Last night when I was stoned, I thought of Skadi, and I was suddenly filled with this just wonderful energy, and I was transported mentally, pulled into the astral. I was in a rural neighborhood that was covered with a fresh sheet of snow. It was cold, but I was not, even my fingers in my gloves feeling warm, seemingly unaffected by the cold. The coldness was refreshing; it invigorated me. It was soo quiet as I walked down the lane, the only sound being the snow crunching underneath my feet. The stillness enveloped me like a blanket, and I felt so comfortable and safe.
I’ve been craving winter lately. It’s calling to me, just as the woods and the PNW called to me a long time ago. Also, a small part of that might also be the fact that I just don’t enjoy summer lol it’s too hot and more importantly my allergies don’t allow me to enjoy it fully.
Anyways, all of this has made me think recently of The Vision. I feel kind of called to it again. It makes me wonder: is working with Skadi a part of a push towards The Vision, or was The Vision a result of Skadi in the first place?? I’m not sure. I’ll have to think on this some more.
Also, today when I left out an offering for her, Skadi did not appear, but her wolf did. It’s got pure white fur (I think with some silver in it too) and just these insanely piercing eyes that are almost beyond description. They seem to peer right into and through me. It’s also unsettling, as I’ve never heard it make a single sound. I know for a fact that it is a tool for Skadi, certainly. But it was interesting that it came for the offering instead of her.
Hmm... what else... I’m really feeling the energy of summer. The general energy - and also life - feels completely different than it did before the solstice. Crazy how that works. I wouldn’t say it’s going bad; just different.
I’m going home in 4 days! I’ll be flying home and I’m really really excited to spend time with my friends and family. It’s going to be interesting to see how my spirit work is affected while I’m home. But there are 2 developments that I’m really interested to see when I go home.
The first is that I might go camping with my family. I used to love camping, and the woods were calling to me. But... something happened; I’m not sure what, but I haven’t been camping in over 2 years now. I just feel like something is holding me back, and I can’t bring myself to go. But when my parents suggested it, I felt comfortable in agreeing. I feel safe around them, and it would be a good time. It’s going to be interesting if I do, though, because I’m going to have to try and sneak in some spirit work - communing with the forest.
The second thing is that I think I’m going to do homeopathy again when I go back home. I did homeopathy as a treatment for my depression about 2 years ago now, and it worked wonders. I had a little bit of a relapse in recent months, and I think I could use it. Besides, I love my old acupuncturist, and he expressed that he would like for me to visit. But... I’m a little bit hesitant, because when I took it, it was insane. I felt like I went back in time mentally, and it completely changed me. I guess I’m just a little nervous to see how it’s going to affect me this time around. But I guess it will be a good thing.
I think that’s it for now. I hope that everyone has a wonderful rest of their day!
