Len

this is my first life too

[supersaltyvoid]

maybe if i die i will finally forget about you

[remanence-of-love]

[remanence-of-love]

[supersaltyvoid]

he’s so mean but i can’t stop letting my world revolve around him

he is so mean to me

he lets me do so much for him

and he doesn’t do a thing in return

he grabbed my stomach and told me i was fat

he called me disgusting

he said no one likes me

he said i breathe loud

he said i smell

he said i’m a bitch

he said i’m a psycho

he said every mean thing he could say

but there i am begging him to forgive me?

he hit me

and i’m apologizing.

[supersaltyvoid]

he hit me

he told me it’s my fault

why do i believe him

[supersaltyvoid]

i know i feel it bad when i want to make art

[llovelymoonn]

do you have or could you make a webweave about nostalgia? specifically of the yearning and grieving variety. it's killing me that all of it is gone forever, that all that remains is an echo, and that it will only keep fading. big yikes.

@robertszombie \\ jordanna kalman \\ jordanna kalman \\ @wearemadeofstardust0 \\ david foster wallace \\ jordanna kalman \\ okechukwu nzelu here again now \\ jordanna kalman \\ jordanna kalman \\ jordanna kalman

kofi

[eurasianmagpies]

the most important fact about me is i have never let go of or gotten over anything in my entire life

[stringovpearls]

I am sick of holding!!! I fear all I've ever held I've held too tightly!!! When is it my turn to be held!!!

[supersaltyvoid]

well i thought this was the one that’d last. i guess it’s time to find someone else to care about me. i wonder how long it’ll take for me to ruin it.

[supersaltyvoid]

well there goes another person admitting they lied.

it’s a bit funny how every time they said they care and that they love me, i tell them that no one ever means it.

they promise they are different. they mean it.

but in the end they weren’t different.

and what’s even funnier is that i always believe them.

[feelingsoftheday]

It hurts like hell when someone makes you feel special, then suddenly leaves you hanging, and you have to act like you don’t care at all.

[supersaltyvoid]

i just saw a photo of me at the age of 12

she is so young

the acne, the braces smile, the natural hair

how was she so sad?

how badly i want to hug her.

why was she hurting in the way i hurt now?

how can she been starving

how can she be struggling with the self hatred

she is so young

too young

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

– K

[sangueredenzione]

Ashes of regret

Stale upon my tongue

As I

Suffer more reminders

The very air seems to pluck the thoughts from my brain

Only to deliver more torment

With responses I did not ask for

Life seems

Excruciating

And

Uncomfortable

From the bottom of this hole I dug myself into

Where I cannot hear my mother cry as she prays for me each night

Tell me i'm losing my mind

It's better than this experienced reality

Psychotically induced every passing moment

Oh God

To just be crazy

Would be a small mercy

Would it not?

No matter

I have no more time for contemplation

As the needles penetrate my skin

And suck the blood

Like

Leeches in stagnant pools

- G.M

[supersaltyvoid]

how does my pain feel so massive

never-ending and suffocating

but you will never feel it

i don’t know your pain or another’s pain

we’re all just full of grief and loss and sadness

we’re all drowning simultaneously

unaware

[supersaltyvoid]

it’s tough

its honestly the worst

coming to the realization

i’m the reason.

everything that happened

everyone that hurt me

everything that went wrong

it was all my fault.

it’s not self pity, it’s finally seeing

and i wish i could close my eyes