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i thought forgetting you would be easy as easy as i ripped the paper with a piece of you that i stole from the trash as easy as i threw it down the fire but at the end of the night, i was with you after all the intricate words spoken, and all the lights that shone so bright and all the stars twinkled (it was so beautiful) i was with you my body was with your body my mind was occupied by this poem and as always, yours were with her, her. after all these times i said to you "i am hungry, too" even though i was full and all those times i said "okay i'll wait" even though all i ever wanted was to leave and all those time i listened, i listened and cried, even though i was dying it will not gonna be me, its gonna be her or someone else and i cannot see why i thought it was okay, i thought her was okay your eyes lighted up and your face turn red and bright everytime it was about her but now, cry, tears, swollen eyes, fucked up mind i dont want you be about her anymore, not like this, not if it hurts you it hurts me too, you know, watching you slowly trying to kill yourself while your mind were full of her my heart felt like it was broken when yours did but in my mind there was you, you only and what pained me more was it will never matter that i pained for you, and my heart broke for you. it will never. .80Hg

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sebuah awal yang baru

kosongkan, kosongkan. lupakan, tinggalkan semuanya. kenyamanan, ketidaktakutan, tinggalkan. rasakan kebebasannya, kamu bukan yang dahulu lagi, tidak ada lagi yang menarikmu berputar-putar tanpa tujuan. debar jantung, keingintahuan, ketar-ketir, dan adrenalin menyambutmu, kejarlah apa yang harus kau kejar, dan carilah apa yang membuatmu bahagia. selamat tinggal, tali-temali masa lalu yang masih mencoba mengikat, kau telah berlari, kencang. .80Hg A New Beginning #WrittenAugust #WrittenAugustDay1

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benci dengan rindu yang tak terelakkan, secerdik apapun aku menyembunyikan keinginan untuk mendengar isi pikiranmu takkan pernah bisa aku hindari; walau tak kumengerti juga sebenarnya apa aku hanya ingin mendengarkan untuk memastikan apakah kau benar kau atau hanya gagasan yang kuidealkan kalau mereka bilang cinta itu buta aku bilang ya, benar memang begitu adanya sampai-sampai tak tahu aku cintaku untukmu atau (lagi-lagi) pemikiran tentangmu yang tersempurnakan .80Hg

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80hg replied to your post "I have had this gif of Buster Keaton..."

I love you for having Siegfried Sassoon and Buster Keaton in one post.

Truly what is Tumblr but the website where you can find an audience for your essentially "the Virgin British war poets and the Chad American silent film comics" joke

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5 Reasons Why We Need To Get Married

1. We can adopt cats. A lot of cats, so many cats, as many as you want. 2. We can open your dream flower shop, practicing arranging flowers all day long, making eachother flower crowns because when we are together we are the king and queen of this world. We can open my dream coffee shop, drinking 5 cups of coffee everyday because we just couldn’t throw away the practice cups and we just love coffee that much. We can do whatever we want to do because we will support eachother, whatever our dreams are. 3. I can wake up to your face everyday, and you to mine. Our morning kisses will not be occasional and intermittent, as I promise you it will happen every s i n g l e day. 4. We will not be alone when we are older, we’ll have eachother. 5. I love you and you love me.

—So, will you marry me?

.80Hg #writtenaugustday28

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Ugh, hate feeling sick. X_X

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Tagged by: @woa-nao , thank you~!

Favorite Fandom: 

Countries you’ve lived in: America.

Languages you speak: English. (learning another.)

Favorite film of 2015:  Its between star wars: the force awakens, Avengers: age of ultron and jurassic world.

Last article you read: -

Shuffle your song library and put the first 3 titles here:  Adagaeshi Syndrome by mafumafu, 7-seven- by flowxgranrodeo and milk and coffee by ito kashitaro

Last thing you bought online: Manjuu

Last person you dreamed of: I’m pretty sure my last dream was about blade and soul. (i think i died....)

Any recurring dreams: My own death.

Any phobias/fears: Thanatophobia (fear of death)

How would your friends describe you: Sneaky, quiet?

How would your enemies describe you: I don’t think my enemies even notice i exist.

Would you take a bullet for someone: No. 

If you had money to spare what would you buy first?: A pet fox?

I choose you: @salwasairh , @i-c-e

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