Unexpressed Words

This better be good for me

[strangeladyinthemirror]

You we're my sunshine in every rain

You we're my stars that twinkle at night

But never did I imagine, that you will be the monster under my bed.

[strangeladyinthemirror]

Been out in Tumblr for weeks.

This pandemic has been pushing me to the edge.

I'm trying to keep my sanity.

And been caught up with playing mobile games (COD, PUBG) just to entertain myself.

Been having writer's block, couldn't find words for a poem.

How are you all doing?

[strangeladyinthemirror]

Another journey began

Creepy familiar feelings

Like a chain forming a bond

In my dream I'm seeing

Unafraid to fly and fall

New courage and will I have

Hopefully will destroy the wall

Wishing a genuine love

[strangeladyinthemirror]

Today I realized

The moments we shared

Was all a lie

A lie that made me happy

And cry

A lie that I can't understand why

Why do you have to play me

Why do you have to stay

Then be gone without reasons

Why do you have to make me fall

When from the start there's nothing at all

Why would you let me suffer

Suffer from a self degrading situation

Why do you have to make me feel unworthy

And question myself

Why?

Are you happy making me feel so broken?

[strangeladyinthemirror]

I was wounded, I was hurt

I had to bury my broken heart

Six feet below the ground

Suffocated yet still pounds

I kept it there for a long time

'Til I can say that "I'm now fine"

[strangeladyinthemirror]

I am now here standing still

Wondering if you ever will

Be cheering for me and be proud

If you were part of this crowd

The love you gave me became the fire of my heart

The fire that gave me courage to make a start

And so I made this poem to express

The feelings I have for you that are endless

I missed those moments when we made jokes

To comfort each other, we did funny looks

I missed how you smiled in all my success

In supporting me, man, you were the best

We had fights during those nights so late

Cause love is not all sweet chocolates

But that wouldn’t surpass my love for you

Cause this love I have is pure and true

I will always recall the day you cried

You held my hand and my heart died

It pained me to see your tears

And now I’ve found my greatest fear

I gazed at your eyes trying to ease the pain

The words unspoken, in my mouth remain

If I could only bring back time

I would have shouted that one last line

I should have been strong to say it all

I should have been able to crushed that wall

Without you, I went on with my life

Took care of myself and your wife

This would be the start of our dreams

Coming true as it may seem

And to end this poem I made

Is saying the words I haven’t said

To the man I will always love

To the man I will always miss and

To the man I will always treasure

Until that one last breath,

I will love you, daddy.

~A tribute to my dad who I miss the most

[strangeladyinthemirror]

I found a catastrophic love

A love created by lightning

Then destroyed by the thunder

Rain flooded the aching heart

Never ending teardrops fell

A wave of emotion bottling up

Like a ticking bomb ready to set off

[strangeladyinthemirror]

A beautiful night, indeed it is

The moon is shining

With the Venus beside it

It was mesmerizing

January 1st felt so far away

A lot of events has come our way

Losses, disasters, diseases, deaths...

May I say, "My deepest condolence"

These tragedies happening

I hope, won't put off the fire

Keep your faith burning

He'll definitely hear our pray'r

[strangeladyinthemirror]

We're all alone in a world full of strangers

We're all lost in the world we wander

A minute, a second that we open our mouth

Converse with someone that we just found

Their genuine smile, the warmth of our hearts

A bond has been made, never be torn apart

So this I say to you, a stranger

"Hello, hope we'll be friends forever"

Merry Christmas @cordialtiger !! Have a blessed year ahead 😊

[strangeladyinthemirror]

I can't hear anything

My time stood still

I kept on running

Praying it wasn't real

The hall was never ending

Yet I didn't give up

Saw my Mom crying

My world just stopped

The doctors came rushing

While I froze, couldn't take a step

My ears kept on hearing

The sadness made by their footsteps

[strangeladyinthemirror]

It was my last day

Before moving away

Thought I wouldn't see you

Hoped I wouldn't bump into you

But you were there, as I passed by

You were smiling, like the moon in the sky

I hid, I hid before you could see me

I hid my feelings before you could notice it

I wasn't over you yet, I can't

I don't know, my mind just went blank

[strangeladyinthemirror]

Overly sensitive

Tears fall for small things

Can't get hold of myself

Lost in a place, freezing

Not by the cold breeze

But by your cold gaze

Took away my worth

Cant feel your familiar warmth

[strangeladyinthemirror]

It's pounding

It's restless

Its love

Is endless

This heart

Keeps beating

Yet fragile

And crumbling

[strangeladyinthemirror]

Your smile was shining like the bright sun

Indeed a blessing from the great Son

You are in joy, and so am I

Just seeing you happy, it makes me smile

[strangeladyinthemirror]

I lost

Lost in a battle

I didn't start

Lost to the people

Who created the fire

Lost the people

I truly treasure

If only

If only I was strong

Enough to fight them back

If only I had courage

To protect my pack

If only I could bring back time

I would do anything, everything

Just to see 'em smile

[strangeladyinthemirror]

Hazy days, hazy nights

Still I wait for the sun to rise

[strangeladyinthemirror]

Wind blows, cold evening

Deep breath, city lights dancing

Wished I'm with someone to see this

Bet it would be a little different

Deep conversations, good music,

Some books to read, and a tent

Wished I could spent a moment like this

With someone I love, someone I missed