𝐬𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝.

i'm stuck here in between these shadows of my yesterday.

[azarland]

i’ll sharpen my swords & i’ll sharpen my words & i’ll sharpen my teeth & i’ll sharpen my claws   /   let no man & no beast again catch me unawares & let those that try die wide eyed & impailed.

[sworen]

𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞.   [   𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 ??   ]

AN ANSWER.          ah, i know this place.     lovely & lost, hm ??     all your hurt tumbling inside of you, unwashed & unsorted.     you find yourself stuck in the tumult, unable to figure out what you even feel at this point.     it shreds you on every pass, but it refuses to settle, so you just sit there, knowing you should do - something - about - it.     it comes back around again, & it is infuriating.     (   how could they, why did this happen, why didn't you just.   )     what comes next ??     what are you supposed to do ??     what are you supposed to want ??     if you had a direction, a desire, a guiding star   —   you’d be able to just go, & walk.

but you are here, in this place without north.     you are here, & gravity barely works.     every echo feels like fog.     you are a parcel of a person  ;     barely whole, wondering what happened to you.     how you got flattened into a faceless person.     how are you supposed to move in the direction of your goals when you have no idea what the goal is even supposed to sound like ??     how are you supposed to know ??

i will tell you something that is good for both of us  :     sometimes, you just know.     sometimes we know & we don’t want to hear the answer.     (   sometimes we know & we are ignoring it .   )     you know you need to leave him, that you love her, that they aren't really your friend.     i will tell you something else  :     the answer sometimes never comes.     & what is best in that moment, where you have nothing & no one ??

little blue night hawk   —   i love you.     give up looking for what is right.     give up looking for best - option.     instead just choose   —   what feels like forwards ??     what feels like up ??     choose what you need.     chew off your wrist if you need to get unstuck.     but go.     & maybe one day, the answer will come.

[sworen]

hmmmmmm

[kaiisens-deactivated20210811]

i want to play hades irl

[kaiisens-deactivated20210811]

and by that i mean i want to stand outside my father’s house and wave a sword around while calling him a cunt

[kaiisens-deactivated20210811]

ive never played hades.

[vnting]

im doing my best. please just let it be good enough.

[sworen]

i am not immune to cute picrews

[weltenwellen]

Jeanette Winterson, Written on the Body

[sworen]

eldest daughter is a gender neutral term & soren is one

[sworen]

ok so bc my brain’s been demanding extra action while i get thru the nature of the beast quest i’ve been thinkin abt timeline junk irt where in the da timeline i would think to place tdp’s da verse & then other stuff popped into my head & here’s what i’ve got

the chantry schism + the exalted marches + the fourth blight = the mage wars aka judgement of the half - moon  :     so, the orlesian chantry & the tevinter imperium’s greatest conflict was over how they each saw magic, tevinter believing that magic was meant to serve the greater good & not to control people & wanted to let mages be involved in politics, while the orlesian chantry went fuck no, so tevinter went ok fuck you too & formed their own chantry, & in return were faced with the exalted marches, which the impreial chantry withstood, & as retaliation for the marches refused to give aid during the fourth blight.     in tdp’s da verse, the orlesian chantry & the tevinter imperium would be elarion & xadia respectively, with the conflict for fucking sure involving blood magic, da’s equivalent to dark magic, with details of events tweaked to fit the da universe & / or to fit tdp lore.

some years or events would have to be sped up or discarded to account for the max separation from that time to the current available present being about 600 years in da as opposed to the millennium in tdp, or the mage wars themselves can just be brought closer to the modern day.

where are the human kingdoms in da!verse ???     uhhhhhh i’m tempted to say ferelden bc Dogs & that’s arguably the place we know shit best about regarding, well, any of how anything works, However Comma i’d say anderfels, i think ??????     they’ve got a monarchy, they’re where grey wardens originated, the weisshaupt fortress aka the grey warden hq is there, it’s pretty damn west of shit, oh & fuck, right, they share a border with the tevinter imperium which i just compared to xadia which shares a border with katolis, so that works out cool.     because we know relatively little about anderfels, i think that’d be a fun location to play with in converting katolis, & other human kingdoms, to the da universe.

of things to consider  :     viren, a blood mage, becoming an abomination through aaravos, an elf mage turned spirit turned desire demon, but in that way where the spirit lets its host have control most of the time so long as they listen to the spirit so it’s hard to know they’re possessed by a spirit unless you know what to look for or they tell you.

moonshadow elves being a faction of dalish elves.

i’ll probably add to this mess at some point bc head full

[sworen]

more things to consider  :     viren knowing very well that he did a yikes with involving dragon blood in the process of healing soren as a child   ( even though at the time it was his best option ) ,  knowing that reavers are hard to not notice in the midst of intense battle & thus nudging soren towards joining the templars as within the circle viren could keep an eye on soren just as much as soren was tasked to keep an eye on the mages, & it was far less likely to run risk of soren revealing himself as a reaver while viren was around,

soren covering for viren & claudia constantly to hide the fact that they’re blood mages, sneaking them tomes & documents & keys, letting them know when & where he’s stationed & when & where not so that they know when to be cautious & when to sneak around   ( soren’s absolutely snuck claudia out once or twice, just because she’s his sister & deserves to run around outside the templars’ watch for a time ) .

[sworen]

viren simps is this ur man ??????     is this ur king ?????????????

when aaravos is Right There ?????????????????????

[sworen]

@taughtdark: viren is soooo interesting but GOD does the fandom make it so hard to actually “like” him because they constantly thirst over him LMAO

simps rlly will see a fucked up Evil For The Greater Good dilf & say “that is IT(tm)” while ignoring the perfectly fine fucked up Evil For Fun elf archmage :pensive:

[sworen]

rewatching the second half of s3 & damn lines like “[claudia] will be a valuable asset.” “she is not an asset. she is my daughter.” rlly do make ya thonk abt how viren’s a really interesting antagonist because he sees himself as the furthest thing from a villain & genuinely cares about his family & about his kingdom but he also just has the moral backbone of a chocolate eclair, he will do literally anything it takes to achieve his goals & gain the power he deems necessary for said goals all while maintaining that it’s for the greater good, that the ends justify the means, & all while still genuinely caring about people & believing he is doing what’s best for everyone.

sure is fucked that a part of the fandom look at this man’s daughter & go “actually she’s the bad guy” :)

[sworen]

some stuff from the reddit ama from september:

fucked up & evil of the writers to decide to have rayla’s running off after viren on her own be on the morning of callum’s birthday,

more lissa lore to be had in the books, & also a chance for mention of her in as far in as s6,

there’ll def be more skywing elves in future seasons,

aaron: “without spoiling anything I will say we will see some very important and epic figures consume jelly tarts.”,

aaron: “Yes, elven lifespans are longer than humans... and I understand this theoretically has some sad implications for Rayllum...” :pensive:,

callum’s father is 100% human so unless sarai, & by extension amaya, have some secret xadian ancestry, the part-elf!callum theory is just a fun au thing,

planned pop culture references for future seasons involve refs to twin peaks & mad men.

[sworen]

head empty thinking abt this

[sworen]

:(

[sworen]

im watching the q&a from october & just stuff of note for personal ref & also bc it’s a jumble of a zoom call that lasts like an hour:

there’s gnna be more stuff abt the orphan queen in future seasons,

moonshadow elves naturally have a strong connection to the moon primal & being in tune with that arcanum grants the ability to master moonshadow mode & these two factors coexisting is the reason the moonshadow elves developed a culture based deeply in stealth,

going off that, there’s a chance we’ll see more ways a connection to the moon arcanum can manifest, something similar maybe to connections to the sun or wind arcanum,

there’s Absolutely gnna be more dark mages in future seasons,

an important dark mage who’ll come up in future seasons in the story will show up in book two: sky,

there’s a possibility that aaravos nudged humanity towards the discovery of dark magic,

DEF gnna get more dragons,

elves Can do dark magic,

someone asked “do you think claudia deserves a redemption arc” & aaron just went “why does she Need a redemption arc?? why are you judging her what has she done that’s, that requires redemption??? i’m a little confused????? what, what judgemental person just asked for her to have a redemption arc because,, pretty much in the clear if you ask me” & justin agreed & said “that’s right i mean i’m insulted For her”, so the creators said claudia rights so i better not see claudia slander but esp post!oct7 fr fr,

corvus’ middle name is dennis, they decided on that during the q&a after someone asked if corvus’ middle name Was actually dennis & they went “i mean why not seems right to me” “sure his middle name’s dennis now”,

part of why rayla hates water so much could be because on land, in trees she has a sense & feel of the stability of the earth & the flexibility of the wood & because she’s so attuned to all that being in water removes sense of balance to the point of it being overwhelming & alarming, but there’s probably a mental / emotional part to it, might learn smth abt that in the future,

any extra info on callum’s dad + callum’s early childhood will likely come in the form of from the books,

dragon queen is def gnna be more involved in s4,

justin: “we can never get enough crow master as far as i’m concerned”,

soulfang serpents, like the ones in the midnight desert, are moon primal creatures,

time gap between the end of s3 & through the moon is like two or three weeks, tops,

elven tattoos are more like henna tattoos than permanent ones, though it can depend on the culture whether they do permanent markings or painted markings,

when asked who the best fighter is, there’s no single answer but they did list rayla, soren, corvus, amaya as some of the strongest, before aaron said “the answer might be amaya, if i had to put an answer on it, like just fundementals”, justin agreed,

( justin also said “i bet soren would disagree” which, mr justin, sir, i’m afraid that’s a losing bet ) .

[sworen]

get your fucking templar bitch

cant stop thinkin bout the “frightening appearance” talent,,