To Jam / Someone once referred to as Azul-Ora
I don’t think you know me, personally. I’m Bailey, and for a lack of a better term, I’m you. An introject of you, that is.
I’m going to be real with you, and I’ll admit we were probably toxic. Casey was controlling us, making us into him, and for that we do apologise. We never wanted to be like him, and a little bit after you cutting us off, we cut him off. It’s been better after that, me and Adam got engaged.
And I just want to say that you hurt us too, a lot. You hurt Adam, and us, and that was bad, and it’s stuck with us. You said some really messed up stuff to us both, and while I can go “well you were abused by JJ” it’s still pretty fucked
I am 1 of about 7 introjects to do with you, and all of that really affected us.
Why am I saying this now? Well, we just got out of another long term abusive relationship and I wanted to make peace with this thing we keep trapped inside of us — and we apologise for our hand in anything. We’ve apologised to Cel, and we’ll apologise to you too. And we’re sorry we also let JJ stay so long, just to hurt you.
I doubt you want to contact us, which is fine, we don’t mind either way. But if for some reason you do, you can message us here.
- Bailey, on behalf of Torin and everyone else
