"philly, i wanted to show you what it was like in my hometown, and i wanted to show you what it was like inside my head. you know when you...you're in the bath, or the shower, or whatever, and for that second you submerge, all of your thoughts are really clear...everything is really bright and clear, and stuff just makes sense. that's how i wanted you to feel. because a lot of the time my life feels like...i'm just holding my breath under that water. and i wonder why that is, but i think it has something to do with the fact that, i don't know. but- growing up, every month is different, every week is different. and the way i feel about things each week and each month is really different, and the way i feel about people is really different. and this was one of the last songs that i wrote before i even started to care- before anyone started to come to my shows and buy my records or vote for me at the VMAs. when i wrote this song, i felt alone, i felt like i was under that water. i remember writing it. i was sitting on my couch, the weekend after this huge party that i had thrown, that some of you know about already. but this was me...fighting against growing up, fighting against ever having to be anything except a kid. and i know some of you know how that feels, i know /all/ of you know how that feels. you are a teenager, you've been a teenager. this song...this song to me represents the feeling of- of breaking that surface, of coming up out of that water. because every time i sing this song, every time i get to play this song to places like you, i feel such an overwhelming sense of love and of care, of kindness from you. you guys really care about me, and i genuinely care about you. and pretty much all of the messages that i was getting on tumblr were from people who were coming to the philadelphia concert. i'm here for you. and i just couldn't appreciate that more from you, i really couldn't. it means the fucking world to me. this is ribs."
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