so be it

a roller coaster of self confidence downhill descriptions provided

[steveotmc]

Toasted Tadpoles

Feeling froggy

Functions foggy

Walk the wall

Wait and fall

Flashing and crashing

Fasting and clashing

These wars never end

These wounds never mend

If we turn an eye blind

Just one I won't mind

[steveotmc]

I'm afraid of instinct

I feel like it's innately selfish

How selfless are we ultimately?

I feel like I love people

But why?

I've been asking "why?" often

The answers turn fearsome

I can't help but think

Maybe I'm just a persona

I am a people pleaser

But why?

Empathy and compassion?

Or to shield my true self?

[drearydaffodil]

My head is full of spiders

With wobbly webs and

My worries are the

Moths thrashing about

My brain is bees who

Forgot how to make

Honey and so they

Eat their queen instead

My thoughts are like

Birds fleeing the cold

Searching for sun on

Some faraway shore

[steveotmc]

Oh cater me

You server of glee

You hole-filler

Filling my pit of litter

Bagging brands and ruining glands

The main stake of these developed lands

You'll find salvation here

With malnutrition near

Fog my head a little more

I'll drink until I can't pour

I'll work until my bones sore

I'll dress until I'm a hoarder

I'll justify all of this disorder

So I won't think of a new world order

[steveotmc]

hot tears pour and fall onto the countertop

next to your fists as your white knuckles pop

you could say "sorry" or tell a sad sob story

you could lay around or grovel on the ground

asking other people their opinions and thoughts

basking in the helplessness of pining and lust

you just gotta be you

if you're gonna see anything through

even if some change is due

[drearydaffodil]

for those who have been

criticized for living in

your head: remember

no matter what they might say

everyone else does it too

[steveotmc]

Do you feed your monsters

Or drown your own self

Do you need imposters

Or own your known issues

Do you heed the advice of strangers

Or disregard their senses

Do you bleed and enjoy dangers

Or cry hard in tissues

Doors are left wide open

Closed off from the moping

You're really just doping

Done with hopeless hoping

[revelarete]

white ppl calling themselves polyglots after singing a few lines in spanish like ok ur not all that girlie :/

[steveotmc]

tbh I've been wanting to learn Spanish and, outside of it just being a very prevalent language in the nation that I live in, it's also for me wanting to sing along to some Pixies songs cuz yeah sure I may know how to say "let's play at the beach" in Spanish but that doesn't mean I can speak any of it

[steveotmc]

I feel like I fucked something up

but for you, and not myself

I'm thinking of ways to make up for it

but there's only so much to forfeit

I'm just worried there's nothing I can do

to make up for my bullshit snafu

[silkherhoney-deactivated2021071]

I’m too fine to be out here too single

[steveotmc]

we're creatures designed to mingle

but without some catchy jingle

we're just a body with soul

lonesome in a lull

looking to be fulfilled

[steveotmc]

don't get too down on yourself

but don't lose touch with reality

don't shove your emotions on a shelf

but don't declare some unfounded fealty

just cuz it's reciprocal

just cuz it's cyclical

it isn't proverbial

just stereotypical

the par for your course

drives so much remorse

it just makes things worse

stop trying to read morse

cuz the truth is coarse

and you'll cry yourself hoarse

reading into things

that are but mere verse

[steveotmc]

it's nice to feel special

from other people's actions

it makes you feel ethereal

even if it backlashes

because we're all singular stars

in this wide, weary world

but when one sun fills my sky

I stare too long and go blind

[steveotmc]

obsession with possession

of someone that ain't yours

progression of aggression

from paranoid, false lores

dissension from transgression

of opening life's doors

confliction with affection

just swallow it all, whole

to bear it no more

[steveotmc]

have you ever been thrown out a window

only to wanna go back in

just to be tossed back out

from the same person within?

what draws us back to this defenestrator

who throws us through plate glass

when we could just stay out

why go for this same lass?

maybe it's because we know

that the next house we pass

would have the same outcome

of us falling on our ass?

been telling myself for years

a great thing's gonna last

good time to get new glass

idea to ponder and amass

never will I get these shards

again out of my ass

[steveotmc]

Proles are Kings

French fry ducks

Squawk & perch up

The light bulb trees

They float midbreeze

Knowing that the sea

Will soon reach the lots

The gutters, roofs and spots

Invested by the few

Who afford to spew

Propaganda's lies

And humblepies

To disdain on we

The proles, foals, Earth's only Króls

[steveotmc]

dot dot dot

I have desperately mused

If I am used

To being abused

Time will tell

Heaven or hell

It's just a world

All futures foiled

This world boiled

Now simmer down

Hit the town

Turn that frown

Into a clown

And dance your days

In a drunken daze

Spoiled by the rot

No tinfoilplot

. . .

[steveotmc]

No

Would I?

Yes

Should I?

No

Will I?

I don't know

Why's it all matter

What's it all for

When I fall forward

It hurts all the same

Every self-made dame

Friends from which I hid away

Since I'm not who I'd really love

I feel like I need someone who does