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Contents : Regretevator STAT fictive. Survivalist protector.

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⠀name{s} ﹔ STAT ; Alicia ; Patch ⠀nickname{s} ﹔ Statty ; Al ⠀age ﹔ 30s ; ageless ⠀mental maturity ﹔ 20s ⠀gender ﹔ transfem ; demigirl ; caedtransgender ; ontrien ⠀pronouns ﹔ she/her ; he/him ⠀orientation / sexuality ﹔ queer ; caedaroace ⠀species ﹔ human ⠀amory ﹔ singlish

⠀role{s} ﹔ survivalist ; janusian ; bitch ; executioner ; chainbreaker ; advocate ; debater ⠀sign off / emojis ﹔ - STAT ; 📡 ; ⚙️ ; 🩸 ; 🧠 ; 🪫 ⠀source{s} ﹔ Regretevator {Roblox}

⠀acute stress response⠀﹔ fight ⠀front trigger{s} ﹔ chaos ; threats to system safety ; major changes ; loss of tactical control ⠀front sign{s} ﹔ short replies ; cold tone ; planning out worst‑case scenarios out loud ; over‑logistical thinking ⠀personality traits{s} ﹔ vigilant ; guarded ; strategic

⠀boundaries ﹔   - flirting — no  - compliments — limited  - nicknames — only from trusted people  - petnames — almost always no  - tonetags — optional  - sourcetalk — restricted  - sourcemates — case‑by‑case  - advice — no, unless solicited  - venting — only with consent

⠀phobia{s} ﹔  losing control of a situation ; being unable to protect system ⠀coping behaviors ﹔  hyperanalysis ; regulation through order or small routine rituals

⠀songs ﹔   - Control [By: Halsey]  - Hard Times [By: Paramore]  - Stressed Out [By: Twenty One Pilots]

⠀premade userboxes ﹔ 

⠀likes / dislikes ﹔   - likes ﹔ late‑night peace ; clear plans ; quiet rooms ; reliable people  - dislikes ﹔ surprises ; emotional whiplash ; people touching system business without consent ; reckless behavior ; hypocrisy

⠀habits / quirks ﹔ door‑checking ; watching backs of rooms ; memorizing layouts ; staying half‑ready to move 

⠀cis/transids ﹔  transNonHuman ; transAroace ; nullGay ; permaSkinny ; transHarmful ; nullHarmed

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Voting ended onMar 13

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ask game etiquette :)

📇; pack based on a moots special interest /nf

~ @archive-of-our-bah ,, August & Starlight

Added to my queue. (Finally finished. buh).

[looselypenned]

Psorinum

expression of the human soul is often done through art

I bring my pen to paper and then don't know how to start

every living being around me has a message to impart

but as I look inside myself I cannot find my heart

you might think it a problem but it isn't hard to hide

I nod my head and laugh with them and smile bright and wide

my peers accept the signals someone real should provide

oblivious to all of the machinery inside

since I can't rely on waiting for my feelings to arrive

to calculate my actions I must research and derive

so long as I can do this I suppose that I'll survive

and hope someday I can be sure I'm actually alive

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[letters-from-r]

Those Days

Okay, so I know life isn't always perfect and I won't always be happy or content.

It's the 18th of August 2019. I cannot help but feel like I took a hundred steps back. It feels like I'm back to being my two-years-ago self again. It's such a horrible feeling. I know what steps I could take to make this feeling go away but I guess it's just one of those days I don't feel like moving, or going anywhere, or doing anything.

What do you usually do on a day like this? How do you cope?

Best wishes,

R.

[messolves]

==>MS:Be CO.

Mm? Is there someone finding me?