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@taeteringontheedge
jungkook fic recs that make me spiral bc of the DETAILS (it’s just kiki fics. i don’t care.)
let’s go with the juicy jungkook fic recs:
• Fuck Me Up by queen Kiki aka @jungkoode
this fic is basically enemies to roommates to maybe something softer but with an unhealthy dose of emotional repression, trauma bonding, sexual tension so thick it could suffocate a horse, and a jungkook that makes you want to throw hands and then throw him on a bed. it’s set in new york. it’s slow burn. it’s so detailed it’ll haunt you at 3AM.
you want angst? it has angst.
you want yearning? boy howdy
you want a reader with so many trust issues and control problems she could run a cult? say less.
jungkook has a toxic ex, a god complex, and smells like rain (hello??????? i need to sniff his neck ffs). also he keeps calling her Phoenix like that’s not suspiciously intimate. and they sleep together but call each other bro. i don’t know what to tell you.
• Kkangpae by @jungkoode again bc is there anything she can’t write? i don’t think so
this fic is basically a gang AU where you're thrown into this criminal underworld with a "no relationships" rule that everybody's one emotional breakdown away from breaking. it's got a tattooed, pierced jungkook who's emotionally constipated but physically… very available. he's the assassination division chief who acts like touching him will give you frostbite but looks at you like he wants to commit several crimes (besides the ones he's already doing).
you want complex gang politics? it has LAYERS.
you want sexual tension that makes you need to touch grass? absolutely.
you want a reader who's in the seduction division and can totally stand up for herself while making terrible decisions? SAY LESS
jungkook smells like pine (idk what is with kiki and scents but mf does it so good so stay with me). there's trauma. there's this whole "sylvia incident" that's got everyone walking on eggshells. V is literally unhinged. like probably pops a boner killing people unhinged. yoongs is grumpy tech genius personified. hobi is bear mama. worldbuilding will have you questioning if kiki secretly runs a crime syndicate herself???
basically it's "we're just fucking" until it very much isn't, with bonus organized crime.
and that’s it for now because i have weirdly developed an obsession with kiki’s writing and nothing is hitting the same anymore. RIP to who i was pre-kiki i guess 😔
also yes i am shamelessly doing this to get more people to read the fics so we can achieve the goals organically and realistically and force her to update bc i’m the unhinged in unhinged kiki nation. GO DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE WITH US. PRAISE LORD ALMIGHTY (KIKI)
Did I narrate a whole ass drabble of the blorblos acting out Hamilton for Nix’s 4yo cousin? Yes. Yes I did.
drop it ????? KIKI
THE 25TH HOUR | 11
pairing: yoongi x f!reader | rating: 18+ | wc: 6,3k | warnings: here genre: dystopian, timelines, psychological, starcrossed+fated mates
"tango"
"The elevator was just the start. By the time his fingers circle the air, you’ve already stopped breathing. By the time you finish the tango, you’ve already remembered. And by the end—only one of you can walk out on your own."
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↪︎author's note : Whew! It’s finally h-e-r-e!!! Chapter Eleven has officially entered the timeline and I am vibrating at seven different frequencies about it. Okay—won’t lie—this chapter has actually been done for a while. BUT. My insane little hamster brain kept pacing in circles, working out logistics because yes… yes, I created a whole outline for 25H (shocking no one) and I needed to reconcile everything that happens here with the overall structure. I’m very annoying about internal consistency and coherence. My neurons require it. My sleep schedule has suffered for it. So. Let’s delve in.
First off. The dress. The fucking dress. Yes, he’s looking. Yes, he’s holding himself back. Yes, I’m an absolute whore for inner restraint. Because once that man snaps?? BOY. OH BOY OH BOY OH BOY. I WILL. (s)CREAMMMMM. He is on the edge this entire chapter and I wrote it like that on purpose. Let the tension rot inside him like God intended. The elevator scene?? Criminal. So criminal. My intention there was to draw out the unbearable precision of their dynamic—how even their silences are engineered for maximum psychological damage. I needed to make it viscerally clear how these two can make physics and biometric scanners sound like the dirtiest fucking thing you’ve ever heard. And Yoongi? He’s a saint. I fear. This is a masterclass in holding back. The glove. The tango. Jesus Christ. You may not fully understand the significance of this moment yet (and that’s okay), but please know this scene has been rooted in my brain since chapter one. I have bitten my knuckles over it. Twice. And if you’re reading carefully… you’ll notice how they calibrate each other during the Dr. Harrison scene. These two synchronize under pressure in a way that’s equal parts scientific and devastatingly intimate. It’s very “you’re the only one who can reach me when I’m spiraling” coded and I will never be normal about it. The final part?? Her needing to get him to safety? Listen. I’m gonna throw my laptop out a window. I love them. They are so doomed. They are so tethered. This is where the story starts unraveling. So prepare yourself, baby.
Next chapter? Drama. See you there. Mwah.
Agent Min has been avoiding your gaze for precisely three minutes and seventeen seconds.
Not obvious avoidance—his head moves in calculated sweeps, cataloging potential CHRONOS agents, scanning for tactical threats, monitoring civilian behavior patterns. But his eyes, those traitors that usually find yours with uncomfortable frequency, slide past your face like you're a piece of irrelevant architecture.
You, to your demise, find this deviation statistically significant.
Because Agent Min has never demonstrated such an uninterrupted pattern of visual avoidance, not even during high-stress operations. Even in the cave, with his tendrils manifesting uncontrollably and his spatial awareness compromised by your proximity, he still maintained direct eye contact during conversations.
The dress—navy, backless and completely unusual for you—theory forms in your analytical centers within 0.4 seconds.
"Is it the dress?"
His eyes flicker to yours—exactly 0.7 seconds of contact—before resuming their surveillance pattern. He blinks once, a controlled micro-expression, then looks away toward the gleaming facade of the CHRONOS Event Center.
"Elaborate."
"I think you know what I'm asking."
His jaw tightens, muscle tension visible beneath the sharp line of his cheekbone. The navy fabric of his formal suit shifts as he continues walking, maintaining his steady pace toward the building's entrance.
"Maintain mission parameters."
"I asked a question."
"And I didn't reply, which is a reply on its own."
"That's circular logic. The absence of a response doesn't constitute communication unless the recipient can definitively establish intentional omission versus simple oversight."
His lips twitch—barely 0.2 millimeters, but you catch it. "You're suggesting I might accidentally ignore direct queries?"
"I'm suggesting your response framework lacks logical consistency. If non-responses are responses, then every conversation becomes an infinite loop of unstated communications."
"Only if you assume every silence carries equal weight." He pauses at the building's entrance, finally turning to face you directly. "Some silences are more deliberate than others."
"Quantify 'deliberate.'"
"Agent A-735," he says, using your formal designation in that particular tone that means he's either annoyed or fighting something else entirely, "we're walking into a building full of people who don’t have our best interests at play. Perhaps we could table the epistemological debate until after we've successfully completed infiltration."
"Epistemological accuracy remains relevant regardless of operational context."
The corner of his mouth lifts by exactly 0.3 millimeters. "Does it?"
"Unless you're suggesting that logical frameworks become invalid under stress, which would indicate a fundamental misunderstanding of—"
"The dress," he interrupts, voice dropping to that gravelly register that makes your core temperature spike by 0.4 degrees, "is strategically effective."
You process this response for 1.2 seconds.
Then… "Define 'strategically effective.'"
"It serves the mission parameters."
"That's evasion, not definition."
"Is it?"
"Yes, because 'serves the mission parameters' provides no specific data about the dress's tactical advantages or your behavioral modifications in response to—"
"You look..." He stops, jaw working like he's solving a complex equation. "The dress achieves its intended effect."
"Which is?"
He turns toward the building's entrance, shoulders set with the particular rigidity that means he's reached the limit of his willingness to engage.
"Distraction."
The word holds its own weight for exactly 2.3 seconds before he steps through the revolving door.
The lobby is all polished marble and subtle lighting, designed to project wealth and stability.
Your heels click against the floor in a rhythm that your analytical mind automatically converts to temporal measurements—each step 0.73 seconds apart, optimal for maintaining balance while navigating in unfamiliar footwear.
The elevator arrives with a soft chime, and Agent Min gestures for you to enter first.
Standard courtesy protocol, though you note the way his eyes track your movement without actually meeting your gaze.
Inside the elevator, he positions himself at a precise 47-centimeter distance from your right shoulder—close enough to intercept potential threats, far enough to maintain professional distance. The stance reads as protective, though you suspect the distance measurement serves a dual purpose.
His gaze finds the control panel, scanning the interface.
The slight tightening around his eyes suggests recognition of a complication.
“Issue?”
“Biometric scanner. Gloves interfere with dermal reading.”
He tugs at his right glove with sharp, irritated movements. The leather slides away to reveal pale skin, long fingers that move elegantly as someone accustomed to delicate work.
The system doesn’t flag him.
Your primary hypothesis: his status as a Time Anchor places his temporal signature so far outside CHRONOS’s control that their scanners can’t even categorize it, registering it as a null reading.
But before you can follow that trail of questioning, something else—involuntary—escapes your lips.
“Your hand is aesthetically pleasing.”
Agent Min's head drops forward immediately, chin nearly touching his chest as he releases a long, controlled exhale.
The sound carries something between resignation and suppressed laughter.
"Noma."
"I'm making an objective observation. The bone structure is mathematically proportionate, the muscle definition suggests optimal fine motor control, and the skin tone provides an interesting contrast to—"
"Stop."
"Stop what, specifically?"
He lifts his head just enough to look at you sideways, and there's something in his expression that makes your pulse spike.
"You know what you're doing."
"I'm conducting aesthetic analysis."
"You're conducting psychological warfare."
"That's an interesting interpretation of complimentary observation."
"Nothing about you is purely observational." His voice drops lower, rougher. "Everything you say is calculated to achieve a specific response."
"What response am I attempting to achieve?"
The elevator climbs steadily, numbers changing on the display.
15.
16.
17.
“The one you’re getting.”
He says it like a warning. Like you’ve already crossed some invisible threshold.
Still, he doesn’t move. Doesn’t speak further. His hand remains exposed on the panel, pale skin against the biometric glass. The curve of his knuckles. The tendons. The precise calibration of pressure.
“You’re unusually sensitive about compliments,” you note. “Especially ones rooted in anatomical proportions.”
“I’m unusually sensitive,” he repeats flatly, “about you.”
That statement lands heavier than you anticipate, enough that your synapses spike with activity.
You should drop it.
You don’t.
“So it’s not about the compliment. It’s about the context.”
He exhales. The sound is quiet, but his fingers twitch once against the scanner—an unconscious tell.
“You don’t contextualize. You corner.”
“Cornering implies aggression. I’m observing. Analyzing.” You tilt your head slightly. “Would you prefer I withheld data about aesthetically pleasing phenomena?”
“I’d prefer you stopped calling my hand a phenomenon.”
“Why? Because it makes you uncomfortable, or because you know I’m correct?”
His head drops forward, a sharp breath escaping through his nose.
“Noma,” he mutters—too quietly for anyone else to hear.
You ignore the spike in your pulse. “You never reacted this way when I touched your tendrils.”
His head snaps up at that.
“The gold ones,” you clarify, as if that helps. “From the cave. You didn’t flinch then.”
“That was different.”
“How?”
“They’re… projected. Externalized.” His voice drops, low and even, like he’s choosing every word with forceps. “I modulate the input. It doesn’t create—”
He stops himself. Rephrases.
“They’re part of my field, not my skin.”
“Still connected to your nervous system.”
“Mhm.”
It’s the sound more than the word—low, dismissive, condescending. You recognize it.
That’s the Yoongi that comes out when he’s half done, half dangerously close to engaging just to prove you wrong.
“You didn’t stop me.”
“I should have.” His voice is calm, but clipped. “You stroked them like they weren’t wired into my spinal cord.”
“That’s a value judgment.”
“That’s what happened, Noma.”
His jaw tenses, just for a moment. He doesn’t sound angry—just… trying very hard not to picture it. Again.
“You presented them. I’m not supposed to touch?”
“Not if you want me to keep thinking straight.”
That statement lands with more weight than the elevator.
“Not dangerous though.”
A beat.
“Not in the same way.”
“So skin is more dangerous than tendrils.”
He doesn’t answer.
You step closer. “Quantify that.”
“Noma.” His tone carries that rare edge again—worn down and raw. “We’re not doing this.”
“You brought up danger. I’m merely following the thread.”
He scoffs. “You’re baiting.”
“I’m curious.”
“No,” he says tightly, “you’re testing limits.”
“And what happens if I cross one?”
His eyes darken a shade. “You find out what restraint looks like when it breaks.”
Something in your chest stutters.
“Free facility,” you say, letting the tension twist just a bit tighter, “I can make objective statements.”
You tilt your head again, eyes scanning his bare hand with renewed precision.
“Such as observing how dexterous your fingers must be, given their length-to-width ratio and joint flexibility.”
The sound he makes isn’t quite a laugh. It’s not quite a breath either. Somewhere in the middle—a knowing exhale with a dangerous undertone.
“Thinking about my fingers and what they can do,” he says, voice rough, “is not objective.”
Your own lip tugs upward—an involuntary response to the way his voice roughens on the word ‘do.’
“Is it not? I’m making observations about manual dexterity and spatial reasoning capabilities. If you’re interpreting that as something else, perhaps the issue lies with your own cognitive associations.”
“My cognitive associations,” he says slowly, each word puncturing, “are functioning exactly as intended. Which is why I know you’re not talking about spatial reasoning.”
“Prove it.”
His eyes narrow—that particular expression that precedes intellectual demolition.
The one that makes your core temperature rise by degrees you refuse to calculate.
“Fine.”
He steps closer, eliminating 23 centimeters of distance in one fluid movement. His bare hand rises, hovering directly in your line of sight, fingers spread in deliberate display.
“You want to discuss manual dexterity? Let’s discuss it properly.”
Your breathing pattern shifts, becoming more shallow as he continues.
“These fingers have disarmed temporal bombs with components smaller than rice grains. They’ve performed microsurgery on quantum processors while reality buckled at nine hundred parts per million.”
He extends the thumb first. Then the forefinger. Each motion isolated to the millimeter—controlled, unhurried. Surgical; like showing off pressure points on a weapon.
“They’ve manipulated time fields so precisely I can freeze one heartbeat without stalling the next. Detect anomalies by texture alone—genuine matter versus time-echo, live timeline versus corrupted splice. I can tell when someone’s history has been edited just by touching their pulse.”
You should be taking notes.
Instead, you’re watching his hand.
Because now his fingers relax again—just slightly—and then his ring finger begins to move.
Not the whole finger, not the joints at the base or middle.
Just the last one—the distal phalanx—curling in, then tracing a slow, perfect circle in the air.
A whisper of motion. Controlled. Sinful.
Every other finger remains frozen. No tremor. No sympathetic twitch. Only the ring finger moves—measured orbits etched in silence, like he’s drawing something meant to be memorized with the tip of that finger alone.
It’s a movement so precise it feels obscene.
The elevator AI, perhaps sensing irregular input, intones, “Secondary verification required. Please resubmit biometric.”
“So when you ask about depth and precision and careful manipulation, A-735,” he murmurs, not breaking eye contact, “I want you to consider exactly what kind of places these fingers have been. What kind of delicate, sensitive areas they’ve explored. What kind of responses they’ve extracted from systems that require very specific handling.”
The circle completes one final revolution—clean, unbroken—before his hand lowers.
“And if you’re still curious…”
He leans in.
Braces the same hand beside your head against the secondary control panel. His palm skims across the glass in slow motion, anchoring him there—his arm now a heat source radiating less than ten centimeters from your cheek.
“…just imagine the calibration required to make any single one of those motions in seconds. Then ask yourself what that translates to elsewhere.”
Three seconds pass.
It feels like an eternity carved into milliseconds.
Your core temperature has risen 1.3 degrees. Your heart rate has increased by 23 beats per minute. Your pupils have dilated by approximately 31%.
“Verification accepted,” the AI announces.
“…Thank you. That was very thorough,” you manage.
He laughs—one abrupt, incredulous burst that he immediately aborts by biting his lower lip.
Then, steps backward, tilting his head toward the elevator ceiling like he’s consulting with some higher power about the cosmic injustice of this moment.
His tongue presses against his canine tooth as he processes his own response.
Your heart rate spikes to 127 BPM.
His eyes immediately flicker down to yours, and there’s something in that look—some recognition that transcends meaning.
For 1.7 seconds, he looks at you like—
He clears his throat.
The elevator chimes softly. The doors slide open, revealing the gala’s entrance hall beyond—crystal chandeliers, marble floors, and the soft murmur of high-society conversation.
“Let’s move.”
“What’s the actual mission objective?”
Your voice remains sub-audible, lips barely moving as you both navigate the crowd. Agent Min’s profile remains fixed forward, but you catch the micro-tension in his jaw that indicates active listening.
“Information retrieval. We need Dr. Harrison’s research data on temporal field fluctuations.”
He scans the crowd systematically—left to right, near to far, threat assessment algorithms running behind those dark eyes.
“CHRONOS keeps their critical research on isolated quantum networks, so physical access to Harrison’s personal files is the only way. This gala provides the perfect cover to approach him without triggering standard security.”
“And our cover identities?”
“Dr. Min and Dr. Park, visiting researchers from Sector 2, which is the research district by excellence, making our presence expected. Jimin pulled the personnel files, and Taehyung created digital footprints for us. Any background checks will be clean.”
“Fascinating how our cover identities require formal wear.”
“Fascinating how you’re still talking.”
You track his attempts to re-glove his right hand—motion interrupted as a security checkpoint materializes ahead. The attending officer’s augmented pupils sweep over you both.
“Biometric verification for gala access.”
Agent Min’s hand freezes halfway to his pocket. The leather glove dangles between his fingers like accusation.
Your mind runs a quick threat assessment: your modified Chrono-Sync watches are designed to generate false temporal signatures that appear normal to CHRONOS monitoring, but a direct dermal scan is a higher-level verification.
Why higher-level verification?
Are they hunting?
Agent Min seems to ponder the same exact question, if his micro-expressions are any indication.
“Already scanned at building entry,” he states. Voice level. Controlled.
“New protocol. Director’s orders.” The officer gestures to a portable scanner. “All attendees require secondary verification at event threshold.”
The muscle in Agent Min’s temple pulses. He places his palm on the scanner with deliberate force.
Green light. Access granted.
He’s sliding the glove back on when impact registers—a server backing through the crowd, tray balanced at shoulder height.
The collision sends Agent Min stumbling forward. His glove arcs through the air, landing 3.7 meters away on polished marble.
“Shit.” The word emerges at subsonic frequency.
He moves to retrieve it. The server—efficiency incarnate—scoops the leather up.
“Apologies, sir. I’ll dispose of this properly.”
“That’s not—”
But the server has already vanished into the choreographed chaos of catering staff.
Agent Min’s bare hand clenches, unclenches.
His thermal signature spikes 1.2 degrees.
“Dr. Min!”
You both turn.
A woman approaches—Chrono-Sync badge identifying her as Supervisor Chen, Temporal Studies Division. Her smile appears regulation-friendly, but her eyes perform rapid assessment calculations.
“Dr. Min, what a pleasant surprise.” Her gaze shifts to you, cataloguing every detail of your appearance in 2.3 seconds. “And Dr…?”
“Park,” you supply, accessing your cover identity’s parameters. “Visiting from Sector 2’s quantum research facility.”
“How wonderful.” She links her arm through Agent Min’s left elbow—a gesture that makes his shoulders rise 0.7 centimeters. “Perfect timing, actually. The Director specifically requested participation from all visiting researchers in tonight’s unity exhibition.”
“Unity exhibition?” Agent Min’s voice carries frequencies suggesting barely contained irritation.
“The partnership dance. Symbolic of CHRONOS cooperation across sectors.” Her smile sharpens. “Non-participation would be… noted.”
Your temporal readings fluctuate. Agent Min’s bare hand flexes at his side.
“I don’t—”
“Dance?” Supervisor Chen laughs, the sound precisely modulated for social comfort. “Nonsense. All CHRONOS employees receive basic cultural training. Unless your records are inaccurate?”
Threat assessment: High.
Cover identity compromise potential: 67%.
“Of course not.” Agent Min’s capitulation emerges through gritted teeth. “Dr. Park?”
You blink, noting how his eyes meet yours for exactly 1.9 seconds—long enough to convey warning, frustration, and something else your analysis protocols can’t categorize.
“Delighted,” you respond.
Supervisor Chen claps once. “Excellent! The floor awaits.”
She steers you both toward the designated area where couples already move in synchronized patterns.
Agent Min takes the opportunity to extract himself from Chen’s grip subtly.
“This is not optimal,” he mutters, positioned 47 centimeters from your left shoulder.
“Worried about your manual dexterity?” The words emerge before higher reasoning engages.
That immediately gains you a head snap.
For 0.3 seconds, his expression suggests he’s calculating the statistical probability of justified homicide.
“Take position,” he commands instead.
The words carry more weight than they should.
Your body responds without a retort—moving to optimal proximity in front of him.
The orchestra’s first notes slice through the ambient conversation, and you recognize the rhythm immediately.
Tango.
Your analytical centers process this with interest.
Supervisor Chen selected a dance requiring proximity, trust, and synchronization.
Either she possesses unusual sadism or exceptional strategic thinking.
Min’s right hand remains firmly behind his back.
“This deviates significantly from mission parameters,” he mutters, scanning the crowd, left hand extending toward you with reluctant formality. “Maintain minimal contact. Complete the requirement. Extract.”
Your right hand accepts his offered left, noting the way his fingers grip yours with just enough pressure to suggest control without intimacy. Professional. Contained.
Safe.
The music builds—strings and percussion creating a rhythm that makes your pulse synchronize without conscious thought.
One step. Two.
Your heels find the marble floor with movements your analytical mind can’t explain.
Agent Min’s left hand then settles on your shoulder blade in the next step with the careful distance of someone maintaining regulation proximity.
His right hand, however, stays locked behind his back like he’s restraining himself from something dangerous.
Three steps. Four.
Your body knows this rhythm, these movements, the exact angle required to match his stride length and—
Your heel catches on the dress hem’s edge. Balance shifts. Gravity engages.
His right hand shoots forward instinctively, palm pressing against the small of your back where the dress’s fabric meets bare skin.
The contact sends thermal readings spiking through your nervous system—his skin temperature registering 2.1 degrees warmer than normal human baseline.
He steadies you, his palm remaining pressed against your spine. His breathing pattern shifts, becoming shallow and irregular.
Your eyes drop to his lips—a 0.7-second glance that registers the way they part slightly, the micro-tension in his jaw, the pulse point visible at his throat.
“Target acquired,” he murmurs, lips barely moving. “Dr. Harrison. Northwest corner. Red pocket square.”
You follow his sight line without breaking form, letting him guide you through a series of quick steps. The subject matches intelligence photos—83% certainty allowing for age progression algorithms.
“Approach strategy?”
“Complete this torture first.” His fingers flex against your back—involuntary response immediately suppressed. “Chen’s still monitoring.”
The music builds, accordion and violin creating a rhythm that vibrates through your bones. He leads you into a complex sequence—quick-quick-slow, your leg sliding between his in a movement that feels dangerously familiar. His thigh presses against yours for exactly 1.3 seconds before the steps carry you apart again.
“We’ve done this before.”
It’s not a question. The certainty crystallizes in your analytical centers as you execute a perfect backward ocho, your spine arching into the curve of his palm.
His breathing goes shallow.
Agent Min swallows. Hard. His Adam’s apple bobs once before he regains control.
“Mission parameters require—”
“Not the mission.”
Another step, another perfect response from muscle memory that shouldn’t exist.
Your heel traces a precise arc across the floor, leg extending in a way that makes your dress climb dangerously high.
“This. Dancing. Specifically tango.”
His left hand tightens around your fingers. “Noma.”
“How many times?”
The question hangs between you as he guides you into a molinete, his hand never losing contact with the small of your back.
Your dress swirls around your legs, navy fabric catching the chandelier light.
The motion requires you to pivot around him, chest to chest, your faces separated by mere centimeters as you complete the turn.
“Focus on the target.”
But his eyes aren’t on Dr. Harrison.
They’re fixed on your face with an intensity that makes your pulse spike to 134 BPM.
“Seventeen resets,” you continue, voice dropping to subvocal frequencies, the dance bringing you close enough that your breath ghosts across his neck. “Seventeen versions of me who forgot you existed. But the body remembers what the mind doesn’t, right?”
His jaw muscle pulses—that familiar tell now catalogued 25 times.
“We need to—”
“How many of those versions danced with you?”
He leads you into a dramatic dip, and you follow without hesitation, trusting completely that he’ll catch you.
Of course he does.
Your back arches, one leg extending as his right arm slides further around your waist, supporting your weight with ease.
His face hovers centimeters above yours, seeing the golden flecks in his dark eyes, the way his pupils have dilated beyond normal parameters, the way breathing has shifted to match yours—synchronized in a manner that transcends conscious control.
“All of them,” he says finally, voice raw. “Every single one.”
The confession crystallizes as he holds the dip for two beats longer than necessary.
Other dancers swirl around you.
He pulls you upright in one fluid motion, the momentum bringing your bodies flush for 0.7 seconds before the dance demands separation.
But his hand maintains contact, fingers spread wide as if trying to memorize the feeling.
“Seventeen times we’ve done this,” you state, processing the data even as your body moves through steps it shouldn’t know. “Seventeen first dances that were never really first.”
“Stop.” The word emerges rough, desperate.
He spins you out, your dress flaring in a perfect circle before he draws you back. The return brings you closer than before—chest to chest, his thigh sliding between yours as the music demands intimacy.
“Why?” You tilt your head back to maintain eye contact, noting how his gaze immediately drops to your throat before snapping back up. “Does the truth violate mission parameters?”
“The truth violates—” He cuts himself off, guiding you through a series of quick pivots that require perfect synchronization.
Your bodies move as one unit. Totally synchronized.
“Violates what?”
His fingers press harder against your back, and you feel the slight tremor he’s trying to suppress.
For the final part, he leads you through a sequence of dramatic moves flawlessly—a low dip, a leg wrap that has your thigh sliding along his hip, a spin that ends with your back pressed to his chest.
“Everything,” he breathes against your ear. “It violates everything I’m trying to—”
The music ends, and so does the dance performance.
Applause erupts around you, but neither of you moves.
His arm remains wrapped around your waist, your back sealed to his front, both of you breathing in perfect synchronization. You can feel his heart rate through the contact—elevated to approximately 95 BPM.
“Dr. Min, Dr. Park!” Supervisor Chen’s voice slices through the moment. “Absolutely stunning! I had no idea Sector 2 included such comprehensive cultural training.”
Agent Min releases you, stepping back to regulation distance. But you catch the way his right hand clenches at his side, as if trying to retain the sensation of contact.
“Standard curriculum,” you respond, turning to face Chen while your nervous system still processes the ghost of his touch. “We believe cultural integration enhances temporal research capabilities.”
“Clearly.” Chen’s smile doesn’t reach her eyes. “Dr. Harrison was quite impressed. He’s requested your presence in the private observatory for research discussion.”
Your eyes meet Agent Min’s for 1.2 seconds.
Target acquired. Mission parameters resuming.
But the phantom feeling of his palm against your back persists. Lingers.
Burns.
“Lead the way,” he tells Chen, voice restored to professional neutrality.
But as you follow them toward the observatory, you notice he’s flexing his right hand compulsively, as if the memory of touching you has left permanent marks on his palm.
If it’s burnt for him, too.
You suspect it has.
Dr. Harrison extends his hand with the custom warmth of academic networking.
“Drs. Min and Park, welcome.” His smile reaches his eyes, genuine enthusiasm radiating from someone eager to discuss research with peers. “I hope you’re enjoying the gala. These events can be rather stuffy, but the conversations make them worthwhile.”
Agent Min’s thermal signature reads 0.8 degrees above baseline—elevated but within normal parameters for formal events.
His posture, however, suggests controlled alertness, scanning protocols active despite the social setting.
“Dr. Harrison,” Agent Min responds, extending his left hand for the greeting. “Thank you for agreeing to meet with us. Your reputation in temporal field theory precedes you.”
“Too kind, too kind.” Dr. Harrison’s grip lingers exactly 2.3 seconds—standard professional contact. “Though I must admit, when I heard Sector 2 was sending researchers, I was intrigued. Your facility’s work on quantum stabilization has been making waves in academic circles.”
Agent Min’s expression shifts into what you recognize as his intellectual engagement mode—purposeful interest designed to extract maximum information while revealing minimum vulnerability.
“We’ve had some modest success with field coherence applications,” Agent Min says, voice carrying confidence of someone accustomed to academic discourse. “Though I suspect your recent publications on temporal flux dynamics represent a more significant breakthrough.”
“You flatter me.” Dr. Harrison gestures toward the quieter observatory corner, floor-to-ceiling windows revealing the city’s sprawl below. “But yes, we’ve been exploring some fascinating correlations. The relationship between temporal stability and… well, let’s call them adjacent dimensional factors.”
Your analytical centers flag the deliberate vagueness.
Adjacent dimensional factors?
The terminology suggests… Classified research parameters.
“Adjacent factors?” Agent Min’s question emerges with precisely calibrated curiosity. “In what context?”
“Field theory, primarily.” Dr. Harrison settles into the conversation like someone savoring a riddle. “You see, traditional temporal mechanics assume dimensional isolation—time operates independently of spatial configuration. But our recent data suggests a more… Integrated relationship.”
Agent Min leans forward slightly, body language suggesting increased interest.
“Integrated how?”
“Well, without breaching classification protocols…” Dr. Harrison’s eyebrows lift, looking to the side. “We’ve documented phenomena that seem to operate outside standard temporal constraints. Distortions in physical space that correlate with temporal fluctuations.”
“Correlation versus causation,” Agent Min observes, voice maintaining skepticism. “Have you isolated the variable responsible for the spatial distortions?”
“Ah, now you’re asking the right questions.” Dr. Harrison’s smile widens. “That’s precisely what makes this research so fascinating. The spatial distortions don’t appear to be caused by temporal manipulation—they seem to operate independently.”
Your processing centers catalog this information while monitoring Agent Min’s reactions. His micro-expressions suggest intense concentration, though you detect no signs of concern.
“Independent spatial distortions,” Agent Min repeats, tone encouraging elaboration. “Are we discussing theoretical models or observed phenomena?”
“Observed, Dr. Min. Quite real, quite measurable.” Dr. Harrison’s enthusiasm increases noticeably. “In fact, we’ve documented several instances of spontaneous spatial field manipulation. Reality distortions that suggest direct interface with dimensional structure.”
Agent Min goes completely still.
Not the controlled stillness of professional interest, but the frozen shock of someone whose worldview has just encountered catastrophic data.
His thermal signature spikes 0.9 degrees in 1.2 seconds—a physiological response suggesting fight-or-flight activation.
The shift is subtle enough that Dr. Harrison doesn’t immediately notice, but your proximity allows detailed monitoring of Agent Min’s stress indicators.
“Spatial field manipulation,” Agent Min says, voice attempting at neutral despite the strain you detect in his vocal cords. “That’s… quite a significant claim.”
“Indeed it is.” Dr. Harrison studies Agent Min’s expression with renewed attention. “Though I would have expected researchers from Sector 2 to be familiar with emerging dimensional theory. Your facility has always been rather… progressive.”
Your analytical centers process the conversation’s trajectory while monitoring Agent Min’s deteriorating composure. His right hand flexes at his side—involuntary stress response, third occurrence in forty-seven seconds.
That’s when the pieces align in your cognitive matrix.
Spatial field manipulation. Reality distortions. Dimensional structure interface.
Agent Min’s shock suggests this information contradicts his understanding of CHRONOS capabilities.
Which implies CHRONOS has developed research beyond their known parameters.
Your protective protocols engage automatically.
“Dr. Harrison,” you interject, voice modulated to suggest academic fascination, “when you reference spatial field manipulation, are you discussing theoretical applications or practical implementation?”
The question redirects Dr. Harrison’s attention while giving Agent Min time to recalibrate his responses.
His thermal signature begins stabilizing as you step fractionally closer, reducing distance between your temporal signatures.
“Practical implementation, Dr. Park.” Dr. Harrison’s enthusiasm transfers to you seamlessly. “We’ve identified specific individuals capable of spontaneous spatial manipulation. The applications for Reality Anchor enhancement alone are staggering.”
“Individuals?” Your voice gains a curious tone. “Human subjects demonstrating spatial abilities? That seems to contradict fundamental quantum mechanics.”
“Contradicts current models, yes.” Dr. Harrison spreads his hands, expression suggesting academic bewilderment mixed with excitement. “Yet the data is undeniable. We’ve catalogued numerous instances of reality distortion that can only be attributed to conscious spatial manipulation.”
Agent Min’s breathing pattern shifts—shorter inhalations, controlled exhales.
So it is confirmed—his stress indicators suggest he’s processing information that threatens core assumptions about CHRONOS capabilities.
“What kind of reality distortions?” you ask, maintaining analytical interest while monitoring Agent Min’s condition.
“Matter displacement, primarily. Objects appearing in locations they couldn’t have reached through conventional physics. Spatial compression that allows movement across impossible distances. Even instances of molecular phasing—subjects passing through solid barriers without apparent harm.”
The descriptions trigger unexpected recognition patterns in your neural processors.
Matter displacement. Spatial compression. Molecular phasing.
Why do these concepts feel familiar?
“Fascinating,” you say, voice steady despite the cognitive disruption. “And you believe these phenomena result from human manipulation rather than external technological intervention?”
“The subjects appear to manifest these abilities unconsciously during high-stress situations,” Dr. Harrison explains, clearly enjoying the discussion. “Survival instincts, protective responses, fight-or-flight scenarios. The Director believes we’re close to understanding the neurological triggers.”
Agent Min makes a sound—barely audible, somewhere between a cough and a suppressed vocalization. His thermal readings spike another 0.6 degrees.
“Neurological triggers,” you repeat, buying time while Agent Min struggles with whatever revelation is compromising his composure. “That suggests the abilities are biologically inherent rather than technologically enhanced.”
“Precisely!” Dr. Harrison’s enthusiasm reaches academic fervor. “Which brings us to the truly revolutionary aspect of our research. If we can identify the biological mechanisms responsible for spatial manipulation, we can theoretically replicate them artificially.”
The statement hits your processing centers like temporal feedback.
“Artificial replication of spatial manipulation abilities,” you repeat, processing the implications while your Chrono-Sync Watch displays routine temporal data.
19:47 PM.
The numbers feel wrong somehow.
“Indeed,” Dr. Harrison continues, clearly enjoying your analytical interest. “The breakthrough came when we started correlating spatial distortions with temporal compliance patterns. We’ve enhanced our monitoring capabilities significantly—random sweeps, increased sensor sensitivity, mobile detection units.”
Random sweeps.
Your cognitive centers stutter for 0.3 seconds as conflicting data sets attempt to reconcile.
Your memory insists temporal compliance checks occur at 19:00 hours. Fixed schedule. Standard protocol. You remember the announcement system, the synchronized timing, the predictable intervals that allowed citizens to plan around mandatory scans.
But your Chrono-Sync Watch indicates the current system operates on randomized schedules. Variable timing. Unpredictable intervals designed to catch temporal deviants off-guard.
The randomized schedule aligns with the timeline shift you remember—CHRONOS adapting their hunting methods, making outlier detection more aggressive.
Which means you're sitting across from a researcher who's describing exactly what you are.
Blood threatens to trickle from your nose.
Agent Min's hand moves through the dress's thigh-high slit without hesitation, palm pressing against bare skin with slight pressure. His fingers splay across your quadriceps, thumb positioned exactly where your femoral artery pulses beneath muscle.
The contact stabilizes your temporal variance from 1.3% back to 0.7%.
But skin-to-skin contact triggers more than stabilization.
Memory bleeds through the connection:
«The resistance briefing room.
Namjoon’s voice explaining extraction protocols while Agent Min’s hand rests innocuously on your thigh beneath the table.
His fingers tracing patterns against your skin that have nothing to do with temporal stabilization and everything to do with the way he’s been watching your mouth form technical terminology for the past thirty-seven minutes.
“The quantum resonance patterns suggest…” you begin, voice steady despite his thumb pressing against your inner thigh with increasing pressure.
His index finger joins the exploration, sliding beneath the hem of your skirt to find bare skin.
The touch sends thermal readings spiking while you maintain composure, discussing probability matrices while his hand maps territories that belong to him across every timeline.
“The Director’s statement indicates…” Namjoon continues.
You are, however, barely processing the words—because Agent Min’s fingers are moving higher.
You manage to complete your technical explanation without vocal fluctuation, but your hand grips the table edge with 47% more force than necessary.
Agent Min leans closer, lips nearly brushing your ear as his fingers skim higher, closer to your underwear.
“Be good for me, Noma,” he whispers, voice dropping to subvocal frequencies that bypass auditory processing to embed directly in your nervous system.
His free hand rises to his lips, index finger pressing against his mouth in a gesture that appears thoughtful but serves as clear instruction:
‘Stay quiet.’»
“Dr. Park?”
Dr. Harrison’s voice cuts through the memory like a temporal blade, snapping you back to present reality where Agent Min’s hand remains pressed against your thigh and your core temperature has risen 1.7 degrees.
A visible shudder runs through his frame.
Your analytical processes flare:
Response to the current contact?
Response to the same memory bleed as yours?
“Dr. Min, you seem rather… affected by this discussion,” Dr. Harrison observes, tone shifting from academic enthusiasm to analytical assessment. “Almost as if the information comes as a surprise.”
The observation carries weight your analytical centers flag as potentially threatening.
“The implications for existing dimensional theory are profound,” Agent Min responds, voice regaining professional control despite his elevated stress indicators. “Revolutionary research often challenges established frameworks.”
“Indeed.” Dr. Harrison’s smile doesn’t quite reach his eyes now. “Though I must say, your reaction suggests this research is news to you. I would have expected Sector 2’s theoretical division to be briefed on Project Dimensional.”
Project Dimensional.
Your neural processors catalog the designation while monitoring the increasing tension between Dr. Harrison’s academic curiosity and Agent Min’s barely controlled distress.
“Our research operates under different classification parameters,” you interject, recognizing the need to redirect suspicion. “Dr. Min specializes in temporal cascade theory rather than spatial applications. Could you elaborate on the practical applications you mentioned?”
Dr. Harrison’s attention shifts back to you, some of the analytical intensity easing from his expression. “Well, the obvious application involves Reality Anchor enhancement. If we can artificially generate spatial manipulation fields, we could strengthen temporal containment beyond current limitations.”
“Temporal containment?”
“Preventing temporal anomalies, obviously.” Dr. Harrison’s tone suggests he’s explaining elementary concepts. “The spatial manipulation research is specifically designed to eliminate dimensional instabilities that threaten temporal compliance.”
Agent Min’s breathing becomes visibly labored.
“Dr. Harrison,” you say, recognizing the conversation has extracted sufficient intelligence, “this has been incredibly illuminating. Perhaps we could schedule follow-up discussions once we’ve reviewed your theoretical framework?”
“Absolutely.” Dr. Harrison’s agreement comes with renewed enthusiasm. “I’ll have my assistant coordinate access to our preliminary findings. The collaboration potential between our facilities could be quite significant.”
He extends his hand toward Agent Min, who responds with his left hand while keeping his right carefully controlled at his side. Dr. Harrison’s grip lingers 0.4 seconds longer than necessary, studying Agent Min’s face with uncomfortable intensity.
“Dr. Min, I do hope you’re feeling better. You seem rather… unwell.”
“Travel fatigue,” Agent Min responds, voice strained despite his attempt at casual dismissal. “The temporal adjustment protocols can be disorienting.”
“Of course.” Dr. Harrison nods, but his eyes suggest the explanation doesn’t entirely satisfy his curiosity. “Until next time, Drs. Min and Park. This has been most… educational.”
The word choice carries implications your threat assessment protocols flag as significant.
You follow Agent Min toward the exit, noting how his stride remains measured despite visible effort. His thermal signature continues climbing toward dangerous thresholds.
“Assessment?” you ask once you’re beyond Dr. Harrison’s hearing range.
“Catastrophic.” The word emerges strained. “They’re researching spatial manipulation. They have documented evidence of dimensional anomalies. This changes everything.”
His breathing becomes more labored as you move through the lobby.
By the time you reach the street, perspiration beads along his hairline despite the cool night air.
“Agent Min.” Your voice drops to subvocal frequencies as you note his deteriorating condition. “Your physiological readings are approaching critical thresholds.”
“I’m aware.” He doesn’t slow his pace, but his right leg shows slight instability. “We need distance. Now.”
“You require medical attention.”
“I require extraction.” His voice carries an edge of desperation masked as professional urgency. “Harrison’s suspicious. That was intelligence gathering disguised as academic networking.”
You reach the corner before Agent Min stops abruptly, one hand braced against the building’s wall. His head drops forward, chest rising and falling with visible effort.
“This isn’t standard post-mission stress response,” you observe, moving closer despite every protocol screaming about proximity risks.
“No,” he admits through gritted teeth. “It’s not.”
His right hand flexes in that same compulsive pattern—seeking something specific, something absent.
“We have maybe five minutes before Harrison alerts security,” he continues, pushing away from the wall with obvious effort. “I know how these scenarios develop across multiple timelines. They’ll be tracking our exit route.”
“You’re exhibiting signs of severe physiological distress—”
“It’s not distress.” The denial emerges through gritted teeth. “It’s withdrawal, and we need extraction immediately before Harrison decides to investigate his suspicions further.”
Withdrawal.
The terminology suggests physiological dependency, though your medical databases contain no references to such a condition.
“How certain are you about Harrison’s suspicions?” you ask as you move behind him.
“Seventeen timelines of experience with intelligence extraction scenarios,” he responds, voice tight with urgency. “When academic researchers start probing operational knowledge gaps, it means they’re already coordinating with security. We have maybe seven minutes before CHRONOS agents reach our location.”
He takes three steps before his right leg nearly buckles. His hand shoots out to catch the wall again, breathing ragged.
“That’s not—” You step closer, analytical mind struggling against something deeper. “Agent Min, you need—”
“I need you to stop analyzing my condition and start figuring out how to get us extracted before CHRONOS agents arrive.”
The snap in his voice carries both frustration and desperation.
But watching him fight to remain upright triggers responses your clinical detachment can’t suppress.
You need to get him to safety.
The imperative emerges from processing centers you didn’t know existed.
“Can you walk to the extraction point?”
“I can walk anywhere I need to walk.” His voice cracks slightly on the words.
The obvious lie makes something clench in your chest.
“Agent Min—”
“Stop.” He straightens with visible effort, jaw set in determination. “Whatever you’re thinking, don’t. We follow extraction protocols. Standard procedure.”
“Standard procedure assumes operational mobility.”
“I’m mobile.”
“You’re barely standing.”
“I’m functional enough to—”
He stumbles, catching himself against the wall with both hands now. His breathing becomes sharp, shallow gasps.
That’s when your protective protocols override every logical safeguard.
The response bypasses analytical processing entirely—pure instinct demanding action.
Agent Min needs medical attention.
CHRONOS agents are approaching.
Standard extraction is impossible given his condition.
You need to get him to headquarters.
Now.
“I’m implementing alternative extraction,” you state, closing the distance between you.
“A-735, no—” His voice carries warning, desperation, something that might be fear.
“Don’t argue with me right now.” The words emerge with unexpected authority. “You can barely stand, and you said yourself we have minutes before pursuit arrives.”
“Whatever you’re considering violates standard—”
“Standard protocols assume operational mobility.”
You step closer, eliminating space between your temporal signatures.
“Noma, don’t—”
But you’re already reaching for him, hand finding his arm as you concentrate on elsewhere.
On safety.
On the sterile corridors where he can receive proper treatment.
On getting him to safety.
Space shivers around desperate intention.
Reality bends.
And between one heartbeat and the next, the street becomes elsewhere entirely.
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THE 25TH HOUR | 11
pairing: yoongi x f!reader | rating: 18+ | wc: 6,3k | warnings: here genre: dystopian, timelines, psychological, starcrossed+fated mates
"tango"
"The elevator was just the start. By the time his fingers circle the air, you’ve already stopped breathing. By the time you finish the tango, you’ve already remembered. And by the end—only one of you can walk out on your own."
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↪︎author's note : Whew! It’s finally h-e-r-e!!! Chapter Eleven has officially entered the timeline and I am vibrating at seven different frequencies about it. Okay—won’t lie—this chapter has actually been done for a while. BUT. My insane little hamster brain kept pacing in circles, working out logistics because yes… yes, I created a whole outline for 25H (shocking no one) and I needed to reconcile everything that happens here with the overall structure. I’m very annoying about internal consistency and coherence. My neurons require it. My sleep schedule has suffered for it. So. Let’s delve in.
First off. The dress. The fucking dress. Yes, he’s looking. Yes, he’s holding himself back. Yes, I’m an absolute whore for inner restraint. Because once that man snaps?? BOY. OH BOY OH BOY OH BOY. I WILL. (s)CREAMMMMM. He is on the edge this entire chapter and I wrote it like that on purpose. Let the tension rot inside him like God intended. The elevator scene?? Criminal. So criminal. My intention there was to draw out the unbearable precision of their dynamic—how even their silences are engineered for maximum psychological damage. I needed to make it viscerally clear how these two can make physics and biometric scanners sound like the dirtiest fucking thing you’ve ever heard. And Yoongi? He’s a saint. I fear. This is a masterclass in holding back. The glove. The tango. Jesus Christ. You may not fully understand the significance of this moment yet (and that’s okay), but please know this scene has been rooted in my brain since chapter one. I have bitten my knuckles over it. Twice. And if you’re reading carefully… you’ll notice how they calibrate each other during the Dr. Harrison scene. These two synchronize under pressure in a way that’s equal parts scientific and devastatingly intimate. It’s very “you’re the only one who can reach me when I’m spiraling” coded and I will never be normal about it. The final part?? Her needing to get him to safety? Listen. I’m gonna throw my laptop out a window. I love them. They are so doomed. They are so tethered. This is where the story starts unraveling. So prepare yourself, baby.
Next chapter? Drama. See you there. Mwah.
Agent Min has been avoiding your gaze for precisely three minutes and seventeen seconds.
Not obvious avoidance—his head moves in calculated sweeps, cataloging potential CHRONOS agents, scanning for tactical threats, monitoring civilian behavior patterns. But his eyes, those traitors that usually find yours with uncomfortable frequency, slide past your face like you're a piece of irrelevant architecture.
You, to your demise, find this deviation statistically significant.
Because Agent Min has never demonstrated such an uninterrupted pattern of visual avoidance, not even during high-stress operations. Even in the cave, with his tendrils manifesting uncontrollably and his spatial awareness compromised by your proximity, he still maintained direct eye contact during conversations.
The dress—navy, backless and completely unusual for you—theory forms in your analytical centers within 0.4 seconds.
"Is it the dress?"
His eyes flicker to yours—exactly 0.7 seconds of contact—before resuming their surveillance pattern. He blinks once, a controlled micro-expression, then looks away toward the gleaming facade of the CHRONOS Event Center.
"Elaborate."
"I think you know what I'm asking."
His jaw tightens, muscle tension visible beneath the sharp line of his cheekbone. The navy fabric of his formal suit shifts as he continues walking, maintaining his steady pace toward the building's entrance.
"Maintain mission parameters."
"I asked a question."
"And I didn't reply, which is a reply on its own."
"That's circular logic. The absence of a response doesn't constitute communication unless the recipient can definitively establish intentional omission versus simple oversight."
His lips twitch—barely 0.2 millimeters, but you catch it. "You're suggesting I might accidentally ignore direct queries?"
"I'm suggesting your response framework lacks logical consistency. If non-responses are responses, then every conversation becomes an infinite loop of unstated communications."
"Only if you assume every silence carries equal weight." He pauses at the building's entrance, finally turning to face you directly. "Some silences are more deliberate than others."
"Quantify 'deliberate.'"
"Agent A-735," he says, using your formal designation in that particular tone that means he's either annoyed or fighting something else entirely, "we're walking into a building full of people who don’t have our best interests at play. Perhaps we could table the epistemological debate until after we've successfully completed infiltration."
"Epistemological accuracy remains relevant regardless of operational context."
The corner of his mouth lifts by exactly 0.3 millimeters. "Does it?"
"Unless you're suggesting that logical frameworks become invalid under stress, which would indicate a fundamental misunderstanding of—"
"The dress," he interrupts, voice dropping to that gravelly register that makes your core temperature spike by 0.4 degrees, "is strategically effective."
You process this response for 1.2 seconds.
Then… "Define 'strategically effective.'"
"It serves the mission parameters."
"That's evasion, not definition."
"Is it?"
"Yes, because 'serves the mission parameters' provides no specific data about the dress's tactical advantages or your behavioral modifications in response to—"
"You look..." He stops, jaw working like he's solving a complex equation. "The dress achieves its intended effect."
"Which is?"
He turns toward the building's entrance, shoulders set with the particular rigidity that means he's reached the limit of his willingness to engage.
"Distraction."
The word holds its own weight for exactly 2.3 seconds before he steps through the revolving door.
The lobby is all polished marble and subtle lighting, designed to project wealth and stability.
Your heels click against the floor in a rhythm that your analytical mind automatically converts to temporal measurements—each step 0.73 seconds apart, optimal for maintaining balance while navigating in unfamiliar footwear.
The elevator arrives with a soft chime, and Agent Min gestures for you to enter first.
Standard courtesy protocol, though you note the way his eyes track your movement without actually meeting your gaze.
Inside the elevator, he positions himself at a precise 47-centimeter distance from your right shoulder—close enough to intercept potential threats, far enough to maintain professional distance. The stance reads as protective, though you suspect the distance measurement serves a dual purpose.
His gaze finds the control panel, scanning the interface.
The slight tightening around his eyes suggests recognition of a complication.
“Issue?”
“Biometric scanner. Gloves interfere with dermal reading.”
He tugs at his right glove with sharp, irritated movements. The leather slides away to reveal pale skin, long fingers that move elegantly as someone accustomed to delicate work.
The system doesn’t flag him.
Your primary hypothesis: his status as a Time Anchor places his temporal signature so far outside CHRONOS’s control that their scanners can’t even categorize it, registering it as a null reading.
But before you can follow that trail of questioning, something else—involuntary—escapes your lips.
“Your hand is aesthetically pleasing.”
Agent Min's head drops forward immediately, chin nearly touching his chest as he releases a long, controlled exhale.
The sound carries something between resignation and suppressed laughter.
"Noma."
"I'm making an objective observation. The bone structure is mathematically proportionate, the muscle definition suggests optimal fine motor control, and the skin tone provides an interesting contrast to—"
"Stop."
"Stop what, specifically?"
He lifts his head just enough to look at you sideways, and there's something in his expression that makes your pulse spike.
"You know what you're doing."
"I'm conducting aesthetic analysis."
"You're conducting psychological warfare."
"That's an interesting interpretation of complimentary observation."
"Nothing about you is purely observational." His voice drops lower, rougher. "Everything you say is calculated to achieve a specific response."
"What response am I attempting to achieve?"
The elevator climbs steadily, numbers changing on the display.
15.
16.
17.
“The one you’re getting.”
He says it like a warning. Like you’ve already crossed some invisible threshold.
Still, he doesn’t move. Doesn’t speak further. His hand remains exposed on the panel, pale skin against the biometric glass. The curve of his knuckles. The tendons. The precise calibration of pressure.
“You’re unusually sensitive about compliments,” you note. “Especially ones rooted in anatomical proportions.”
“I’m unusually sensitive,” he repeats flatly, “about you.”
That statement lands heavier than you anticipate, enough that your synapses spike with activity.
You should drop it.
You don’t.
“So it’s not about the compliment. It’s about the context.”
He exhales. The sound is quiet, but his fingers twitch once against the scanner—an unconscious tell.
“You don’t contextualize. You corner.”
“Cornering implies aggression. I’m observing. Analyzing.” You tilt your head slightly. “Would you prefer I withheld data about aesthetically pleasing phenomena?”
“I’d prefer you stopped calling my hand a phenomenon.”
“Why? Because it makes you uncomfortable, or because you know I’m correct?”
His head drops forward, a sharp breath escaping through his nose.
“Noma,” he mutters—too quietly for anyone else to hear.
You ignore the spike in your pulse. “You never reacted this way when I touched your tendrils.”
His head snaps up at that.
“The gold ones,” you clarify, as if that helps. “From the cave. You didn’t flinch then.”
“That was different.”
“How?”
“They’re… projected. Externalized.” His voice drops, low and even, like he’s choosing every word with forceps. “I modulate the input. It doesn’t create—”
He stops himself. Rephrases.
“They’re part of my field, not my skin.”
“Still connected to your nervous system.”
“Mhm.”
It’s the sound more than the word—low, dismissive, condescending. You recognize it.
That’s the Yoongi that comes out when he’s half done, half dangerously close to engaging just to prove you wrong.
“You didn’t stop me.”
“I should have.” His voice is calm, but clipped. “You stroked them like they weren’t wired into my spinal cord.”
“That’s a value judgment.”
“That’s what happened, Noma.”
His jaw tenses, just for a moment. He doesn’t sound angry—just… trying very hard not to picture it. Again.
“You presented them. I’m not supposed to touch?”
“Not if you want me to keep thinking straight.”
That statement lands with more weight than the elevator.
“Not dangerous though.”
A beat.
“Not in the same way.”
“So skin is more dangerous than tendrils.”
He doesn’t answer.
You step closer. “Quantify that.”
“Noma.” His tone carries that rare edge again—worn down and raw. “We’re not doing this.”
“You brought up danger. I’m merely following the thread.”
He scoffs. “You’re baiting.”
“I’m curious.”
“No,” he says tightly, “you’re testing limits.”
“And what happens if I cross one?”
His eyes darken a shade. “You find out what restraint looks like when it breaks.”
Something in your chest stutters.
“Free facility,” you say, letting the tension twist just a bit tighter, “I can make objective statements.”
You tilt your head again, eyes scanning his bare hand with renewed precision.
“Such as observing how dexterous your fingers must be, given their length-to-width ratio and joint flexibility.”
The sound he makes isn’t quite a laugh. It’s not quite a breath either. Somewhere in the middle—a knowing exhale with a dangerous undertone.
“Thinking about my fingers and what they can do,” he says, voice rough, “is not objective.”
Your own lip tugs upward—an involuntary response to the way his voice roughens on the word ‘do.’
“Is it not? I’m making observations about manual dexterity and spatial reasoning capabilities. If you’re interpreting that as something else, perhaps the issue lies with your own cognitive associations.”
“My cognitive associations,” he says slowly, each word puncturing, “are functioning exactly as intended. Which is why I know you’re not talking about spatial reasoning.”
“Prove it.”
His eyes narrow—that particular expression that precedes intellectual demolition.
The one that makes your core temperature rise by degrees you refuse to calculate.
“Fine.”
He steps closer, eliminating 23 centimeters of distance in one fluid movement. His bare hand rises, hovering directly in your line of sight, fingers spread in deliberate display.
“You want to discuss manual dexterity? Let’s discuss it properly.”
Your breathing pattern shifts, becoming more shallow as he continues.
“These fingers have disarmed temporal bombs with components smaller than rice grains. They’ve performed microsurgery on quantum processors while reality buckled at nine hundred parts per million.”
He extends the thumb first. Then the forefinger. Each motion isolated to the millimeter—controlled, unhurried. Surgical; like showing off pressure points on a weapon.
“They’ve manipulated time fields so precisely I can freeze one heartbeat without stalling the next. Detect anomalies by texture alone—genuine matter versus time-echo, live timeline versus corrupted splice. I can tell when someone’s history has been edited just by touching their pulse.”
You should be taking notes.
Instead, you’re watching his hand.
Because now his fingers relax again—just slightly—and then his ring finger begins to move.
Not the whole finger, not the joints at the base or middle.
Just the last one—the distal phalanx—curling in, then tracing a slow, perfect circle in the air.
A whisper of motion. Controlled. Sinful.
Every other finger remains frozen. No tremor. No sympathetic twitch. Only the ring finger moves—measured orbits etched in silence, like he’s drawing something meant to be memorized with the tip of that finger alone.
It’s a movement so precise it feels obscene.
The elevator AI, perhaps sensing irregular input, intones, “Secondary verification required. Please resubmit biometric.”
“So when you ask about depth and precision and careful manipulation, A-735,” he murmurs, not breaking eye contact, “I want you to consider exactly what kind of places these fingers have been. What kind of delicate, sensitive areas they’ve explored. What kind of responses they’ve extracted from systems that require very specific handling.”
The circle completes one final revolution—clean, unbroken—before his hand lowers.
“And if you’re still curious…”
He leans in.
Braces the same hand beside your head against the secondary control panel. His palm skims across the glass in slow motion, anchoring him there—his arm now a heat source radiating less than ten centimeters from your cheek.
“…just imagine the calibration required to make any single one of those motions in seconds. Then ask yourself what that translates to elsewhere.”
Three seconds pass.
It feels like an eternity carved into milliseconds.
Your core temperature has risen 1.3 degrees. Your heart rate has increased by 23 beats per minute. Your pupils have dilated by approximately 31%.
“Verification accepted,” the AI announces.
“…Thank you. That was very thorough,” you manage.
He laughs—one abrupt, incredulous burst that he immediately aborts by biting his lower lip.
Then, steps backward, tilting his head toward the elevator ceiling like he’s consulting with some higher power about the cosmic injustice of this moment.
His tongue presses against his canine tooth as he processes his own response.
Your heart rate spikes to 127 BPM.
His eyes immediately flicker down to yours, and there’s something in that look—some recognition that transcends meaning.
For 1.7 seconds, he looks at you like—
He clears his throat.
The elevator chimes softly. The doors slide open, revealing the gala’s entrance hall beyond—crystal chandeliers, marble floors, and the soft murmur of high-society conversation.
“Let’s move.”
“What’s the actual mission objective?”
Your voice remains sub-audible, lips barely moving as you both navigate the crowd. Agent Min’s profile remains fixed forward, but you catch the micro-tension in his jaw that indicates active listening.
“Information retrieval. We need Dr. Harrison’s research data on temporal field fluctuations.”
He scans the crowd systematically—left to right, near to far, threat assessment algorithms running behind those dark eyes.
“CHRONOS keeps their critical research on isolated quantum networks, so physical access to Harrison’s personal files is the only way. This gala provides the perfect cover to approach him without triggering standard security.”
“And our cover identities?”
“Dr. Min and Dr. Park, visiting researchers from Sector 2, which is the research district by excellence, making our presence expected. Jimin pulled the personnel files, and Taehyung created digital footprints for us. Any background checks will be clean.”
“Fascinating how our cover identities require formal wear.”
“Fascinating how you’re still talking.”
You track his attempts to re-glove his right hand—motion interrupted as a security checkpoint materializes ahead. The attending officer’s augmented pupils sweep over you both.
“Biometric verification for gala access.”
Agent Min’s hand freezes halfway to his pocket. The leather glove dangles between his fingers like accusation.
Your mind runs a quick threat assessment: your modified Chrono-Sync watches are designed to generate false temporal signatures that appear normal to CHRONOS monitoring, but a direct dermal scan is a higher-level verification.
Why higher-level verification?
Are they hunting?
Agent Min seems to ponder the same exact question, if his micro-expressions are any indication.
“Already scanned at building entry,” he states. Voice level. Controlled.
“New protocol. Director’s orders.” The officer gestures to a portable scanner. “All attendees require secondary verification at event threshold.”
The muscle in Agent Min’s temple pulses. He places his palm on the scanner with deliberate force.
Green light. Access granted.
He’s sliding the glove back on when impact registers—a server backing through the crowd, tray balanced at shoulder height.
The collision sends Agent Min stumbling forward. His glove arcs through the air, landing 3.7 meters away on polished marble.
“Shit.” The word emerges at subsonic frequency.
He moves to retrieve it. The server—efficiency incarnate—scoops the leather up.
“Apologies, sir. I’ll dispose of this properly.”
“That’s not—”
But the server has already vanished into the choreographed chaos of catering staff.
Agent Min’s bare hand clenches, unclenches.
His thermal signature spikes 1.2 degrees.
“Dr. Min!”
You both turn.
A woman approaches—Chrono-Sync badge identifying her as Supervisor Chen, Temporal Studies Division. Her smile appears regulation-friendly, but her eyes perform rapid assessment calculations.
“Dr. Min, what a pleasant surprise.” Her gaze shifts to you, cataloguing every detail of your appearance in 2.3 seconds. “And Dr…?”
“Park,” you supply, accessing your cover identity’s parameters. “Visiting from Sector 2’s quantum research facility.”
“How wonderful.” She links her arm through Agent Min’s left elbow—a gesture that makes his shoulders rise 0.7 centimeters. “Perfect timing, actually. The Director specifically requested participation from all visiting researchers in tonight’s unity exhibition.”
“Unity exhibition?” Agent Min’s voice carries frequencies suggesting barely contained irritation.
“The partnership dance. Symbolic of CHRONOS cooperation across sectors.” Her smile sharpens. “Non-participation would be… noted.”
Your temporal readings fluctuate. Agent Min’s bare hand flexes at his side.
“I don’t—”
“Dance?” Supervisor Chen laughs, the sound precisely modulated for social comfort. “Nonsense. All CHRONOS employees receive basic cultural training. Unless your records are inaccurate?”
Threat assessment: High.
Cover identity compromise potential: 67%.
“Of course not.” Agent Min’s capitulation emerges through gritted teeth. “Dr. Park?”
You blink, noting how his eyes meet yours for exactly 1.9 seconds—long enough to convey warning, frustration, and something else your analysis protocols can’t categorize.
“Delighted,” you respond.
Supervisor Chen claps once. “Excellent! The floor awaits.”
She steers you both toward the designated area where couples already move in synchronized patterns.
Agent Min takes the opportunity to extract himself from Chen’s grip subtly.
“This is not optimal,” he mutters, positioned 47 centimeters from your left shoulder.
“Worried about your manual dexterity?” The words emerge before higher reasoning engages.
That immediately gains you a head snap.
For 0.3 seconds, his expression suggests he’s calculating the statistical probability of justified homicide.
“Take position,” he commands instead.
The words carry more weight than they should.
Your body responds without a retort—moving to optimal proximity in front of him.
The orchestra’s first notes slice through the ambient conversation, and you recognize the rhythm immediately.
Tango.
Your analytical centers process this with interest.
Supervisor Chen selected a dance requiring proximity, trust, and synchronization.
Either she possesses unusual sadism or exceptional strategic thinking.
Min’s right hand remains firmly behind his back.
“This deviates significantly from mission parameters,” he mutters, scanning the crowd, left hand extending toward you with reluctant formality. “Maintain minimal contact. Complete the requirement. Extract.”
Your right hand accepts his offered left, noting the way his fingers grip yours with just enough pressure to suggest control without intimacy. Professional. Contained.
Safe.
The music builds—strings and percussion creating a rhythm that makes your pulse synchronize without conscious thought.
One step. Two.
Your heels find the marble floor with movements your analytical mind can’t explain.
Agent Min’s left hand then settles on your shoulder blade in the next step with the careful distance of someone maintaining regulation proximity.
His right hand, however, stays locked behind his back like he’s restraining himself from something dangerous.
Three steps. Four.
Your body knows this rhythm, these movements, the exact angle required to match his stride length and—
Your heel catches on the dress hem’s edge. Balance shifts. Gravity engages.
His right hand shoots forward instinctively, palm pressing against the small of your back where the dress’s fabric meets bare skin.
The contact sends thermal readings spiking through your nervous system—his skin temperature registering 2.1 degrees warmer than normal human baseline.
He steadies you, his palm remaining pressed against your spine. His breathing pattern shifts, becoming shallow and irregular.
Your eyes drop to his lips—a 0.7-second glance that registers the way they part slightly, the micro-tension in his jaw, the pulse point visible at his throat.
“Target acquired,” he murmurs, lips barely moving. “Dr. Harrison. Northwest corner. Red pocket square.”
You follow his sight line without breaking form, letting him guide you through a series of quick steps. The subject matches intelligence photos—83% certainty allowing for age progression algorithms.
“Approach strategy?”
“Complete this torture first.” His fingers flex against your back—involuntary response immediately suppressed. “Chen’s still monitoring.”
The music builds, accordion and violin creating a rhythm that vibrates through your bones. He leads you into a complex sequence—quick-quick-slow, your leg sliding between his in a movement that feels dangerously familiar. His thigh presses against yours for exactly 1.3 seconds before the steps carry you apart again.
“We’ve done this before.”
It’s not a question. The certainty crystallizes in your analytical centers as you execute a perfect backward ocho, your spine arching into the curve of his palm.
His breathing goes shallow.
Agent Min swallows. Hard. His Adam’s apple bobs once before he regains control.
“Mission parameters require—”
“Not the mission.”
Another step, another perfect response from muscle memory that shouldn’t exist.
Your heel traces a precise arc across the floor, leg extending in a way that makes your dress climb dangerously high.
“This. Dancing. Specifically tango.”
His left hand tightens around your fingers. “Noma.”
“How many times?”
The question hangs between you as he guides you into a molinete, his hand never losing contact with the small of your back.
Your dress swirls around your legs, navy fabric catching the chandelier light.
The motion requires you to pivot around him, chest to chest, your faces separated by mere centimeters as you complete the turn.
“Focus on the target.”
But his eyes aren’t on Dr. Harrison.
They’re fixed on your face with an intensity that makes your pulse spike to 134 BPM.
“Seventeen resets,” you continue, voice dropping to subvocal frequencies, the dance bringing you close enough that your breath ghosts across his neck. “Seventeen versions of me who forgot you existed. But the body remembers what the mind doesn’t, right?”
His jaw muscle pulses—that familiar tell now catalogued 25 times.
“We need to—”
“How many of those versions danced with you?”
He leads you into a dramatic dip, and you follow without hesitation, trusting completely that he’ll catch you.
Of course he does.
Your back arches, one leg extending as his right arm slides further around your waist, supporting your weight with ease.
His face hovers centimeters above yours, seeing the golden flecks in his dark eyes, the way his pupils have dilated beyond normal parameters, the way breathing has shifted to match yours—synchronized in a manner that transcends conscious control.
“All of them,” he says finally, voice raw. “Every single one.”
The confession crystallizes as he holds the dip for two beats longer than necessary.
Other dancers swirl around you.
He pulls you upright in one fluid motion, the momentum bringing your bodies flush for 0.7 seconds before the dance demands separation.
But his hand maintains contact, fingers spread wide as if trying to memorize the feeling.
“Seventeen times we’ve done this,” you state, processing the data even as your body moves through steps it shouldn’t know. “Seventeen first dances that were never really first.”
“Stop.” The word emerges rough, desperate.
He spins you out, your dress flaring in a perfect circle before he draws you back. The return brings you closer than before—chest to chest, his thigh sliding between yours as the music demands intimacy.
“Why?” You tilt your head back to maintain eye contact, noting how his gaze immediately drops to your throat before snapping back up. “Does the truth violate mission parameters?”
“The truth violates—” He cuts himself off, guiding you through a series of quick pivots that require perfect synchronization.
Your bodies move as one unit. Totally synchronized.
“Violates what?”
His fingers press harder against your back, and you feel the slight tremor he’s trying to suppress.
For the final part, he leads you through a sequence of dramatic moves flawlessly—a low dip, a leg wrap that has your thigh sliding along his hip, a spin that ends with your back pressed to his chest.
“Everything,” he breathes against your ear. “It violates everything I’m trying to—”
The music ends, and so does the dance performance.
Applause erupts around you, but neither of you moves.
His arm remains wrapped around your waist, your back sealed to his front, both of you breathing in perfect synchronization. You can feel his heart rate through the contact—elevated to approximately 95 BPM.
“Dr. Min, Dr. Park!” Supervisor Chen’s voice slices through the moment. “Absolutely stunning! I had no idea Sector 2 included such comprehensive cultural training.”
Agent Min releases you, stepping back to regulation distance. But you catch the way his right hand clenches at his side, as if trying to retain the sensation of contact.
“Standard curriculum,” you respond, turning to face Chen while your nervous system still processes the ghost of his touch. “We believe cultural integration enhances temporal research capabilities.”
“Clearly.” Chen’s smile doesn’t reach her eyes. “Dr. Harrison was quite impressed. He’s requested your presence in the private observatory for research discussion.”
Your eyes meet Agent Min’s for 1.2 seconds.
Target acquired. Mission parameters resuming.
But the phantom feeling of his palm against your back persists. Lingers.
Burns.
“Lead the way,” he tells Chen, voice restored to professional neutrality.
But as you follow them toward the observatory, you notice he’s flexing his right hand compulsively, as if the memory of touching you has left permanent marks on his palm.
If it’s burnt for him, too.
You suspect it has.
Dr. Harrison extends his hand with the custom warmth of academic networking.
“Drs. Min and Park, welcome.” His smile reaches his eyes, genuine enthusiasm radiating from someone eager to discuss research with peers. “I hope you’re enjoying the gala. These events can be rather stuffy, but the conversations make them worthwhile.”
Agent Min’s thermal signature reads 0.8 degrees above baseline—elevated but within normal parameters for formal events.
His posture, however, suggests controlled alertness, scanning protocols active despite the social setting.
“Dr. Harrison,” Agent Min responds, extending his left hand for the greeting. “Thank you for agreeing to meet with us. Your reputation in temporal field theory precedes you.”
“Too kind, too kind.” Dr. Harrison’s grip lingers exactly 2.3 seconds—standard professional contact. “Though I must admit, when I heard Sector 2 was sending researchers, I was intrigued. Your facility’s work on quantum stabilization has been making waves in academic circles.”
Agent Min’s expression shifts into what you recognize as his intellectual engagement mode—purposeful interest designed to extract maximum information while revealing minimum vulnerability.
“We’ve had some modest success with field coherence applications,” Agent Min says, voice carrying confidence of someone accustomed to academic discourse. “Though I suspect your recent publications on temporal flux dynamics represent a more significant breakthrough.”
“You flatter me.” Dr. Harrison gestures toward the quieter observatory corner, floor-to-ceiling windows revealing the city’s sprawl below. “But yes, we’ve been exploring some fascinating correlations. The relationship between temporal stability and… well, let’s call them adjacent dimensional factors.”
Your analytical centers flag the deliberate vagueness.
Adjacent dimensional factors?
The terminology suggests… Classified research parameters.
“Adjacent factors?” Agent Min’s question emerges with precisely calibrated curiosity. “In what context?”
“Field theory, primarily.” Dr. Harrison settles into the conversation like someone savoring a riddle. “You see, traditional temporal mechanics assume dimensional isolation—time operates independently of spatial configuration. But our recent data suggests a more… Integrated relationship.”
Agent Min leans forward slightly, body language suggesting increased interest.
“Integrated how?”
“Well, without breaching classification protocols…” Dr. Harrison’s eyebrows lift, looking to the side. “We’ve documented phenomena that seem to operate outside standard temporal constraints. Distortions in physical space that correlate with temporal fluctuations.”
“Correlation versus causation,” Agent Min observes, voice maintaining skepticism. “Have you isolated the variable responsible for the spatial distortions?”
“Ah, now you’re asking the right questions.” Dr. Harrison’s smile widens. “That’s precisely what makes this research so fascinating. The spatial distortions don’t appear to be caused by temporal manipulation—they seem to operate independently.”
Your processing centers catalog this information while monitoring Agent Min’s reactions. His micro-expressions suggest intense concentration, though you detect no signs of concern.
“Independent spatial distortions,” Agent Min repeats, tone encouraging elaboration. “Are we discussing theoretical models or observed phenomena?”
“Observed, Dr. Min. Quite real, quite measurable.” Dr. Harrison’s enthusiasm increases noticeably. “In fact, we’ve documented several instances of spontaneous spatial field manipulation. Reality distortions that suggest direct interface with dimensional structure.”
Agent Min goes completely still.
Not the controlled stillness of professional interest, but the frozen shock of someone whose worldview has just encountered catastrophic data.
His thermal signature spikes 0.9 degrees in 1.2 seconds—a physiological response suggesting fight-or-flight activation.
The shift is subtle enough that Dr. Harrison doesn’t immediately notice, but your proximity allows detailed monitoring of Agent Min’s stress indicators.
“Spatial field manipulation,” Agent Min says, voice attempting at neutral despite the strain you detect in his vocal cords. “That’s… quite a significant claim.”
“Indeed it is.” Dr. Harrison studies Agent Min’s expression with renewed attention. “Though I would have expected researchers from Sector 2 to be familiar with emerging dimensional theory. Your facility has always been rather… progressive.”
Your analytical centers process the conversation’s trajectory while monitoring Agent Min’s deteriorating composure. His right hand flexes at his side—involuntary stress response, third occurrence in forty-seven seconds.
That’s when the pieces align in your cognitive matrix.
Spatial field manipulation. Reality distortions. Dimensional structure interface.
Agent Min’s shock suggests this information contradicts his understanding of CHRONOS capabilities.
Which implies CHRONOS has developed research beyond their known parameters.
Your protective protocols engage automatically.
“Dr. Harrison,” you interject, voice modulated to suggest academic fascination, “when you reference spatial field manipulation, are you discussing theoretical applications or practical implementation?”
The question redirects Dr. Harrison’s attention while giving Agent Min time to recalibrate his responses.
His thermal signature begins stabilizing as you step fractionally closer, reducing distance between your temporal signatures.
“Practical implementation, Dr. Park.” Dr. Harrison’s enthusiasm transfers to you seamlessly. “We’ve identified specific individuals capable of spontaneous spatial manipulation. The applications for Reality Anchor enhancement alone are staggering.”
“Individuals?” Your voice gains a curious tone. “Human subjects demonstrating spatial abilities? That seems to contradict fundamental quantum mechanics.”
“Contradicts current models, yes.” Dr. Harrison spreads his hands, expression suggesting academic bewilderment mixed with excitement. “Yet the data is undeniable. We’ve catalogued numerous instances of reality distortion that can only be attributed to conscious spatial manipulation.”
Agent Min’s breathing pattern shifts—shorter inhalations, controlled exhales.
So it is confirmed—his stress indicators suggest he’s processing information that threatens core assumptions about CHRONOS capabilities.
“What kind of reality distortions?” you ask, maintaining analytical interest while monitoring Agent Min’s condition.
“Matter displacement, primarily. Objects appearing in locations they couldn’t have reached through conventional physics. Spatial compression that allows movement across impossible distances. Even instances of molecular phasing—subjects passing through solid barriers without apparent harm.”
The descriptions trigger unexpected recognition patterns in your neural processors.
Matter displacement. Spatial compression. Molecular phasing.
Why do these concepts feel familiar?
“Fascinating,” you say, voice steady despite the cognitive disruption. “And you believe these phenomena result from human manipulation rather than external technological intervention?”
“The subjects appear to manifest these abilities unconsciously during high-stress situations,” Dr. Harrison explains, clearly enjoying the discussion. “Survival instincts, protective responses, fight-or-flight scenarios. The Director believes we’re close to understanding the neurological triggers.”
Agent Min makes a sound—barely audible, somewhere between a cough and a suppressed vocalization. His thermal readings spike another 0.6 degrees.
“Neurological triggers,” you repeat, buying time while Agent Min struggles with whatever revelation is compromising his composure. “That suggests the abilities are biologically inherent rather than technologically enhanced.”
“Precisely!” Dr. Harrison’s enthusiasm reaches academic fervor. “Which brings us to the truly revolutionary aspect of our research. If we can identify the biological mechanisms responsible for spatial manipulation, we can theoretically replicate them artificially.”
The statement hits your processing centers like temporal feedback.
“Artificial replication of spatial manipulation abilities,” you repeat, processing the implications while your Chrono-Sync Watch displays routine temporal data.
19:47 PM.
The numbers feel wrong somehow.
“Indeed,” Dr. Harrison continues, clearly enjoying your analytical interest. “The breakthrough came when we started correlating spatial distortions with temporal compliance patterns. We’ve enhanced our monitoring capabilities significantly—random sweeps, increased sensor sensitivity, mobile detection units.”
Random sweeps.
Your cognitive centers stutter for 0.3 seconds as conflicting data sets attempt to reconcile.
Your memory insists temporal compliance checks occur at 19:00 hours. Fixed schedule. Standard protocol. You remember the announcement system, the synchronized timing, the predictable intervals that allowed citizens to plan around mandatory scans.
But your Chrono-Sync Watch indicates the current system operates on randomized schedules. Variable timing. Unpredictable intervals designed to catch temporal deviants off-guard.
The randomized schedule aligns with the timeline shift you remember—CHRONOS adapting their hunting methods, making outlier detection more aggressive.
Which means you're sitting across from a researcher who's describing exactly what you are.
Blood threatens to trickle from your nose.
Agent Min's hand moves through the dress's thigh-high slit without hesitation, palm pressing against bare skin with slight pressure. His fingers splay across your quadriceps, thumb positioned exactly where your femoral artery pulses beneath muscle.
The contact stabilizes your temporal variance from 1.3% back to 0.7%.
But skin-to-skin contact triggers more than stabilization.
Memory bleeds through the connection:
«The resistance briefing room.
Namjoon’s voice explaining extraction protocols while Agent Min’s hand rests innocuously on your thigh beneath the table.
His fingers tracing patterns against your skin that have nothing to do with temporal stabilization and everything to do with the way he’s been watching your mouth form technical terminology for the past thirty-seven minutes.
“The quantum resonance patterns suggest…” you begin, voice steady despite his thumb pressing against your inner thigh with increasing pressure.
His index finger joins the exploration, sliding beneath the hem of your skirt to find bare skin.
The touch sends thermal readings spiking while you maintain composure, discussing probability matrices while his hand maps territories that belong to him across every timeline.
“The Director’s statement indicates…” Namjoon continues.
You are, however, barely processing the words—because Agent Min’s fingers are moving higher.
You manage to complete your technical explanation without vocal fluctuation, but your hand grips the table edge with 47% more force than necessary.
Agent Min leans closer, lips nearly brushing your ear as his fingers skim higher, closer to your underwear.
“Be good for me, Noma,” he whispers, voice dropping to subvocal frequencies that bypass auditory processing to embed directly in your nervous system.
His free hand rises to his lips, index finger pressing against his mouth in a gesture that appears thoughtful but serves as clear instruction:
‘Stay quiet.’»
“Dr. Park?”
Dr. Harrison’s voice cuts through the memory like a temporal blade, snapping you back to present reality where Agent Min’s hand remains pressed against your thigh and your core temperature has risen 1.7 degrees.
A visible shudder runs through his frame.
Your analytical processes flare:
Response to the current contact?
Response to the same memory bleed as yours?
“Dr. Min, you seem rather… affected by this discussion,” Dr. Harrison observes, tone shifting from academic enthusiasm to analytical assessment. “Almost as if the information comes as a surprise.”
The observation carries weight your analytical centers flag as potentially threatening.
“The implications for existing dimensional theory are profound,” Agent Min responds, voice regaining professional control despite his elevated stress indicators. “Revolutionary research often challenges established frameworks.”
“Indeed.” Dr. Harrison’s smile doesn’t quite reach his eyes now. “Though I must say, your reaction suggests this research is news to you. I would have expected Sector 2’s theoretical division to be briefed on Project Dimensional.”
Project Dimensional.
Your neural processors catalog the designation while monitoring the increasing tension between Dr. Harrison’s academic curiosity and Agent Min’s barely controlled distress.
“Our research operates under different classification parameters,” you interject, recognizing the need to redirect suspicion. “Dr. Min specializes in temporal cascade theory rather than spatial applications. Could you elaborate on the practical applications you mentioned?”
Dr. Harrison’s attention shifts back to you, some of the analytical intensity easing from his expression. “Well, the obvious application involves Reality Anchor enhancement. If we can artificially generate spatial manipulation fields, we could strengthen temporal containment beyond current limitations.”
“Temporal containment?”
“Preventing temporal anomalies, obviously.” Dr. Harrison’s tone suggests he’s explaining elementary concepts. “The spatial manipulation research is specifically designed to eliminate dimensional instabilities that threaten temporal compliance.”
Agent Min’s breathing becomes visibly labored.
“Dr. Harrison,” you say, recognizing the conversation has extracted sufficient intelligence, “this has been incredibly illuminating. Perhaps we could schedule follow-up discussions once we’ve reviewed your theoretical framework?”
“Absolutely.” Dr. Harrison’s agreement comes with renewed enthusiasm. “I’ll have my assistant coordinate access to our preliminary findings. The collaboration potential between our facilities could be quite significant.”
He extends his hand toward Agent Min, who responds with his left hand while keeping his right carefully controlled at his side. Dr. Harrison’s grip lingers 0.4 seconds longer than necessary, studying Agent Min’s face with uncomfortable intensity.
“Dr. Min, I do hope you’re feeling better. You seem rather… unwell.”
“Travel fatigue,” Agent Min responds, voice strained despite his attempt at casual dismissal. “The temporal adjustment protocols can be disorienting.”
“Of course.” Dr. Harrison nods, but his eyes suggest the explanation doesn’t entirely satisfy his curiosity. “Until next time, Drs. Min and Park. This has been most… educational.”
The word choice carries implications your threat assessment protocols flag as significant.
You follow Agent Min toward the exit, noting how his stride remains measured despite visible effort. His thermal signature continues climbing toward dangerous thresholds.
“Assessment?” you ask once you’re beyond Dr. Harrison’s hearing range.
“Catastrophic.” The word emerges strained. “They’re researching spatial manipulation. They have documented evidence of dimensional anomalies. This changes everything.”
His breathing becomes more labored as you move through the lobby.
By the time you reach the street, perspiration beads along his hairline despite the cool night air.
“Agent Min.” Your voice drops to subvocal frequencies as you note his deteriorating condition. “Your physiological readings are approaching critical thresholds.”
“I’m aware.” He doesn’t slow his pace, but his right leg shows slight instability. “We need distance. Now.”
“You require medical attention.”
“I require extraction.” His voice carries an edge of desperation masked as professional urgency. “Harrison’s suspicious. That was intelligence gathering disguised as academic networking.”
You reach the corner before Agent Min stops abruptly, one hand braced against the building’s wall. His head drops forward, chest rising and falling with visible effort.
“This isn’t standard post-mission stress response,” you observe, moving closer despite every protocol screaming about proximity risks.
“No,” he admits through gritted teeth. “It’s not.”
His right hand flexes in that same compulsive pattern—seeking something specific, something absent.
“We have maybe five minutes before Harrison alerts security,” he continues, pushing away from the wall with obvious effort. “I know how these scenarios develop across multiple timelines. They’ll be tracking our exit route.”
“You’re exhibiting signs of severe physiological distress—”
“It’s not distress.” The denial emerges through gritted teeth. “It’s withdrawal, and we need extraction immediately before Harrison decides to investigate his suspicions further.”
Withdrawal.
The terminology suggests physiological dependency, though your medical databases contain no references to such a condition.
“How certain are you about Harrison’s suspicions?” you ask as you move behind him.
“Seventeen timelines of experience with intelligence extraction scenarios,” he responds, voice tight with urgency. “When academic researchers start probing operational knowledge gaps, it means they’re already coordinating with security. We have maybe seven minutes before CHRONOS agents reach our location.”
He takes three steps before his right leg nearly buckles. His hand shoots out to catch the wall again, breathing ragged.
“That’s not—” You step closer, analytical mind struggling against something deeper. “Agent Min, you need—”
“I need you to stop analyzing my condition and start figuring out how to get us extracted before CHRONOS agents arrive.”
The snap in his voice carries both frustration and desperation.
But watching him fight to remain upright triggers responses your clinical detachment can’t suppress.
You need to get him to safety.
The imperative emerges from processing centers you didn’t know existed.
“Can you walk to the extraction point?”
“I can walk anywhere I need to walk.” His voice cracks slightly on the words.
The obvious lie makes something clench in your chest.
“Agent Min—”
“Stop.” He straightens with visible effort, jaw set in determination. “Whatever you’re thinking, don’t. We follow extraction protocols. Standard procedure.”
“Standard procedure assumes operational mobility.”
“I’m mobile.”
“You’re barely standing.”
“I’m functional enough to—”
He stumbles, catching himself against the wall with both hands now. His breathing becomes sharp, shallow gasps.
That’s when your protective protocols override every logical safeguard.
The response bypasses analytical processing entirely—pure instinct demanding action.
Agent Min needs medical attention.
CHRONOS agents are approaching.
Standard extraction is impossible given his condition.
You need to get him to headquarters.
Now.
“I’m implementing alternative extraction,” you state, closing the distance between you.
“A-735, no—” His voice carries warning, desperation, something that might be fear.
“Don’t argue with me right now.” The words emerge with unexpected authority. “You can barely stand, and you said yourself we have minutes before pursuit arrives.”
“Whatever you’re considering violates standard—”
“Standard protocols assume operational mobility.”
You step closer, eliminating space between your temporal signatures.
“Noma, don’t—”
But you’re already reaching for him, hand finding his arm as you concentrate on elsewhere.
On safety.
On the sterile corridors where he can receive proper treatment.
On getting him to safety.
Space shivers around desperate intention.
Reality bends.
And between one heartbeat and the next, the street becomes elsewhere entirely.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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✧ chapter details ✧
word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐄 𝐔𝐏 | 25
˗ˏˋ vanilla drips ˎˊ˗
"Sometimes the sweetest confessions come in the form of flour wars and vanilla extract kisses, when 3 AM vulnerability meets kitchen counter chemistry and you realize you've been lying to yourself about what you actually want."
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word count: 11.2k
content: 3am sourdough therapy sessions, flour warfare, vanilla extract as foreplay, kitchen counter confessions, raw intimacy (literally), tessa reconnaissance missions, jason date debriefs, smut, penetration, vanilla kink as always
✦ author's note ✦
Okay. Before anyone starts warming up their fingers to type “why is Y/N being such a hypocrite about Tessa,” let’s stop right there because actually? She’s not. Not even a little bit. What you’re witnessing here isn’t hypocrisy—it’s human behavior. It’s trauma logic. It’s psychological realism. And it’s honestly the most consistent Y/N has ever been.
Here’s the thing: what she has with Jungkook is sex. She’s said it, she’s acted on it, and more importantly—she believes it. Her brain doesn’t categorize him as a romantic option, not even subconsciously. So when she pushes Tessa toward him, it’s not because she’s lying to herself—it’s because, from her point of view, Jungkook deserves something good. After Mia? Yeah. He deserves a little sweetness. Tessa’s nice. That’s literally it. She’s responding with a moral instinct, not romantic jealousy. And that’s not hypocrisy—that’s compartmentalization paired with a genuine (if ill-defined) desire to see someone be treated well.
But here’s the question the chapter’s really asking: is “something good” always what someone needs?
Because Jungkook doesn’t recognize affection as safe. The boy has trained himself not to see it—thanks to a past that weaponized intimacy against him. So of course he doesn’t clock Tessa’s interest. It’s not him being stupid. It’s a trauma-informed blind spot. He’s too tuned into control dynamics to perceive sincerity when it’s offered without strings. (And let’s be real, how many of us have had our receptors miswired by the wrong person?)
That’s where the mutual curiosity comes in—both Y/N and Jungkook ask about each other’s dating lives in this chapter. Not because they’re pining or secretly in love or any of that fluff. They’re not. What they are, though, is interested. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but definitely in a human one. They’re trying to read each other. Understand each other. That’s what friends do. Or, in their case, that’s what trying to be friends looks like. They’re clumsy, they’re defensive, but they’re showing care in the only languages they know—flour fights and 3 AM bread commentary and checking if the other person is sleeping with someone else, just to make sense of the shape of things.
And Jungkook? For all his snark and dodging—he reads her this chapter. Like really reads her. He names her deflections. Calls out her need for control. Gives her permission to let go in ways no one else has. That kitchen scene isn’t romantic, it’s recognition. And that’s what makes it intimate. Not love. Not pining. But connection.
The vanilla extract moment—look, I know some of you are rolling your eyes at the "of course it's vanilla because that's Y/N's scent" metaphor, but hear me out. The fact that he was drinking it? That's not cute quirky behavior—that's concerning. It's self-medication disguised as harmless habit. For those of you who don’t know or haven’t caught up—vanilla extract is ethanol. Which means, it is alcohol. And Y/N recognizing it but choosing to transform it into something sensual instead of confronting it directly? That's her attempting to heal through intimacy rather than conversation, which is very much her emotional language at this point in the story.
Anyway. Enjoy the mess. Enjoy the tension. Enjoy Jungkook's dirty talk and Y/N's stubborn deflection and the way they're both falling without admitting it. It's about to get so much more complicated, and I am absolutely living for it.
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You're halfway to sleep when the knock comes.
Soft at first, almost hesitant, like whoever's on the other side isn't sure they should be there.
"What?" you mumble, voice thick with exhaustion.
No response.
Another knock, louder this time.
"Whatttt?" you snap, sitting up and glaring at the door.
Still no answer.
With an annoyed huff, you throw off the covers and march to the door, yanking it open—and nearly stumble into Jungkook.
He's leaning against the frame, one arm braced above his head like he's posing for a magazine cover. His hair is messy, his silver ring catching the faint light from the hallway.
You take a step back instinctively, narrowing your eyes. "What do you want? It's three in the morning."
He tilts his head toward the kitchenette, lips quirking into that infuriating half-smile. "I'm making sourdough."
You blink at him. "Sourdough?"
"Remember I told you about my Steam nickname? The baking pun?" He raises an eyebrow like he's daring you to remember.
"Huh," you say flatly, still trying to process why this man is standing outside your room at an ungodly hour talking about bread.
"Wanna see?" he asks, his grin widening.
"No," you reply immediately, crossing your arms. "Why would I want to see your midnight bread experiment?"
"Because it's cool," he says simply, as if that explains everything.
You stare at him for a long moment before sighing and stepping out of your room.
"Fine. But if this is stupid—"
"It's not stupid," he interrupts, already turning toward the kitchenette. "It's art."
"Oh my god," you mutter, following him reluctantly.
The counter is a mess of flour and bowls and what looks like a dough blob covered with a damp cloth. Jungkook gestures at it like it's a masterpiece.
"Behold," he says dramatically. "The future of bread."
You squint at it.
"It looks like a brain."
"Shows what you know about baking," he retorts, grabbing a wooden spoon and poking at the edges of the dough. "This is proofing."
"You're proofing my patience right now," you mutter, leaning against the counter.
He smirks but doesn't look up from his work. "You're just jealous because I have hobbies."
"Making bread at 3 AM isn't a hobby; it's a cry for help."
"Says the girl who reads Kafka for fun."
"It's called intellectual stimulation."
"It's called depressing bug stories."
You roll your eyes as he starts shaping the dough.
"So this is what you do when you can't sleep? Play housewife?"
"Better than doomscrolling Twitter," he shoots back without missing a beat.
"Shut up." You watch him for a moment longer before asking, "Why sourdough?"
His hands pause briefly before resuming their rhythm.
"My mom taught me how to make it when I was younger," he says quietly. "I loved it, so I picked it up quite easily. I guess it's just habit now."
There's something softer in his voice now, something almost reverent.
You don't press him for more details; it feels like enough that he shared this much.
"But I mean... why do it now?" you ask instead.
He shrugs but doesn't look up. "I told you, it helps me think."
You scoff, trying to keep the mood from dipping too far into serious territory. He finishes shaping the dough and places it on a tray before turning back to you.
"Wanna help?" he asks, holding out the wooden spoon.
"Nope," you say immediately.
"Oh come on." He wiggles the spoon enticingly. "Live a little."
"I'm living just fine without touching your weird blob bread."
"You're no fun."
He sets the spoon down with exaggerated disappointment and starts cleaning up the counter.
You watch him for another moment before grabbing the spoon and poking at the dough experimentally. It feels weirdly satisfying under your fingers—soft but firm, pliable but resistant.
Jungkook glances over and smirks again.
"See? Told you it was cool."
"Don't push it," you warn, but there's no real bite in your tone.
He chuckles softly and continues tidying up while you poke at his sourdough creation like it might reveal some hidden secrets about him—or maybe just about yourself.
And somehow, in this quiet kitchen at three in the morning, surrounded by flour and sarcasm and unexpected softness, it feels... okay.
You're still poking at the dough when Jungkook flicks a bit of flour in your direction. It lands on your arm, a tiny white puff against your skin.
"Oops," he says, not sounding sorry at all.
You narrow your eyes. "Don't start something you can't finish, Rogue."
His eyebrows shoot up at the nickname, a challenge sparking in his eyes.
"Is that a threat, Phoenix?"
"Yes it is."
You dip your fingers into the flour bag and flick it back at him, leaving a white streak across his black t-shirt.
"Oh, that's how it's gonna be?" He grins, reaching for more flour.
You back away, holding up your hands. "Don't you dare."
"What are you gonna do about it?" He advances slowly, a handful of flour cupped in his palm like a weapon.
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you warn, but you're already calculating escape routes. "I just showered."
"Should've thought about that before you started a war."
You dart around the sofa, putting it between you.
"This is childish."
"Says the girl hiding behind furniture," he counters, mirroring your movements as you circle the couch.
"I'm being smart."
"You're being a chicken."
You gasp in fake outrage. "Take that back!"
"No can do," he taunts, lunging suddenly to the left.
You shriek and bolt right, nearly slipping on the tile as you move through the narrow space between the coffee table and the couch. He's right behind you, laughing as you sprint to the other side.
"Get away from me, you monster!" you yell, but you're laughing too, the absurdity of the situation hitting you.
"Never!" he calls back, his voice pitched higher in a cartoonish villain impression. "Ueheheheh!"
You grab a throw pillow as a shield, holding it in front of you.
"I'm warning you!"
"Oh no, not the pillow," he mocks, still advancing. "Whatever shall I do?"
You swing it at him, but he dodges easily, grabbing your wrist with his flour-free hand.
Before you can react, he's smearing the flour across your cheek, touch surprisingly gentle despite the roughhousing.
"Got you," he says, voice low and triumphant.
You retaliate immediately, snatching the bag of flour from the counter and shoving your hand in.
"Fuck that, this means war!"
And so then, war begins indeed.
Flour flying everywhere, breathless laughter echoing through the apartment, furniture used as barricades and launch pads.
You leave white handprints on his shoulders when you try to push him away; he leaves them on your waist when he catches you mid-escape.
The aftermath leaves the kitchen floor looking like a disaster zone, flour coating every surface like a dusting of snow.
You're both covered in it—hair, clothes, skin—looking like ghosts in a low-budget horror movie.
"Truce?" you gasp finally, out of breath from laughing and running.
"Never surrender," he declares, lunging for you again.
You dodge, but your sock slips on the flour-covered floor, and before you fall, Jungkook grabs you, steadying you with a hand on your waist.
"Gotcha," he says again, softer this time, his face inches from yours.
You're both breathing hard, covered in flour.
His eyes flick down to your lips, then back up, a question in them.
And then—
SMACK.
His hand connects with your ass in a playful swat, leaving a perfect white handprint on your black sleep shorts.
You gasp in outrage as he dances away, cackling like a maniac.
"You did NOT just—"
"I did," he confirms, looking far too pleased with himself. "And it's a work of art, if I do say so myself."
You glance over your shoulder, trying to see the handprint.
"I'm going to kill you."
"Worth it," he declares, already backing away as you advance on him. "Totally worth it."
"You're dead, Ro," you threaten, grabbing another handful of flour. "Dead!"
He just laughs, eyes bright with mischief, not looking sorry at all.
"Come and get me then, Phoenix."
And despite yourself, despite the mess and the late hour and the flour in places flour should never be, you're laughing too, chasing him around the kitchen like you're both twelve years old instead of college students with responsibilities and complicated lives.
It's ridiculous. It's childish.
It's the most fun you've had in weeks.
Flour permeates the kitchen air like falling snowflakes.
Jungkook is now leaning against the counter, still grinning like the Cheshire cat, surveying the flour-dusted disaster.
You, for your part, are trying to brush flour off your arms, which is mostly just smearing it around.
"You know," Jungkook says, his voice laced with that fake-innocent tone he uses when he's about to say something outrageous, "all this flour… it's probably not great for your pores."
You eye him suspiciously. "And?"
"And," he continues, pushing off the counter and taking a step closer, "you should probably shower again."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock." You gesture vaguely at your flour-coated state.
"I could help," he offers. "You know… save water. Be environmentally conscious."
You burst out laughing, a startled, disbelieving sound.
"Are you serious right now? We just had a flour war, and your first thought is how to get laid?"
"Efficiency, Nix," he says, tapping his temple. "Always thinking efficiency."
"You're deranged," you choke out between laughs. "A completely deranged, horny bitch."
He just shrugs, unbothered.
"Maybe. But think of the planet."
You're still chuckling, shaking your head at his sheer audacity, when a thought flickers through your mind, uninvited and slightly uncomfortable.
Tessa.
If he actually starts dating her, if they become a thing… this—the easy banter, the late-night flirting, the casual hookups—it would all have to stop, right? You can't exactly keep sleeping with him if he has a girlfriend.
The thought leaves a weird, vaguely metallic taste in your mouth. Not jealousy, exactly. You don't want Jungkook in that way.
But the dynamic you have, this messy, undefined thing… it's familiar.
Weirdly comfortable in its own chaotic way.
The idea of it changing, ending… it's just… weird.
You push the thought away, shaking your head again, trying to clear it. Not your problem right now.
"Yeah, I'll pass on your noble environmental efforts," you say, trying to regain control of the conversation.
You look around at the white-dusted apartment, then back at him.
"Seriously though, when did you even get home? I didn't hear you come in at all."
He leans back against the counter again, crossing his arms over his flour-streaked chest.
"A while ago. Maybe you were too busy dreaming about me to notice."
"In your dreams, Rogue." You pick a stray piece of dough off your sleeve. "I was sleeping. Like normal people do at"—you glance at the microwave clock—"three-thirty in the morning."
"Normal is boring," he counters easily. "Besides, I'm stealthy. Like a ninja. A bread-making ninja."
"A messy ninja," you correct, gesturing at the flour coating literally everything, including him. "You look like a powdered donut."
"A sexy powdered donut," he clarifies, striking a pose.
You snort. "Keep telling yourself that."
You start trying to wipe down a section of the counter with a paper towel, which mostly just creates floury streaks.
"Seriously though, you didn't make any noise. I would've heard the door."
He shrugs, grabbing another paper towel and starting to help, surprisingly.
"Maybe I'm just light on my feet. Or maybe your ears are full of wax."
"Rude."
You throw the floury paper towel at him. He dodges it effortlessly.
"Just stating facts," he says, grinning. "Maybe you should get them checked. Could be impacting your hearing. Explains why you never listen to me."
"I listen," you argue, crumpling up another paper towel. "I just usually choose to ignore you because ninety percent of what you say is bullshit."
"That feels statistically inaccurate," he muses, wiping down the handle of the fridge. He leaves a faint white handprint behind. "I'd say it's more like… eighty-two percent bullshit. The other eighteen percent is pure genius."
"Delusional," you mutter, tackling the flour patch on the floor near the sink. "Completely delusional."
He stops wiping and just watches you for a second, a thoughtful expression replacing the usual smirk.
"You really didn't hear me come in?"
"No," you say, looking up. "Why? Should I have?"
He shakes his head, the smirk returning.
"Nah. Just means my ninja skills are improving. Or you're a really heavy sleeper." He leans closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. "Do you snore, Nix? Is that your dirty little secret?"
"I do not snore," you hiss, flicking water at him. "And get out of my personal space."
He laughs, easily dodging the water droplets. "Just asking!"
He resumes wiping the counter, humming softly under his breath.
You watch him for a moment, thoughts about Tessa still churning in your mind.
It's ridiculous, standing here covered in flour at nearly four in the morning, cleaning up a mess you both made, arguing about ninja skills and snoring.
But somehow, it feels… normal. Your kind of normal, anyway.
Messy, complicated, and definitely not boring.
You're on your hands and knees, attempting to wipe up a particularly stubborn patch of flour near the leg of the kitchen island, when you decide to go for it.
Operation: Tessa Reconnaissance. For the sisterhood, obviously.
And maybe a tiny bit because you're curious how this whole mess fits together.
"So," you say, keeping your voice casual as you swipe uselessly at the floor, "your friends seem… like a lot."
Jungkook snorts from where he's attempting to de-flour the coffee maker.
"Yeah, they're idiots. But they're my idiots."
"Including Library Girl?" you ask, aiming for nonchalance. "The redhead? Tessa?"
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder.
"Tessa? Yeah, she was there. Why?"
"No reason," you say quickly, maybe too quickly, focusing intently on the flour patch. "Just noticed you two talking a lot. She seems… nice."
"She is nice," he agrees easily, turning back to the coffee maker. "Super smart, too. Knows her shit about film. Like, really knows it."
Okay, good start. He acknowledges her existence and intelligence. Phase one complete.
"Yeah?" you prompt. "She mentioned you guys talked about… Park Chan-wook?"
You pronounce the name carefully, hoping you got it right based on Tessa's text.
He brightens instantly, forgetting the coffee maker entirely and turning to face you fully.
"Dude, yes! She actually got why The Handmaiden is structured the way it is. Most people just focus on the twists, but she was talking about the shifting perspectives and visual storytelling… it was cool."
His enthusiasm is genuine, almost nerdy. It's the same way he lit up talking about John Mayer's guitar playing. He's clearly impressed by her film knowledge.
"So… you like her?" you ask, trying to sound like you're just making conversation while scrubbing the floor.
"Yeah, she's cool," he says easily. "Definitely one of the few people in that class who isn't a total poser. We had this debate about Bong Joon-ho's genre blending—it was actually interesting."
He seems focused entirely on the intellectual connection. No hint of anything else.
Time for phase two: physical attraction assessment.
"She's really pretty, too," you add, still scrubbing. "Like, model pretty."
He shrugs, grabbing a damp cloth to wipe down the counter where his dough blob still sits.
"Yeah, I guess. Didn't really notice."
You stop scrubbing and look up at him incredulously. "You didn't notice? She looks like she walked off a runway and directly into that ramen shop. How could you not notice?"
He frowns slightly, like he's genuinely trying to recall her appearance beyond 'classmate'.
"I mean, she's got… hair? And a face? I don't know, Nix, I was more focused on the conversation." He seems genuinely perplexed by your insistence. "Why are you so hung up on how she looks?"
"I'm not hung up!" you retort, feeling defensive for reasons you can't quite articulate. "I just… stating facts. She's objectively attractive."
"Okay?" He draws the word out, like he doesn't understand the relevance. "Lots of people are attractive. Doesn't mean anything."
He gestures vaguely with the damp cloth.
"Are we gonna finish cleaning this up or are we analyzing the relative hotness of my classmates now?"
You huff, returning to your floor scrubbing.
Unbelievable. Either he's genuinely oblivious or he's the world's best actor.
Given his track record, oblivious seems more likely.
"Fine," you mutter. "Just making an observation."
"Well, observe the flour patch you missed by the trash can," he retorts, pointing with the cloth.
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"Bossy."
"Best one."
You crawl over to the trash can, wiping up the offending flour.
Okay, so he acknowledges she's nice, smart, shares his interests, but is apparently blind to the fact that she's a literal goddess?
Why are men so confusing?
"So," you try again, shifting tactics. "Since she's so cool and smart and into the same weird movies as you… you gonna ask her out?"
He stops wiping again, looking genuinely surprised by the question.
"Ask her out? Why would I do that?"
"Because… you like her? You just said she was cool and smart?"
Are you losing your mind? Is he actually this dense?
"Yeah, as a friend," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "We're in the same class. We talk about movies. That's… what friends do?"
"Jungkook," you say slowly, sitting back on your heels and facing him directly. "Girls like Tessa—girls who look like her and are that nice—don't usually go out of their way to talk to guys about obscure Korean directors unless they're interested."
He stares at you, blinking. Like the concept is entirely foreign.
"Wait, you think she… likes me? Like, likes likes me?"
"Is there an echo in here?" you ask dryly. "Yes, you absolute walnut. That's generally how that works."
He runs a hand through his flour-dusted hair, looking completely bewildered.
"No way. She's just… friendly. People are friendly sometimes, Nix."
"Not that friendly," you insist. "Trust me. There's friendly, and then there's 'laughing at all your jokes and touching your arm every five minutes' friendly. That's different."
He actually seems to consider this, replaying interactions in his head.
His brow furrows.
"She does laugh a lot… And she did touch my arm…" He looks back at you, still skeptical. "But maybe she's just, like, a touchy person?"
"Or maybe she wants to touch your dick," you deadpan.
He chokes on air, eyes widening.
"Dude! What the fuck?"
"Just saying! It's a possibility you seem to have completely overlooked."
He shakes his head, a disbelieving laugh escaping him.
"Nah. No way. You're messing with me."
"I'm really not," you say, suddenly feeling bad for Tessa—because this poor beautiful girl is putting in the effort, and he's completely clueless. "She basically told me she likes you."
"She told you?" Finally, he looks like oxygen is reaching his brain. "When?"
"At the party. We talked for a bit."
"And she just… announced her romantic interest in me? To my roommate? That seems weird."
"It wasn't like that! She was asking for advice! Because she was nervous!" You're practically defending her now. "She's really sweet, Rogue. And clearly into you."
He leans back against the counter again, processing this information.
He doesn't look smug or pleased, just… thoughtful.
And maybe a little overwhelmed.
"Huh," he says softly. "Never would've guessed."
He's quiet for a moment, staring down at the floury cloth in his hand.
"I mean, she is… really nice."
"So?" you prompt. "Now that you know the feeling might be mutual…?"
He sighs, dropping the cloth into the sink.
"I don't know, Nix."
"What do you mean, you don't know?"
He avoids your eyes, turning on the faucet and starting to rinse the cloth with unnecessary focus.
"Dating's… complicated, you know?"
"Everything's complicated with you," you mutter.
He glances back, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes before it's gone.
"Yeah, well. Maybe that's just how it is." He turns off the water, wringing out the cloth. "Besides, I'm not really… looking for anything right now."
"You're never looking for anything," you point out. "Except maybe your keys. Or a clean mug."
"Exactly," he says, attempting a grin, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes. "Too busy looking for my keys."
There it is again. That deflection. That hint of something heavier beneath that he refuses to acknowledge.
You think about what Yoongi said, about Mia, about Jungkook needing to be careful.
Maybe he's right to be hesitant.
"Okay," you say quietly, deciding not to push it further.
You've done your recon. You have information for Tessa, even if it's not the straightforward green light she might be hoping for.
"Just… don't be a dick to her, alright? If you're not interested, fine. But she's nice. She doesn't deserve games."
He looks surprised by your defense of her.
"I wasn't planning on playing games." He hesitates, then adds, almost reluctantly, "She does seem… different. From…"
He trails off, but you know who he means.
Mia.
An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment.
Unspoken history and potential futures.
Jungkook breaks it first, clapping his hands together with forced brightness.
"Okay, enough about my potential love life," he says, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "Let's talk yours. How was the date with Jason?"
You freeze, paper towel in hand, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation.
"What?"
He's halfway through sweeping a particularly stubborn pile of flour when he pauses, leaning on the broom handle.
"You know, Jason? Tall guy, glasses, probably owns more vests than actual personality traits?" He waves the broom vaguely. "The one you were all dressed up for earlier?"
"I wasn't dressed up," you protest automatically, even though you know it's a lie.
You definitely put effort into your appearance for that coffee date.
Jungkook snorts.
"Please. You were wearing makeup on a Sunday. And that green top thing that makes your—" He cuts himself off, clearing his throat. "Anyway. Spill. How'd it go with Professor Boring?"
You narrow your eyes at him.
"His name is Jason, and he's not boring. He's... mature."
"Mature," Jungkook repeats, drawing out the word like it's a foreign concept. "Right. Because that's what every college student dreams of. Maturity."
"Some of us actually want to date functioning adults," you retort.
"Functioning is overrated," he says with a grin. "But seriously, how was it? Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of... what does he study again? 18th-century doorknobs?"
"Modern literature," you correct, rolling your eyes. "And it was nice."
Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"Nice? That's it? Wow, don't oversell it or anything."
You sigh, grabbing the dustpan to help him with the flour pile.
"It was really nice, okay? He's smart, and he actually listens when I talk. We had a great conversation about female agency in Gothic novels."
"Riveting," Jungkook deadpans. "I'm sure the sexual tension was off the charts. Did you hold hands while discussing the patriarchal oppression of women in corsets?"
"You're such an ass," you mutter, but there's no real heat behind it. "Not everything has to be about sexual tension, you know."
"Doesn't have to be," he agrees, sweeping the last of the flour into the dustpan you're holding. "But it sure makes things more interesting."
And yeah, you catch him looking.
That look.
The one that says he's already decided how this ends.
One hand still loosely gripping the broom handle, the other braced against the table as he leans into it like he's posing for a fucking cologne ad.
You don't acknowledge it at first. Too proud. Too fucking annoyed by how easily he can flip the switch. One second you're arguing about Gothic literature and vests, the next—he's practically leaking testosterone across the countertop.
"I know that face," you mutter, not even looking up. "That's your 'I need to nut or I'll die' face."
He grins, unbothered. "Not wrong."
"Go jerk off in your sad little windowless cave like a normal person."
He shrugs, grabbing the bag of flour again, sifting some through his fingers with mock concentration.
"Mmm. Say it again. That mouth of yours, Pix… always so fuckin' mouthy."
You roll your eyes, but your stomach dips. "Maybe if you had more than two brain cells to rub together, I wouldn't have to talk so much."
"Yeah?" he says, ignoring the flour and stepping forward.
One stride. Two. And then he's right in front of you, eyes glinting.
"Keep runnin' that smart pretty mouth. See what happens."
You're about to fire something back—something snarky, something biting—but he grabs you.
Just yanks you forward by the waistband like it's nothing. Like you're nothing but a ragdoll he gets to toss around.
Your body stumbles into his chest and suddenly both his hands are on your ass, gripping it with filthy enthusiasm—greedy, solid handfuls of flesh through thin cotton, palms still dusty with flour. His fingers press, squeeze, spread, claim.
You gasp—too startled to bite it back.
And he fucking grins.
"See what you do to me when you act like that?"
His cock's hard against your stomach. Rock solid. Obvious. Shameless. He doesn't even try to hide it.
"God, Nix," he mutters, voice thick now. "C'mon. It's been too long."
You snort. "I sucked your winny yesterday."
He breaks—a bark of laughter, genuine and scandalized.
"Winny?" he repeats, like he can't believe you said it. "You calling my dick a preschool toy now?"
You shrug, deadpan. "Fits. Loud, annoying, kind of a drama queen."
He leans in again, dragging his mouth close, too close.
"Uh-uh, and I ate you out the day before that," he says, scornful little smile tugging at his lips like he's winning something. "So technically… still overdue."
"So?" you snap, but your voice is breathier than it should be. "That's not overdue."
"It is," he says, like it's math. "I mean actually being inside you. Kinda been craving it for a while now."
You swallow. Loud.
"Should I bend you over the kitchen table?" he murmurs. "Fuck you from behind? Bet you'd like that, huh?"
"Please," you scoff. "You'd probably knock over your sacred sourdough."
He grins, cocky and low and unbearable.
"So protective of the dough. But not my Winny?"
You slap his chest, trying not to laugh.
"Don't say it like that."
"Me? You gave it a name, so… C'mon, give my Winny some love, Pix."
You snort, and it comes out halfway between a laugh and a groan because your thighs are starting to ache with how badly you want pressure. Relief. Something.
"Counter or table?" he asks, already walking you backwards.
You hesitate. Just a second.
"…Counter."
He doesn't wait. Doesn't ask. Just grabs you and lifts like it's easy, like you weigh nothing. Drops your ass right onto the cool marble and steps between your legs—close enough your knees bracket his hips.
And his voice? His voice is low and filthy and unforgiving.
"Atta girl."
His mouth is on you before you can roll your eyes.
Hot, hungry kisses trailing up your neck—messy, unhurried, lips dragging like he wants to brand you. He bites at your jaw, just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. You tilt your head without thinking, baring your throat like a fucking offering.
And he groans—low and wrecked—like that does something to him. Like you're giving him more than skin.
His hands stay on your thighs, thumbs digging into the soft crease near your hips, holding you open while he devours.
You blink, and something catches the light near the sink.
Tiny. Brown. Familiar.
Your arm reaches past him, still off-balance on the counter. Fingers curl around it—vanilla extract.
You hold it up between two fingers, smirking.
"Why the fuck is this out?"
His head lifts just enough to glance at what you mean.
"Oh," he says, then immediately dives back in, mouthing at your collarbone like he didn't just answer you. "Nothing. Was sipping a lil bit earlier."
Your body stiffens. Barely. But he feels it.
You don't say anything for a second. You just… look at the bottle.
That rooftop moment. Yesterday. Him alone up there while the party buzzed under your feet. You didn't press then, just made a joke, let him deflect.
But it doesn't take a genius to figure out why someone drinks baking extract ethanol like it's bourbon.
You lick your lips. Keep your voice easy. Teasing.
"That why you smell like a cookie?"
He huffs a laugh against your throat. "You love it. Bet it's makin' you wet just thinking about biting into me."
He's joking. He's back to kissing.
But the bottle is still in your hand, glass warm from your skin, rolling between your fingers like it's got a heartbeat.
And okay. Fine. Maybe you're a little unhinged too.
"Wanna try something?" you ask, voice quiet, a little hoarse.
His head lifts slow. Eyes lazy. Lips wet.
He tilts his head, cock twitching against you like it heard the shift in your voice before he did.
"Yeah?" he says, grinning like he already knows he's gonna say yes no matter what it is. "What're we trying, Phoenix?"
Because you know—you know this man would let you pour hot sauce on his dick if you told him it'd turn you on.
His gaze flicks to the bottle still resting against your palm. Back to your mouth.
"Fuck, yeah," he says, voice already going gravel. "Show me."
You dab two fingers against the lip of the bottle, tilting it just enough to coat your skin in that sticky-sweet scent. Not much—just enough to cling. Your pulse, your collarbone, the hinge of your neck.
His eyes track everything. Like he's under hypnosis.
Slow drag up your wrist, down your throat. Pupils blown wide. Tongue peeking out to wet his bottom lip like it's instinct.
And then you offer it to him.
Your throat—tilted, bare. Vanilla blooming warm across your skin, seeping into heat, mixing with your scent.
You watch his jaw tick, tension wrapped in restraint.
He hesitates. Just for a breath. Not because he's unsure. But because he knows what'll happen if he starts.
His eyes drop to your hand. Then back up to your face. And then—
He grabs your wrist, rough but reverent, and slides your fingers straight into his mouth.
His tongue curls around them, sucks them clean like he's starving and this is the only sweet thing he's allowed to have.
His eyes don't leave yours for a second.
Heavy. Dark. Quietly fucking feral.
You feel it in your cunt.
That twitch—sharp and sudden—when he lets your fingers fall from his mouth with a wet pop and immediately dives back into your neck.
No warning. No mercy.
Just mouth on skin, lips dragging open over the vanilla, tongue flattening against your throat like he's licking you clean. Like you're the bottle. Like he's drunk and this is the relapse.
"Mmmfph—fuck," he groans against your neck, hot breath flooding over your skin. "You're—fuck—you're dessert, Phoenix."
He's biting now. Mouthing. Bruising.
Your head falls back against the cabinets with a dull thud and you don't care. Not even a little.
His hands are under your thighs again, yanking you closer to the edge of the counter like he's going to eat you here and now and be proud of the mess.
He doesn't stop licking your neck—just shifts slightly, mouth dragging lower, wetter, hungrier—until he can grab the flask again without even looking. He uncaps it one-handed, like he's done it a hundred times in the dark.
Because he probably has.
And then he's holding it over your chest.
"Hold still, Phoenix."
Voice low. Thick with something needy.
You barely nod before the cool drip hits your skin—fuck—a slow, deliberate trail spilling from the center of your collarbone and down, sliding between your tits, disappearing under the fabric of your tank top.
He watches it move. Doesn't blink. Bites his bottom lip like he's trying to restrain himself and failing spectacularly.
"Fuckkk," he mutters under his breath, and the way he stares?
You'd think he just watched God part the Red Sea between your tits.
But he can't see where it goes. Not really. Because of the shirt.
And that?
That's unacceptable.
So he doesn't ask. Doesn't even warn.
He just grabs the hem of your tank and yanks it up, fast and messy, until it's bunched under your armpits. The cool air hits your bare skin, but his gaze is scorching—dragging down to your breasts, then lower, following the trail of sticky syrup that's now sliding beneath.
He drops the flask without care.
Leans in.
And presses his mouth to the spot just under your breasts, where the drip ends. A hot, open-mouthed kiss. Tongue darting out to chase the taste.
He groans against your skin, like you're something forbidden and fuck, he's eating it anyway.
Then he starts licking up.
Slow. Thorough. Filthy.
Tongue dragging up the underside of your tits, between them, following the line of vanilla all the way back to your cleavage. His breath is hot and shaky, hands holding your thighs tight like he needs to anchor himself before he devours you.
"You taste like fucking heaven," he growls against your skin.
And you can barely breathe.
You lean back on your palms, spine arching subtly, thighs spreading wider across the counter—silent invitation.
His mouth twitches. Just slightly. Like he's trying to play it cool, like he's not already mentally wrecked.
Your fingers close around the vanilla bottle again.
And you tip it over your stomach.
A thin stream spills, slow and syrupy, tracing a path from just under your ribs down to your navel.
Sticky gold pooling in that soft dip, then slipping lower—toward your waistband, beneath it.
He stops.
Mid-breath.
Eyes drop.
Then drag back up to your face, slow as fucking sin.
And those eyes… those fucking eyes.
Dark like blackout curtains. Hungry. But quiet, too. Restrained. Like he's hanging onto the last thread of control and it's fraying fast.
He bites his lip again, teeth dragging over it, jaw flexing.
You raise a brow.
"Aren't you licking the vanilla off my skin, Rogue?" you say, voice steady, teasing, like your pulse isn't sprinting. "Go ahead."
He snorts through his nose—horny.
It's not even a laugh, not really. More like disbelief.
"Jesus, you're such a fucking menace."
Then he moves.
Hands at your waistband, yanking your shorts down like they've personally offended him.
There's no grace. No finesse. Just desperate, fumbling urgency, like if he doesn't get them off now he might lose it.
They hit the floor. So do your panties.
And then he drops to his knees.
Hooks your thighs over his elbows and pulls you closer to the edge of the counter, eyes level with your pussy. Eye to eye with his fucking meal, and the smirk that twitches at the edge of his mouth is so cocky it should be illegal.
But then he pauses.
Eyes catch on the fact that you're smooth. Bare.
His gaze flicks up, that same damn smirk sharpening.
"So you did plan on wishing me a happy birthday, huh?"
You groan, head thunking back against the cabinets.
"Shut up before I change my mind."
He just laughs, grabbing your thigh and yanking you closer, like that's his response.
It is.
"Thanks for the gift," he says with mock sincerity, "but like… full runway smooth? Nix. Just so you know, I like a little design."
You gape at him.
Is he serious right now?
Does he ever stop speaking?
Or think before he speaks? Like 'oh this might sound embarrassing coming from my mouth, I probably should keep it to myself.'
No. Definitely no.
"Design?"
He nods, dead serious now.
"I'm just saying. Little lightning bolt? Maybe a star? I could help you trim it next time. Get real artsy with it."
"I hate you," you mutter, scandalized and laughing, because of course this is what he's focusing on.
"I'm just saying…" he defends, grinning like a madman. "Bare's too creepy. I like texture, Phoenix. But not, like, a forest. I'm not tryna floss with it."
"God, you're disgusting," you shoot back, heat simmering low in your gut despite the absurdity.
"Disgustingly honest," he counters. "I want a little… edge. Like an angled fade. A pussy taper."
You laugh so hard your core clenches and he notices. Eyes drop. His smirk vanishes.
And just like that, he's focused again. Hands tightening around your thighs. Mouth opening. Ready to dive in.
But not before he whispers:
"Now be good and let me taste my birthday cake."
His mouth hovers. That maddening space—right there, close enough to feel his breath but not close enough to feel him.
It's hot. Each exhale fanning over your cunt like a fucking tease. You twitch, involuntary, hips tilting forward on reflex, thighs tensing around his shoulders.
"Rogue," you murmur, half-warn, half-beg.
He smirks. That slow, cocky pull of his lips that tells you he's going to drag this out just to see how long it takes before you snap.
He leans in, tongue barely peeking out like he's going to lick—
And then doesn't.
"I will actually punch you in the face," you hiss.
But he's already grabbing the bottle again.
His other hand steadies you, fingers splayed on your thigh, as he lifts the vanilla flask to eye level. Tips it slightly.
"Wait—" You grab a fistful of his hair. "Wait. Is that even safe?"
He pauses. Looks up at you, eyes wide, surprised—but not annoyed. Just… calm.
"Yeah," he says, voice casual but sincere. "This one's alcohol-based, not oil. No sugar. Won't mess with your PH or anything, I like your pussy way too much to risk it."
You roll your eyes, but okay. Fine. He's got a point.
And he's never put you in danger—annoyed, yes. Insane with frustration, absolutely.
But never unsafe.
"Okay," you mutter. "Proceed with your perversion."
"Oh, I plan to."
He uncaps it.
And the way he does it—so casually, like this is just some Wednesday night extracurricular?—makes your whole body lock up in anticipation.
He tips the bottle, lets a slow stream of vanilla drizzle from just above your navel, down the curve of your belly, heading lower.
It tickles. Warm and sticky, trailing through your folds, and your whole fucking body tenses with it.
His tongue flicks out, but this time, it's not teasing—it's the real deal.
His tongue drags up.
One long, slow stroke—base to tip—starting where your thighs twitch and ending where the vanilla's pooled.
He groans into it. Groans. Like it's crème fucking brûlée and he's been starving for a week. Like your cunt is the main course and dessert and a Michelin star.
You blink down at him, suddenly weirdly self-conscious.
Because—why the fuck is he acting like it's the best thing he's ever tasted?
It's vanilla extract and you, not caviar. Chill.
Your instinct is to kick him. Or flick his stupid forehead. Something.
But your cunt's already clenching around nothing, wetter than you want to admit.
Because—goddammit—his enthusiasm is doing something to you.
Like deeply. Shamefully. Physically.
You glance down, ready to call him dramatic. Maybe smack the back of his head.
But his eyes are closed.
And not in a performative way. Not for show.
They're hidden—lashes soaked, hair falling in messy dark strands over his brows. His whole face is fucking soft—relaxed, like he's at peace. Like this is meditation. Like your pussy is his church.
You reach down, tug his hair back just enough to uncover his face—need to see him.
Need to look.
And then—fuck. He looks up.
And he smirks. Caught you in 4K. Knew exactly what you were doing.
You want to smack him. Or yank his head down harder. Or kiss him. Or maybe scream.
It's all too much. He's too much.
But he just shifts again, mouth zeroing in now—on your clit this time. Tongue flat. Warm. Pressure steady and—fuck, fuck—
Your head slams back against the cabinet. You don't even feel it.
Because he's staring straight at you while he licks.
Intense. Sure. Smug. Like he knows. And the worst part?
He does.
You don't like eye contact. You hate eye contact.
Or—you did. Before he made it his fucking thing.
Now it's some kind of sex death ray. You're melting under it. You can't breathe under it.
He pulls back just enough to speak, his voice hoarse, lips slick with you.
"So mouthy up there…" he breathes, thumb dragging over your inner thigh. "But fuck, you're weepin' for me down here."
You choke on your own spit.
"Shut the fuck up with your cringy little sex monologue."
He snorts. Has the audacity to laugh into your cunt like it's funny.
"Uhhh? I thought we were past that whole thing where you pretend you don't like my dirty talk."
"I don't—"
He cuts you off with a slow circle of his tongue around your clit. Just once. Cruel.
"Right. That's why you got all hot when you said, 'Do you want me to ride you?'" he mimics, low and teasing. "Looked me in the eye when you said it, too. Said it just like that. Fuckin' purring, Pix."
You groan. "God, I hate you."
He grins. "No, you don't. You just hate that you like this."
Another lick.
Another smug look.
Another twitch deep in your gut.
And all you can do is glare at him—until his mouth is back on you, and then you can't even do that.
Because fuck, he picks up the pace.
Your right leg bends, heel dragging up his arm, foot planting itself on his shoulder like it belongs there. Toes curling the second his tongue swirls just right—just there. Over and over. Unrelenting.
Your whole torso arches back, spine stretched out like a bow. Head thunked against the cupboard above, hands gripping the edge of the counter so tight your knuckles go white.
And he doesn't stop.
Both his hands keep you steady, locked around your thighs, until the right one slides up—palm dragging over your skin, hot and too much. It settles right in that spot between your hip and waist. Thumb pressing into your side like an anchor.
Like he's keeping you from falling.
Like you're breakable.
You want to scream. Or sob. Or maybe just bite him for being so fucking considerate while simultaneously licking your pussy like he's trying to win a Michelin star.
You whimper. Actually whimper.
Because it's too much.
Because how the fuck does he even do that with his tongue?
It's obscene. Criminal. Feels like he's mapping you from memory now—like he's figured out every angle, every twitch, every exact combination that gets you to the edge in five minutes or less.
And—fuck—there it is.
That low hum in your belly, spiraling sharp and fast, heat pulsing outward. Nerve endings tightening. Your thighs start to close but he forces them open with a flex of his arms, tongue flattening again.
You gasp. Loud. Desperate.
Your hand flies down to his head and you yank his hair—hard.
He growls against you, frustrated, head jerking up, lips glossy and chin slick and brows scrunched like he's ready to fight.
"What," he snaps, breathless, panting. "What—what the fuck—"
You just whisper, shaky:
"Inside."
He blinks. Once. Twice.
Mouth parts. Eyes still a little wild.
"Huh?"
You meet his gaze, still breathless.
"I wanna cum with you inside me."
It short-circuits him. For real.
He pushes to stand so fast he almost stumbles. Feet trip a little. Palms slap the counter behind you as he catches himself and mutters, "Yeah—okay—fuck—gimme a second—"
But you reach out. Grab his arm. Stop him cold.
You lick your lips.
Probably look stupid. Glossy-eyed and dazed, like someone just rewired your brain through your pussy.
Whatever. You don't care.
You don't care because you can feel it now.
That ache. The need. The desperate, pulsing want for him to just get inside already. Your whole body's still twitching from his mouth and now it's fucking empty.
No thank you.
So you yank him. Hard.
Fingers curling in the loose fabric of his tee, tugging him back toward you like gravity's rewired itself around your cunt.
He lets himself be pulled. Doesn't even fight it. Just stumbles forward until he's between your legs again and then—then you're crashing his mouth to yours.
No hesitation. No buildup. No thoughts.
Just heat. Tongue. Need.
It's messy. Teeth clash. Vanilla and sweat and slick.
His hands slam to the counter beside your thighs for balance, knuckles brushing your waist as your tongue slides against his and you swallow the groan he lets out.
And yeah. You don't kiss men after they eat you out. Ever.
You've always thought it was gross, honestly. You live in your pussy. You don't need the flavor profile introduced.
But with him? Right now?
You don't even care.
You just want to taste what he tastes like. Want his spit in your mouth. Want to feel him.
So you kiss him like you mean it. Like you're not overthinking it. Like this doesn't break five of your own personal rules.
When you finally pull back, lips slick and breathing uneven, you keep your hands fisted in his shirt.
And say—quiet. Calm. "No need for condoms."
His eyes snap open.
You watch them go wide like you just told him the world's ending tomorrow and there's a free-for-all orgy scheduled at noon.
He coughs. Legit coughs. Like your spit went down the wrong pipe.
"Wait—what?"
You shrug. "I have a copper IUD. Works from minute one. I'm good."
His mouth opens, then closes again. Brain buffering.
"I mean…" he blinks. "I—I just—I didn't think you'd…"
You arch a brow.
He shakes his head a little, eyes dropping to your lips.
"No—like—I'm not complaining, I just—" His mouth staggers like he can't quite get the words out fast enough. "Are you sure?"
"I mean, you've been fucking with condoms, right?"
"Yeah. Always. Jesus. Yeah."
"And you've been getting tested?"
He gives you a look. "You think I'd be rawdogging around Brooklyn without paperwork?"
"Kind of," you mutter, just to mess with him.
"Okay, rude," he says, palm flattening on your thigh like it's involuntary. "I'm not feral. I'm—I'm… a respectful slut."
You almost laugh. Almost.
Then you say, quieter, "I haven't fucked anybody else since I fucked you."
And that? That actually makes him pause.
He blinks again. "Wait. For real?"
"Yeah. Nothing so far."
And he doesn't make it a thing. Doesn't get all soft and stupid about it.
He just takes a beat, stares at you, lips slightly parted like he's replaying it. Like the logistics are finally syncing in.
"Okay," he says. Rough. Breathless. "Yeah. Yeah, that's… okay."
You tap his chest. "Just cum outside, alright? Just in case."
He groans. Low and pained.
"Pix."
"I'm serious."
"You're killing me."
"Don't care."
"I'll pull out," he promises, fingers tightening on your skin. "But I swear to god, if you keep saying shit like that—inside, raw, no condom—I'm gonna lose it before I even get my pants off."
You grin back. "Sounds like a you problem."
And he breathes out, frustrated and horny and fucking wrecked, and mutters—
"You're my fucking problem."
He licks his lips.
Slow. Deliberate. Like he's already tasting you again.
Then he leans in and murmurs against your cheek—
"Okay. Turn around."
You blink. "Huh?"
The corners of his mouth tug up. "Turn. Around."
"Of course you wanna change positions."
"What can I say," he shrugs, cock already visibly straining through his sweatpants. "Artist's curiosity."
Still. You do it.
He helps you down—steadying hands at your waist, guiding you like you're breakable, which, let's be honest, rude. And once your feet hit the floor, you shift, pivoting slowly to face the counter.
Elbows down. Back arched.
You stick your ass out just to be a bitch about it.
He groans. Actually fucking groans. Like it hurts him.
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, hands immediately cupping your ass like it's reflex. "You're such a bitch."
You smirk into the counter. "Complaining?"
"No complaints." He huffs out a laugh. "Hands on the counter."
You glance over your shoulder. Raise a brow.
"Trust me," he says, already dragging one palm up the curve of your back.
You hum. But you do it. Flatten your hands, palms flush with the counter's edge.
Behind you, there's a shuffle.
Then that sound—the sound.
Elastic snapping as he yanks his waistband down.
You hear him shift his stance, toes lifting slightly as he lines himself up behind you. And then—
The press.
Just his tip, nudging against your entrance, and your whole body seizes, lips parting around a silent gasp as your thighs instinctively press together.
"You better not let go of that counter," he mutters low.
You don't answer.
Not out of defiance—just because your brain's gone static.
So he spanks you. Sharp and hot and immediate.
"I said something to you," he growls, palm landing hard enough to echo. "Did you hear?"
"Yeah," you breathe. "Okay."
"That's what I thought."
Then his hand drops from your ass, slides between your thighs, fingers spreading you open as he lines himself up again. Still doesn't push in.
Just rubs.
His cock slides up and down your slit, slow, deliberate strokes. Slick everywhere. Your breath stutters every time he nudges your clit on the way up.
"God, you're so fucking slippery," he mutters, almost in disbelief. "Dripping for it. I haven't even put it in yet."
You close your eyes, grip tightening on the edge of the counter.
"Your pussy's acting like it missed me," he adds, rocking his hips again, cockhead dragging lazily across your folds. "She's not even pretending."
"Maybe she has bad taste," you snap, voice shaky.
He laughs. Loud.
Then does it again—another glide, another tease, tip pausing right at your entrance just long enough for your breath to catch, then slipping away again before you can adjust.
"You're gonna lose it, huh," he murmurs. "All that smart mouth. All that sass. Gonna forget how to speak when I give you what you want?"
You grit your teeth.
He slides his tip back again, holds it there—barely inside. Just pressure.
Still not pushing in.
Still not giving it to you.
You whimper, shoulders tensing.
"Gripping the counter, Phoenix?" he asks sweetly. "Like I told you to?"
Your fingers curl tighter.
He grins.
And stays right fucking there. Not moving.
Just waiting.
Just standing there behind you like a smug little shit, cockhead resting at your entrance, hot and heavy and perfectly fucking poised—and somehow not going any further.
You shift your hips back slightly, trying to bait him.
He clicks his tongue. "Uh-uh."
"Rogue."
"Pix."
You groan. "You're so fucking annoying."
"Don't tempt me. I could stay like this all night," he says, cock dragging up through your folds again just to prove his point. "Just rub it against you until you're crying."
You scoff. "You act like that's a threat."
He leans forward, chest brushing your back, voice right at your ear.
"You'd cry so pretty."
You twist your head just enough to glare at him.
"You're actually insane."
"Says the girl bent over the counter like a porn scene," he grins, straightening back up. "All 'no condoms, fuck me raw, Rogue' like it's nothing."
You roll your eyes. "Oh, sorry. Do you not want it?"
He hums thoughtfully. "Kinda liking the view, not gonna lie."
"Oh my god."
"Seriously. You ever seen your ass from this angle? Top-tier."
"Shut the fuck up," you mutter, squeezing the counter harder. "You gonna give a Google Maps review next?"
"Might," he shrugs. "Five stars. Would fuck again."
You start to reply—some scathing, lethal retort—but you don't even get the first word out.
Because suddenly—he pushes.
All the way in.
One smooth, brutal thrust.
And you moan.
Loud. Unfiltered. Embarrassing.
Your hands slam flat on the counter like your body can't fucking handle it. The stretch, the shock of it.
You feel full. Too full.
He doesn't ease in. Doesn't give you time to adjust. Just buries himself in one go like it's his fucking right.
Then—smack.
His palm lands on your ass again, sharp and fast.
"That's more like it," he pants behind you, hand lingering after the slap. "There's my girl."
He pulls out slow.
Real slow.
Too slow.
Like he wants you to feel every inch leaving you, feel how empty you get without him. Like he's making a point.
Then—slam.
Hard. Deep. Ruthless.
You jolt forward, hands scrambling for grip as the counter rattles under your hips. A broken sound slips out of you—more instinct than choice—and behind you, he laughs.
Actually laughs.
A horny little chuckle, cock still buried deep like he didn't just rearrange your goddamn organs.
If you could twist around and kick him in the ribs, you would.
"What the fuck are you laughing at," you bite out.
He hums, smug as ever. "Sounded cute."
You glare at the spot, then at him.
"I'll show you cute—"
But you don't finish it. Because he pulls out again, and then slams back in with the same brutal force that leaves your legs trembling and your lungs gone.
What the fuck is he so cocky about?
He's the one getting it raw.
You're the one granting the privilege here. He should be grateful. You could revoke his rights real quick.
Even though… you won't.
Because there's something about it. About this.
No condom. Just skin. Just him.
It's different.
You don't know why it's hotter. Why it feels so much more intimate. You didn't think it would be. It's just cock. Just fucking. But now you feel everything—every twitch, every drag, every time he shifts his angle and catches that spot that has you choking on air.
And then he murmurs behind you, voice low—
"Does it hurt?"
You swallow. "No."
"Good," he says. Calm. Like it's logistics. "If it does, just arch your back more. Fixes the angle."
Fucking hell.
There it is, again.
How is he being considerate and a little shit at the same time?
You're not even flustered because of the sex anymore—you're flustered because he's flipping toggles like he doesn't even notice he's doing it.
You don't respond.
You can't. Because he grabs your hips and—
Slams into you again.
Not fast. Not rushed. Just one clean, devastatingly hard thrust that knocks the breath straight out of you. His grip holds you there, cock pressed deep, dragging that edge of pain into something white-hot and filthy.
"God," he mutters, breath catching. "The way you're gripping me—fuck—you like that, Nix?"
You don't answer.
Too proud. Too dazed. Too stubborn.
So he spanks you. Again.
Sharp and immediate.
"Answer me when I talk to you."
You flinch. Then growl, "Keep spanking and being demanding and I'll revoke raw rights so fucking fast—"
But he just snickers.
"Oh, will you?"
You can hear the smirk.
Then he leans over, chest brushing your back, breath hot on your ear.
"You like it when I slap my hand on your ass, Nix," he says, low and satisfied. "That's why I keep doing it."
You scoff. "You're making shit up."
He grinds into you once, slow and cruel.
"Am I?"
"Yup."
"Naaah. I've been testing."
You blink. "Testing."
"Mhm," he confirms. Another slap to your ass, gentler this time. Palming over the skin after. "And now I know."
You suck in a breath. "How would you know what turns me on?"
He huffs a laugh—mean, hot, unbothered.
"Because you always mouth off about the shit that gets you going."
Your heart stutters. He keeps going.
"Too embarrassed to just let yourself enjoy it, so you talk shit. Every single time."
"Fuck off," you hiss.
He smirks again, hands dragging your hips back slightly. "Nah. You're not fooling anyone, Pix."
"Eat shit," you bite out, but your voice betrays you—tight, breathy. Fucked.
He groans, head tilting back for a second like he can't believe how good he has it.
"You're so full of it."
You scowl over your shoulder.
He slaps your ass again. Just to punctuate it.
"This," he says, palm dragging slow over the sting he just left, "is textbook Phoenix behavior."
"Fuck's that supposed to mean?"
"What I just said. You always talk shit about what you like." He thrusts again, not deep—just enough to feel like a warning. "First it was the dirty talk. Remember?"
You roll your eyes. "Barely."
"Oh, you remember." His voice drops. "Because you called it cringey, and five minutes later you were soaking my jeans."
You grit your teeth.
"And then you rode me," he continues, like he's delivering an airtight closing argument. "Said 'do you want me to ride you?' all breathy. Like you hadn't spent days pretending you were above it."
You don't reply.
He leans in, hips pressing closer, cock buried deep and still not moving.
"And yesterday?"
You clench without meaning to.
"Yeah," he laughs softly. "Yesterday. You wouldn't even look at me when you were sucking me off. Acted all bratty and 'ugh I hate eye contact,' and now tonight you were pulling my hair back just to see my face."
You did do that.
"And now it's the spanking," he says, rocking his hips slow. "Bitching about it."
Another smack, firm and deliberate.
"But you just clenched around me. Again."
You groan into your arm. "You're fucking exhausting."
He grins against your shoulder. "You're fucking lying."
You shake your head. "You're not right."
He pulls back a little, just enough to move again. One clean stroke, all the way out and back in with a grunt.
Then—
"You're wet as fuck."
And you are. You feel it. Feel him glide. Feel the mess. Feel how your body wants him deep, no matter what your mouth says.
"You keep acting like you're not into it," he murmurs, breath hot. "Like you don't love being talked to like this. Touched like this."
"Shut up," you whimper, because you don't want to admit it. You don't want him to be right.
But he already is.
"You act like it's for me," he mutters. "Like I'm the one getting off on it."
And he is. Of course he is.
But so are you.
"You keep lying like it's gonna protect you," he says. "But your body gives you away every time."
He's still going.
Deep now.
Fast.
No hesitation, no mercy—just relentless drive, hips snapping into yours, angle brutal and right. Every time he hits bottom it knocks a broken little moan out of you. Loud. Unfiltered. Fucking real.
And still—still—he doesn't shut up.
"You've convinced yourself it's all for me. That you don't enjoy it. Can't. Won't."
Your jaw clenches.
"You can't let yourself," he continues, thrusting hard enough to slap skin. "Because you need to stay in control. Need to be good. Do it right."
His hand grips your hip tighter, pulling you back to meet every thrust. Your ass bounces off him with every slam, lewd and hot and loud.
"You need to know I like it," he says, "so you can file it under 'doing well,' and that's how you let yourself feel good."
You want to argue. You really do.
But you can't.
You're moaning too loud.
"You don't even stop to ask what you like," he growls, eyes locked on where you're joined. "But I'll tell you."
Smack.
"You like this position."
Smack.
"You like it raw. Hard. Deep."
You whimper.
"You like when I spank you," he murmurs, biting his lip, thrusts picking up even more.
"Shut up," you hiss. "Shut up, shut up—"
But it's useless.
You're already flushed down to your chest. Already arching into every thrust. Already leaking down your thighs.
Your hands grip the counter like a fucking lifeline—knuckles white, arms shaking.
He groans, hands adjusting—one on your waist, the other wrapping low across your belly to pull you into every stroke.
"It's okay, Nix," he says, voice rough but coaxing. "You don't have to say it."
He slams in harder, burying himself to the hilt, making your knees buckle on instinct.
"Just keep gripping the counter."
Your breath stutters.
"Don't let go if you like it."
You bite your lip.
"Don't say anything. Don't explain. Just grip."
You hesitate. One second. Maybe two.
And then—you do.
Fingers curl tighter around the countertop edge. You lock in. Anchor yourself.
Give it to him.
You don't say a word. But that grip? That's your answer. That's your yes.
He groans, hand dragging up your spine, palm flat between your shoulder blades like he wants to feel how it wrecked you.
"There she is," he whispers. "There's my good fucking girl."
That last comment—
There's my good fucking girl.
It does something. Snaps something in your spine. Or maybe your brain.
Because your cunt flutters around him hard, slick tightens, thighs tremble, and yeah, yeah you're closer. Closer than you should be. You were already there when he first slid in—already so worked up you could've finished in sixty seconds if he just shut the fuck up and focused.
But of course he didn't.
Of course he ran his mouth. Called you out. Read you like a book.
And now?
Now you're clenching around his cock like you're about to shatter, and he feels it.
You know he does.
Because he leans in, breath gone wrecked. Lip caught between his teeth.
"Hmm?" he pants. Thrusts harder, deeper. "What's that? You like when I call you that?"
Your jaw clenches. You want to scoff. Or deny it.
But your cunt clenches instead.
He feels it.
"Ohh fuck," he groans, like it hits his brainstem. "You do."
You turn your face into your arm, humiliated by your own goddamn response. But it's too late. He's already there—already winding it tighter.
"Let's see if you like it even more when I do this."
You blink. "What are you—"
He grabs your thigh.
Hooks it up onto the counter. Bends your leg at the knee beside your elbow, spreading you wider without warning. Opening you up. Letting him deepen.
And he does.
Slams into you again with the new angle, and fuck—it hits different. Hits deep. Your whole body pitches forward with the force, mouth open on a sharp moan you can't swallow.
Then—his hand.
His fingers find your clit. Circle it once, slow and effective.
And you whimper.
It's high-pitched. Unintended. Undignified.
You want to vanish.
But then he's right behind your ear again, voice slurred and drunk on it.
"Gonna cum for me, angel?"
Your body jolts.
Because yeah. Yeah, you are, especially now that he's got your leg hooked, your pussy stuffed, your clit being worked with just enough pressure to make you lose it.
He feels your thighs twitch.
"Do it," he breathes, cock dragging thick inside you, fingers pressing just right. "Come on, let me feel it. I'm close too. Gimme it, Pix."
And your body obeys.
It rolls over you in one hard pulse—core tightening, vision blanking, thighs squeezing in and failing to stay strong.
Your moan punches out of your chest, loud and cracked, hips grinding back into his like you need more even as you're falling apart.
"Ohhhh my god, fuck yes—fuck, yes, Nix, fuckkkk."
He keeps fucking through it. Doesn't stop. Lets your pussy spasm around him, wet and squeezing and pulling him deeper as you ride it out. You whimper, already too sensitive, hips twitching, but he's not done.
Because he's laughing now.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just that fucked-out little giggle he always gets when he's high on it. Like your orgasm lit him up from the inside.
"Jesus—oh my god—holy shit," he's muttering, still fucking you, little messy stutters in his rhythm now. "You feel so fucking good when you cum, I swear—fuck."
He moans again—short and desperate and real—and you feel it in the way his thrusts go uneven.
"Where—where do you want it?" he gasps. "Fuck—I'm gonna—I'm so close, where do I—"
"Ass," you croak, head low, voice barely there.
That's all he needs.
He pulls out instantly, like he's yanking a ripcord.
You whimper at the loss but then you feel his hand—fast and rough—working himself over the curve of your ass.
"Oh fuck—oh god, yeah, look at this gorgeous ass—fuckfuckfuck—"
And then he's cumming.
Thick, hot ropes spilling over your skin as he pants and jerks through it, one hand steadying himself on your back, the other stroking through every twitch of his cock like he's trying to squeeze out every drop just to paint you.
"Shit," he gasps, hips still flexing forward. "Fucking hell, Phoenix."
You don't move.
You just breathe. Still shaking. Still clenched. Still wrecked.
There's cum on your skin, sweat between your shoulder blades, and your thighs feel like they've forgotten how to exist—and somehow, you still feel good.
Too good.
And a little fucked up about how good.
But you'll deal with that later.
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