a disorganised mess

💜she/her 💜 micah💜 mid20s 💜 bi 💜

[dailyhudsonwilliams]

via zzgko33890

[bambicoded]

I've been behind on manufacturing these im sorry to let you down gang

[astershollanov]

it's been nearly eight months since heated rivalry first aired and i still spend every free minute thinking about hollanov

[clytemnestraaa]

i think my second favorite thing about the linguistic unintended consequences of the tv show other than ilya sounding gay in russian is shane speaking the worst french known to man, which even i, an american with no knowledge whatsoever of french, could tell was uniquely terrible french, and ilya going UGH AND HE SPEAKS PERFECT FRENCH. I’M BUILDING A PIPE BOMB. like it makes any argument that ilya is cool or suave fall apart completely lol ilya now assigned fussy tantrum baby idiot

[theburialofstrawberries]

#myhomosexualshane

[cuzherboyfriendistherockandroll]

my fav genre of hudson williams pictures

he’s one of the girls

[moonshynecybin]

have you guys ever seen a crocodile with its fingies out

[moonshynecybin]

[devilishdescent]

[twinkwolf]

it’s very iconic and rich that hudson has an honest-to-god entourage. this is the stuff of celebrity fantasy. it’s kind of romantic and cinematic—a crew of loyal industry professionals being pulled into the limelight by their magnetic superstar client. even rarer and richer that it’s a group of women

[mybloodstream-caffeine]

Fandom is so obsessed with contrasts in ships that they force them onto hollanov, a couple who are FAMOUSLY supposed to be similar. There is no slutty one and prudish one. They both love sex. There is no smart one and dumb one. They both excel at the same career where traditional metrics of academic intelligence don't apply. There is no jock and nerd. They are both professional athletes. There is no neatfreak and slob. They both pay other people to clean their houses. Please release yourself from the need to manufacture an opposites attract dynamic in every facet of their relationship, ESPECIALLY when the central conceit of hollanov as a couple is that they're more alike than everyone else seems to think.

[f1-obsessed333]

How are these 1 year apart?

[ragehangover]

also. i find it odd that reid spends so much time in the long game refuting shane’s perspective. shane ‘doesn’t know the dark side of hockey.’ shane is ignorant to the problems of others. shane is too obsessed with hockey. shane’s anxieties are insipid and selfish when compared to ilya’s righteous trauma. shane’s definitely not an eating disorder is a topic of ridicule. shane is sulking after being outed again instead of helping with dinner. everyone — ilya, his parents, rose, hayden — tell shane that he’s being ridiculous and small minded, that he isn’t considering others feelings, that he doesn’t appreciate what he has.

but then everyone else is wrong and shane is right. everything he predicted comes to pass. he is outed by his best friend. he is hatecrimed and ostracised by his championship team. his fiance fails to defend his integrity to the press. he goes to another team for less money and is stripped of a letter. like. it’s just so unbelievably bizarre. i understand that reid wrote this as the ‘comeuppance’ and punishment for shane quote unquote ignoring all of ilya’s more important problems, but then why prove him right? why not make him so passively ignorant that the ensuing horror is a total surprise?

reid has spoken about getting upset when people dislike ilya and his actions, so then why write an entire book where the explicit conclusion is that ilya was wrong, and then try to frame it as shane’s fears — while ultimately correct — simply weren’t worth the hassle? and why, at the end of that, is shane still the only one to apologise?

the only explanation here is that rachel reid has unintentionally reinvented cassandra of troy from her own beautiful mind

[ragehangover]

always disappointing to me that jj wasn’t written as thee shane hollander understander on the metros…… jj recapping the game with running commentary to make shane smile while shane feels no pressure to perform…. shane feeds jj the puck so he can break the goal scoring record for a metros defenceman and they hug so hard at the blue line they fall over ……. jj and shane protecting each other on the ice and in the room…….. like the two (2) canon confirmed non white players in the books….. and they have literally zero interactions where the complexity of their intersecting experiences is like. even nodded at

again i am not looking to white canadian rachel reid for nuanced deconstructions of race in sports but the way black and asian athletes are treated in hockey is not an esoteric topic that requires rigorous study. jason robertson did not compete at the olympics this year despite being a score leader for american players because he ‘didn’t have the grit.’ pk subban spent his entire career being criticised for his tone of voice, for being loud, for being opinionated, for being attention seeking. it is very easy to draw parallels from the treatment of real non white players to how — reasonably — shane and jj would have been treated because of their race, regardless of their talents for hockey. it makes both shane and jj’s struggles seem very flat and underwhelming by comparison to characters like ilya and troy barrett. racism is missing from the conversation, although these characters transparently do not live in a post-racial world

it also makes it more insidious that jj, while he makes one ignorant comment, is relegated to villain status in fandom, sometimes ranking even lower than the actual homophobic metros players. he gets more heat than actual former bigot troy barrett and actual rapist dallas kent. ive seen him featured in fanworks as a serial abuser, someone who assaults shane, every variation of ist and phobic. any positive qualities are entirely flattened, often for the benefit of ilya to ‘protect’ shane from material harm caused by jj

rachel, again, has denied a character of colour the dignity of lived experience, something that she empathetically grants to her white characters. shane and jj’s friendship — especially considering that jj was more openly accepting of shane’s sexuality than hayden! — should have been given the opportunity to develop in the story. instead, jj is hijacked as another means to punish shane for his selfishness, his ignorance, and his paranoia. jj and shane don’t even have the luxury of resolving their fight on page like fuck me

[scunthotter]

"@shanehollanderhockeyplayer would come out of the closet and still be dating a blonde #whyaretheyalllikethis #stereotype"

You just know someone tweeted this in the gceu.

[lilyhollander]

Sorry it’s literally just because I’m Japanese but I get so worked up over the fact that RR decided to make Shane specifically Japanese-Canadian and then never talked about anything specific to the Japanese diaspora in a post-WW2 context. Like I’m crazy. I know. I know I’m being crazy it’s literally a smut novel but that shit matters!!! The type of desperate assimilation and disillusionment of North and South America-based Japanese immigrants that occurred during and after WW2 cannot be overstated. None of my cousins or even aunts and uncles can speak Japanese— and this isn’t a mistake, but a defense mechanism. Being Japanese was synonymous with “the enemy,” being a spy or traitor, so people were forced to become as American or Canadian as possible, anything to distance from their heritage. What’s crazy is so much of Shane’s mindset makes sense from this assimilationist perspective!! And RR just doesn’t have a significant awareness of any of this so she doesn’t utilize it at all

[soursevenz]

have u ever wanted to Eat a Man

[whitebuttondowns]

I’d suck the cte right out of him 6 concussions is nothing

[hollanovelist]

Still unspeakably charmed by Connie from Admin finding a later-in-life passion, discovering there’s room for tremendous joy and pleasure in her modest, rather unremarkable life, and being adored for exactly who she is. This says absolutely nothing about me personally.