#24.07.2023

[zaynjmsource]

zayn:

[hosgeldinhuzun]

[caeliriva]

U Kalicha

Wanderer, kommst du

zum Kelch, geh nicht vorüber

immer noch warten

tausendundein Bier dort um

sechs aufs Ende der Kriege

[doktor-disko]

Kelch, oder: grünes Blätterlicht

Du verwandelst Wasser in Leben,

erweckst die Toten von Neuem,

den Geist,

der am Morgen aus dem Bett fällt,

sich die Nase einschlägt

und erst Stunden später merkt,

dass er garkeine hat

~

Du bringst Energie in das Nichts

hinter den wiedergehenden Schläfen

des Zyklus

der Montagmorgen

~

Dein grüner See trägt das Leben

von Feldern im Regen

und begleitet uns sanft

durch die Dämmerung

~

In deinen Senken weht der Wind

durch die wogenden Wellen der Kamelien,

scheint die Sonne auf sie

und Wolken spenden ihnen Schatten,

Cordstoff aus Grün,

ein Kissen unter den Bahnen der Kraniche

~

und du öffnest deine Hände,

du fängst sie auf,

die Tropfen aus grünem Blätterlicht

und bringst sie zu uns.

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Doktor Disko (2023-07-24)

[zaynjmsource]

foquinha: HI FOQUEENA! 🗣️ And out of nowhere a message from ZAYN!

[zaynjmsource]

Zayn via Instagram Story - 24/07

[bekindtoyou4007]

Better mood today. Things are a bit weird with H. He gets like this around this time of year. Just trying to be here for him and keep him distracted and be nice. A bit of a boring day, did get work done but not much, organised a few personal things at least. Trying to go out for date night tomorrow, lord willing. I haven't felt too bad about things today, I have thought to myself a few times I'm so sick and tired of having to feel empathy or expecting to be pitious of people who have been shitty... I think a few days of low exposure to certain kinds of situations (and media) should help me with that. It's an awful burden that survivors of abuse get, being expected after everything to also be morally good enough to be forgiving or at least not the bad kind of victim i.e. bitter and angry. But bitterness and anger are useful things to feel in lots of situations and are actually quite healing and protective in their own way imo. I blame hanging out with that friend this weekend, he's so Mr Empathy it would make you sick... Truly I don't think everyone is deserving of compassionate from everyone else, Person A who has badly hurt Person B has no right to expect Person B to be there for them and loving and supportive. At least my friend never pressures me and lets me talk about how I feel about things, even if we do have clearly different value systems. He is as well a bit of a saviour type, which he's acknowledged.

[kendimezraporu]

I’m getting my life

Hi. Today, I did my work that I postponed because my foot pain decreased. I had a nice and healthy breakfast. I cleaned my room. I studied English and Excel. I feel very good in spirit.