⛧ Stupidhead inc. ⛧

"Is This Thang On?" ⛧ He/They/Xe/It ⛧

[stupiddogcosmo]

⮚ Welcome to the Horrors. ⛧｡*ﾟ+◜⁾⁾

strawpage ! -> here !

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> Designation ? :

> Call me Cosmo if you'd like, but I don't have a preferred name! / I'm nameless lol

> Duration ? :

> 17

> Pronoun Preference ? :

> He / They / Xe / It / Creature this too ! https://pronouns.cc/@doggo_cosmo_

> Species ? :

> Werewolf / Eldritch Nonhuman

> Things to Note ? :

> uhmmss Nerodivergent ! [AuDHD] / very possible BPD (borderline personality disorder) / RPF selfship with Harlan Ellison ! / CPTSD ! please be careful with what you talk about ^_^

> Sexuality Preference ? :

> Aroace / Objectum (?) >>SUBJECTTOCHANGE>>

> Fandoms ? :

> | Forsaken | Eddsworld | Phighting | AEW | WWE | SMG4 | Ultrakill | A Regect | Lego Monkie Kid | KinitoPET | FNaF | Regretevator | Pizza Game | IHNMAIMS | Poppy Playtime | Home Safety Hotline | Portal | Project Hail Mary

> General Likes / Hobbies ? :

> | Cooking | Fish ! | Horror Genres | Music loud enough to cause hearing damage | music quiet enough to put you to sleep | Literature Culture | Film Culture | Space | Stars | Arts n' Crafts | Reptiles | Insects | Scene Culture | Internet Nostalgia | Robotics & Neat Technology | Furry Culture | Anything Harlan Ellison | GREEN .. GREEEEEN.

> Big Fat No-no's ? :

> | z00phillia | Bigotry | Calling fun awesome things "cringe culture" | Friendly Fire [honestly] |

> Blinkie / Stamp Collection ⛧

[queer-as-in-fuck-12]

drug addicts deserve housing, food, water, and healthcare btw

[snoopywhoopsy]

im convinced its his catchphrase with the amount of times ive seen him say it

[star-route]

“i feel left out in some way.”

me too, harlan. happy pride month you guys.

[bazeeble]

can they do this?

[mayorspatula]

BOO

my yuckys... i will make more polished designs for them soon probably

[mayorspatula]

this is the first time ive ever drawn clockwork Heart

[mayorspatula]

fucking around with this Thing

[mayorspatula]

various art for others.... bottom 3 are my designs

[stupiddogcosmo]

okay I WASNT gonna do this because I'm on break,, but I took two seconds to read star-routes post and I went "oh well fuck it" MIGHT AS WELL...

maybe also an excuse to chat again, but that's besides the point !

during my break, well, I say coming to literal tears as I write this, I've finally finished the Greatest Hits book. I specifically avoided finishing it because it felt like I was "putting dirt on his grave." I got the book back in December, remembering just how giddy I was since my grandparents knew how much I was talking about Harlan and wanted to get the book for me as a Christmas gift, and I just remember when I got it, i could barely contain myself from flipping through the pages, taking a peek at every little thing. especially since I got the Barnes & Nobles special edition that included a edited version of "On The Downhill Side" with his cute little pen notes and a good selection of pictures with descriptions for each of them. I was shaking with pure joy, and I could barely understand just how much this guy I didn't even know meant to me. I think about that a lot, the fact I could never meet him, never get a book signed, never shake his hand, never ask for writing advice or an ongoing list of stupid fanboy questions. and for a while, it was hard to accept. but eventually it was an "oh well," and I learned to just appreciate what I had. (and the endless array of things he has published.) and I feel like his books in general have a special one-on-one conversation feel, and he was just so utterly open. I feel like that yes, I never met him and asked him all of these things personally, but thankfully he already shared so much throughout his life. I was in a complete slump, like I explained in my previous rant, and he really got me back on my feet and moving again. just barely, but moving nonetheless.

and now I'm here, kicking ass, getting a better routine, taking care of myself, learning to take a stand for myself instead of cowering at the smallest confrontation, again, not perfectly, but I'm making it. not too many people are proud of me, but I feel like he would. just maybe. either way, I'm just so glad that Harlan ever decided to pick up a pen. because I don't know where I'd be without his writing.

(also , when I finished his book, it was after a pretty rough argument with my parents, so I took it with me to the park in our apartments, + two monsters and it was the most glorious thing ever. the sun was setting, and I kept the tab from the monster I was drinking and taped it to the front cover :])

Happy 92 birthday Harlan.

[star-route]

the Harlan edit i made during christmas. happy birthday, Harlan. ♡

[star-route]

i dont even know what to say for this post because ive been awake for 21 hours straight but i said i would type one out so i am.

today is may 27, which means it would be Harlan Ellison’s 92nd birthday. its hard to believe that in less than a decade, he will have been born 100 years ago.

becoming a fan of Harlan drastically helped my life a lot. when i discovered his work, i had been stuck in some unhealthy mental state for years. i was focused on interests that did not benefit me, and i have always been the opitome of what Harlan discouraged: a lazy person with no motivation, someone stuck to a screen, obsessed with the internet, not reading as much as i should.

it felt like, over the past few years, Harlan picked me up by the collar and shook me and lectured me and told me to get my shit together and get away from things that aren’t beneficial to me. i started to read again and even though its not anywhere near perfect, ive still come a long way with self improvement and staying away from shit that keeps me down.

i wish Harlan had experienced peace earlier in his life, and it’s unfair that it came so late for him. i know that wherever he is out there, he probably regrets a lot of things from life. but i hope he understands that hes doing good now, and part of that is helping me and other people like me.

forgive me if im a melancholy little loser today. ill be listening to a lot of clair de lune this week. probably. or something. i dunno.

[stupiddogcosmo]

dude....... I nearly forgot to boast about Harlan's BIRTHDAY.. how CRUEL of me !

anyways I came back momentarily to do this because its my destiny

[stupiddogcosmo]

HeLLO... okay, gonna be so real here, I FINALLY got over my terrible burn out period !!!!!!! yay !!!!!!!!!!! but well,,, ha. that means I gotta stop being chronically online :'D you heard me RIGHT !!!!! I'm taking a break, sigh.

the internet is very tough for me to be on, (even though I'm hopelessly addicted to it.) but I SERIOUSLY need to remember to take care of myself too! I havent been the best lately, im sure it was obvious with my terribly aggressive rambling. I need to take a damn break from the puter and TOUCH SOME GRASS 🐬✨

anyways,, love you all, take care, and I'll be back soon !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;D

[stupiddogcosmo]

need to draw my truesona (literally just me) more often.............

and me licking Harlan. as I do. he's the one human I can be fond of .. an eldritch being can only approve of so many.

[stupiddogcosmo]

uhms. hi @star-route I drew your guy. HEHEHEH what a LOSER

anyways I read that little post you made and immediately thought of that one song so I was like "OHH drawing idea"

an also. I have a Charlie too !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the charlies..............

pbbbbt okay I hope you don't mind I just saw your goober and went for it . I LOVVE drawing othyr peoples OCS...

[star-route]

OKAY i’ll go back to harlan ellison related questions soon,,, but i was wondering if you wanted to talk about any ocs you might have?? :)

i have quite a few ocs, i mentioned one story earlier that i could bring up, but i actually have one oc in mind that is relevant to some things i mentioned earlier + some harlan coincidences?

my favorite oc i have, and my first oc i ever truly spent time making, is my oc Charlie. i first made him back in 2014 when i was just a little kid because i used to roleplay online and all my friends had glitch/computer characters and i wanted one too. so, Charlie was created.

Charlie was born from a computer malfunction on an alien planet (his best friend & my main character of the story is an alien girl). he is essentially a computer glitch that formed into a person with a body. he appears exactly like a human, but his body is really just code so he cant truly die, he can make himself look however he wants, he doesnt bleed, ect. you get it.

he’s basically a huge loser with identity problems. he spawned out of nowhere, so he has no actual prior life or childhood, no family, mommy issues, isn’t a human, doesn’t really know where he belongs. hes kind of insufferable. if he were in a show, people would probably treat him similar to Jax from TADC because hes a nuisance. though he doesnt torment people, hes just kinda annoying. him & his alien friend travel to Earth to “start a new life” because they think they’ll fit in perfectly and they naively think Earth is some wonderful utopia compared to their shitty planet. he thinks he will find his “human family.”

the coincidence lies in.. hey, i made him way before i knew anything about AM! theyre totally different, but i unknowingly made a “sentient AI” character who envies humans and is a jerk many years before i knew of Harlan’s work! i thought it was kinda funny. Charlie is the type of guy to say “AM is literally me” i think. uhhh… hes a loser, he likes DOOM & computer games, he thinks he gets chicks but he doesnt. hes a closeted bi.

hes kinda plain, because hes just a dude. i think hes cute and people would like him.