Storm Speaks

  “There were always in me, two women at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions because they were weaknesses, helplessness, despair, and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.”  -  Anaïs Nin You can call me Storm. If you feel like venturing in to the depths of my mind then you have stepped in to the right place.

[stormspeaks]

Stay

"It's not much of a life you're living It's not just something you take It's given" Everyday we take life for granted. Everyday we go to sleep assuming we will wake up in the morning. And that's the problem. It's the simple things. Waking up, walking, breathing and so much more. We take it all for granted. The problem I see is, if we take all these things for granted then what hope is there for everything else in our life?

[stormspeaks]

Playing God

"You don't have to believe me But the way I see it You don't deserve a point of view If the only one you see if you I should be upset right? When someone you love breaks your heart you should be completely devstated. Which don't get me wrong, I am. But you see, the truth is I knew it was coming. I expected this to happen. Right from the start I knew this was how it would end. I guess I never really whole-heartedly dove right in to the relationship and this is why. If you don't commit to something all the way then you can't expct it to hurt as much as it should. Now that probably seems really twisted but hear me out. I have spent my life so far having people walk away from me and hurting me in ways unimaginable. In the end you begin to realise that everyone is bound to let you down eventually and you build these walls that you promise will protect you. You learn that the only person you can truly trust is yourself. So you continue through life never letting anyone get to close. The only thing you fully commit to is some hobby, inanimate object or something that isn't human. If they can't do anything else but just exist then they definitely cannot hurt you.

[stormspeaks]

Escape & Survival

"I'm the king of the great escape But the passion and pain will keep you alive Someday It would be so easy to just runaway. Drop everything, pack up and leave. Truth is, that is the best way of survival but not necessarily the best thing overall. Running away is never the answer, I know, though I wish it was. Facing things head on is really the best escape. Once you face it all head on with all the courage and strength you can muster then by some miracle you will pull through. You will survive. And then you will realise that because you survived it once. You will no doubt survive it again. The first time will be fucking painful. Rip your heart out and feed it to the dogs, kind of painful. The second time will be ten times worse. Why? Because you know how much it hurts. You wont only have to deal with the pain but the self hate. The self hate that you let yourself get in to the same situation again. The third time? Well, if youre stupid enough to even let there be a third time then I pray like fucking mad that this time you get lucky. And if you don't, don't fear. You will survive. You're the master of it.

[stormspeaks]

Alive & Well

"Freedom is a length of rope And God wants you to hang yourself with it" I feel sick to my stomach at the though of living. I switch between thinking about what I am going to do next to instantly feeling like I'm going to vomit up a weeks worth of food. Waking up is never easy. Going to sleep, however, is one of the most beautiful things I have ever experienced. A chance to escape the pain of living without permanent consequences. Why is being alive so hard? How do those who seem t have the time of their lives, do it? Is it really that easy to enjoy the life you're living?

[stormspeaks]

Caring

What is so worth saving? I see nothing but pain here. I lost everything for nothing. What does caring even mean? I mean people throw the term "I care" around so freely but for some reason never seem to support their words with actions. Do people really care? Or do they just claim to so that they wont feel guilty when blood have been spilled? Or is it simply a fact that humans acquire the inability to care? I know that I have claimed to care quite often. And though my actions would suggest otherwise. I didnt actually care. Maybe as we grow and witness society turn in to a catastrophic tradgedy we step away from what is right in order to protect ourselves. Our sanity. I think if we look hard enough, that is purely the reason people actually gave up caring a long time ago. There is only so much people can care about until the trauma just rips the ability to do so right out of them.

[stormspeaks]

Beauty & Wonder

I remember the days I would look forward to waking up. I forced myself to wake up with renewed eyes and an open mind. To enjoy the wonders of each day and revel in the beauty of the world. 

I would see everything so differently. I didn't notice the bad as much. When I did I could see the beauty in it. What happened to this beauty? Did it disappear? Or did I just stop seeing it? It’s possible. The process was mentally and physically draining.

“Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred. How did it find us? Did it steal in to our lives? Or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children out in to the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return but knowing that some will be lost along the way. Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?"

[julianne-09]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Getting By Without Friends

1. See it as something that is temporary. Even though it hurts now, it doesn’t mean it’s permanent. You’ll find other people who will treat you well – so be gentle on yourself and recognise that it will pass.

2. Learn to enjoy your own company. See it as a time to reflect on your life, and really think through what you want for yourself. Also, find different interests you can do on your own – and maybe try something different you’ve never tried before.

3. Spend time looking after animal. Pets are accepting, reliable and loyal. They’ll never hurt your feelings – and are good company.

4. Treat other people you meet really well (talk to people at the checkout, or smile at those you meet). That will likely result in a warm, friendly response – and will remind you that others still appreciate you.

5. Hang out with those who like the same things as you. If you’ve taken up a hobby or you like watching sport, speak to people you meet at these events. Even though you don’t know them, they are still good company.

6. Don’t let this bad experience hold you back. Keep reaching out to others, have the courage to take risks and eventually you’ll find someone who will be a loyal friend – someone that you like and who will treat you well.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“I don’t want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and to dominate them.”

— Oscar Wilde

[typeswriters]

yall ever start writing and something so much darker than what u planned to write comes out and ur like ‘u ok in there’ to urself

[macaronkitty]

Bohemian Rhapsody is no one’s favorite song, but also everyone’s favorite song. Like, when someone asks what your favorite song is you never say Bohemian Rhapsody but when it starts playing on the radio I am pretty sure you crank it up and belt out every single lyric and you don’t even care you’re so proud.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Some say I’m too sensitive but the truth is I just feel too much. Every word, every action and every energy goes straight to my heart.”

— Nofacewrites

[dilfhershellayton]

y'all ever get bored but like in an angry way….like you keep picking things up and putting them down bc none of them is The Right Thing and you have like pent up manic energy but absolutely nothing is holding your interest long enough to release it and you’re just >:(

[buttonpoetry]

You girl, will survive, even when survival is sweat pants and the best of whatever is left in the fridge.

Amaris Diaz, “Shrapnel” (via buttonpoetry)

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“I always feel like I’m struggling to become someone else. Like I’m trying to find a new place, grab hold of a new life, a new personality. I guess it’s part of growing up; it’s also an attempt to reinvent myself.”

— Haruki Murakami

[enchanted001]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.”

— C.S.Lewis