a little moment of honesty; it's been a bit difficult for me to be on here and feel safe and enjoy my time on helena, i still love her and want to continue writing her, but i have had some extremely uncomfortable interactions on here in and out of roleplays in the past several months that frankly left me feeling disgusted, unhappy, and self conscious. if i ever randomly talk or rant about weirdos or creeps in the rpc, then i encountered most of them here, and it's making me second guess how i write helena: she's a "bitch" if i'm too serious, she's "an easy piece of meet" if i let her be casual and flirty. it really sucks.
don't worry. i'm okay. this is also not a vague post, it's my discomfort with misogyny in rpc and fandom. i'm constantly reevaluating my boundaries, cutting out weirdos from my mutualship and finding mutuals who are amazing and respectful, trying to maintain my joy and love for writing and huntress in other ways, trying different things to inspire myself to be back here, and most importantly, i understand my safety, my comfort, my discomfort, and my negative experiences & feelings are all mine to handle. i thank you all for your patience and for being your lovely selves, and for letting me get to know you and your muse, as well write with you 🩵
psst: to my shipping partners, i'm sorry if i'm out of it. i absolutely treasure you and your muses, it just might take me some time before i feel comfortable writing helena in romantic contexts again. i'm actively trying between giving myself space, experimenting via other characters, reading comics and fanfics to refamiliarise myself with helena's flirtier side, and dipping my toes back into the water again. i hope my clarification clears up any doubts, my replying speed is never an indication of interest 🫂 long live huntress nation, sappho's bravest soldier 🥳
even i can't explain the logic behind my muse roster. why is reigen arataka of mob psycho 100 in the same part of my brain as hestia of greek mythology? i cannot tell you. the difference is that i respect hestia a lot and care about her and her lore so much i don't even to call her a roleplay muse, it's more about... bringing more visibility to her story. reigen on the other hand is a vermin haunting me
hellooooo oomfies! i wanted to say that my aurora works as a counsellor at various x-institutions (keeping it vague for the sake of rps), so she's effective at helping both kids and fellow superheroes or mentors -- i'd be so down for counselling threads, and even if your muse isn't x-affiliated, let's just they can get a referral from someone else :)<3
feel free to like this for some prompts or impromptu starters from my helena wayne to your muses' way :)
she is a different character from helena bertinelli altogether, and all info about her is available in my pinned + if you have my discord, i'm happy to explain her <3
A MESSAGE OF CLARITY | 14th april 2026.
hello, lovely people! hope you're doing well :) i'm going to write down this psa real quick and i fear i'm going to sound annoying, redundant, or self-serving, so you are than welcome to scroll past, just filter #*a message of clarity to block this post out, and you are so very welcome to discuss things with me in dms or whatnot. i do not want validation or sympathy per se, i'm doing pretty great and i'm very content with my life overall, the tone of this post is meant to be informative and positive, and i genuinely do mean it when i say i'm thankful for tumblr.com/dash and my rp mutuals for bringing about a positive influence in my life. <3
i am currently in university, studying computer science engineering, it's an open credit system so my schedule is truthfully very sporadic and changes a lot on the go; quizzes, midterms, projects, etc. get dumped on me at the last minute, and my priority is to always keep my attendance and coursework in check as i do intend to do well in my undergrad from day one!
about myself, to explain my neuroses simply: i have debilitating anxiety - general, academic, social, panic and i have fibromyalgia. both of these truly influence my own capacity from day to day, and i am susceptible to nervous breakdowns, burnouts, and depressive episodes if i'm unchecked. i try my best to manage everything so i can keep up with everything long term sustainably, and not just crash and burn and revive and crash again.
nowadays i am in the habit of replying to messages as well as doing some replies at various times in uni, during my commute, what have you. i'm talking typing out a reply in class because i've finished my work 20 minutes early sorta situations. i do this because i am aware that i tend to be very tired getting home, and once i lay down in bed, there's no knowing what i'll end up doing, honestly
during the weeks i have several days off or when i have a long break, that's when i usually feel ready to take on the mindset of doing longer replies
there is no hard and fast rule to all of this, all of this is context building for me to say:
i think i want to be honest and say i'm completely fine with being the type of rper who constantly starts new threads, so long it's mutual. like i write you a starter, you write me a reply, then a new day starts, you send me a bunch of prompts, i comment on your posts, that sorta thing. reciprocal over transaction, you know? whatever our time, schedules, and moods manage
if you are completely okay with this method and also find it stressful to go through older drafts, then i'm giving you the permission to put our older threads on a burner and just do spontaneous shit with me for fun. we can do parallel play where i rp in just dialogue and you rp in prose because you hate writing dialogue and i hate writing prose. you can loosen up formatting for me if you don't care, and i also don't really care about formatting at all, mine or yours,
i also genuinely want to try and take an interest in you. if you're here for just roleplaying, that's fine, but to a reasonable degree, i just enjoy co-existing with folks i don't write with all the time because we engage with each other and have nice interactions!
my only request would be is to please just? communicate. perfection is the enemy of good. if i constantly reach out via prompts, comments, likes, messages, offering ships/plots, etc, please know a simple "hi sans! thanks for your interest, i'll circle back to you, i'm cramped these days" or anything would suffice. i genuinely do not like feeling like i'm second fiddle to someone's hyperfixation or i'm just here to be c.ai or a chatbot where i hype up and i don't even get an acknowledgement of my presence T_T
that said, i do try to give the benefit of the doubt because sometimes, life doesn't get resolved in days, weeks, even months, years. roleplaying is a hobby among other things and i do not want to be parasocial and think people's online life is their entire facet and business, if that makes sense?
if i let someone go, then it's usually because i do not think we are compatible and we shouldn't try to force something lest that leads to resentment, and instead focus on the people we vibe with! i do not mind if someone breaks mutuals with me, i might get confused or hurt, but ultimately, i do not want to spend my limited time and energy and mental estate begging for people to stay, because i want to hype up the people who Do care or are sweet to me or notice me, honestly. i do not see breaking mutuals or even blocking as inherently negative or a "we can never hang out again" way, honestly. it sucks, but time does pass, for worse and for better
i want to Be the annoying initiator and ask people for their perspectives and encourage people to do dumb texting rps or social media memes or dash crack or whatever with me, i want to be a platonic rp cupid/matchmake for my friends so that my favourite people can find each other too and have fun outside of me, i want to support yalls books and small businesses and research papers, and i want to Understand characters in general from outside my comfort zone because i just like storytelling and humanity as it is! i set my boundaries for my peace of mind, but i truly want to treat rping and ocs and storytelling and canons as a ... communal thing, really. not a competition for most ships, most hotness, most popularity, whatever
i have a huge "out of mind out of sight" memory i'm sorry my RAM / working memory and my time management skills SUCK i'm so sorry
dm me for my discord & instagram if you wanna be friends with me outside of rping! if you're here for just rping, i'd say either let me know you're okay with the "multiple spontaneous threads for faster replies / wait for longer if you only want serious threads" model, talk to me or signal your interest at me, and i'll try to circle back to you when the time is right. if none of this sounds like your kinda deal, no hard feelings! protect your peace and safe corner always that's all folks kbai
