#accepting uncertainty

[midnightmuses301]

𝐒𝐜𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐌𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐝 𝐛𝐲 𝐉𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐓𝐚𝐝𝐝 𝐀𝐝𝐜𝐨𝐱

[reallifewithocd]

The hardest part of accepting uncertainty in OCD for me to accept is the idea that I have to accept my pOCD. I feel like people who don’t have OCD don’t have to accept the fears of potentially acting on obsessions, and I just wish I could have that certainty. But I have to accept it’s just not in the cards for me.

I eventually want to have kids, but it feels impossible to have kids with my pOCD fears. I feel like no matter how much work I do in therapy, I’ll never be able to accept the uncertainty, because I feel like accepting uncertainty means I am accepting the idea that I could hurt children.

Any pOCD sufferers have any tips for getting through it?

[wickedzeevyln]

Super Unknown

Anyone whose fortune stems from their ability to create it will never be empty handed. It is those who are reliant on fixtures that are susceptible to change are the ones who often fold Feeling lost in this uncertainty? You are not alone.Brace yourself. The future you used to know is not what it is now. The world has always been uncertain, but ours is an age that mistrusts its own uncertainty.…

Super Unknown

[christenchavez]

The Unusual Can Be Usual

“Sometimes all you need to do is to not talk and listen to yourself.”

I’ve been contemplating lately about what will happen next and all these emotions are fu*kin up my logic. So pardon if I’m bipolar lately. My personality can't really handle emotions well. Anywho… Knowing how I think and knowing the fact that I’ll be graduating soon, the thought of the “uncertainty” of the future still bothers my young mind. I’m used to planning; used to making contingencies but all this time I didn’t know that you really can’t plan “relationships” in general.

I’m not singling out intimate relationship or friendship or even family relationship - I’m just referring to relationships in general. Probably one of the greatest fear of mine is to be alone. That’s why I always see to it that I’m talking to OR texting someone, all the time. But over the weekend, I get to appreciate the beauty of silence.

Why can’t I appreciate silence at first? Probably because I want to be as vocal as I can since I really cant handle all these mumble jumble in my head that’s why I need to talk to someone most of the time. I thought silence is my worst enemy. Apparently, it’s not. I always see silence as my mortal enemy because as far as my experience is concerned, it lead me to different thoughts - dark, negative and unwanted.... But with positive reinforcements, I saw something nice.

Now, I'm trying to listen to what I really want to say... I'm trying to see what needs to be seen. To uncover the things that needs uncovering - Yep, cliché right?...I also acknowledge the fact that these thoughts are dark, but how can one appreciate light without darkness? Right? :)

The resolution? I think I don't have one yet. These stuff about my family, friends and my life are taking the shit out of my sanity... My "defence mechanism" is usually to run from it, think of another diversion to not think about the present situation - sadly and unconsciously, I am doing this. But now what I need is more fortitude and temperance. I need to know myself more, I need to listen to myself more.

I am an extrovert... But deep inside, I really want to shut up and just listen... Deep inside, I want to be an introvert. HAHAHA malabo ako. 

Oh, by the way... Cheers to the graduating batch of 2013, to our batch! :) Here's to the future! :D