i want to be hypnotized in real life. i've always wondered if it would really work. i still really think it wouldn't, although i've had some dreamlike experiences with recordings. the things is i have been hypnotized once. i think. but i can't really remember it. i've felt like it happened for some time and only recently had...distincter evidence, which i wonder if i only noticed from becoming familiar with being hypnotized from reading about it and from recordings. wondering about it made it more enigmatic and frightening, but now that i'm pretty sure it happened, i feel able to explore what exactly it was, and how exactly it happened.
i want to experience an instant induction, and experience being triggered while really trying to resist. i want to know if i would really go relaxed & melted & drift. i don't think i would really believe it happened or agree i wasn't just playing along unless you proved it either. i often forget waking up and then falling asleep again in the morning, and i've fallen half-asleep in class a bit often so it wouldn't surprise me to "wake up" without remembering falling asleep. that wouldn't prove to me that i had been hypnotized. i think you would have to video me falling asleep while really resisting, or else we could agree on some condition that i wouldn't do unless i would "really hypnotized," that is, something that i would resist doing as hard as i could. i read a milton erickson "case study" where the condition like this was that a guy wouldn't kick off his shoes unless he was really hypnotized. he supposedly hypnotized him with inverse suggestions at first, like, "if you want to resist being hypnotized, you should probably close your eyes so that you can't see me. and when i say to tense up your muscles and focus, you should probably try your best to relax, because focusing is part of how you get hypnotized." after a little more like that he was deeply hypnotized, arms rising in the air and eyes fluttering when they dropped. he kicked off his shoes, i dont recall why, perhaps imagining finally getting to bed tired as heck and only having the energy to kick your shoes off before falling into bed and passing out. he woke up & it still took a few more proofs to convince him that he was hypnotized, like being unable to resist being hypnotized again, and other things like an arm being stuck straight, feet being stuck in place, name amnesia; i don't recall exactly which.
i absolutely cannot imagine actually trying to play the skeptic and then actually getting hypnotized. i feel like if i were really trying to play the skeptic it wouldnt do anything at all. if i were really hypnotized despite actually trying to resist...i dont mean like running away, i mean following the instructions but absolutely not intentionally following any suggestion or later key phrase...but if i were videoed really being hypnotized, or it were really proved to me that a key phrase was hypnotizing me again, idk...i think i might be horny forever. like more than already, by a lot...so...yeah...i want to be in a stage hypnosis show so much. or be hypnotized in the park. if i ran into a street hypnotist and really was hypnotized i dont think i would ever live it down. i would think erectedly about it like forever. its a dangerous position to be in honestly...
and of course...if i feel this way...i have to think other people do too. and when i have hypnotized someone, which was a little while ago now, i was dripping hard the duration. so...i like to do that as well. mutual with the other thing just feels fair ~ two evil snakes trying to get each other. i have light blue eyes, with dark blue rings...
