♡Rotten Doll♡

♡Doll♡23♡it/it's♡ (this is a sideblog. main: mortuary-maggots)

[strawberryflatline]

♡DONT REPORT JUST BLOCK♡

♡this is a sideblog!! My main is Mortuary-Maggots. If you're a jirai kei page or something of the sort, and you see that account follow you, feel free to follow me here or there! My inbox is always open to new friends. Just don't expect to have my constant attention, I'm still an adult with unfortunate adult responsibilities. However, I love chatting, especially about shared interests♡

♡about me♡

♡Name: I'll go by Doll/Dolly/Doll Face or Bunny to protect my privacy

♡Pronouns: It/It's, I am simply a little creature masquerading as a totally normal human girl

♡Sexuality: honestly hard to say at this point. Men make me want to remove all of my skin; women are wonderful. I am polyamorous, that much I know

♡Age: 24 (I'd prefer for minors not to interact with this page, but inappropriate content if any will be tagged accordingly)

♡Zodiac: Capricorn Sun, Virgo Moon, Libra Rising

Mental Illnesses: unknown. Surprisingly, I made it this far undiagnosed (send help).

Likes: making friends (despite my initial mistrust and dislike of people), gaming, writing/reading, horror movies, smoking, drinking, making people unsettled, dolls, masks, art, clowns/jesters, angels, catholic imagery, naps, bunnies, cosplay, fashion, makeup, alternative subcultures, music, video game lore, puppets

Dislikes: men usually, 90% of the world's population (that's not to say I'm not approachable, feel free to message me, I just can't guarantee frequent responses for a myriad of reasons), ignorance, those who take out their issues on those they care about (if you have the self awareness to apologize/acknowledge your actions that's obviously a different story), girls who throw other girls under the bus in front of men to appear cooler, pants

♡what you'll find here♡

This is a place for me to dump my stream of consciousness. Apologies if I come across wordy or pretentious by the way I write. I am undiagnosed, so I can't say for sure what causes these thoughts, but regardless, I hope these posts find their homes on pages of like-minded individuals. There's comfort in knowing you're not navigating this fog alone. Oh yeah, also jirai kei and menhera. (Maybe some Astarion posting here and there because there's something so insanely relatable about that silly little vampire twink)

♡Potential Trigger Warnings♡

♡talks of sh (mostly in mental forms)

♡alcohol, substances (weed, cigarettes, psychedelics, molly) I'm over 21. Please do not report; just block.

♡negative thoughts, suicidal ideation, vent posts, trauma talk

♡nsfw content (rare if at all. Just wanted to add it here just in case)

♡unsettling imagery/horror content

♡talk of ED

(Will continue to add to this if need be)

♡DNI♡

♡I'd prefer no minors

♡proana content

♡homophobic/transphobic/racist/etc. Don't be a dick basically

♡people who use their mental illnesses as an excuse to be shitty to those around them. Your traumas are valid, but they are never an excuse to hurt others.

♡If you figure out who I am irl, no, you didn't. I highly value privacy as a highly paranoid individual.

[strawberryflatline]

My own mother makes me want to fucking vomit

I've never met anyone with a worse victim complex. I've never met anyone as bad as her when it comes to taking accountability. She throws her fucking tantrums like a giant fucking toddler. She fucking disgusts me. She'd rather call me names and scream until the cops are called on her than get the help she fucking needs. It's a miracle cps hasn't been called on her for the way she treats my siblings. Barely fucking raises us and then turns around to guilt trip by going "Oh I'm just the worst mother ever aren't I"

Yes. You are. Get the fuck out of my face you sorry excuse for a human being.

[achesspiece]

Maybe if I had fangs and could turn into a bat and hypnotise people and eat anyone I didn't like then I wouldn't have so many problems

[insaneinpink]

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[jiraisupportgroup]

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Manga: Tomorrow I Will Be Someone's Girlfriend

[illumonated-landmine]

sometimes i think i’m not mentally ill enough to actually be jirai and then i remember every bad thing that’s ever happened to me and how bad it’s fucked me up and every “explosive” meltdown i’ve ever had and then i realize i literally am a landmine

[accessibleaesthetics]

I don’t know who needs to hear this today, but intrusive thoughts are basically your brain’s (sometimes very upsetting) way of saying “If there were two guys on the moon and one of them killed the other with a rock would that be fucked up or what?”

I’ve personally found that adding the “would that be fucked or what?” part in myself really helps put the more disturbing thoughts we sometimes get into perspective. Helps me say “yeah thar sure would be fucked up” and move on with my day.

It’s not not a secret desire, it’s not something that only occurs to you because you’re a bad person. It’s just your brain deciding to process the fact that it knows an uncomfortable thing exists in the world by feeding it to you in an absurd “what if” with you as the main character.

[accessibleaesthetics]

Words cannot describe how happy I am that this resonated with so many people.

[accessibleaesthetics]

#something that really helps is i used to verbalize these thoughts in that way to my brother #like wed be cooking and id just go “i take your big chef knife and stab u. yeah?” and hed respond w smth like “i perfectly block. loser.”

This might be my favorite coping mechanism of this genre I've heard yet. Sibling goals.

[shiny-good-rock]

do you ever think about dead versions of yourself that are fossilized in someone else's mind

[shiny-good-rock]

i see that this one kind of fucked everyone up

[pienhime]

my body is a machine that turns trauma and self hatred and weird self esteem issues into weird fetishes

[annepenguin]

[digital-mine-deactivated2025011]

how everyone on jiraiblr feels after giving each other advice that they themselves dont follow

[jiraisupportgroup]

Forgive me for getting serious for a second but I feel strongly about this. Trigger warning for conversation about self harm, and more specifically cutting.

♡ ~ ♡ ~ ♡ ~ ♡ ~ ♡ ~ ♡ ~ ♡ ~ ♡ ~ ♡ ~ ♡ ~

“Baby cuts” and “cat scratches” are still self harm. Self harm encompasses things outside of cutting as well. Bruising, burning, hair pulling, and many other actions are also self harm.

The issue is not solely with the physical severity of the self harm, a very large part of the issue lies in the reasons why an individual would self harm in the first place.

To focus solely on the physical repercussions of the self harm itself is to miss the forest for the trees.

I do understand the urge to compare but please consider that when you post things speaking down about “cat scratches” or “baby cuts” (and honestly using those terms themselves) it can easily become encouragement for others to harm themselves more severely. Even if you do not intend for it to be.

Please consider the things that you post and if those things may be used as incentives to more severely harm oneself.

~ Thank you.

[jiraisupportgroup]

I’ve seen a lot of comparing of trauma in the community lately

If you get a cut on your finger you still need to clean and bandage it. You wouldn’t sit there looking at it and say “well it isn’t a gunshot wound so I can just ignore it”.

Maybe you do ignore it and it goes away on its own after a while, but it takes much longer to heal. Maybe you do ignore it and it gets infected and begins to cause other issues.

Sure, it’s not a gunshot wound and it won’t need surgery like a gunshot wound would, but it still needs to be cleaned and bandaged, and it will still leave a scar.

Even if it’s not as bad as it could be, it’s still not good; it’s still going to affect your life, and it still deserves to be acknowledged and taken seriously.

[toxetta]

my new year's resolution is to survive until the next one

[strawberryflatline]

I'm posting so much today whoops

However, I was thinking about the stupidest thing a man has said to me when giving me a reason for why we're breaking up. This fucker really told me I "made him too happy"

Skill issue, enjoy rolling in misery ig

[strawberryflatline]

TW DRUGS

Internet: people who mostly only do dabs are insane

Me: man that's crazy *takes hit from my electric nectar collector*

[strawberryflatline]

TW DRUGS

On a lighter note, I did molly and shrooms the other night and fuck did I miss it. My brain feels numb today, but doing drugs with people you care about more than makes up for that. I just have to keep reminding myself I need to wait before I do molly again because I really don't want serotonin syndrome on top of the bullshit I already deal with on the daily.