A 20 minute self-portrait sketch.
For about 8 years, I've had my hair cut short and ironed straight. I loved it that way, and it looked amazing on me. Recently I have been growing it out, and when I look in the mirror, at the tangled mess of waves and loose curls, I soon discovered I no longer crinkle my nose in disgust.
If I may confess: I kept my hair very short and very straight because I didn't want to look like my parent, whom I am unfortunately not on good terms with. Plus, it was the one thing I felt I had control of myself at the time when they had control over everything else.
But now? I see a different person, a beautiful person, whos been through a lot, who finally is accepting her hair, and its a huge leap for her. I could not be more proud of that woman in the mirror.
To help my acceptance further, I decided to draw myself with my hair in its natural state, and this self-portrait made me just love my hair and its wild, untamed waves even more.
Okay yeah, this is a corny post, but its very significant for me in my journey of healing from abuse, and I thought it was worth sharing. I hope for everyone else out there still struggling, you are able to find yourself in a safe place to begin to heal.