently, one by one they all take off their sweater, and hold up, creating a small hole for you to stand in. Once in, I quick took my stain shirt off, quickly wiped my shoulder, before slipping on the, hoodie, I now realized, that Chanyeol shoved into my arms earlier. After changing, I merged out of the DIY changing room they had made. “Thanks you guys.” I said smiling at them. Happy to be in a warm hoodie, that smells really good. “Y-you, look nice.” said Chanyeol. “Thanks.”
Afterwards, we walked around and play some of the games. It was so much fun. Definitely, not as awkward as I was anticipating it to be, which is good. Where were still a few time where it got really crowded, which Chanyeol would pull me in front of him. Cute. We also got to play a lot of games I wanted to play, who knew we all had the same taste. Yeol Mental Note #4: Y/n flaps/shakes her hands a little when she see something that she’s excited about or that she likes.
I had a blast today, I didn’t think I’d have as fun as I did, especially since Soo wasn’t here. But, I think I’ve gotten a lot more comfortable with Chanyeol. Some of the stuff he does is so cute, and thoughtful.
A/N: Request are always open, I really wanna write more before school starts, please submit. :) Also, I know in all my writing, it like alternates between I and you, like different perspectives (first and third), but like sometimes it just doesn’t feel right so it just keeps switching, sorry.
(12:37pm)
“Hey, jagi.” Chanyeol says. “Mhmm” I answered without turning my head toward him keeping my eyes on the show I was watching on my computer, as I could hear him walking towards me. When he gets to me he leans a little on me while wrapping his arm around me, which I need lean my head into him. “What’s up, everything ok?” I said. He pressed the side of his head to the side of my head a little. “Ya, I’m just tired. I’m gonna go to bed, you coming?” He asks. “You go first, I wanna finish this.” “Ok, don’t stay up too late.” He pecks my cheek before getting up to head to bed. I then continue watching my show.
(2:00am)
After a while of watching my show, I got and switched to playing video games instead.
(4:37am)
Chanyeol rolled over intending to wrap his arms around his girlfriend, only to find nothing. Confused he rubbed his eyes a little and blindly reached for his phone to check the time, with blurry vision he squint his eyes trying to adjust to the bright screen of his phone to read the time, 4:37am, surprised and still confused he looked around the bedroom to try and find his girlfriend to no avail. Click click click. ??? Is she still up?? Groggily he gets up and pulls a hoodie over head before making his way out of the room to look for you. While rubbing his eye he slowly makes his way to you. “Jagi” he says with his deep sleep filled voice. Breaking your concentration from your game “Ya?” He wraps his arm around me again, and leans his tired body into me. “ What are you still doing up? It’s like 4am, you said you’d come to bed hours ago. I can’t sleep now without you.” He said all pouty (I am a whole ass sucker for pouty Chanyeol and if you say you aren’t, you lying). I smiled, and turned my head to the side his head was resting on my shoulder and pecked his cheek, “I’m sorry, just give me 5 mins I’m just finishing this game.” “You said that the last time, I’m staying here until your done, and coming with me. Hmph.” “Okok, I’ll hurry, I’m sorry my pouty baby.” I smiled. “Hmph”
“Ok I’m done, I’m done. Let’s go to bed.” “Finally, now I can sleep in peace with you in my arms.” He says with a small sleepily smile on his face. When I get up from the chair he hugs me, and we stay like this for a few minutes. “Channie, I thought we were going to bed.” “Oh right, sorry, this is nice though.” But he doesn’t let go yet. “Yeol?” He starts moving forward while still hugging me so I start moving backwards. “Umm, yeol, you gonna let go of me so we can get to bed faster?” “Nope, mineee.” He answers. “Ok fineee.”
Once we finally get to bed we lay down, Yeol on his back, and you laying on half of him, head on his chest, and his arms around, one hand around your waist and the other on your mid back. As you close your eyes, Chanyeol moves the hand from your back to your hair to slowly and calmly run his fingers through it while humming a soft tune. Relaxed and happy, you tilt your head up and lean up to peck him on the lips before laying back and drifting off.
I- i wrote pretty much the entirety of this imagine, and then accidentally swipe my trackpad and like went to the previous page, and lost the entire thing. I was literally almost done. It wasn’t incredibly long, but I am so sad. Whyyyyy. I’m this imagine prob could have been better and cuter? Maybe, but I can’t remember exactly what I wrote. ;((((. Anyways, I had a dream like this, blah blah blah. Lemme know if you want an imagine too, cuz I wanna write. ;(
I strolled in the theatre. It’s only 2:20pm. The movie that I’m meeting my friends to watch is at 3. So, I have some time to kill, I walked over to the lobby bench to sit down and look at my phone.
Sehun (11:37pm): I’ll see you tomorrow, goodnight :)
Me (2:25pm): I’m here. (Delivered)
I’m so nervous. Today wasn’t really a date date with Sehun, it was more of a group date, type of thing. Some of my friends are coming, and some of his friends are coming, and then him and I, group date. We haven’t been dating for that long, and it’s not like we haven’t been on a date before, a few, but I’m still really nervous. And our friends don’t really help, scratch that, they don’t help at all. But it’s really cute when he tries to get them to back off, since he knows I’m shy and all, but it’s cute when he ends up getting shy too.
“Hey, Y/N.” I look up. “you guys are finally here.” I said getting up as my friends approached me, as the same times some of Sehun’s friends arrived too. ‘Let’s gooo.’ I looked around and didn’t see Sehun, so I checked my phone to see if he responded to my message, and he didn’t yet. So, I looked up again to try and search for him again. “He’s not here yet.” Junmyeon says to me as he notices me looking around. My friend pulls my arms, “Let’s go Y/N, we gonna find a seat. I pulled her towards me a little “Sehun’s not here yet.” I said a little shy. She made googly eyes at me, and I slapped her a hand. She smiles, ‘he’ll be here.’ “Ook.” I then let her drag me towards the theatre we’re supposed to be in. I followed them to a row, hoping to save a seat next to me for Sehun, but I ended up at the end of the row with my friend sitting next to me. A little disappointment I checked my phone again to see if Sehun respond, and he hasn’t. Slightly upset, I silented my phone and sunk into the chair.
I don’t really like horror movies. And I didn’t really wanna come to see this movie, but everyone kept convincing that it wasn’t scary, and Sehun said he’d be there. So I agreed. But, 30 mins in and still no Sehun, I regret everything, why did I agree to come see this movie. The currently scene did not give me a good feeling. And right when there was going to be a jump scare, 2 hands appeared in front of my eyes, shielding me from the scene. I turned my head around to find the owner of the hands, and made eye contact with Sehun. Relieved, I gave him a confused look as to how he timed that. Understanding the expression on my face, he said ‘I watched it already.’ My heart melted.
He removed his hands from in front of my eyes and held out one hand towards me, and nodded his head. I turned my head to look at my friend next to me, and she made googly eyes at me again. “Go join your boyfriend.” Blushing, I turned my head back towards Sehun with his hand still held out in front of me with a small smile on his face. I put my hand in his, and he pulled me towards the back of the theatre and we sat together. “Where were you?” I whispered to him. He turned and pulled out 2 cups, that I couldn’t really see the content of. He leaned towards my ear “Sorry, I went to buy bubble tea and sneak it in for us. Shh” He whispers. “Your favourite.” He says as he hands me a cup and a straw.
Afterwards, we cuddle while watching the movie, and Sehun would either cover my eyes or pull me into his chest whenever a scary part would come up.
After the movie was done we all left the theatre. “Hey Sehun.” I pulled his sleeve to get his attention. “Mhmm” “How did you know all of the scary parts?” He smiles. “I knew you would get scared so I watched the movie ahead of time so I knew when to cover your eyes.
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