a better me

a little about me :) my name is olivia and i am 18 years old. i am not extremely overweight but i would like to, and could definitely afford to, lose several pounds and tone up by the time summer comes around. my goal is to get physically in shape and be a healthier person by summer. i want a flat stomach and thin legs just as much as a healthy internal body. this blog will be: a tracker of what i eat and what exercise i do, my thoughts or feelings involving food and diet on any given day, my progress, goals, and weight, and occasionally photos or bits of information that inspire me.

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[summer-goals]

lunch:

6 inch turkey sub with lettuce and swiss and 1 packet mayo

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goldfish

[summer-goals]

dinner:

spinach leaves with oil/vinegar, chick peas, shredded cheese, croutons 

mixed melons 

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workout:

20 minutes of ab focused pilates

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lunch:

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goldfish

a wrap - honey wheat wrap, grilled chicken breast, pepperjack cheese, light ranch, cucumbers, onions 

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food for yesterday:

cheese quesadilla with fresh salsa, lettuce, sour cream

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santa fe chicken salad - 280 calories

strawberry yogurt with granola 

peanutbutter crackers dipped in natural omega PB 

3 no fat cookies 

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alright guys: confession

a really have been going crazy these past few days. thursday night i had a huge panic attack/mental breakdown to my really close friend and my boyfriend and my roommate. it was really hard and after that i sorta stopped working out (i did on thursday but not fri, sat, sun, or mon). i also ate a bunch of junk food last night, like too much to even post about cause i'm ashamed. i've been straying from the diet, not horribly, but definitely. it could be a lot worse but i don't really know what else to do. stress is a huge part and yeah, it's life. i'm trying to not feel guilty or bad about any of this and just move on and start doing better. maybe i was setting my goals too high and pushing myself too hard. i literally was eating no junk food and eating food that i sometimes didn't enjoy and all of that. it's a lot harder than i thought it was going to be. i was going strong for like 2 or 3 weeks and then hit a patch. but i'm still here and still trying, i promise. 

[summer-goals]

saturday!

dinner (more like lake linch at 4)

general tso's chicken with white rice and broccoli... but it was different because my school's dining hall made it. a TON healthier.

bowl of mixed melons and grapes.

later (like 8 o clock)

chicken quesadilla with cheddar cheese. fresh chunky salsa and lettuce.

gummi candies. 

[summer-goals]

saturday!

breakfast

small raisin cinnamon muffin

chobani non fat strawberry greek yogurt

lunch

diet iced tea with lemon flavoring (this is weird cause i usually only drink water)

chicken caesar salad 230 calories 

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so yeah

yesterday i ate really shitty, like fried food and taco bell type stuff. it was bad and annoying and i tried not to feel guilty but my period's coming so i'm just like "laksdhflakshf FOOD"

[summer-goals]

dinner (sorta late due to work and a busy day):

turkey bacon ranch sub. swiss cheese, tomatoes, onion, lettuce.

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food and workout today:

breakfast - special k granola strawberry, 90 calories

lunch - cheese quesadilla, cheddar and tortilla heated up. lettuce, sour cream, and fresh chunky salsa. 

snack - lightly salted peanuts 

exercise - run/walk alternating on track for like 6 minutes. stair master intervals setting for 22 mins.

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yesterday's food:

lunch: turkey bacon on a wheat wrap with lettuce and pepperjack cheese. i dipped this in ranch occasionally but got it on the side so i didn't use as much! also got pretzels on the side, but only ate a few of them

dinner: caesar salad that was 230 calories. mini "tray" of slice green apples and caramel dip, cheddar cheese chunks - 140 calories.

snacks: i ate a small amount of kettle corn and banana chips during a movie 

[summer-goals]

breakfast and workout:

special k 90 calorie strawberry granola bar

walk, run, walk on the actual track

20 mins on stairstepper, alternating paces and stepping styles 

15 mins of ab and butt oriented pilates 

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dinner yesterday:

Subway - buffalo chicken sandwich, cheese and herb bread, 6 inches, pepperjack cheese, lettuce, ranch 

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