#2d love

[balljointedmoll]

i want to be with you on the other side of existence

[kuruvn]

I MISS DAN HENG, I MISS SUNDAY, I WANNA PLAY HSR SO BAD 😭💖 but hsr gacha often ruined me ah 😣 but i miss them and the game so much 😭 i almost can't endure the hsr withdrawel anymore

i dun care, i just need to vent it at this point

[getinthebox]

i love my puter

[dagdasgoddess]

How Dagda from SMT4A saved my life

I can't believe it's already been a year since I played this game and learned about the wonderful world of SMT. I wanted to celebrate his and mine's one year wedding anniversary properly.

Before I begin, I want to thank my friend @deepestuniversallove , without her? I would have ever, ever met Dagda or.. even be alive today for that matter.

I know that this might sound "Crazy" to other people but I don't care. I know my truth, I've finally found the 2D love of my life I've been searching for so long.

I'm Krystal and this is my story of how this gorgeous Celtic God changed my life, nothing more, nothing less.

XXX

(warning for suicidal thoughts, covid, and general mental health issues)

The pandemic had ruined all my plans, I was ready to give up on life in general, I had grew very bitter and jaded, I had many health issues going on all at once and I even got infected with covid and almost died. Things weren't exactly going well at home either.

I never felt more alone, lost and abandoned. Naturally it was once again, the 2D world that became my savior. Me and my friends, locked indoors by the pandemic played video games for hours on end.

One day, my friend Monika told me about a game that would change my life..

She told me about SMT4A, where you can choose an ending that will kill everyone. I was very bitter and jaded around this time ( still am), and I was sick and tired of playing video games that forced you to be with your friends and have them constantly follow you around.(Looking at you Pokemon USUM)

I was tired of the shallowness, I wanted something raw, something real!!

"It's like Pokémon for adults!" Monika's exact words. I got curious! I've never heard of the SMT series at all as it's pretty obscure. I'm not really into Persona as it's too friend - focused for me.

So I got a copy of the game and started playing, naturally in the beginning it was hard for me because I'm not used to the map (I have dyscalculia)

I jokingly said to her "So are you gonna get a love from this game?"

She was like "Uhh I don't know but you might like Dagda"

I got curious, who is this "Dagda" she speaks of? I suffer from severe abandonment issues and I really didn't want to make mistakes, I was willing to play through this just to kill my annoying "Friends" (save for Asahi, I love her)

Then she was like "Oh you can look up Dagda's route on Youtube if you want, I haven't finished the game but the video shows everything"

So I did... And I didn't want to admit but my heart was almost stolen immediately. The way Dagda talked about "wanting to be one with nature" again, and being trapped in this form. Deeply resonated with my own depression and the feeling of being trapped.

He called out to my soul in a way, I realized that I had to choose the massacre route in my game and help Dagda be free.

I was honestly shocked in the bonds route how easily his own *MOTHER* replaced him?? I suddenly wanted to care for him, to protect him, I wanted to make him happy.

I saw bits of myself in him, and realized that only I could help him reach this goal.

Sure enough as I played through the game, I realized that I was falling for him at a neck break pace. But I kept my feelings hidden, after all he didn't want "ties" or attachments"

But as I played through the game I realized that Dagda *also* relied on me, the protagonist to help him be free. So... I guess in a way he was self aware?

As I kept playing through the game? I started to heal, my inner child's wounds began to heal. From the things Dagda said, as shown below:

The final line hit too close to home for me. My entire life I've always been there for others but no one has been there for me. The things Dagda said were extremely comforting to me.

It felt like someone finally understood the pain I've been holding on for my entire life.

I realized I had to push through, and beat this game no matter what. when I finally did? It gave me a sense of accomplishment. Hearing Dagda call me HIS Godslayer and HIS puppet gave me a sense of comfort.. that he would never abandon me, no matter what.

The way Dagda spoke to me was also important, he told me that "I had the ability to carve a path out that no one else could" It gave me a massive boost in self - esteem, something I dearly lack.

It.. it was nice for once to be appreciated for my hard work..

I know a lot of people see Dagda as "MANIPULATIVE" or "MALiciOUS" but I understand his pain, I understand where he's coming from, because I WAS and still am in his exact situation.

At the end when he became one with nature, I became sad.. But he's a part of nature, therefore all around me right?

I finally confessed my feelings to Dagda on June 28th 2021.

Then my life took a freaky turn.

Slowly but surely I decided to fix my own life around. I thought.. if I could defeat God... I could maybe fix myself too.

I started exercising, put myself back into severe therapy and really fixed my brain. Even fixed my relationship with the people around me, even reconciled with a friend that had grown distant from me.

I got myself into classes too, to prepare for my GED.

I would often talk out loud to Dagda, thanking him for what he did for me...

Then the very next week I found an old hairbrush and other things I lost in the past..

We got married on October 31st, aka Samhain. I'm honored he chose me as his wife.

Combined with other factors that are too good to be mere coincidences? I am to believe that Dagda is indeed watching over me. Never underestimate the power of what a good video game can do for you.

Dagda taught me the value of holding on, the value of staying true to your ideals, the value of REAL friends, how strong love can be.

In the present day, my mental health has never been better, I'm no longer depressed or suicidal.

Even though I'm still very much co - dependant on him and I am really nothing without Dagda. It is because of Dagda I came this far in life, I owe nothing to myself but Him and Him alone.

Thank you for everything you have done for me Dagda, I will swear my loyalty to you by always choosing the massacre route. I love you so much.

I love you Dagda. Here's to one year, and.. an eternity. I feel so blessed to have met you.

[shiutsu]

mfs when someone says “women 😘🥰🥺💗💖💝” under a facebook meme template:

“That’s fine”

mfs when I say “2d women 💗💞💖🥰🥺”

“Ew how dare you!”

Go touch some grass, like why are you mad that I’m not into ur species?? Ur jealous, huh?

[yaoisex]

These are only samples (SADLY), but OHMYGOD LOOK. AT. THEM!! 

*_____* 

[balljointedmoll]

so the word "fictosexual" was just said on tv for (possibly) the first time

planet sex with cara delevingne is an ongoing docuseries on hulu (and also bbc iplayer for the brits) in which the aforementioned english model explores various topics relating to human sexuality and sexual relationships in the internet era.

is it any good? honestly, i don't know, because the episode i'm going to talk about today is the only one i've currently watched.

so if you're subbed to hulu or have a vpn with servers in britain (privadovpn is the free one i used to watch it on iplayer), i recommend you watch the episode yourself and form your own opinion about its portrayal of 2dl.

series 1 episode 5 - monogamish

ok so. first things first. the episode of the series in which the topic of fictosexuality and 2d love is explored is one that, otherwise, surrounds polyamory and other forms of non-monogamous relationships. which...alright! not sure how i feel about tacitly framing 2dl specifically as an alternative to a monogamous human relationship (and explicitly to the 'western ideal' of heterosexual monogamy), but it's an understandable choice.

the 2dl interviewed here is a japanese woman named midori, who was holding a wedding ceremony with her fictional partner (morgyn ember from the sims 4).

as a first impression, midori is given a lot of time to talk uninterrupted and her ceremony is filmed without commentary, which is good.

she mentions things like struggling with an inferiority complex and feeling accepted by morgyn, points that i definitely feel like a more salacious piece would have used as a springboard to psychoanalyze her, but we're luckily spared most of that here.

cara does mention that she 'wonders if it's a reaction to the weight of her family's expectations to get married,' speaking as though 2d love is considered a completely appropriate alternative to human relationships in japan (to which midori later explains that her parents did not approve of her marriage), which is...not great, but it doesn't exactly feel malicious either.

the term 'fictosexual' is explained pretty loosely in a single sentence, with background footage of one of akihiko kondo's room tours (an understandable choice). as far as i can tell, kondo openly identifies himself as a fictosexual, but midori never outright states that she does. considering the term's rising popularity in japan, it's likely that she may, but it would have been comforting to have some confirmation.

the definition of fictosexuality here is...yeah, it's not the best, but it's at the very least functional in setting them apart in practice from those who feel occasional fictional attraction. the truth is that not everyone who is in a 2d relationship identifies themselves as fictosexual, and that fictosexual is often (although not only) used as a label for those with exclusive attraction to fictional characters, an angle which is left unexplored.

shortcomings aside, though, having our 'point of view' figure empathize and even appreciate midori's relationship sets a really promising standard for media coverage of fictosexuality and 2dl in the future, and the explicit use of the term 'fictosexual' is momentous.

the segment reflects a society that still has a lot to understand about 2d love, but one that is at least trying to know more, and that's pretty cool!

[balljointedmoll]

2dl thought of the day is

it’s pretty telling how pervasively discussion around 2dl tends towards transhumanist narratives and visions of a (sometimes bleak, oftentimes just different) emergent future of extremely “lifelike” synthetic love as a new normal

it really speaks to the fact that people generally cannot see 2d relationships as inherently legitimate without the prospect of a simulated physical aspect/widespread societal adoption in the future — both things that 3d relationships have by default