#abuse aftermath

[rosetyler42]

Been wanting to do something like this for a while. I don't think Ericka would like how Linda handled the whole thing with Mavis and Dennis in HT2 for many reasons. Not only do they clearly not do research for their welcoming party and bedroom (which would be enough alone to drive Captain "I know how to organize a party!" Ericka up the wall.) But she would HATE the fact they were seemingly cool with Pandragora and wife's "Being picked on toughens up the kids" and letting Johnny's cousins pick on him. And she thought SHE had speciesism to unlearn!

But I think the thing that would bother Ericka the MOST is Linda's tendency to try and put in her two cents about parenting without being asked. She's trying to be helpful of course but it drives Ericka NUTS. If there's ONE thing Ericka hates more than ANYTHING else after growing up with Van Helsing, it's someone bossing her around, trying to tell her how to do her job. Especially the whole "control your kids" thing. She was "controlled" by her Great-Grandfather her whole LIFE! And she felt SUFFOCATED by it! She had no freedom, no autonomy, for over 40 years, and there's no WAY Ericka's treating her twins like her Great-Grandfather did her. Her children may be half monster, but they're still PEOPLE, Darnit, not dogs! Besides. Everyone knows scaring is what monsters DO. Linda's known the Draculas for years, she should really be used to this by now.

So I did this Ericka + Linda interaction and the ranting Ericka came afterwards. I kinda liked the idea of paralleling Ericka's crazed rant about Dracula in the first film with getting her emotions out about Linda in this rant and Drac being amused as heck by it instead of dismissive. Then I thought of @black-ak9 's idea of in Drartha, DRAC having been the chaotic one and I had to do something with that.

Note: I don't think she truly HATES Linda. I think she recognizes Linda actually is trying to help. It's mostly just...Linda drives her nuts and Ericka doesn't have Drac or Mavis' patience. XD

@lovelylivelyv @heartsong1994 @deathfangirl9 @hotelt-resurrection @martin44444 @kasiawwikkh

[madcatdaderpydrawer-blog]

There’s nothing really to say about this. It’s just pain all around. I mentioned I would make post infection Moon... it just so happened to be angst, of course.

I love how easy it is to see how serious the situation is for all involved, just all the little angtsy bits ehfbeuhfbe I hope you like it :3

Reblogs and comments are very appreciated :D

[angstymdzsthoughts]

in the body worship part of the whipping boy au it was mentioned that weiying can’t really feel his back anymore due to numbness and his massive amount of scars i think?? imagine when weiying goes on a night hunt with the juniors he gets scratched on the back by monsters (really ugly wound with blood streaming and such) and he turns around asked if the juniors are ok after they fight it and the juniors are horrified like wtf senior wei u have huge wounds on ur back we should be asking if u‘re ok

[cosleia]

Please may I have a kylux ficlet? “You need a sonic, a good meal and twelve hours sleep”.

(TLJ spoilers)

“Yes,” Armitage said with a smile, “yes, I rather suppose I do.” He leaned into Kylo, coming up against a wall of solid, dependable strength, and Kylo wrapped an arm gently and protectively around his shoulders. Kylo would take him to his chambers now, see to it that he undressed and bathed and ate and got into bed, and Kylo would join him there, and they would curl together, and Armitage would be warm and happy---he would be safe---

A violent jolt sent a rush of confusion through him. His eyes flew open; he was not on the Finalizer, he was on the Upsilon shuttle, they’d just broken atmo; he shifted and there was a sharp pain in his side, and he swallowed and his bruised throat throbbed, and when he raised his head he saw Supreme Leader watching him from the next seat with a cruel little smile; and Armitage was a fool for even dreaming, because he had never been safe in his life, and he would certainly never be safe with Kylo Ren.

[furiousgoldfish]

Which one of these are you vulnerable to?

(vulnerable as in, if it happens, you spiral into dark thoughts and you go to great lengths to avoid these)

Asking for help and getting rejected

Asking for help and being put in more danger

Having a friend lose interest in talking to you

Having a friend end the friendship because of something you did

Having a friend act toxic and abusive to you, because they want to end the friendship but don't want to be the one to call it

Having a friendship/relationship you didn't realize was one-sided until it abruptly ended

Confessing your crush and getting rejected

Confessing your crush and having them act disgusted

Having someone pretend to like you back, but they only want to keep you around because they like your attention, and you find out months later

Being discarded after you've invested a lot of energy and care into someone

Being ignored and treated as invisible by someone

Being ignored, treated invisible and judged by a group of people

Being criticized after you put a lot of energy into something

Being put down and told that you can't do anything right, after you put a lot of energy into something

Being yelled at for making a mistake

Being yelled at for getting hurt on accident

Being yelled at for hurting someone

Your friend not siding with you in an event of abuse, bullying or injustice

Your friend arguing that it's unfair of you to want them to take sides

Gathering courage to open up about abuse only for the listener to instinctively defend abusers, and put you down

Opening up about about only to have it downplayed and dismissed

Opening up about abuse and having the other person pass judgment on you

Other people acting like you're poison, dangerous, infectious and malicious

Other people acting like you're stupid, and don't understand your own life and situation

Other people acting like they would have no trouble in your place

Being perceived as a burden and a problem for everyone else

Being in a group where you feel like you're the only one who doesn't belong

Getting outcasted from a group because someone in there who hurt you made up rumors about you that everyone believed

[furiousgoldfish]

The compulsion to do whatever people are expecting of you so you wouldn’t have to deal with them being disappointed and upset and angry at you  vs  the raw need to scream at everyone having expectations of you to leave you the hell alone because you have your own damn life you want to live and you’re not a support character for theirs

[furiousgoldfish]

Without the abuse, I wouldn't have been this scared in every human interaction. I wouldn't feel like my life depends on saying the right thing and finding my way out of this situation safely. I wouldn't be this timid, this cagey, reluctant, imagining every worst scenario that can come out of a social situation. I wouldn't have images of torture in my mind when attempting to say no. I wouldn't find it this hard to refuse being useful to others when it violates my freedom.

I would be able to speak my mind. I'd be able to be honest in my own way, instead of finding reasons and reasons why I have to be as pleasant and non-demanding as possible. I wouldn't be afraid to ask for information when I want it. I wouldn't be scared to check what my options are.

Abuse forces me to walk the thinnest line of being convenient and nothing else. I don't get to have a personality, there's only fear. I'm different when I'm alone, I'm not afraid, I know what I want. But if you put another human being next to me, all of my convictions are overwritten by survival instinct to appease and escape.

[furiousgoldfish]

me when I need to do a task for someone: but what if their expectations of me are wildly unrealistic and they ask me to do to the impossible, and when I can't do it, they explode and say it's my fault and punish me? What if this is the start of another endless cycle of being tortured for not being able to do the impossible?