I...I honestly never thought that'd happen. LoL
I feel both accomplished, and anxious. Blessed and stressed... I hope I keep making you happy 🖤

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I...I honestly never thought that'd happen. LoL
I feel both accomplished, and anxious. Blessed and stressed... I hope I keep making you happy 🖤
Mon rêve à moi.
tu rêves de quoi toi ?
vie à la campagne
vie citadine
I’m an accomplished person: I have seventeen phenomenally curated playlists, delightfully aesthetic pinterest boards, and can fit my essentials in any tote bag. tell me what have you done with your life???
I’ve finally finished reading the lord of the rings. It’s been a big part of my life.
When I was 5 I watched the hobbit and lord of the rings animated movies memorized it. Still sing “where’s there’s a whip” and start stories with “Frodo of the nine fingers”. Being the consumer of all the audiobooks I could carry from the library I demanded to listen to the book even though my parents warned me not to. (My dad had been an avid fan since his teen years so knew I definitely won’t get through it. Of course I didn’t understand and cried inconsolably when I lost the plot and didn’t understand the long names and events. Then when the movies came out I was 7 and I went to the theater so excited. Even though the movies gave me nightmares I loved them. I went to the library again and stubbornly listened to LOTR. It was the only book series to challenge me. I listened to the whole thing but as an ADHD child I struggled. The only things that stuck with me was Tom Bombadil and Tree-beard. I adored Tree-beard so much I’d go out into the backyard and talk to the trees 🤣 Throughout my school career I’d always go back to trying to read LOTR over and over. Each time I’d get frustrated and give up. I read/listened fantasy and sci-fi like a sponge. Always had the most books read for my class. But LOTR was unattainable. Looking back I think it became my Mount Doom. I built it up in my head that I wasn’t smart enough that I didn’t have the attention span blaming it on my ADHD instead of realizing it was a fake mental block I had given myself. I stopped being the voracious reader after giving LOTR one more time in University. Went on to get a career and my goal to read and understand LOTR faded into the background. My love of Fantasy never stopped when I did art on this tumblr there were dragons and warriors and when I wrote my own fan fiction for whatever obsession it was always epic fantasy. But I avoided my old nemesis lotr like a shadow in the back of my mind. My girlfriend lived on the filming site for Mount Doom in New Zealand with a tattoo of Andúril on the back of her neck and I still tried to avoid the challenge. It finally took my little sister turning off my BTS music on a road trip and playing The Hobbit from the Unexpected Journey on Spotify. She’d never tried reading the series before. I was immediately a moth drawn to the flame. I had to try again. 5 years since my last try.
I have finally done it at age 28. I listened to the Hobbit, Fellowship, Two Towers, and Return of the King. I’ve conquered this massive hurdle and I’m so glad. I loved the books this time. I finally had the life experience to understand the characters and story. I had more fun than I would have thought possible. I’ll probably even watch the movies again (something I haven’t attempted since I was 13). I feel so accomplished I had to post about it. It feels like a major milestone I want to scream out into the world. But since I can I’ll just post on Tumblr and be privately proud and a little sad to have finally accomplished a challenge I set for myself over 20 years ago.
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I spent the majority of last year sleeping, or zombie walking around the house. I was so depressed that I just couldn't do anything, and even the simplest tasks required so much effort that I needed 2-3 naps during the day just to get through it.
Today, I achieved more than what I did most of last year. I'm feeling great, I'm on top of things and after a day spent second hand shopping, I came home, put away my new clothes, sorted out all my and Hound's shoes, made a donate pile and put away what we keep, the collected and put on the trailer/in the car what the guys need to bring to move Bat into her new apartment tomorrow, walked the dog, made sure I've eaten the right amount of calories, packed a travel bag for Cat and made a list of tasks I'm going to do tomorrow.
Earlier, when Cat was tired and ran out of energy, I just looked at him and I said the sentence, "Don't worry, I'm handling this". And at that moment I realised two things.
1, I told the truth. I AM handling all this.
And
2, FUCK I LOVE THAT I CAN JUST DO THAT!!!
big accomplishment for me today my dudes. I successfully used chopsticks for the first time in my life, I am v proud of myself for this