Sunflower @sunflower-sunshower - Tumblr Blog

1/12/19

Blurred figures swarm the memories of what was once there

A distant memory?

A fictitious façade created by the longing?

Who’s to truly know, I don't even understand.

The End: 2018

Goodbye. Goodbye to the damage that I have caused while I figured out where I was wrong. Goodbye to those who damaged me, even without intent. This past year has been one to remember. Both good and sad things to remember. As I type I reflect on the choices I made. Each one has lead to this exact moment. Every step I took; every turn I made; every person I befriended has lead me to exactly this moment. Now, 2018, we have had our fun. We had our fights. But thank you for letting me get through.

The coming year will be just as memorable as you. I’m ready for my journey into 2019. With everything that you have taught me, I will make positive waves in 2019.

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Don’t be so hard on yourself, because it won’t make you any happier 💓 Be proud of the little things you do instead!! 💫

femestella

@recipesforselflove

thepowerwithin

We live inside our minds all day long. Make sure that yours is a nice place to be.

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

Evaluations of one’s self is important. Not comparisons, not constant criticism. Acknowledging who you are and who you can and will become. You have the option to become whoever you feel you should be.

Therapy

Therapy doesn't have to be sitting on a couch telling a stranger what’s going on; it’s painting with you’re feelings. It’s getting outside and finishing your garden. Sometimes it’s even working out. That’s what so neat- talking and working through your problems is beneficial. But forgetting the world even if it’s just until the paint has to dry, or the plants have to grow, or if your muscles start to quiver- it helps.

Don't forget to forget the world for a few moments.

Understanding

I’ve taken a lot of time to think about things. Such as what’s going on in my life, in my head, and in the world around me. With that being said, I’ve decided to delete all social media off my phone and if I am to use social media, I’ll use my computer. I may also come back to tumblr, which is a huge fear for me. Not because there’s been any conflict, but because I have an eating disorder. This was my place that I came to so I could engulf myself into the easy access to the negativity. But I feel like I am stronger and can turn this danger zone into a safe place for me to blog, give advice, and bring those around me up as well. I am excited to face this journey I’m taking. By no means am I a “happy” person. I struggle, daily. I deal with the demons of depression and anxiety and all the other things. I am human. And I’m ready to finally be human.