"Everything- but not average"

Personal blog about how to cope with a heart condition and normal teenager-stuff. 17 years old, from Sweden. Everybody can text me, I'm pretty good at listening to others. Biggest wish: becoming a neurosurgeon.

[wallflower-musings]

[javjavi]

[sunshine1307sun]

Edema, hemoptysis and arrhythmias...sounds like a nice few days. Being heart insufficient sucks... My classmates are going abroad tomorrow. Seems like I had to stay here. But I will stay as positive as possible and try to find something good in this situation. I would say I could eat cake ore something but I have a nasogastric tube and can't eat anything...

[anamorphosis-and-isolate]

by Voltaire

[wordsnquotes]

I’ve decided to make myself strong. As far as I can tell, that’s all I can do.

Haruki Murakami (via wnq-writers)

Every day better than yesterday ❤

[themotivationjournals]

But I want to be better than the lessons they taught me. I want my love to be greater than my hate, my mercy to be stronger than my vengeance.

Amy Engel, The Book of Ivy (via themotivationjournals)

[thequotejournals]

I want to tell you everything, without leaving out a single detail. But where is the beginning? And what is everything?

Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via thequotejournals)

[theliteraryjournals]

If I speak, I am condemned. If I stay silent, I am damned!

Victor Hugo, Les Misérables (via theliteraryjournals)

Love this book ❤

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[sunshine1307sun]

My heart

[sunshine1307sun]

Tough day

Today is a day I could relinquish. At 4 am in the morning I went to the hospital because of a low blood-pressure. I was dyspnoeic and because of my pulmonary fibrosis I had a blood-expectorating cough. Sounds scary, but after a few times it becomes normal. It really sucks to be so sick. My friends don´t understand that. My life-expectancy is low, but they keep telling me, that with faith I could have a long life too. That´s bullshit. It makes me sad, but I don´t say nothing to make them happy. 

[sunshine1307sun]

Holidays 2017: Hospitalized again

I wondered already when my body wants to kill me again. And now I have the answer. Silvester 2016 my body thought an IV catheter would be an alternative for Champagner. Could be worse ❤

[sunshine1307sun]

However bad life may seem, there is always something you can do, and succeed at. While there is life, there is hope.

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[hplyrikz]

Clear your mind here

[successfulrulesproject]

[quotesndnotes]

I’m not living, I’m just surviving. —via http://ift.tt/2eY7hg4

[wnq-writers]

And all of a sudden, I felt nothing. And it felt great.

j.s. (via wnq-writers)

Sometimes is nothing feeling, the best feeling you can have. When you got hurt so many times, you just want forget the pain. All feelings are better then crying because of physical pain, that they have done to you.

But keep on, better days are coming for sure ❤️