Jun 15, 2020
100 %.
ist immer ehrlich. schummelt nie. versagt sich die geringste Schwindelei.
weiß genau:
hat einmal im Leben im Gegenzug die ganz große Lüge frei.
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100 %.
ist immer ehrlich. schummelt nie. versagt sich die geringste Schwindelei.
weiß genau:
hat einmal im Leben im Gegenzug die ganz große Lüge frei.
wenn mich schwindel mal ergreift
dann gesellschaftlich gereift
ein solcher der im zeitgewinde
dreht und in 'nem groß gebinde
ausspeit was der mensch geboren
rassismus über beide ohren
um ja bloß jetzt und alle zeiten
gewissheit dahin zu geleiten
dass alleweil von nun an gilt
die regel die niemand mehr schilt
doch nun für immer definiert
was sein soll allein / zu viert
was ist oder schon immer wahr
auf jeden fall: reinrassig - ja
da schwindelts mir gar durch und durch
brät man mir auchn klappersturch
denn reinrassig - das weiß man ja
ists ende der germanenschar
wenn wer all neues will ausschließen
werden bald annem grundverdrießen
alle eingehn wie ne primel
da hülfe auch kein volksgepfriemel
Does it count as "the haul" if my parents bought it for me while out shopping which I didn't ask for but appreciate anyway
Trying to sort out my jumbled therapy thoughts, 2 days post session and everything is already a bit hazy.
The last couple of weeks have been very hard ED behaviour wise. T asks me if it a control thing - historically my ED behaviours have been a way for me to control something, anything, restrict = control; purge = start over fresh.
Taking up the additional day of work while trying to keep the house running and meeting the needs of a very demanding toddler might not have been the best idea. I am constantly feeling that I don't have enough time, I am running out of time, I cant do it - maybe she is right but when I start the session I am not in a good place so I can only say “I don't know”.
He has been checking up on me more than usual - I get a text in the middle of the day to see if everything is going okay, I get a call after a couple of hours if I don't reply. Yesterday he decided to work from home. This is unusual behaviour for him.
I don't need to be babysat, I do not want him to worry. I feel like a burden. I am perfectly capable of looking after myself.
T agrees that I can take care of myself, and I can take care of E and I am not a burden. People need people, and when people care about each other they look out for each other. I need to let myself be taken care of, accept care and concern when it is given. But I don't know how to.
I read Setsuna's new story first because best girl and already it's my absolute favourite - I'm getting to see my 2 best girls talk about doujins together. I wonder if Setsuna's as much of a yuri cuck as Riko is?
I fell out of my HeroAca watching groove because of Xenoblade and some other stuff, but I just yesterday and some of today (it’s 2 in the morning) watched 14 episodes of season 4 and ngl that first arc was pretty weak shit. But yeah I should finish the remaining 11 soon hopefully and then I’m done until movie 2 comes out in like a month and then season 5 whenever.
Well I did it, I finished HeroAca season 4, gave it a 6/10 cause it was quite a fair bit weaker than what came before, and now I’m actually done with HeroAca until movie 2 and season 5. Cool.
i have literally no idea what to do when someone says "be yourself". like i have literally no sense of self whatsoever and i dont know what i really am. am i being myself? am i being some version of myself to please others? wtf is the difference? nothing about the idea of a 'self' makes sense to me.