tess

they/she | 20s occasional writer of words sunfl0w3rmoon on ao3 :)

[sunfl0w3rmoon]

Intro / Masterlist <3

hi I’m tess/t/sunflowermoon/whatever you want to call me :) I’m a bi/demi infj that writes sometimes.

music I’m currently obsessed with: flower face, nxdia, noah kahan, all time low, twenty one pilots, cloudy june, ella red, precious pepala

things I’m currently engaging with: heated rivalry, doctor who, all for the game, merlin, hockey

feel free to ask me questions or say hello!!!

fics | microfics

[prettyboyneil]

I know it’s been said but pipe dream is such a crazy thing to call someone Andrew really said you are an unobtainable fantasy that I foolishly desire and it went right over Neil’s head

[maddielourd]

no thoughts, just a six-year-old Andrew Minyard at the doctor’s office with strep throat. A little girl is sitting with him in the waiting room eating a Happy Meal on her mom’s lap. Andrew traces circles into his own hands, thinking that the comforting taste of chicken nuggets and french fries would help him feel better. He knows he’s not supposed to ask for things, but a pang of desperation makes him forget to be cautious. He sits up straight, gathering his courage, and turns to his foster dad to ask if they can get a Happy Meal on the way home.

“No,” his foster dad snaps. “It was already enough of an inconvenience bringing you here.”

no thoughts, just a six-year-old Andrew Minyard shrinking back into himself as tears sting in his eyes. A six-year-old Andrew Minyard learning not to want things.

no thoughts, just a twenty-year-old Nicky Hemmick leaving the doctor’s office with Andrew who probably has strep throat, but wouldn’t let the doctor get close enough to check. Drained from the day, Nicky stops at the McDonald’s drive thru and asks Andrew what he wants. Andrew snaps that he isn’t hungry. Nicky decides to buy him a Happy Meal as a way of avoiding food waste if Andrew truly isn’t hungry, but also so Andrew has something to eat if he actually is hungry.

no thoughts, just a twenty-year-old Nicky Hemmick feeling guilty for not having the energy to make something at home for Andrew to eat, and not knowing he’s given Andrew exactly what he needed.

[la-venere]

nothing sexier than that picture with the italian players on top of eachother after the win and the english ones going through the 5 stages of grief in the back

[la-venere]

THIS ONE

[phthalooo]

i can see it

[hamster-is-tired]

ITALIAN MANWHORE SUMMER

[icarus-died-laughing]

always reblog italian manwhore summer

[dismemberedlemon]

"A drag path, etched in the surface as evidence i left there on purpose"

But it's Neil leaving his bag, racquet and phone behind when he was taken by Lola so Andrew knew he didn't leave him willingly

[prettyboyneil]

Oh you’re crushing on your exy teammate and you’re both boys. Should we throw a party? Should we invite Kevin Day?

[lorasx]

the first time jeremy answers fully in french to something jean says, jean’s heart misses several beats because he wasn’t expecting it & jeremy looks so pleased with himself smiling at him so wide and bright & his big brown eyes look so expecting (for a praise? for the conversation to keep going in french? jean isn’t sure) but then jean has to watch as his beautiful smile fades and the disappointment washes over his face and then he says “oh god i said it wrong, didn’t i?” with a little embarrassed laugh. and only THEN jean realizes that he did nothing but stare at jeremy in silence for over a minute trying desperately to keep his heart under control

[rainpeacetea]

Jeremy when Jean looks at another person: damn. I must be a terrible person for wanting him. Who am I kidding? I’ll probably never find love, and there is no way Jean loves me back anyway. I mean, look at me? How COULD he love me back?

Jean when Jeremy looks at another man: I’m going to kill that bitch for catching my mans attention.

[nikholascr0w]

Kevin “It’s easier if you remain heterosexual” Day accidentally setting up every single member of his perfect court with another male member of his perfect court unknowingly

[lunapiq]

When Andrew is bored:

[schnuspi]

How Neil starts behaving the second FBI is mentioned

[dumbass-writer]

Guys shane did not turn a hoe into a housewife(husband) Ilya domesticated HIMSELF - he saw the big brown eyes of the guy who tried to shake his hand outside of a rink in goddamn saskatchewan and said is anybody going to merge souls with him spiritually? No okay I’ll do it and spent the rest of his life horrifically down bad and obsessed

[goblinspot-shop]

Done!! 🤭🦊

[schnuspi]

no.10’s face squishy

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

[thepinkpestilence]

more people could identify as asexual/aromantic if they not only knew what that label is but also knew about how wide the spectrum could be. because not every ace/aro person feels the same way and even people who DO have a general idea on what it means, could still be like "yeah no i cant be possibly ace/aro because i feel/do this and that"

[nvexe]

my pronouns are she/her bc I'll never be him (anthony head playing on his pink ds in full costume on the set of merlin)