#a-kira

[smallsinger5901]

I feel so bad for Near in the A-Kira story… he wants his own Light… he wants to find someone to complete him like L did, no matter how it ends…

But he never will. Because his other half is already dead.

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a-kira and near

[kiyomitakada]

hello! please do speak more of transfem near. i agree though i was moreso surprised to see near higher up the list than light, so i’m curious to hear more of your thoughts on this. tone indicator slash bright twinkly eyes sparkling

YAY!!!!!! BRIGHT TWINKLY EYES SPARKLE BACK AT YOU i mean i think all this has been said in better words by near scholars already but it's just that she's got all the thematic scaffolding for it (growing up in the shadow of someone else she was meant to be that she never felt she could embody on her own) And - the thing that puts her above light - her a-kira form is quintessential 2020 quarantine depressed trans girl swag

like she's even got boobs now hurray estrogen!

[applestorms]

i love near so goddamn much. i finally read the c-kira and a-kira post-canon one shots all the way through last night and AAAAAAAAA my heart. nate river 🫵🫵🫵

c-kira in particular hits me hard bc you can really see that he's still reeling from the events of the main story. it’s a very specific era of near that’s so horribly awkward and insecure about his place in the world, about his role as L, and has so very few people left behind to support him-- really just lidner, rester, and gevanni. so much of that story is about near struggling to figure out who he is and who he wants to be in the wake of Everything, scrambling around in the shadows of all these false gods and blown up egos, trying to grow up and be a Person in the smoking remains of all these people who killed themselves with their own hubris. i mean, just look at this page:

LOOK AT THIS. near is almost shockingly expressive in this story, his grief and regret is fucking Palpable in a way that you very rarely see with a guy like him. it really gets to me that this is the story where near actually opens up about his mixed feelings surrounding the original L, about the interview he held where he picked near & mello out to be his two successors, and all while hiding himself within these massive card towers that you only see to be these giant L's at the end-- a kid barely out of his teens already getting dwarfed by the enormity of the history he is expected to continue and represent. the winner of the game who's only prize is the legacy he now holds on his shoulders, the grief he is cursed with as the only one left behind. this kid barely has anyone now, never even got the chance to truly, fully know what he lost in the first place, these all-powerful figures that have dictated every inch of his life from the moment he stepped foot in that damn house.

and i mean, goodness. what did we expect? i can talk all i want about the cinematic parallels of light & L as opposites, but look at near & mello in literally every piece of official art-- near truly loses his other half when mello dies, and you can just Feel the discomfort, the deep-seated, underlying imbalance in his soul through this shit.

a-kira near, on the other hand, has had the time to grow a bit more at ease with himself, but he still gets to me in a slightly different way. i cannot emphasize enough how utterly fucking perfect the decision to make his hair longer is-- for so simple of a detail, it really sums up so much about his character. this version of an older near feels like a guy who's been stuck outside of time for ages, barely even noticing the constant shifts of the outer world as he holes himself up in his room, hardly aware of the way that his own body stretches and grows and changes with each passing day. doing his job, all just for a bit of entertainment. there is still that distinctly privileged, childish part of him that hides in his forts of toys and makes whatever demands he pleases, but it's more smoothed over, more exhausted, more Done.

he's packed away the grief by this point. dealt with it properly? not necessarily. but the wound isn't as raw now so he can set it aside to be ignored or looked over more easily, focus on the things that he wants to. blow up his toys when they don't meet his standards.

i strikes me as important that near's view on the new kira's shifts so much over the course of even just these two little stories. in the c-kira story, near is so Quick to shit on the new guy as fast as possible, literally snarking him into submission with the fear of his presence alone until he writes his own name down. we never see this "cheap" kira, this pathetic fake that couldn't possibly stand up to the original. (projecting a little there, nate?) he's barely more than a panel or two of hands, and then he disappears from the story forever.

in a-kira though, you get something a little more desperate, a little more hungry-- near really fucking wants to meet this new guy, purely for the sake of talking to him, and is a lot quicker to respect him & the depth of how well he's thought through this plan. at first it seems like he's intrigued by the idea of finally finding yet another equal, someone to match his freak after years of standing on his own, and knowing DN you're inclined to trust that the mind games will eventually happen. but, in the end...

he loses. and doesn't he seem so happy about it?

minoru really is the perfect match for near in a way-- a new, passive kira, uninterested in the bullshittery of killing and shinigami and evil murder diaries, to reflect and match the tired, new L who was done with his job before he even started doing it. RIP minoru dying due to shinigami bullshit, but i'm genuinely happy that this is the ending near gets, the chance to finally lose at something without having to pay the price of human lives for it. winning has almost never been a truly positive thing for near-- his winning wammy's house only gave him the many pressures & stresses of a job as L, his winning against light only gave him a dead mello and a notebook to quietly burn, hell, all of this shit happening at all is what made mello resent him so much in the first place.

but now he can lose. and i think he's all the better for it.

near is immature, yes, he bossy and snarky and blows up his toys without giving a fuck what anyone else has to say-- but he doesn't get ahead of himself in the way that light and L and the others did, a trait which ultimately lets him win but also leaves him behind to shoulder the grief of a generation. but now he can lose, he can let the fate of the world fall of his shoulders for just a moment, and everything is still going to be okay. it's good to see him getting older. it's good to see that you can still move on and grow, even when it seems like the legacies of the past are locking you away in a cage. i'm glad these manga exist, and i'm glad near can still make it out alive.

[skyborneveggie]

There's something poetic about the parallel journeys of Ryuk & Light's boredom. Both begin the story by doing something incredibly rash to try to escape mundanity, and by consequence of that action, meet someone that alleviates that feeling and makes them feel alive again. Then they eliminate that person due to circumstance, without much consideration for the long-term internal impact that will have on their future; and slowly re-descend into boredom and meaninglessness, never fully realizing their attachment to the person they killed and that they might actually miss them.

The way they react in opposite ways to their person's replacement is interesting too, though. Light reacting to Near with disdain because he could never replace L in his mind. And Ryuk specifically choosing Minoru because he reminds him of Light. Choosing is interesting to me because it's something Ryuk scoffed at, and made fun of Light for assuming. And yet, here he's doing just that.

L changed Light, and while the bond between Light and Ryuk is of a different shade, Light changed Ryuk, too.

[pfpanimes]

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[kakapim]

Its so crazy that despite DN being popular again on tumblr jokes everyone has pretty much forgot that One Shot released in 2020. Shit was crazy. That boy was such a menace the Shinigami KING wrote a new rule. They set him up 😭