Pronounced Sir-vivid

Thank you.

[survivide]

The way you said “I love you.“

Some fluffy, some angsty prompts

As a hello

With a hoarse voice, under the blankets

A scream

Over a cup of tea

Over a beer bottle

On a sunny Tuesday afternoon, the late sunlight glowing in your hair

As a thank you

As an apology

When baking chocolate chip cookies

Not said to me

With a shuddering gasp

When we lay together on the fresh spring grass

In a letter

A whisper in the ear

Loud, so everyone can hear

Over and over again, till it’s nothing but a senseless babble

When the broken grass litters the floor

From very far away

With no space left between us

As we huddle together, the storm raging outside

Over your shoulder

Muffled, from the other side of the door

Through a song

Without really meaning it

In a blissful sigh as you fall asleep

Broken, as you clutch the sleeve of my jacket and beg me not to leave

A taunt, with one eyebrow raised and a grin bubbling at your lips

When I am dead

Slowly, the words dripping from your tongue like honey

Too quick, mumbled into your scarf

In awe, the first time you realised it

In a way I can’t return

On a post-it note

Before we jump

As a goodbye

[survivide]

100 Tips for Life

1. There are plenty of ways to enter a pool. The stairs is not one of them. 2. Never cancel dinner plans by text message. 3. Don’t knock it ‘til you try it. 4. If a street performer makes you stop walking, you owe him a buck. 5. Always use ‘we’ when referring to your home team or your government. 6. When entrusted with a secret, keep it. 7. Don’t underestimate free throws in a game of ‘horse’. 8. Just because you can doesn’t mean you should. 9. Don’t dumb it down. 10. You only get one chance to notice a new haircut. 11. If you’re staying more than one night, unpack. 12. Never park in front of a bar. 13. Expect the seat in front of you to recline. Prepare accordingly. 14. Keep a picture of your first fish, first car, and first boy/girlfriend. 15. Hold your heroes to a high standard. 16. A suntan is earned, not bought. 17. Never lie to your doctor. 18. All guns are loaded. 19. Don’t mention sunburns. Believe me, they know. 20. The best way to show thanks is to wear it. Even if it’s only once. 21. Take a vacation of your cell phone, internet, and TV once a year. 22. Don’t fill up on bread, no matter how good. 23. A handshake beats an autograph. 24. Don’t linger in the doorway. In or out. 25. If you choose to go in drag, don’t sell yourself short. 26. If you want to know what makes you unique, sit for a caricature. 27. Never get your hair cut the day of a special event. 28. Be mindful of what comes between you and the Earth. Always buy good shoes, tires, and sheets. 29. Never eat lunch at your desk if you can avoid it. 30. When you’re with new friends, don’t just talk about old friends. 31. Eat lunch with the new kids. 32. When traveling, keep your wits about you. 33. It’s never too late for an apology. 34. Don’t pose with booze. 35. If you have the right of way, take it. 36. You don’t get to choose your own nickname. 37. When you marry someone, remember you marry their entire family. 38. Never push someone off a dock. 39. Under no circumstances should you ask a woman if she’s pregnant. 40. It’s not enough to be proud of your ancestry; live up to it. 41. Don’t make a scene. 42. When giving a thank you speech, short and sweet is best. 43. Know when to ignore the camera. 44. Never gloat. 45. Invest in good luggage. 46. Make time for your mom on your birthday. It’s her special day, too. 47. When opening presents, no one likes a good guesser. 48. Sympathy is a crutch, never fake a limp. 49. Give credit. Take blame. 50. Suck it up every now and again. 51. Never be the last one in the pool. 52. Don’t stare. 53. Address everyone that carries a firearm professionally. 54. Stand up to bullies. You’ll only have to do it once. 55. If you’ve made your point, stop talking. 56. Admit it when you’re wrong. 57. If you offer to help don’t quit until the job is done. 58. Look people in the eye when you thank them. 59. Thank the bus driver. 60. Never answer the phone at the dinner table. 61. Forgive yourself for your mistakes. 62. Know at least one good joke. 63. Don’t boo. Even the ref is somebody’s son. 64. Know how to cook one good meal. 65. Learn to drive a stick shift. 66. Be cool to younger kids. Reputations are built over a lifetime. 67. It’s okay to go to the movies by yourself. 68. Dance with your mother/father. 69. Don’t lose your cool. Especially at work. 70. Always thank the host. 71. If you don’t understand, ask before it’s too late. 72. Know the size of your boy/girlfriend’s clothes. 73. There is nothing wrong with a plain t-shirt. 74. Be a good listener. Don’t just wait for your turn to talk. 75. Keep your word. 76. In college, always sit in the front. You’ll stand out immediately. 77. Carry your mother’s bags. She carried you for nine months. 78. Be patient with airport security. They’re just doing their jobs. 79. Don’t be the talker in a movie. 80. The opposite sex likes people who shower. 81. You are what you do, not what you say. 82. Learn to change a tire. 83. Be kind. Everyone has a hard fight ahead of them. 84. An hour with grandparents is time well spent. Ask for advice when you need it. 85. Don’t litter. 86. If you have a sister, get to know her boyfriend. Your opinion is important. 87. You won’t always be the strongest or the fastest. But you can be the toughest. 88. Never call someone before 9am or after 9pm. 89. Buy the orange properties in Monopoly. 90. Make the little things count. 91. Always wear a bra at work. 92. There is a fine line between looking sultry and slutty. Find it. 93. You’re never too old to need your mom. 94. Ladies, if you make the decision to wear heels on the first date, commit to keeping them on and keeping your trap shut about how much your feet kill. 95. Know the words to your national anthem. 96. Your dance moves might not be the best, but I promise making a fool of yourself is more fun than sitting on the bench alone. 97. Smile at strangers. 98. Make goals. 99. Being old is not dictated by your bedtime. 100. If you have to fight, punch first and punch hard.

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[survivide]

Creative Fashion Designs by Edgar Artis

[survivide]

Saffron Herndon a 10 years old from Dallas, Texas, performing as a stand up comedian. Many of her influences include Tina Fey, Amy Poehler, Phyllis Diller,and Aubrey Plaza. Saffron rose to fame in the fall of 2015 after images of her stand-up material went viral on Reddit.

[survivide]

Different kinds of tired:

All day at the beach snooze. Warm skin, wet hair, salt and sand with green apple-scented shampoo. Bed sheet tides pulling up and down stomach flips into mermaid dreams.

Foggy and fatigued. Early nights, wondering if you are getting sick. Eyelids melting closed, dizzy, dizzy, spinning into sleep.

Drowsy car rides with soft radio buzz. A pillow on the window, pulling on your seatbelt. Waking up and not knowing where you are.

College drained. Forget what you are doing, no amount of coffee really helps. Messy hair and passed out in class. Nothing is making any sense.

Mental illness Exhaustion. Physically worn out even though you rested all day. Migraines, greasy hair, messy room and unwashed dishes.

Sunday sleepy. Sprawled on the couch, limbs as tangled as hair. School and the rest of the world forgotten while the news plays softly on television. Clouds pulling eyes shut when you should be waking up.

[survivide]

“50 things I wish I had realized while I was still in school”

That zit on your cheek literally does not matter

Skipping class one time will not ruin your entire life

The boy you’re trying so hard to impress will mean nothing to you in a year

Bring coffee to school and ignore people who make fun of it

Bring a snack, too. Don’t care if people hear you eating in class.

Being popular isn’t and will never be something that seriously defines who you are

Appreciate your teachers

Doing/not doing drugs doesn’t make you cooler than anyone else.

Neither does drinking

Talk to the kid sitting alone; even though it may not change your life it could drastically change theirs

Participate in school events

Wear sweatpants everyday

Or wear a dress everyday

Wear whatever makes you comfortable

Nobody will laugh at you if you sit alone at your lunch table for five minutes

Utilize the library

Don’t wait 20 minutes to text someone back just to seem cool

Tell your friends how much you love them

Cherish your free textbooks… seriously

Help confused freshmen, be nice to them. Remember how much you would have appreciated it a couple years ago

Compliment the other girls in the bathroom

That fight you had with your mom really isn’t that big of a deal

It’s okay to cry

Don’t let your desire for a romantic relationship stop you from forming platonic relationships

Remember that life does go on

Your personal life is nobody elses business

This includes your sexuality, family issues, mental issues… you do not have to tell anyone what you don’t feel comfortable with

Instead of being disgusted or appalled by other races, cultures, opinions, etc. learn about them. Realize that in the end we’re all people who deserve respect

You’re allowed to make new friends, just don’t forget the old ones

Staying up a little late to watch an episode or two wont destroy your GPA

Walking in those horribly lit highschool hallways is significantly better than walking outside on a college campus… especially in the winter. Appreciate it.

Being friends with kids in the years below you isn’t lame— having friends of all ages is great

Recognize warning signs of depression/anxiety/other mental disorders. You are not crazy, you are not just a hormonal teenager.

If you take a rockin’ selfie post that shit.

Wear the outfit that is risky but makes you feel amazing.

Your self-worth and self-respect is not determined by your sexual experiences/partners. Whether it be 0 or 20, what matters is that you are comfortable and safe

Love is a lot more than holding hands in the hallway and butterflies in your tummy- don’t fall too fast

Freedom of speech does not mean freedom to be an asshole

The drama will end

It’s okay to experiment, dye or cut your hair, change your style of clothes, do your makeup differently. Highschool is about finding yourself

In a couple years nobody will remember that you fell down the stairs as a freshman— even if they do, who cares

Highschool in no way shape or form will prepare you for college

Getting a job will make your life a lot easier

If a guy/girl can only hold a conversation over text and not in person they are not worth pursuing

“If he/she likes you they’ll pick on you” is wrong— having a crush does not justify being a jerk

Don’t waste time hating the kids that you grew up with

Taking any non-prescribed drugs during school is dangerous and stupid, no matter what it is or what you believe it will do to benefit you

Be the kid that stands up for your teacher when kids harass them— being kind and mature can get you far, especially after you graduate

Don’t hold grudges, people change. You will change.

Highschool can either be the worst years of your life, or some of the best. It’s your choice.

[survivide]

This is not mine, I wanted to make the post into one post, since the OC was in two post.

[lordmeowdemort]

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[staypozitive]

[survivide]

And when someone gazes at you like "do they want to get to know me or murder me"

[survivide]

Do you know what depression feels like? It feels like a thousand pound weight holding your body down in a pool of water, barely reaching your chin. So no matter how bad your neck hurts you gotta keep your head up to survive. It’s looking at the sky, seeing how far away heaven is from you right now. It’s how much you hate now, and every second after it. It’s the feeling after you realize that one thing that you want so passionate is drifting past your tips and each time you reach to grab it you get a mouth full of water and you sacrifice drowning. Depression is the pressure bouncing against your chest, asthmatic, air keeps seeping in even though I don’t want to breathe again. Depression is finally falling asleep and waking up so pissed off for no apparent reason in the morning. It’s a constant state of mourning, when the only thing that died is your pride. It’s pushing everybody that loves you as far away from you as humanly possible cause I don’t deserve them. Desert them before they desert me. It’s quicksand sinking, it’s feeling alone in a room full of people. It’s alright… yeah, I’m okay. No, really, really, I’m good. It’s applying a clown face and pretending everything is cool and content when you know you will explode any minute. Depression is four hydrocodones, two x pills, and a poetry show. Feeling like the biggest hypocrite in the world. It’s tears that will never fall from your cheek, fear of adding to the water that I’m already chin deep in… Yeah, I wanna die but not that way. Maybe Kurt Cobain like, possibly Chris Benoit type, partly Chris Farley. Feeling like the biggest clown in the smallest circus. Worthless. When will my best be good enough anyway? It’s being afraid, of being alone, with your own thoughts in an empty apartment but not wanting anyone around you. It’s going to the bathroom in total darkness not wanting to see your own reflection. It’s taking five showers a day at least and still not feeling clean. Depression is the demon at the bottom of a Zoloft bottle. Depression is the reason I called into work today, and yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. I could get a hundred hours of sleep and still feel tired as hell. Searching for a clear definition of self. It’s the thanks for nothing look you give the people who tell you to pray and everything will be okay, but the only explanation is crazy. But you wouldn’t call me crazy if you knew how much I hate me. It’s biting your nails till your fingers bleed, steadily grinding your teeth. Depression is the reason this poem has no ending

[survivide]

[survivide]

What if others could see what I see when I am suicidal?

[survivide]

[survivide]

The Rush To Die It started out with 1-2 pills, Then I move to 5 pills a few times, Then 10 pills a few times, All within some what of 24 hours. Over 60 pills taken. 20 on January 31, and 30 or more on February 1. I wanted to die, I didn't want to be in pain anymore. And then came the pain... My parents rushed me to the hospital. Then I went into a impatient therapy, I came out, I still want to die. They think I'm doing all this for attention, When I need help then... I stop asking, I stop trying, I give up, I fail.

[survivide]

I actually have no idea where this is from, I just love it. 

[survivide]

Telltales of the Signs or How to Guess Someone's Sign

Aries: Tendency to talk over you. Strong opinions. A very 'me' person, but at the same time very caring to those around them. Friends are like family. Taurus: Slow and quiet, both regarding talking and moving. Super human nose for some reason. Clear voices. Scared of the unknown. Gemini: They have a lot of facial expressions to the point they can be caricaturesque. Always moving from one place to another. Hand talkers. Cancer: Always worrying about something. They need a lot of reassurance. If uncomfortable or upset, they tend to fold into themselves, like they're trying to ocupy as little space as possible. Leo: Always checking themselves out. They have a hair Thing. They smile a lot. They hate negativity. Very uncomfortable when someone is unhappy and they make it their job to fix it. Virgo: Very opinionated. Hands are always in motion. Probably think they can do everything better and, annoyingly enough, usually can. Libra: Compulsively need harmony. Lazier than they seem. Always being able to see the two sides of a story, but unable to pick a side themselves. Scorpio: They notice more than they let on. They get off by getting on your nerves. Sagittarius: Zero filter. Their foot is permanently on their mouth. Huge skeptics. To them, seeing is believing. Wanderlust. Capricorn: Always 'working' on something. Begrudgingly end up taking care of everything. Aquarius: Almost always into sci-fi or video games or something like that. They're fascinated by humanity, but hate people. Proud of their inviduality. Pisces: Permanent head in the clouds. Tends to doodle on things without noticing. They're always either sleepy or look like they are.