L

(active 11/22) MINORS DNI. check pinned post for info/stats!

[swiftlystarving-deactivated]

TW: ED/SH

(don’t report, just block!)

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about me:

name: hidden for anonymity. call me L

age: 22

pronouns: they/xe

d!s0rder: än0rëx1ä

height: 165 cm/5’5

PRO RECOVERY.

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❕last warning for ed❗️

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stats:

weight

hw: 83 kg/183 lbs

lw: 71 kg/156 lbs

sw: ???

cw: 74 kg/163 lbs

gw1: ???

gw2: ???

gw3: 67 kg/148 lbs*

gw4: 59 kg/130 lbs*

gw5: 54 kg/120 lbs

ugw: 50 kg/110 lbs

*crucial goals

THIS BLOG IS MY SAFE SPACE.

i am not pr0ana! i like meeting people going through similar things (and the memes). it’s comforting because they understand and care without forcing recovery. this blog also helps me pass along important, possibly-lifesaving information, ed related or not!

IF YOU DON’T HAVE AN ED,

GET LOST. WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!

E@TING D!S0RDERS ARE HELL.

THEY ARE PAINFUL.

THEY ARE DEADLY, NOT ROMANTIC.

GET OUT WHILE YOU CAN.

i’m not here to encourage anyone to “give” themself an eäting d!s0rder. like i said, i’m PRO RECOVERY. once you fall in this hole, you can never truly get out! those thoughts will always be in the back of your mind, trying to tempt you to reläpse, no matter how far into recovery you are. please leave my blog and take care of yourself. block me, block any ed account you run across and never come back. you don’t deserve to be deprived of a basic human need. no one does. you’re just fine the way you are. you’re worthy of a nice, hot meal. you’re worthy of laughing so hard that your stomach hurts. you’re worthy of being happy and healthy and loving life. you’re worthy of good things. don’t let a stupid number define your worth and who you are. you’re so much more than that.

[the-seelie-court-official]

listen to me. listen. your actual job in life, and it sucks that your 5th grader teacher didnt explain this adequately enough, is to ask for help when you need it and to accept charity when it would take a weight from your shoulders. Otherwise you end up like Sisyphus- or even worse, Walter White

[swiftlystarving-deactivated]

if you’re an active ED account, please interact with this post if you see it (if anyone even does)!!! all my former moots have gone inactive and my dash is dead anymore!

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

[swiftlystarving-deactivated]

my partner recently told me about a diet they plan to start, and, knowing how äñä is, i feel like this is a competition. however, i know that is not their intention at all and they just want to be healthy. i would like to stop fucking binging and just let my êd get worse, to find a plan and fucking stick to it. hold me accountable, moots. i’m not trying to recover.

i’m saying this, i will do my best to get worse and lose the weight so i can feel euphoric and stop this suffering i’ve been going through for the past fifteen years.

unfortunately, i had breakfast this morning without taking my weight, so i’ll $t4rve for the rest of the day, starting my journey tomorrow, and i’ll update you later.

love you,

L <3

[aroloverboy]

Hey it’s ace week and you’re local ace has something to say! I’ve been out as ace for 3 years now and it’s still a big part of my identity that I’m proud of so here’s a lil something for those who need it!

[natequarter]

[id: a comic about asexuality. almost the panels are on a light cream background.

panel 1: text reading “it’s ace week!” in the colours of the ace flag, with purple, grey and black in the background.

panel 2: text reading “and it’s time to be loud and proud,” accompanied by sparkles.

panel 3: “so this is for all the aces out there” written in white text on a purple background.

panel 4: a black person says “those who’ve known for a while the were ace” and a white person says “and those who’ve just realised.”

panel 5: a black person says “those who are still confused about their own identities.”

panel 6: a brown and white person who are dating say “and those who are in a relationship.”

panel 7: a brown person says “and those who aren’t, by choice or not.”

panel 8: text reading “those who are sex repulsed, sex indifferent and sex favourable” in the colours of the ace flag, with two ace flags on each side.

panel 9: a black person says “those who’ve never had sex” and a white person in a wheelchair says “and those who have.”

panel 10: “those who use microlabels” is written in black text on a green jacket, which is decorated with various acespec flags.

panel 11: “those who aren’t out” is written above a black person and “and those who are” is written above a brown hijabi person holding an ace flag.

panel 12: purple text reading “no matter who you are” is written above a series of ace flags.

panel 13: purple text reading “your identity is valid” is written above an ace-coloured heart.

panel 14: white text reading “no matter your actions or preferences” is written in front of blocks of colour matching the ace flag.

panel 15: black text reading “you don’t owe anyone an explanation” is written above a purple hand making the “fuck you” symbol and wearing an ace ring.

panel 16: large black text reading “so go and celebrate who you are!” followed by “in a safe way of course, we’re still in the middle of a pandemic.” behind it is a blue cloudy sky and an ace flag. /end id]

[cr1mes]

[disruptivedisgusting]

i dont think anyone really understands the levels of passively suicidal that i actually am bc like it doesnt matter where i am or what im doing id still rather be dead and its so exhausting

[kthnxbye]

I hope my followers don't expect anything of me, I'm only here to be insane.

[honeytuesday]

the best part of growing up is that you always will be!! there's always gonna be something more to learn and see and feel and think and that's what u gotta look forward to babey!!! the universe is infinitely expanding and so are u!!!!

[stuckinapril]

maybe a mildly hot take but i think everyone should be well acquainted w rejection. my goal is to put myself in as many situations as possible, even w the knowledge in mind that it might end w me rejected in some form. bc not caring about that leads to so much growth, & the more exposed you are to something, the more desensitized you are to it. i wanna reach a point where i don’t give even the slightest fuck about rejection at ALL bc i know that it had nothing to do w me personally. things just don’t work out sometimes

[stuckinapril]

this is not grounds to start doing inappropriate things you know will lead to you being rejected btw. but it is grounds to start doing things you’re otherwise too scared of doing, for the sole reason you’re afraid of rejection. missing less & less opportunities the more & more you do

[strongermonster]

lol getting pulled into the office for an informal sit-down because we just finished our round of paltry and frankly offensive raises, and i've been calling them poverty wages/disrespect wages, because that's what they are. yes, miss manager, my vibe is a little rancid right now, but i have to spend all my break listening to my coworker who's going through a divorce cry in secret because she can't afford to live alone despite working a full 40 hours a week, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[theambitiouswoman]

Are you doing what you’re doing out of love or to be loved?

[kikikoko234]

in theory, loosing weight is so easy, you just have to skip meals and wait. But i have a brain with a survival modus and thats the whole problem -_-

[mysharona1987]

[kikikoko234]

a special and big thank you to an4 tumblr for being my safe place

[llleighsmith]

something so special about building a home that is your own, that you can decorate how you please, fill with your energy, make it safe and warm and inviting, take care of it and take pride in it. very very blessed