I’m back…sort of.
It’s been a while since I posted, almost two years, maybe three.
Essentially, I moved out on my own around April 2024, and was trying to get adjusted to having more freedom and living by myself.
During that initial time, I made some choices that negatively affected my mental stability and I completely shut down and shut in within myself. Even after finally being able to go to therapy, to try to work through my issues, I still have these obsessive thoughts that won’t leave me alone.
As a result, I lost all passion and motivation to draw. I haven’t drawn anything new since 2024. It’s still hard for me to sit down and focus on art.
Not even just art, I stopped playing video games and watching any shows I had interest in. It’s like I’m relearning how to enjoy the things that used to bring me comfort and happiness.
On the positive side, moving out gave me the freedom to explore more hobbies that didn’t involve staying inside my room all day. Because of that, I realized that I may have loved art because I had no other way to express myself, due to living in such a strict environment.
In all the years I’ve been drawing, I’ve barely made any progress. It’s sad to see how little my art has evolved, from 10, even 15 years ago. It’s depressing knowing I could have done better, but didn’t, because I had no desire to seriously focus on improving.
I do plan on trying to get back into art again. I don’t know how serious it will be, but I want to draw again. I have art that I can upload, but it’s about 2 years ago, and I’m just finding the will to finish them. (Sloppily, as I feel like I’m researching myself the basics again).
I don’t really know where my art journey will go, but I’m hoping to improve more than I have in the last decade.
