i think it's crazy smash has latched onto a new way to harass me and other trans people, via claiming we support ICE. if anyone ever gets it confused, i do NOT support ICE. in fact i've been very horrified and scared for not only me, but my black and brown friends in america. ICE is made up of nazis and racists.
reason people think i support ICE is because i said nobody should be doxxed, with no exceptions. doxxing gets people, ESPECIALLY trans and/or people of color killed. we've seen this happen over and over. i've been swatted twice because i've been doxxed. it does not only just affect your target, but their family which can include closeted queers and or other folks that DO NOT SUPPORT ICE AT ALL. ESPECIALLY CHILDREN!
i think nazis and racists, especially in america, are inhumane and need to be held accountable. i also think we cannot dehumanize the people committing such atrocities, because the point is ANY human can be like this. it takes easy justification to become just like them by labeling them as immoral and evil. they already do this with immigrants and people of color, calling them violent and disgusting, justifying their inhumane treatment. this is not me saying we need to be tolerant of the intolerant. what i AM saying is, we do not need fascist tools to survive. we do not USE fascist tools.
there are accounts, likely by serial harasser smash bandicoot who's targets are primarily transgender people, claiming that i support ICE. he has been harassing me for 5+ years now. please report any account either impersonating me, or claiming i support ICE. they have been caught sending AI genderated CSEM of various tumblr users, including myself, alongside gore.
peppinoise but its werenoise and called peppiwoise. and instead of them bickering and threatening to kill each other it's werenoise squeezing peppino and dragging him everywhere like a stuffed animal (peppino is too scared to do anything about this)
#my family does this thing#when we've majorly unfucked a room or done chore that we were putting off#or whatever. Any sort of household Improvement.#'Come brag on me.'#I means come look I cleaned/rearranged/did dishes/put away the laundry#and the scripted response is 'oh nice it looks SO much better in here now'#like my mom did this when we were kids.#'girls comr brag on the garage I finally organized it so I can get my car in there'#and we go and 'ooh' and 'aah' and tell her how nice it looked and how she did a good job#and we could have her 'come brag on' us for like doing the dishes or cleaning our rooms#I do it to my wife now too#it's a dialogue that means#'I did a chore and it feels like an Accomplishment even if it objectively wasn't a big thing. Please acknowledge this.'#and#'Wow you sure did do a thing. It has improved our material circumstance even if only in a small way. Thank you for doing it.'#like yeah scrubbing the pans is my Job and it's a Little Task but sometimes it feels like a Big Task#and it's nice to have an Accepted Script where I can just demand 'I have functioned as an independent adult praise me with great praise' - by @thepioden
"Likely also why being in this rural area I work in is so exhausting because the guys are so pent-up and perverted and nasty because EVERYTHING outside of their Hanbali norm is "extreme perversion" and this makes them think it's okay to harrass people. They'll mistreat me because I don't veil my face (I'm still wearing a surgical mask most of the time to avoid disease?!) or have... embroidered sleeves. People in my home region used to complain about young guys from Riyadh/the central region in general visiting because they act like deranged horndogs, they'll trash the place, commit vandalism, sexual harrassment, etc., because they're not used to how things are in places that are more educated, have more foreigners, have people ascribing to different schools of Islamic thought in them, etc."
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I've lived and worked in societies that are deemed "sooo polite" by westerners. It's got "chastity" laws. Apparently "super safe" (unless you're a woman, but apparently that doesn't count when we're talking crime statistics). Under its strict etiquette and 'saving face' behavior heavily restricting open emotion and "western depravity", the underbelly of these places were rampant with extreme sexual perversion. Because everything was deemed depraved, they truly lost touch with what's actually depraved and what isn't.
In societies where girls and boys grow up together, in households where brothers have sisters, where teenagers grow up dating and learning safe sex, men are likelier to see women as people and are likelier to have a healthier approach to sex as adults. In societies where they keep "chaste" and "appropriate" and "pure" by segregating children by gender and are taught to only abstain, men more often view women as aliens and objects and sex is often loaded with trauma. In a society where fantasies are shamed and kinks are hidden away, people are likelier to have unhealthy relationships with these things, and lose sight of the difference between harmless kinks and real-life harm. In societies where drugs are all demonized, people don't know how to tell the difference between getting high on weed and dying from cocaine overdose. And the lack of healthy education and discussion around these things always results in more real-life victims that don't get help.
Just like how pearl-clutchers clog up FBI phone lines reporting "CSAM" that's literally a cartoon and the FBI have to beg them to stop wasting their time so they can focus on actual CSAM.
As always, puritans be on this post like "kinky porn = sex with children" because the first thing they think about in a kink is children in sexual situations. I swear, the people that are always screaming about protecting children think way more about sexualizing children than normal people do.
This causes real harm. And if you can't tell the difference between fictional fantasy enjoyed by consenting adults and real-life child abuse, you need help because this shit harms real people. Start by getting off the internet and getting an education.
It's been just over a year since Deltarune chapters 3 & 4 released! I did the 3D work, which mostly means Tenna 📺 I figured it's been long enough to share some "behind the scenes" stuff, starting with a look at the Maya file for his static poses...
I'd individually render the poses to get that early 3D shine ✨ Here's some of them at their original resolutions! I would work from text descriptions from Toby, and sometimes there'd be a Paint sketch to help out. Gigi drew the concept that I modeled from and some poses too!
I had a lot of fun pushing myself to match the dynamic poses Toby had in mind for Tenna - making him so crazy and expressive was something I couldn't have done without his prompts. He'd draw the faces on afterward too, which really brought Tenna to life!
(lots more after the Read More cut...!)
Here are some of the Paint sketches Toby drew to help me with specific Tenna poses! I love seeing his drawings LOL, genuinely really good and evocative 👍
There was a time when I was struggling to capture what he wanted for these specific Tenna poses… Until Toby acted them out himself, and I thought, "Ah, it's like that. I understand." and then I was able to make them just how he pictured them.
When looking through the renders and choosing what to share, I laughed at these two… Remember when Tenna had a gun? Remember when he bent over in a very specific way that might remind you of another, different image? No? Maybe you don't…? Well. Don't worry about it.
These ones are cute… Tenna is pretty cute sometimes! Has anyone ever thought this? Actually, before people knew he was going to be a strange 3D sprite the Whole Time, I was worried people wouldn't like the style and it'd sour people's views on him. I'm glad that didn't happen.
Toby thought it would be funny to have Tenna do some really smooth, mocapped animations sometimes - specifically free to use ones that often pop up in other things. An extra funny part to me is how many frames these take up in the game, and how his tails are stuck to his legs…
Speaking of mocap, Toby wanted Tenna to use custom mocap animations as far back as 2016 - Ten(na) years ago! I got an Xbox Kinect at the time and learnt how to set this up, but then never used it. Here's a look at messing with mocaped stuff again in 2022. So Normal.
Don't bother trying to help him here, he's just being dramatic 🙄
I particularly like these poses - I think I improvised most of these just based off the context they get used in… I always liked posing his tie and coat tails as if they were also parts of his body he could move. Which I guess they are?
After I rendered out the individual poses in high quality, I'd force the color palette to be limited to just a few shades and then I'd shrink the result down to pixel sized sprites. Like these! I'd tidy them up a little, but they'd really get improved on at the pixel scale by Clairvoire.
As well as Tenna's sprites, I also worked on his intro "movie"…! Seeing people be completely overloaded by this on first playthroughs would always make me laugh. In game, there's a ton of extra editing done by Everdraed, but my unedited cut looks like this ⬇️
This was the entire storyboard I had to work from, and I'm realizing now that there's the note "put him in car etc" that I never did and actually don't know what it would mean exactly. Working on this had me listen to the accompanying audio many times, but it's good so it's okay.
Here are a bunch of random clips of the Maya project for Tenna's intro movie. This is how movies get made, I think!! Yeah… Just like this.
Say it with him, folks!!
For the 3D Ralsei clip from the intro, Toby really wanted it to look a certain way, and drew more sketches for guiding me with this part than any other. They genuinely helped.
Remember how Toby's original storyboard has the note "covered in slime and shrinks"? That meant I had to learn how to make 3D slime. You can see my tech advancing here.
I'm really happy with how the final Tenna animation at the end of the intro movie turned out! It wouldn't look as good if it wasn't for some 2D animation to reference from SmallBuStudio, so thank you to them for the help! Tenna is cute… Huh, I already said that…?
Phew!! That's a lot of Tenna. I hope it was fun to look through my posts! Oh, one more thing - the Fangamer Mr. Tenna Figurine just straight up uses the 3D model I made, which I think is really funny and cool and nice. Check it out if you want! Thanks for reading!
“we need to stop the stigma towards drug users and addicts” and “we need to challenge the idea that being sober makes you boring” and “we need to stop acting like binge drinking to the extent you’re doing medical damage is fun and normal for young people” are all ideas that can and should coexist.
just so we’re clear, the threshold for “binge drinking to the extent you’re doing medical damage” is waaaay lower than you think.
I work in an obstetrician and gynaecologist’s office. we have to tell patients on a regular basis that they are binge drinking weekly when they think they are simply consuming a normal amount of alcohol on the weekends.
having more than 3 drinks in a single sitting if you have an estrogen based endocrine system is a binge that is medically significant.
having more than 5 in a sitting is a medically significant binge for someone with a testosterone based endocrine system.
every time you do this, it significantly impacts your risk of getting breast cancer, and damages your liver. it takes time to recover from that liver damage. if you’re having a 3-5 or more drink binge on a weekly basis, you are an alcoholic, medically speaking, and your liver is not recovering.
again: the bar for what binge drinking is, medically, is so much lower than what you think it is.
alcohol is a really toxic substance and not something you should fuck around with.
again: if you have an estrogenized hormone system (common for most women), then 3 drinks is a binge. if you have a testosteronized hormone system (common for most men), then 5 drinks is a binge.
anything above that number, consumed as frequently as weekly or more, and you’re medically a binge drinking alcoholic.
also, if you’re drinking any quantity of alcohol 6 days a week or more, that’s another threshold at which, medically speaking, you meet the definition of alcoholism. your liver needs more days without alcohol in your system than just one a week to recover and be healthy.
I don’t say any of this to shame anyone—to me, alcoholism or substance use disorders aren’t a sign of weakness or moral failing. and most of us genuinely don’t know this stuff.
rather—I point this out because it’s important to reduce harm, and find ways to live healthier, happier lives. there is a life outside of constant binge drinking. it’s not always easy to find it. but it’s out there. you deserve a life where your emotional needs are met by something other than alcohol, and a life in which your liver is healthy, and the ways you cope and celebrate and find joy don’t put you at increased risk of cancer.
also–even if alcohol is the only way you can self-medicate, or if you choose to go on with your alcohol usage anyway regardless of other options–you still deserve to know what it’s doing to your body.
information is key. you don’t have to stop drinking, but the utter lack of education on alcohol + the normalization of binge drinking in current society leads to many people drinking without any idea of what it’s doing to their bodies.
addicts deserve accurate medical information regardless of what they decide to do with it. for some people, losing liver function is worth the benefits they get from binge drinking, but they can’t make that choice if they don’t know what the consequences are to begin with.
if you are like me and numbers slide off your brain like water off a ducks back, you can use this Standard Drink Calculator to out how much you are drinking.
Can everyone who makes video content do a Deaf bitch a favor? Watch your shit with the captions on and the sound off, and then do another round of editing to fix things including but not limited to:
Captions cover the spot on the screen you put the information I need
The dialogue is captioned but not the song you have playing that the dialogue is responding to
You only captioned the person on the screen, not the person off screen who is also talking
No captioning of critical sound effects (alarms, bells, dogs barking, etc)
Speakers are not labelled at moments where it is not clear on the screen who is talking.
Captions cover the spot on the screen that you put the information I need!
Other d/Deaf people welcome to add.
This post brought to you by the fifth video tutorial I could not follow because the bad, auto-generated captions covered what I was trying to watch today.
sometimes people experiencing psychosis and/or mania will come up to you on the street and talk in confusing or upsetting ways. your job is to either have a regular human-to-human conversation with that person or politely leave. your job is not to call 911. do not call 911. you might kill that person if you call 911.
I don't even have the energy to screenshot and respond to your tags- what the actual fuck is wrong with you? "the cops are scared and rightfully so" "mental health calls are the scariest for cops" OH so this isn't about the safety of psychotic & manic people this is about piggy feelings?
and no, actually, this is not USA specific and no, actually, people from other countries should not ignore this post. police violence and sanism weren't invented in the US and they are certainly not unique to here. if you (or anyone) thinks that this bullshit doesn't happen elsewhere then you are not listening.
hey. you have to love your trans brothers of color okay. and your trans sisters of color. and your nonbinary siblings of color. you have to okay. its simply non-optional
"If you think hateful thoughts about yourself, and you're queer, that's queerphobic, and it's illegal to be queerphobic during pride month!"
How about we not make straight queers* feel guilty and paranoid about being "not queer enough" during pride month? (*Aspec straights, trans & gender diverse straights, intersex straights, lesbihets, turihets, m-specs straights, polyamorous hets, nonrose hets, etc, etc, etc?)
How about we not make people with internalized queerphobia feel guilty for intrusive thoughts?
How about we stop making a billion posts encouraging moral OCD during pride month?
[PT: How about we stop making a billion posts encouraging moral OCD during pride month? /End PT]
