#19.01.2023

[liam-93-productions]

Liam today - 19.01

[nocte-litteris]

Jure amarte hasta que la vida me lo permitiera. Jamás pensé que ese juramento estaría lleno de dolor, sufrimiento y decepción.

𝕶𝖚𝖗𝖆𝖎𝕯𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖍

[liam-93-productions]

Unseen picture of Liam in 2018 (x) - 19.01

[staicyautumn]

when my heart slows down my body leaves the ground I'm coming home

[bekindtoyou4007]

First time at boardgame club in a month, really enjoyed speaking to pals again even it was very tiring. Pal noticed and commented I seemed distant so I explained about my work schedule. They were surprised I had managed to come out at all. I really am counting down the days now before changing jobs to something better paid and more local. I am currently working so hard for not enough to make it worth it... I keep crashing at the end of these crazy weeks and can barely move to clean the house or socialise and getting enough exercise and eating healthy meals feels like a serious challenge. I am hoping I can manage my support network and family issues better with more time to develop relationships. Right now I'm looking at a quiet weekend and happy about it.

[diaryofanaverageunicorn]

Day after the exam.

Day 4

I am so super tired. I felt off today so I called in sick and sat on the couch/reading chair for most of the day. I started reading "High Five" by Janet Evanovich, it's pretty chill. I also did twenty minutes of yoga, cuz I looked at my semester's schedule and it's straight out of hell. I skipped Italian again, but my brain has not been cooperative today anyway. I don't really have any other updates. It was just a regular day. I organised all the clothes that were on the ground and redid some of my wardrobe shelves. I just want to melt into my paramour and speep.

Goodnight,

M.

[20minutes40years]

Θα ήθελα να είμαι..

πιο εξοικειωμένη με τα audiobooks ή με τα πιο επιστημονικά - ενημερωτικά podcasts αλλά δυστυχώς δεν μπορώ να τα παρακολουθήσω όταν κάνω δουλειές ή ακόμα κ όταν χαζεύω στο κινητό. Απαιτούν φουλ την προσοχή μου οπότε θα πρέπει να κάνω μόνο αυτό. Να ακούω κάποιον να μιλάει. Αλλά μετά επειδή δεν το συνδυάζω με κάτι άλλο νοιώθω πως δεν εκμεταλλεύομαι πλήρως το χρόνο μου; Ή κάτι τέτοιο. Ενώ πχ αν βλέπω ταινία ή σειρά μπορώ να παίξω παράλληλα tichu και αυτό μου δίνει μια αίσθηση πλήρης εκμετάλλευσης του χρόνου μου.

-

Πολύ κακή ιδέα να βάζεις πλυντήριο καθημερινή κ να είναι χειμώνας. Κοντεύει 10 το βράδυ, ακόμα δεν έχει τελειώσει, θα τα απλώσω αναγκαστικά έξω κ μετά θα μυρίζουν κάπνα από την ατμόσφαιρα.

[ilovehimsosomuchjk]

We have our exam and the teacher made you sit across me. It was like those times back then. I was looking at her not you. Did you think I was looking at you? Did you think I was creep? Did you think I was bad? Were you standing there purposely or because she was standing in between blocking the way?

You looked at me when I turned. You look at me and I look at you. Why do I feel this tension everytime we lock eyes.

You stare a second too long. Or maybe it's me staring. We never talk. I pretend and ignore cause you avoid me. You turn around so I pretend to do the same. All I really wanna tell you is that I didn't mean it like that.

I like you. And I like you so much. I'm confessing again because I said it wrong the first time. I'm not a creep I swear. You're just really nice. You're so sweet and I don't want you to just appreciate it. Because if this is what you call appreciating then i want you to love it. I really want an answer thats something I'm not expecting. I don't want you neglect my feelings saying "that's it?" And repeating some repeated essay you've thought of hundred of times. Give me a chance. Just one to show you I'm not what you think of me. I just want to be someone to you. I'm sick of thinking what we would be doing right now if things would've been different and we were acting like strangers right now.

Maybe I'm the asshole.

Maybe you're the asshole.

I don't know anymore