#actually dissociating

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Dissociation

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I have no one to talk to. Or *we* idk man I'm confused and scared

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other dissociative folks: do you dissociate when ingesting caffeine? because we seem to do. we tried to drink big cups of coffee when we had long lectures, but it would have the opposite effect than it was supposed to have

our theory is that how the caffeine affects the body triggers dissociation for us. maybe our brain thinks we are under acute stress, because of the increased heart rate and it dissociates as a learned response from trauma, but who knows. it is just fascinating to us how bodies work

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Sometimes you're just one big soup and that's okay

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heyo, anyone who knows where to find information that isn't just the short diagnostic description in the icd-11? we really suspect that we might have p-did, but we can't find any information about the disorder, which does make sense for a new addition to the icd

also people keep saying "it's the new name for osdd in the icd" but that isn't the case, which means we can't just read osdd experiences and translate it to p-did

we'd appreciate any help with this a lot! we feel very confused about what's up with us and therapy is just confusing us even more, honestly

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Us: "I can't remember that"

Therapist: "yuh uh you can"

And just like that, dissociative amnesia was cured

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Us: "We don't really have amnesia actually :)"

Us: *can't recall what happened at important, big events in the recent past*