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GOOD FUCKING NEWS
I’m by no means “cured”, but I finally took the step of not cleaning my phone after it got contaminated. It’s going well, it’s been almost two weeks, and it wasn’t difficult, at least not in any unmanageable way.
I’m slowly moving up to putting my contaminated phone into the non-contaminated purse, my contaminated pens with my non-contaminated pens, and my contaminated hands onto my uncontaminated laptop.
List of Things I Will Do (And Won’t Let my OCD Keep Me From)
- Have a pet bird
- Make Tiktoks (no shame here, babey!)
- Live on my own (atleast briefly)
- Have a roommate!
- Sleep in my bed every night
- Take more pictures of my friends when I’m out and about
- Create things!
- Vacuum, even though it makes my hands smell bad :(
- Clean my room, babey!
- Take pictures of myself more
u kno when ur chilling, but then u think of ur triggers and then you gotta die
today i’m sad about my friends not wanting to touch me
yes, they;re looking out for me bc they know i have contamination OCD and freak out sometimes, but it. it sucks to see thempat eachother on the shoulder, but. just ignore me. i want to be loved and i hate OCD for getting in the way. and maybe i hate myself for being like this.
when u reflect on your past and it’s mostly just
“ope, that was actually an intrusive thought...” “damn, how did i not know sooner?” “haha, oof”
when u paint ur nails but you have OCD and cant stop picking at your cuticles and your polish wearsaway before it’s even dry and you just
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haha, love realizing what i thought was a premonition of me dying at age 14 was literally just an intrusive thought!
wow, young me really just. accepted that as a fact, huh!
Worse update
My hand washing ocd is getting easier to manage! I'm really happy about that. But I've been worried this whole time about another obsession taking its place, and today. That fear seems to be coming true.
God, the intrusive thoughts I've had today have been some of my worst.
