Amelie

This blog represents everything that's going on in my mind. Feel free to message me, always and no matter what. *trigger warning*

[auto-destructeur]

8.21.14 // 1:53 am

[probablyavpd]

Not many people talk about how deep emotional neglect hurts you.

I’m afraid to want things. I’m afraid to ask for help. I’m afraid to tell someone something if they seem in a bad mood. I can’t process when someone is nice to me. I can’t handle rejection, but my brain literally short circuits if someone gives me a compliment to the point where sometimes the rejection is better.

There are lots of overlap with emotional abuse, but emotional neglect hurts just as much. And it’s even worse that it usually goes undetected, so a lot of people can’t tell they’re being neglected until it’s too late.

[thedankmemes]

[bpd-seikokimura]

Your worth as a person is not defined by productivity.

[fatsoupy]

eye-opening tumblr post for me included the words "people are meant to be burdens" as in humans rely on and support one another and it's not a bother it's our purpose; to love and be loved in return. so if you ever think you're being annoying just remember we were made to love and it's going to be okay

[20012001]

[ptsdying]

[achiveofmemes]

The person I reblogged this from deserves all the good things.

[thehavenmh]

[my-road-to-existence-deactivate]

It feels like I am an electronic device that missed every software update since 2009. So now I am just outdated, malfunctioning, am unable to protect myself and don't know how all of the newest features in life work.

[holdmyaffectation]

someone: you need to make a decision!

me: *starts crying*

[karpetshark]

i’m an angry person and i want to let it out and be an asshole but i’m also a nice person and i don’t want to actually hurt anyone’s feelings do u feel me

[teartracks]

i don’t know how to express that i just don’t see myself having a future

[memeclassheroes]

[lightninghitsground]

No words, just this.

[finelineborderline]

living with BPD is like holding your hand over a burning hot stove and not being able to move your hand away. the people you love are yelling at you to move your hand but you can’t. some part of you wants to move away from the flame but some part of you craves the pain. you cry but you can’t make yourself move your hand and it feels like every part of you is burning. it doesn’t make sense to those around you that you crave this torture and it almost doesn’t make sense to you. you wonder if you’ll ever have the strength to remove yourself from the pain but you also wonder if you even exist without the fire.

[midnightmothnest]

if you can’t eat a whole meal, eat half. you ate, that’s what is important.

if you can’t get out of bed, try and sit up instead of lying down. it’ll be better for your back and your blood pressure.

if you can’t shower or have a bath today, try and brush your teeth and clean your ears. it’ll keep you a little cleaner, and we often forget those areas. 

if you can’t get dressed today, change underwear and use some deoderant. it’ll leave you a little fresher until you have the strength to change fully.

and remember, i’m very proud of you. your best will look different every day, and that’s okay.