#2013ashton

[ashtonfightme]

i wanna take my heart to the end of the world and f l y away tonight

[sweetestcalum]

14 and luke pls?

Music and chatter filled your ears, slightly overwhelming you as you sat in the dimly lit restaurant surrounded by your friends. You looked over at Calum and exchanged a bored look. This evening was supposed to be a fun night out with the boys and their girlfriends and friends. Luke had brought his girlfriend and you couldn’t stand her. You tried to not let it get to you, but it got to you.

She was always so loud and obnoxious, talking over everyone at any given opportunity. She wasn’t very respectful of Luke and was extremely demanding. Worst of all, she immediately saw you, Luke’s best friend, as a threat. Most of your mutual friends somewhat agreed that she wasn’t good for Luke, but none of them knew quite why you hated her so much. Michael always teased that it was because you liked Luke, and while you did have feelings for him, Michael had no idea what you had seen that had caused you to resent her.

As she blabbed on and on about some modeling job she had gotten for some shitty modeling agency, your head began to pound and you not so subtly excused yourself from the table. Ashton shot you a worried look, but you dismissed it with a tense smile and made your way outside for some fresh air. He was the only one of the boys who knew about your feelings for Luke since you had accidentally drunkenly confessed them to him after a party. Ashton was always checking up on you when she was around.

Once outside you had to close your eyes to prevent the tears welling up in your eyes from spilling over. You were reaching your breaking point and you didn’t know how much longer it would be until you exploded. 

You heard the back door of the restaurant squeak open and you turned your head to see Luke walking through it, a look of concern on his face.

“Hey, Ashton said I should check on you. Are you alright?” As he stepped closer, you could see the worry in his eyes deepen as he took in your plastered on smile and tear stained cheeks.

“Oh yeah. I just needed some air,” You lied, knowing he wouldn’t believe you. Luke knew you better than anyone else and you both knew you were fooling yourself.

“Y/N, you know you can talk to me about anything,” Luke said, placing his hand on your shoulder comfortingly. You nearly flinched at the touch.

“Can I Luke? Last time I tried to you shut me out,” You snarled at him, regretting your tone, but not the words behind it.

“You’re never going to let that go, are you?” Luke said, sounding exasperated, but you saw the flash of guilt in his eyes.

“No I’m not because I know what I saw and I can’t just forget about it,” You told him, almost crying in frustration.

“Y/N, she would never cheat on me,” Luke said, repeating exactly what he had said to you the last time you had had this conversation.

“Damn it Luke! I saw her! I saw her kissing another guy and then following him into his apartment!” You were yelling now and you felt yourself exploding.

“You’re just jealous of what we have,” He said quietly, not meeting your eyes.

“That’s bullshit and you know it. I know that you don’t want to believe it, but that’s the truth and you know that I would never lie to you about something like this,” 

“Why do you care so much? It’s my relationship, Y/N,”

“Because you’re my best friend Luke. It’s my job to care about you,” You told him, almost pleading now.

“She’s not cheating on me,” He said, still not meeting your gaze.

“If that’s what you believe then I’m leaving,” You said storming inside to grab your purse from the table. 

“Y/N, wait!” Luke called, following you inside.

“What are you doing?” Crystal asked as you snatched your purse without saying a word and headed for the main entrance.

The last thing you heard before you left was Ashton’s voice saying, “You really fucked up Luke,”

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[hollandovs]

“i’m not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention” + ashton please!!!!!

The summer heat taunted Ashton as he squirmed lower into the lawn chair that was shaded uselessly by your garage. You snickered at his whines but continued to paint your toenails, tongue sticking out in concentration. Ashton’s nose crinkled up with the combination of humidity and whatever chemicals were in your nail polish, and he let out a long sigh of annoyance. Three whole days into the summer after graduation and he was already bored out of his mind. His mother had told him to take a road trip like she did after her high school graduation, but he had quit his job only three weeks before and was running out of gas money. 

You were the one who suggest he come over that day. He was fully expecting to do something fun, not watch you meticulously paint your toes in the summer haze. Ashton wished he had a pool, or enough money to drive to the community pool, but instead he was stuck in your garage. It wasn’t like he didn’t want to spend time with you, especially since you’d be leaving for college in a few months, it’s just—he hadn’t had a haircut in awhile and the heat was really getting to him. 

“Baby,” he whined, tossing his head back dramatically. “It’s so fucking hot, can’t we go inside?” 

Pursing your lips, you shook your head. “Dad doesn’t like the smell of nail polish, and you’re still technically not allowed in my house without him home, remember?” 

“I promise not to leave noticeable hickeys this time!” 

“Sorry babe,” you moved your foot outwards and wiggled it around as you looked at the sparkles. “I don’t make the rules, I just follow them.” 

“Bullshit,” Ashton scoffed. “You snuck out three weeks ago so we could makeout in my car.” 

“I didn’t sneak out,” you defended. “I told him we were going to see a late night showing, which we did, then we made out. Big difference, Ash.” 

Ashton whined again, leaning so far in his seat he ended up on the ground. He let out a sigh when the cold concrete hit the back of his thighs, then he lifted his shirt up and rolled over so his stomach receiving a break from the sweat dripping down his chest. You turned up the music louder as you began to pain the other foot, and Ashton managed to make his way over to your chair. He sat up and situated himself between your legs, kissing your inner thigh, before turning around as you positioned your legs away from Ashton. 

He grabbed his drum sticks and began to drum to the beat of whatever song was playing. But that soon lost its appeal when the song ended and the smell of your polish started to burn Ashton’s nose. “Is it even supposed to smell like that? I think you’re buying bad polish.” 

You ignored your boyfriend’s comment, making him sigh loudly again. He put his hands around your thighs and began to drum against them like he had did to the concrete before. Again, you ignored him. He groaned, leaning his head back against your chair so he could see your face. He smiled when your eyes flickered to his. Ashton began to poke lightly at your thigh, watching the skin jiggle in a small wave at the force of his finger. After he kissed the spot he poked, he did it again but it a different spot. He watched for a reaction but got nothing. 

All over your thighs he poked in search for a reaction, then moved to your other leg to do the same. When he still didn’t receive a response, he mumbled, “I’m not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention.” 

He twisted his body around so he was facing your stomach, and proceeded to poke the skin that was showing from your crop top. You didn’t say anything. “Pay,” poke. “Attention,” poke. “To me!” Double poke. Finally, you smiled at him and let out a giggle.

“There’s that smile.” 

“I’m almost done. Why’re you so bored?” 

“I wanna do something!” 

“Like what?” 

He smirked and let out a mischievous giggle. “You.” 

Rolling your eyes at Ashton, you paint your last toenail and stand up. “My dad gave me some money last night. Wanna get some lunch?” 

“Then can we makeout?” 

“God,” you groaned. “You’re so insufferable. C’mon lets get food, then we can makeout after a few minutes cause I don’t want your gross mouth near mine after you eat.” 

“Shut up,” he laughed, wrapping his arm around you and kissing the top of your head. “For the record, you love my mouth.” 

“And for the record, Ashton,” you beamed, “you’re an idiot.” 

Ashton smiled and hugged you tightly to his chest before placing a kiss to your mouth. “Only an idiot for you, baby.” 

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[blessashton]

back from the depths w/ my wild hair and summer makeup in January

[ashtonfightme]

ashton ft. traveling ✨

[hollandovs]

silence strikes like a hurricane // l.h.

a/n: i am BACK bitches here’s some angst based on this prompt to celebrate my return 

Luke was indifferent to forests. He didn’t mind the vastness of tree after tree, surrounding him with their leaves and secrets of years before him. The silence was okay, he guessed. Anything was okay as long as you were there—and you were. You were sat next to him on your rock with your knees pulled up towards your chest as the wind sang to you gently. Unlike Luke, you loved the forest. You discovered it one day when talking the long way home from school. It was a Thursday, before you had known Luke, and you remembered the way the light hit the small patch of flowers by the rock that you had later claimed. Ever since that day, you took the same path home for the rest of your school career. And when Luke came into your life, he became the only other person you ever took to your hideaway. 

He liked the idea of you trusting him enough to let him into your mind. Moments like that were rare in the friendship, even though you two classified yourselves as best friends. Luke didn’t mind. He liked when you were happy and he liked when he was with you—there was a bigger correlation to those more than you would like to admit. 

Luke first realized the correlation himself when he was seventeen. 

He didn’t mean to stumble upon it, in fact his life would have been better if he didn’t. Realizing that he loved you was the worst and best day of his life. But you laughed at one of his stupid jokes and you let your fingers dance across the splayed freckles on his skin and you laid next to him and he loved you. You made his heart stop, made him forget how to breathe, made him lose his goddamn mind with the thought of wanting to kiss you. 

But you didn’t want that. Told yourself you couldn’t have him, he was your best friend and you’d tear through his heart like a fucking hurricane. You wouldn’t leave a single survivor, and Luke deserved to see every glory of life. That day he whispered that he loved you. You told him that he shouldn’t. He asked to kiss you. You made him promise that he wouldn’t let himself fall for you anymore. 

And he did. 

And he regretted it every single second afterward. It made you happy, so he let himself live in torture. He let his heart wreck itself just so you would stay friends with him. Luke wasn’t sure why you wouldn’t let yourself fall for him, why you wouldn’t let him love you, but he’d do anything to make you happy. Ask him to walk the bottom of the ocean, and he’d do it with a smile on his face. 

“How’s celebrity life?” You asked, breaking the silence. 

Without looking at you, Luke shrugged and said, “not the same rush it used to be.” 

“Seems like everything in life is that way.” 

“What do you mean?” 

“Life back here is boring, Luke. I wake up to a black and white world,” your voice is strained and Luke wishes he could kiss away any bad emotion you were feeling. “I would do anything to switch places with you. To see the world, to matter.” 

“Are you kidding me?” Luke finally looked at you with his eyebrows furrowed. You did matter. Everyone mattered in the world. Everyone had their own stories weaved into the stars that were made just for them, and so what if you weren’t seen by millions of people everyday. You were you, and for that you mattered so much more than you thought. “You exist and you breathe and you’re here with me. You do matter.” 

“Look at you,” you smiled. “Left and got all philosophical on me. I like it.” 

Your knees were away from your chest, and he hadn’t noticed that you moved your body closer to his. Your thigh touched his, his fingertips grazing the skin just under the hem of your skirt. He’d been in this position with you many times before when you were both younger, before the band took off and stole him from you. He’d lie awake in his hotel rooms that were miles away from you and wish to whoever could hear him that he could be with you again. He didn’t care about the stupid promise. He never did. He just wanted you. 

Luke knew he should have stopped what his mind was controlling. He was leaning in and your eyes were wide but you didn’t move from your position. “Kissing me breaks the promise,” you whispered. “Remember?”

His hand came up to cup your neck, and his thumb brushed against your jaw. “Kissing you doesn’t mean there’s feelings involved. People do it all the time.” 

You didn’t move. You let his forehead touch yours. You let him capture your lips with his, and most importantly, you let yourself kiss him back. You could only hold back so long before the urge came to prominent and took over every sense of your body. It felt like a wild fire was surging through his bones, sparking with each second his lips stayed on yours. It was like all of his dreams were coming true in that moment, but it also felt like exactly that—just a dream. 

You moved away and that’s when Luke saw that you were crying. He tried to wipe the tears away for you, but you wouldn’t let him. “You promised,” you croaked, standing up from the rock. “You promised, Luke!” 

“I tried,” he admitted. “I tried so hard to do it for you because I knew that’s what you wanted. But I couldn’t—I can’t just push it back anymore. I’m so fucking in love with you and I always will be.” 

You swallowed. “You’ll find someone else.” 

“No, I won’t.” He stepped away from the rock and took your hand in his. “If you’re scared I’m going to hurt you—” 

You dragged your hand to your side. “I know you wouldn’t hurt me. I’m scared of what I’m going to do to you.” 

He wanted to laugh at that. “That’s not going to happen.” 

Face going cold, you looked to the ground. “You’re right, it won’t,” you wiped away more escaped tears, “because I’m leaving. I got the internship in France and I leave tomorrow.” 

Luke didn’t know what to feel. Anger that you didn’t tell him, sadness that you would be leaving, and happiness that you got your dream. The side of him that was your best friend told him to smile and hug you. The side of him that was in love with you told him to cry and beg you to stay. But he couldn’t do that. He couldn’t let his selfishness get in the way of your dream that you had since before you had even known him. 

So he put his lips in a fine line and nodded. It was only after you had whispered goodbye and walked away did he let himself fall to the ground and cry. He wasn’t sure how long he stayed there against the rock—against your rock—but as night fell the wind blew and told one more secret of the forest that you held so dearly in your heart.

“I’m in love with you, too, Luke.” 

[iheartseo]

dude you’re so pretty wtf!!!!

ngawww! thank you so much ahahah! this is so random bUT THANK YOU. YOU’RE FUCKEN ADORABLE