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[patohasapencil]

You’re really quiet. What’s on your mind?

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[klausysworld]

Trigger warning!! This content includes mention of self harm scars. Read with caution

Uncertainty

Summary: I wake up in a bed that isn’t my own beside a familiar face. Memories of the previous night flood back. The things he saw and the things we did. I can only hope that these feelings last.

A small groan left me at the light streaming in past the gap of the curtains. The warmth on my face making me aware of how hot I was beneath the covers. My body shifted in it's place to roll over but I only got part way there before I heard a sigh from beside me. Slowly I turned my head, eyes landing on Klaus's sleeping face. It took me a moment to register why he was here, or rather why I was here. Seeing him seemed to dawn the realisation that this was not my room, not my bed, not my curtains.

The previous night came back to me in pieces. Dancing at the ball with him after he had been too stubborn to invite Camille. Hayley had begged me to go and promised it would be a night to remember. I suppose she was right. Klaus hadn't ever shown romantic interest in me. He was kind to me because I was to him and apparently he respected that I stayed with Hayley through everything with his family. Unfortunately for me I had liked him more than he did me and only Hayley knew it. So when his gaze flickered to my lips, I couldn't help myself.

Too many times had I imagined last night. His hands lifting me up, squeezing, stroking, gripping. His mouth kissing, biting, sucking. But I never believed it would actually happen and not the way that it had anyway. What I had imagined was purely fantasy, unrealistic. Given his nature I assumed he might be rougher and uncaring or maybe I was fearful that would happen. Instead he laid me down so carefully, the moment we got to his room he seemed to slow and start savouring. I was undressed slowly and I wasn't allowed to help, only watch his face as he revealed more and more skin. Somehow I had forgotten about the scars that covered me.

I only remembered when his eyes softened, hands hesitating. Just like that I knew why I hadn't been with anybody like that in so long. Nausea hit me and I sat up, eyes watering as I grabbed my dress from where it was still laid out on the end of the bed but Klaus gently tugged it back from me.

"It's okay." Was all he said and I had never seen so much sincerity in his eyes before.

I hated how obvious the marks were and knowing they wouldn't fade anymore than they already had. His hands moved back to my hips, caressing gently but I could still feel his gaze wondering across the straight lines that marred my stomach and thighs.

"They're old." I whispered to him, "I haven't done anything for a while now." The way my voice wobbled made me feel worse, like I'd ruined my only chance.

Klaus had nodded and leaned back down to kiss my lips but I felt small and pathetic after being so exposed so I pulled away. Instead he kissed my shoulder just gently and lifted his hand to cup my breast. "You're perfect." He told me, words quiet but clear as he pressed down on me to lay back down on my back. "These..." his fingers slid down to trace the lines, "are strength. They're apart of you and they don't take anything away."

Maybe those were the words that I had been waiting for someone to say. Or they were what I really wanted to believe for myself too but I didn't expect him to say them or believe them. I didn't even know I was crying until his thumb swiped the tears away and he kissed my mouth again. That time I welcomed it.

From that moment he was even gentler, taking his time no matter how late it got. I was almost positive that he had managed to kiss every single mark on me before he guided my legs over his shoulders, promising I would like what he'd do.

Like was an understatement. His tongue was warm and rough against me, rubbing my clit so well that I came just from that alone. Just his tongue sliding over me, circling slowly and teasing me until I swelled. The sensitivity was euphoric, and his lips kept sucking at just the right times, tip of his tongue still flicking until the only word I knew was him. Soon after his fingers were there too, just helping his mouth spread me open before they began to push in. My body hadn't felt so much in far too long. There was no way of calming or slowing my reactions. A few curls of his digits, which were placed strategically well, had my legs trembling around his head. They hit just perfectly every time, crossing over with the exact second his tongue would flex. When I came again he nuzzled closer, pulling his fingers out slowly before transferring them to his mouth. Nothing about last night felt real.

Even the sting of him finally led inside me didn't bring me to reality. Klaus stayed still for a while, his hands still stroking the inside of my thighs but now his eyes didn't care for the scars, they were focused on mine. The blue of his iris' kept tinting gold, his features sharpening and relaxing every so often whilst his body twitched between my legs.

"This is perfect." I whispered and he smiled warm and soft like he meant the action. Just then his hips shifted, soon his body moving against mine in a steady rhythm. My hands grabbed at his hair, just holding a fistful of curls and having his face close. I could feel the heat of his breath brush my neck and shoulder, warming the skin until I was a puddle beneath him. Every thrust of his cock was like a wave of something I didn't even know existed.

There's no way of knowing exactly how long the night lasted. I didn't want it to ever end and yet at the same time part of me considered fleeing now before he woke so that perhaps I could pretend it was all in my head.

Before I could act on such a thought, his eyes cracked open. His body reacted similarly to mine at the intrusion of sunlight before he saw me too. That same look of confusion I had earlier fleeted through him before that heavy realisation.

My hands held the duvet close to me despite the heat of the room. I looked back at him with uncertainty.

I wasn't the person he had been yearning for. He had never wanted me the way I did him and it would break me to hear his rejection after last night which is why I really wanted to leave. Klaus inhaled slowly before exhaling and sitting up against the headboard. The back of his hand rubbed the sleep form his eyes and he glanced my way. I couldn't tell what he was thinking. If it was his way of asking why I was still here or something else.

My gaze darted away.

He had seen me in a way barely anybody had, he'd reacted differently to anybody and now?

With a slight wince of pain from the ache between my legs, I moved to step down from his bed. My back was bared to him as I stared at the floor, unsure how I could leave his room entirely naked without anyone seeing.

A cool hand slid round my waist and pulled me back, my body coming into contact with his chest. "You're shaking." He murmured, voice husk with fatigue as he pressed a small kiss to my head. "Come lay down."

It wasn't so much a demand but a plea disguised as one. His tone almost questioning as he pulled the duvet back. I settled back beside him, feeling him press close.

"I'll put the fan on in a moment." Klaus whispered, his face in the back of my neck making my spine tickle.

I wasn't so sure what was going to happen but I knew that I wasn't leaving any time soon. I knew that he saw me for who I was and am and that he accepted both. I just hoped that he could love me like I did him.

[male-privilege-is-when]

Male privilege is when my ex spent months isolating me, physically and mentally abusing me, draining my bank account, sexually assaulting me, and I still lost all my friends because she said I was a toxic man, despite me sharing proof of the abuse. Male privilege is being told you're a man only to paint you as the aggressor but being called a lesbian or nonbinary when they like you. Male privilege is being denied entry to domestic abuse and homeless shelters after fleeing years of IPV because you started testosterone. Male privilege is doing survival sex work to make ends meet to try to avoid eviction. Male privilege is still being stalked years after the fact because you didn't die like they wanted.

Male privilege is when...

[bideogaymes]

my stomach genuinely hurts and i want to cry watching that video. that’s enough internet for today.

nonblack ppl truly underestimate how Black people are constantly being traumatized simply for existing and needing to participate in this antiblack world to survive. we have to compartmentalize and look past so much antiblack violence and hate from other ethnic groups just to be able to get the work done that would collectively benefit yall more than it would materially benefit us.

yall make organizing and practicing resistance a lesson in the Black diaspora swallowing poison to get to the cure.

[novella-november]

(fixed the typos from 5am)

I do enjoy reading the tags in my notifications about the content warning poll, angry at it being a "leading question" And it' is's like, you mean because I listed out the two usual mentalities that go with those answers??

"the fanficification of books (derogatory)" I think was the funniest one, as if giving your readers heads up that your book deals with topics that might trigger somebody's PTSD or anxiety is somehow this horrible thing that is ~ ruining literature ~ and "the implications that media containing sensitive topics is unsafe" because yes...it *is* unsafe for people who would need that content warning in the first place??

Just because *you* do not have violent flashbacks to an extremely traumatic event when you read about it in fiction unexpectedly, doesn't mean everybody else is the fucking pinnacle of mental health as well??

And we need to care about everybody?

It's not hard!

Hell, having content warnings at the beginning of your book, if that stops somebody from reading it because they find that content triggering, guess what? You're also saving yourself from possibly getting a bad review from somebody that if they *didn't* have that content warning, would have read the book unaware of what it contained, and then had the whole experience ruined by whichever topic they can't handle!

"it will spoil the story"

1) you don't need to go into exact detail or blow by blow about what exactly happens with the topics, just list out what is applicable.

2) if your story can be "ruined" by a reader knowing in advance that a character is sexually assaulted, or experiences child abuse, or experiences a pregnancy, or experiences a miscarriage, or has family member die.... That sounds like you're using these heavy topics *purely for shock value*, and if knowing of their *mere existence ahead of time* will somehow "ruin" your story--

-- if your story doesn't "work" without that shock value....

....It sounds like you really need to go back to the editing stage and make your story actually stand on its own weight, and not merely prop it up with shock and horror.

All good writers should understand:

if your plot twist only works when it comes *entirely out of left field with no way to know it's coming*, it's not actually a good plot twist, because that also means you didn't actually foreshadow or set it up properly.

If your entire book can be quote "ruined" by you merely listing off that it contains "death of a family member"....

...Sorry, but that also heavily implies that your story is *only good on the first read*, because saying that knowing what happens will ruin it, also implies that any actual meaning is lost the second time through, when the reader *already know what happens and in far more intimate detail*, than they would have from a simple, two-word content warning.

And if you don't want to read the content warnings yourself... it's extremely easy to skip fast by simply turning the page just like everybody else does to skip past the acknowledgments or authors note at the beginning of most books?

No one is forcing you, personally, to read the content warnings of a book if you don't want to.

It's just like the list of ingredients on the back of food packaging: *most people* don't even glance at the ingredients and would just as soon shrug if the list vanished, but to others, knowing what is in the food, no matter how small of an amount it is, can be *literally life saving*, either from allergies or other medical reasons.

There's a reason I listened the "no" option as " I don't believe in content warnings for books": Is because that is the 100% most common reason I see given by people who don't want to book content warnings in books, and like, that's me putting it as nicely as possible, because most of these people in these writing groups who hate content warnings *also actively disparage* people with PTSD or trauma for being "weak" or "not ready for the real world"--

--- as though their fiction book is exactly the real world, and not a *product* that they're actively selling to people for *profit*.

If you wouldn't argue that TV shows and films shouldn't have *any* kind of rating or content warning system at all, and that people should just watch movies without knowing the rating or why that rating exist, you *should* be supporting content warnings in books!

Because at the end of the day books are *a paid product that is sold for entertainment*, and the same people who wouldn't read your book because of a content warning, are the same people who would have read your book unknowing, and suffered horrible anxiety or panic attacks as a consequence.

Hell, content warnings don't even necessarily mean that people who need those warnings aren't going to reada book-- it just means that they can make a fucking informed choice, and prepare themselves for encountering that topic!

[stuff-diary]

Soy Frankelda

Movies watched in 2026

Soy Frankelda (2025, Mexico/USA)

Directors & Writers: Arturo Ambriz and Roy Ambriz (based on their own show)

Mini-review:

Good stop motion animation breathes life into stories and characters in a way that feels inimitable, and this very much is one of those cases. The amount of time, passion and effort poured into this project comes across in every single shot. And I loved that it also played around with other types of animation in specific scenes. The story's message about the power of writing and creating art in general strikes a chord, even if the script isn't as impactful as the animation. It kinda feels like we're getting fewer stop motion projects every year, but Soy Frankelda reminds us that we have to support this magical form of animation.

[gold3ngirlx]

Looking for someone who wants to explore a dark romance plot - I have a few ideas but am super open to collaborating.

This will be morally grey and I am looking for someone who is open to exploring triggering themes.

I’d like this to be plot heavy with A LOT of smut mixed in. I am open to rapid fire, text threads, and 2-3 paragraph’s to ensure we keep things moving.

Some themes I’m interested in are psych ward based, cult themes, secret society & power imbalance, arranged marriage, Stockholm syndrome / kidnapping, etc.

All of my characters are OC’s but I’m open to discussing & creating new muses together.

Like this & I will reach out - looking forward to plotting + world building together!